Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter… and stuff.

A/N ok, there are a few problems with the first chapter. Sorry

1. You may have noticed that the story title listed at the beginning of chapter one is different from the real story title, I thought up a new title when I was posting it, hence the discrepancy.

2. Sorry for any spelling mistakes, forgot to use the spell-check. Won't happen again I promise!

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Chapter 2

September 1, 1974

Ok, it's five thirty in the morning and I'm too excited to sleep. In less than six hours I'll be on the train with my friends. I can't wait to see them again.

Remus is a werewolf. He tried to hide it but we figured it out near Christmas of second year. So now we're trying to become animagi. Shhh it's a secret. And Remus thought we'd ditch him when we found out! He's got sort of brownish blonde hair with a little bit of grey and deep blue eyes.

Peter's a bit of a twit. He's a little heavy and has blonde hair and little watery blue eyes, not to mention a pointy nose. He's not exactly the brightest crayon in the box but he does take good pictures and knows when to shut up. And with the amount of trouble we usually get into, that's a good thing.

James has got to be my best friend. He's got black hair and brown eyes and is one of the best seekers Hogwarts has ever seen, and he knows it too. He's had a thing for Lily Evans for the last two years and we've all heard too much about her.

As Sirius read the last part he could feel the familiar prickling sensation in his eyes. This always seemed to happen when he thought about all he had lost. The first rays of daylight were filtering through the net curtains on his window. Finally Sirius couldn't stand sitting doing nothing anymore and got dressed. He could hear someone making breakfast in the kitchen and went to investigate. Remus was bustling around, cooking eggs and toast. Sirius sat down at the table, and Remus handed him a plate of eggs. Taking his own plate he sat down across the table from Sirius.

"You know, there's something I've been meaning to ask you for the last twenty years Padfoot"

"And what is that par say?"

"Well, Ellie told me once that you managed to burn water? Is this true?" Remus said wryly.

"Yes" Sirius said shaking his head, "it was one of my first days in the new place and she'd come over for a bit. I was boiling some water for tea and I got distracted and… well, it set off the smoke detector. Ellie thought it was pretty funny."

"And what, pray, got you so distracted from the water?"

"Believe me, it's not what you think. She'd brought some pots and stuff for me. A whole box of them. And a plant. Honest."

"Sure, sure"

"I'm telling the truth!"

"Ok I believe you" Remus said, turning back to his plate. "You miss her don't you." he said abruptly.

"Yeah, I do. I was going to marry her, Remus. That night… I was going to ask her to marry me when…" Sirius trailed off 'you have no idea how much I loved her'

Sirius got up from the table and went back upstairs. He pulled out the journal again and began to read.

September 6, 1974

Muggle studies should be fun this year. We get to do things without magic like sewing and building things. And as an added bonus I get to supremely piss off my family! Most of the classes are just the same as last year. Professor Buehler is still a barmy old bat, making potions as boring as flobberworms. Speaking of flobberworms, I still have to take divination instead of Care of Magical Creatures. Unfortunately, so many people in my year signed up for it that they had to reject almost half the students who signed up. Me being one of them. James got in, and wasted no time boasting about it. Finally got him to stop by telling him that his favourite blue sweater would one day kill him. He still hasn't worn that sweater. Still have to sit by Ellie Carter during Transfiguration. Not that I mind, you can barely tell she's there. She always seems to be alone and I'm pretty sure I've never heard her speak. She sort of looks like the female version of Remus, minus the grey hair. We used to torment her something awful until the end of last year when Remus told us to lay off. He wouldn't say why. Anyway, we used to take her books and stuff, but it's not much fun bugging someone who won't fight back.

Meanwhile back in the kitchen, Remus was shocked. He'd had no idea that Sirius had planned to marry Ellie. He knew they'd been good friends since fourth year, but he never thought of them like he had Lily and James. Remus had always liked Ellie, thought she was a good person. He could remember the first time he'd actually talked to her…

FLASHBACK

Remus had been going to the Astronomy tower to catch up on some work one night when he'd seen someone standing on the ledge of one of the large windows.

"What are you doing?"

"What does it look like?" the person replied coldly. She turned and Remus realized it was Ellie.

"But why?"

"Because there's nothing left to live for. I've got no friends, my mom threw me out when I came here and my dad lives in Canada. I haven't told him about magic or he'd have disowned me too… anyway why do you care? It'll just mean one less person for you to bully." Ellie had said, a tear slipping down her face.

"But I've never…"

"Yeah ok, you've never taken my stuff or hexed me, you just stand there and watch. And it's not just me either, I've seen what you lot have done to other people. And don't pretend like you understand either, because you don't. You have no idea what it's like to be alone all the time, being shunned and bullied. You have friends who'd die for you."

"As a matter of fact I do know. I'm… a werewolf."

"Sorry"

"Don't be, you didn't know. Why don't you come down and we'll talk." and with one last glance out the window, Ellie stepped down from the ledge.

END FLASHBACK

That had been near the end of third year. After that, he'd told the others to quit bugging Ellie, but he'd never told them why. He doubted Sirius had ever found out about Ellie's attempt, probably a good thing too. He would have flown off the handle at her if she'd ever told him.

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A/N ok, that's the end of this one. Thanks for the reviews. Like I said before, sorry for the mistakes in chapter one, I'm working on fixing them. Keep reading and reviewing and I'll try to get the next chapter out soon. REVIEW!!