Time to Burn
Mist: My Keeper is sorry she didn't update sooner but she had to study for a VERY important test and if she didn't pass she'll have to see the commander.
Keeper: I've been praying to Nightshade and Nightmaresbane that I passed. I think I have an ulcer now from stressing about it and I'll find out tomorrow what I got.
Mist: I'm sure you passed.
Keeper: I hope so. Well I hope everyone had a good Christmas and New Year. I didn't get to go home for Christmas for the second year in a row and I won't be able to go this year either cause I'll most likely be deployed. Projected home for Christmas 2006. (sigh)
Kou: That's what you get for joining the Military.
Keeper: Yeah I know. Well in this chap Ken-sama is remembering as he listens to the song he hears on the radio. Au, bad language, yaoi so if you don't like it there is the back button, make sure it hits you on the ass on the way out.
Kou: I guess I can be nice this once since you're stressed out. Keeper does NOT own any of the characters except for 'her'.
No sleep
No sleep until I am done with finding the answer
Won't stop
Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer
"Come on you slow poke!" A girl about fourteen with brown eyes and long brown hair in a braid that almost reached her knees yelled as she ran into the woods.
"She acts like she's five years old still." Ken said with a sigh as he ran after her.
He was running in the direction that she had, he knew where she was going. She was going to the lake that was in the middle of the woods, they always went there. He was so focused on running that he didn't even see her coming and the next thing he knew he was looking at the sky through the tree branches.
"You're it!" The girl said laughing at the sprawled out Ken.
He gave her one of his best glares but that only made her laugh harder, he should have known that it wouldn't work on her. She had become immune to them.
Sometimes
I feel I am going down and so disconnected
Somehow
I know that I am haunted to be wanted
He stood up and she stopped laughing and looked at him for a second.
"The sakura tree is base." And with that she turned and ran heading for the tree by the lake that she had designated as base.
Ken grinned he was sure he would be able to catch her, he had always been faster than her but she would sometimes out smart him. She would joke that she was the brains and he was the brawns. He hoped that she had just went straight for the tree instead of coming up with something that would leave a bruise the next day, the last time she came up with something to slow him down he had slammed face first into a tree.
I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows for my time
When the soccer player got to the sakura tree he didn't see her anywhere but he knew that she was there, he could smell her. He slowly approached the tree looking around to make sure that she didn't tackle him from out of nowhere like she did a minute ago. He made it to the tree safely and circled it once.
/Where did she go?/ He thought and then he heard something above him.
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
The brunette looked up just as something slammed into him knocking to the ground again. He looked down to see her grinning madly at him. Well that explains why he didn't see her, she was in the tree waiting for him to come stand under it so she could pounce on him.
"You know my antai you're getting to big to jump on me." Ken said as he gently pushed her off, stood up and offered her a hand.
"Yeah, I wouldn't want to kill you by jumping on you." She said sarcastically as she grabbed his hand.
In the shadows
"What are we doing today?" The girl asked her companion.
"Nothing." He replied as he walked over to the lake.
"When you say nothing you mean we're just going to sit and stare at the clouds?"
"Exactly. Do you have a problem with that?"
"But I wanted to see you in blood, my kanashimi." She said pouting. "You are most beautiful when you are covered in blood."
""You are a weird one, my antai." He said smiling at her.
"But you love me anyways." She said returning his smile.
"So you think."
"Oh that's just mean and wrong." She pouted as Ken laughed at her.
They say
That I must learn to kill before I can feel safe
But I
I rather kill myself then turn into their slave
They walked over and laid down under the sakura tree. Ken put his arms behind his head and she curled up next to him with her head resting on his chest, one hand clutching his shirt and her legs wrapped around one of his. They stayed like that for awhile just taking comfort in each others company and listening to the birds sing.
/This is nice. I wish we could stay like this forever, just me and my antai with no one to bother us, beat us, or hate us for what we are./
Sometimes
I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow
I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder
"Ne, kanashimi." The brown eyed girl said breaking the silence.
"Nani?"
"You know the song In the Shadows right?"
"Yeah, what about it?"
"It suits us don't you think kanashimi?" She asked lifting her head to look at him.
"What do you mean?" He asked opening an eye to look at his antai.
"Well it talks about waiting in shadows and living for tomorrow." She replied looking a little depressed. "If you think about it that's what we are doing."
"How do you figure, antai?"
"Well, we're waiting in shadows and living for a tomorrow because of what we are and when people will be able to accept us."
I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows for my time
Ken didn't know how to respond to that so he didn't. The brunette knew that what his antai wanted more than anything in the world was for them to be accepted by people, and not shunned, hated, feared, or hunted by anyone. But the goalie knew that no one would accept them because people were to narrow minded and anything that was different they feared and had a tendency to kill it.
"Do you think that we'll ever be accepted?"
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
Ken was quite for a minute and thought the question over as he started to stroke her hair like he would pet a cat. Did he think that people could get over their fear and hatred to accept them for who they were? No they couldn't.
"I don't think so, my antai."
"Why don't you think so? Not everyone will hate us for what we are." She said sitting up and placing one hand on the other side of him so she could lean over him.
"That's true not everyone will hate us but not enough for us to be safe." He replied still petting her.
"Why do you always have to look at the glass like it's half empty? Why can't you look at it like it's half full?"
"Because that's how the world is and there is nothing we can do about it. Just like there will be no one to love us for who we are."
She looked at him for a moment before saying "You're wrong, there is someone out there for us and they will love us for what we are."
Lately I been walking, walking in circles, watching waiting for something
Feel me, touch me, heal me, come take me higher
"I'm sure there is someone that will love us but as soon as they find out our secret they will either leave or try to kill us. I'm sure that they would try to kill us rather than just leave." He said pulling her down into a hug.
"I don't believe that, I believe there is a soul mate out there for us, someone who won't leave and will love us no matter what."
"Maybe there is, who knows? I don't want you to get your hopes up, I don't want to see you hurt. Regardless if there is or isn't someone who will accept us, we'll still have each other."
I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
"Yes, no matter what we will always have each other and nothing will ever separate us because I'm your other half and you are mine. We'll always be together." She said snuggling closer to the soccer player.
They laid like that for sometime both lost in their own thoughts. Ken was almost asleep when his antai couldn't stand the silence anymore and broke it.
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
"Play for me kanashimi." She said from against his chest.
"You couldn't just let me go to sleep could you?" He said laughing softly.
"Why should you get to go to sleep if I can't? So go get your guitar and play!"
"So demanding. Alright, alright get off so I can get it."
"Yay! You're the best kanashimi!" The brunette girl exclaimed as she quickly stood up and pulled Ken with her and shoved him in the direction of his guitar.
I've been watching
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been living for tomorrows
Ken walked over to an old hollow tree that he kept his guitar in for when they came out here to get away from everything. The brown eyed boy came back and sat down leaning against the sakura tree. His antai came to sit down next to him.
"What do you want me to play?"
"I don't care."
Ken thought for a second and when he decided what to play he began. His companion leaned against the tree and closed her eyes. The sound of the guitar was soothing. So many things in life were uncertain but one thing she could always count was that her kanashimi would always be there for her and he would play his guitar for her when she was stressed out or upset and needed to calm down. And when he was stressed or upset she would do the same for him but instead of playing a guitar her instrument was a violin. When Ken finished playing she turned her head slightly to look at him.
"Promise me that you will always play for me no matter what."
/Where the hell did that came from?/ Ken thought surprised by her statement. "You know I will always play for you."
"Promise me Ken."
"I promise I will always play for you."
"Good." Happy with his promise she closed her eyes again and fell asleep not soon after.
In the shadows
In the shadows
I've been waiting
"I'm so sorry antai." He said softly crying. "I haven't kept any of my promises to you."
Ken stopped crying and wiped his face with his hands. He looked at his clock to see what time it was and saw that it was going on ten. The former goalie got up and rummaged around in his dresser and found some clothes to pull on. When he was dressed he grabbed a soccer ball and headed out he needed to get some air and to stop thinking. Kicking a soccer ball around always took his mind off of any and everything. When Ken got to the living room Aya and Omi stopped what they were doing to look at him, Yohji was no where to be seen.
"Ken-kun are you feeling better?" The little blond asked him.
/Why do they always have to ask me if I'm alright? Oh yeah I'm not acting like my cheerful self./ Ken thought bitterly. "Yes I am thank you."
Ken headed towards the door hoping to avoid any other questions that they will surely have that he didn't want to answer. Just when he was about to open the door the redhead decided to speak up.
"Where are you going Hidaka?"
The boy in question sighed he did not need Aya's permission to do anything, it really wasn't his business where he was going and he did not want to answer but he turned around with his smile plastered on his face.
"Out."
"At ten at night?" The violet eyed man asked raising an eyebrow.
"I need to get some air." He simply stated.
"Well, be careful Ken-kun."
"You know me."
"That's what I'm afraid of." Omi replied laughing.
"Oh that one hurt Omi-kun." Ken said laughing and heading out the door before they could ask anymore questions.
Ken so caught up in his thoughts that he was trying not to think did not realize that there were two pairs of eyes following him as he made his way to the soccer field. When he got there he let the ball drop from his hands and looked up at the stars. That was another thing that she loved, she would always drag him out to look at the stars with her. It used to irritate him to no end when she did that but now he would give anything to have her back and drag him outside to stargaze.
/The stars are beautiful tonight antai. Can you see them from where you are?/
Ken tore his gaze away from the stars and looked at the ball he brought with him. The assassin known as Siberian kicked the ball up with his foot and started to bounce on his knees back and forth. When he got tired of that he let it fall to the ground and began to kick it up and down the field. Ken ran up and down the field for almost an hour before he finally realized that there were two people watching him. He looked in the direction that he sensed the people were but couldn't see anything not because it was dark out he had excellent night vision in the dark, he could see in the dark as well as he could see in the light, the reason he couldn't see was because of the trees.
"Who's there?" He called out wondering who it could be and before they could show themselves a small breeze brought their sent to him and he knew who it was.
"Well, well it looks we have a lost kitten." A man with flame colored hair said.
"I want to pet." His companion with white hair and an eye patch said.
"Schuldig, Farfarello."
Keeper: Yay Schuldig-sama!!!
Mist: You know the reads are not going to be happy you didn't clear anything up.
Keeper: Uh yeah. Well I seemed to have accidentally lost some readers along the way. I'll come back two miles to pick up the lost ones. Ken-sama's 'attacks' are kinda like a panic attack when he gets too hot and also has something to do with what he is but I can't tell you that, it will be reviled in the next chap. The girl is very important to Kenken, what they call each other are little nicknames for each other. She will be appearing in later chapters. Sorry I can't tell you anything else about her.
Mist: Thank the reviewers.
Raven: Yay, you came back! Poor Kenken will get better in time and after a lot of drama.
Carrothien: MWAHAHAHA! I'm a drug you can't get enough of. . . uh I mean I'm glad you like my story. I wanna give Kenken a hug too I don't like seeing him in pain although this story might argue with me.
Evelyn: Sorry I didn't do it on purpose! All will be revealed in time, I hope you continue to read this.
HeatherR: You're too smart. As far as I know you are the only one to guess what he is. All I can say for now is you're half right and REALLY close with your first guess and yes music clams him. The next chap will tell all! Well almost all.
Stephy-chan and Jeny-chan: Again thanks for listening to this from over two thousand miles away and giving me little ideas.
Keeper: (goes into closet) I have a Ran/Ken/Schuldig set in tuxedos with champagne bottles for my lovely reviewers.
Kou: I hope you liked this chapter please review it would make Keeper feel better.
Keeper: I need some pepto. (goes to medicine cabinet and dinks the whole bottle) If this story isn't updated within the month that means my supervisor killed me very painfully.
Mist: (rubbing Keeper's back) Pleasereview to cheer my Keeper up.
