Chapter 1

I'm Not a Fag

Remus opened the door to 12 Grimmauld Place and Sirius stepped into the gloomy light of his old home. It looked just the same as when he'd left, with more dust that is.

"I know you're not happy about this Padfoot but…" Remus said evenly.

"it's for the best." Sirius finished for him.

"yeah. Er, here." Remus thrust a box into Sirius's arms.

"what is it?"

"it's your old stuff. I had to clean out your house when you went off to Azkaban."

"you make it sound like I went of to Jamaca for a vacation and never came back. I don't suppose my motorbike is in there is it?"

Remus smiled and shook his head. "you haven't changed at all have you?"

"shut it." Sirius said with a smirk and went upstairs to see what had become of his room.

He was surprised to see that his room looked the same as it had twenty years ago. Nobody had been in to clean and there were large cobwebs in every corner. Sirius went over to the window and pried it open before casting a quick dusting charm to get rid of the cobwebs and dust. He flopped onto the bed with the box and opened it almost nervously. He had no idea what was inside and it scared him to think what emotions he might evoke simply by seeing his old things. He knew it was silly to be afraid of some old knickknacks, and he chastised himself for it as he opened the box.

Inside was his old Gryffindor scarf, a photo album, Harry's old stuffed fwooper, a stack of old papers, and James's bent glasses. Sirius kept pulling things out of the box until he came upon something that made him stop. It was a book, red leather with the name SIRIUS BLACK embossed in gold on the cover. Sirius dumped the other items back in the box and studied the book before finally opening it. He'd forgotten all about his old journal. The only reason he'd written in it was because it annoyed his family. He flipped through the first few pages covered in his and James' scribbles and doodles to reveal the first page.

"August 31, 1974

Ok let's be clear on one thing, I Sirius Black am NOT a fag. I got this journal for my birthday from Andromeda and the only reason I'm going to write in it is because father said that, and I quote, "journals are for girls and I forbid you to write in that". Therefore I plan to write in it as often as possible, so take that!

Sirius smiled and flipped through the pages, taking in his own scrawl as well as writing he recognised as James' and Remus' along with doodles and half-finished games of Hang-the-Dark-Lord.

Just then the door opened and shut and voices could be heard from the hall below.

"Sirius," Dumbledore called up the stairs, "come down here for a moment, I'd like to talk to you."

Sirius sighed and got up. He knew what Dumbledore would say. Stay in the house and don't get caught… blah blah blah.

A/N so there you go! New and improved chapter one, just seven more to go. Please review!!!!