DISCLAIMER: don't own anything, gosh I hate these things. Lol
A/N: Thank you reviewers! Oh, and I am having writer's block :'( So sorry if this chapter kind of sucks. This is going to be a really short chapter. That is all I have to say...
Dear Journal,
I was pacing back and forth in the great hall, when I saw three marauders walking in. So I sat down. James sat next to me.
"Are you worried?" He asked with a small smile.
I looked up and grinned back at him.
Suddenly, I wondered why I did that and kicked myself mentally, I'm supposed to hate him!
"But what's it to you?" I asked and looked away.
"Nothing, I guess...I'm sorry." He said slowly and looking down at his empty plate.
Awww, wait, that idiot! That cute idiot, Noooo! Why am I acting like this! God my emotions are going haywire, I must not have had a good enough sleep.
"Sorry James, I guess I'm just confused that's all."
I looked across from James to see who was missing, it was Remus. I wondered where he was, but then I remembered Stella.
I shot a quick glance towards Sirius and saw him pushing food around on his plate. I had only seen him this upset once and that was when Stella dumped him, he must really love her.
I got up and walked over to Sirius and sat down next to him, without realizing what I was doing at the time.
Sirius didn't even look up at me.
"You don't have to comfort me Lily, I don't need you." He said softly.
"I know how you feel Siri-"
"No you don't!"
I stared stunned at his sudden reaction.
"You've never been rejected before, never in your life!"
"But if I did, I'd be able to handle it better than you are now and I'd never give up like-"
"Like James handles it right, like James never gives up, but Lily James is always rejected, I'm not so sorry, if I'm not used to it!"
Sirius got up and stormed off. I just sat there shocked. James, James, Sirius's words played back in my mind over and over.
I looked over at James to see how he took this.
He was still staring at his empty plate, but this time his face had gone quite red. I almost could have bet money on his next question: would you go out with? But if I did, I would have lost it, because all he did was look into my eyes and walk away.
In Love with James,
Lily
