Tickivicky: I'm so glad there were reviews for the first chap, so thanks to all of you! Okay, the second chap is going to be much longer, I just wanted the first chapter to be short, so if people didn't like it, I could easily start over, lol. So, I'm still not sure whether this is a Mamoru/Usagi or Seiya/Usagi yet. VOTES please lol. Until I get enough votes, I'll keep it at a bit of both. Okay, enjoy!

Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon, Naoko Takeuchi does.

Notes:

Okay, I'm really lazy, and it'll take up a lot of space... so go here http/ I know that was really lame, but I just didn't want to type every Japanese and English name that I might use. I don't even know which ones I'm using...lol.

Italicized words like this are what Usagi/Serena is thinking.


Never Ending

Tickivicky

Chapter 2: Who Am I?

Ami asked me to walk with her to school, but I guess I wanted to be alone for a while. Why is it that something that should make me feel so happy make me feel so alone and not belonging in the world?

Usagi couldn't find the words to explain how she was feeling. She walked towards the school, thought a bit, and turned the other way.

I'm just not ready to go back just yet...

She walked until she reached the park and sat on the bench. Mamoru was going to leave tomorrow, and she was still thinking whether the love between them was just set and she had to follow it or if she was truly in love with him. This troubled her so much more than anything else.

I guess you can't realize how you feel for someone unless you feel that same feeling with another person. But I love Mamo-chan, I was so afraid for him, so happy he came back, so... happy that he held me in his arms and told me he loved me. So should I really be wondering how I feel for him? But Seiya- Seiya's heart would be broken by someone who can't get her feelings straight. I need time to think.

Usagi didn't want to be her destined self anymore. She wished that she was not Sailor Moon, not Princess Serenity, not the future queen of Tokyo, Neo-queen Serenity, but Tsukino Usagi, who has a choice of falling in love on earth, deciding what she can do, and wouldn't have to put anybody in harm. She wanted time to understand her feelings. But did she actually have that time? She had no choice but to be with Mamoru, but in her heart, she knows that she loves him. It had to be true. She can't live like this,s he just couldn't bear living like... this.

I want to runaway and never come back, but this path will be never ending. I must face my fears, no matter how rough this can be. But I want to be somebody else. It's like I need to be somebody else or my life will fall apart piece by piece painfully.

The bell rang dismissing thousands of students. Usagi joined the crowd and walked home, alone again. She rushed to her room and locked her door. Her parents had started worrying about her ever since she came back form some mysterious 'party' (which was the fight with Galaxia). She had been gone for so long too. They were scared of their daughter, frightened for her safety. Yet they knew that they could be no help. Usagi was skipping meals, and even though she thought her parents didn't know she was skipping school, they found out. But her parents, being the loving parents, left her alone to think. They had that strange feeling that Usagi has a much bigger path in life that any mortal would have.

I sat in front of the mirror in my room, and stared at the face staring back. The usual happy face was not there. Could that really be me? Who am I?

Usagi opened her drawer to find a star-shaped locket. She hadn't seen that in years. The melody started playing and reminded her of the dreaded past she had had. She threw the locket back into the drawer with force. She reached in again and found her mp3. It started playing the tune of Nagareboshi He from the Three Lights. That reminded her of Seiya and how he coming had made this situation.

Damn Queen Beryl. Why did she have to attack? I could've lived and not have to go through this. Damn chaos, why'd it have to come and ruin my life?

She slammed the drawer shut and vowed never to open it again until she was ready. She then turned to the mirror and studied her face, her eyes, nose, ear, and... hair. Her unusual meatball head.

It definitely doesn't look like me. It makes me different somehow. This stupid hair that had made people call me 'odango'.

She looked again at herself, then at her scissors. Then she turned to the magazine that featured a hair salon. A new look was something she needed wasn't it? She had almost tried that 3 years ago, when she lost Mamoru for the first time to Queen Beryl.

But maybe I'll just trim it first, and then let them do something new to my hair.

She picked up the scissors and held it to her hair. She took one final look at herself and opened the scissors. Between the sharp blades now lay her hair, which was taken out form the odango style.

What's this? I'm afraid to cut it...


Tickivicky: Okay, tell me if Usagi should change and cut her hair, or stay the same and leave her hair the way it is... My original idea was to make Usagi way OOC, and change totally, but it all comes down to what you people like! So please review, thanks! Lt8r