Please don't ever hate me. Walking with you, calling you, running with you, touching you. That's all I think about everytime.
I know that it can't be like this
Why did I do something like that…?
I only am being a trouble for you.
Even so…
No matter how painful it is, you are dear to me….
After that, I was nothing but repentant.
"I want to talk to you."
Draco turned his head to look at Harry's serious face.
He just got back from the library.
He gripped the book in his hands. "…Talk?"
I had thought in despair that we wouldn't even speak to each other any more.
"Yes, talk" Harry said "Do you have time?" His face turned into worry.
Draco narrowed his eyes. Hiding his nervousness and hope.
"I do" he told him.
Harry sighed and seemed to relax a bit "Can we… Can we go to your room?" he asked Draco pleadingly.
"My… Room…?" Draco asked unsure he heard right.
Harry nodded slowly "Yes… Your room"
Draco's face was blank as he answered "…All right"
But why…
They arrived at Draco's room. He insisted that Harry sit down on one of the couches. "Wait a bit, I'll call a house elf to bring us some drinks"
"No, no need" Harry quickly burst. He bowed his head down.
Draco raised an eyebrow and narrowed his eyes.
Harry looked up, a worried look in his eyes. "I just want you to listen to what I have to say"
Draco nodded, encouraging him to continue, but inside, he was scared at what Harry would say. 'Is he going to say that he doesn't want to see me again?'
Harry licked his lips, and Draco had to hold himself from kissing those lips.
Maybe that way you'll never get a chance to say the words I didn't want to hear.
"What should I start with…" Harry's voice broke his thought.
"…First of all… I'm sorry, Draco" Draco was shocked as Harry called him by his first name.
"Why… why are you apologizing! I…!" he held his hand over his eyes.
"I… am… I hurt you…?" Harry's eyes were full of sorrow and regret.
Draco, unable to look at Harry's sorrowed look, he bowed his head down. "What are you..." he mumbled under his breath. "I'm the one… I'm the one who hurt you."
That's right.
The way you looked back then
Is burned into my eyes
"No… I'm not talking about that kind of hurt" Harry stood up, slowly taking steps closer to Draco.
"There's something I want to tell you. I've wanted to tell you for a long time" Harry gave him a sad smile "But I didn't know what you would say when I told you."
This time, Harry was the one who cupped Draco's face in his hands and forced Draco to look at him.
"I'm sorry"
Why you are sorry?
That's not the word I want to hear from you.
"I always thought that you'd never feel the same…"
"And I was scared that I couldn't let you go after I said this"
"Harry, what…" Draco was cut off and frozen at Harry's next words.
"I love you"
Harry put his head on Draco's shoulder. His body was shaking. "I still can't tell you everything." He clutched Draco's shirt on his back "But because I love you, because I want you… I needed to say something"
His other hand squeezed his chest "I… you see… I've lost someone dear to me because of my foolishness."
An image of Sirius's face came through his mind.
"I never had someone I loved before. He was my only family I ever knew. I always thought that we could be together, as a family, but I never thought he'd leave me." Arms came around his shoulders and waist, holding him.
"Everyone I care about is disappearing from me…" he choked on a sob.
"I… I'm afraid of losing…" Harry's voice became hoarse as he started crying.
"I love you more and more… Even if you don't feel the same, I'm still happy cause I can be with you"
"Even though I'm happy, I think… If I gain something, then after that, I'll just be waiting to lose it. That's what I was afraid of."
Harry pulled back a little so he was face to face with Draco
"And I can't… I couldn't say that you were mine, cause if I said it, I couldn't ever let you go. I couldn't imagine what would become of me when you leave me. If you disappeared on me… I don't think…" His breath hitched
"I don't think I could live anymore" They stood like that for what seemed like an eternity, Harry in Draco's arms crying his heart out.
"Harry…" Draco began but Harry cut him off "I'm a fool, don't you think?" he let go of Draco and stepped away from him.
"I thought it'd be less painful to never have had it then to have it and then lose it." He brushed his tears with his sleeve.
"Even though that's not true. Cause whatever I do, the pain will remain with me forever. I better let go of you while I still can"
He smiled at him "I love you Draco…" he started walking ahead to the door before Draco caught his wrist and caught his body in his arms, preventing him to leave. "Dra…"
"You are unfair you know" Draco murmured in his ear.
"I loved you to… Only you." He tightened his hold "I loved you for a long time, and I was the one who was ready to let go" he felt Harry's body stiffen and pulled back to see that Harry was crying again.
"One more… say it one more time?" he was pleading for Draco to say that he loved him.
Draco smiled "I love you Harry"
"… One more time…"
"Harry…"
"Draco, just one more time…"
Draco kissed his forehead, determined to show Harry how much he loved him.
"I love you Harry Potter."
Then he kissed him, a kiss full of a promise of love.
"I have something I need to say to." He said after the kiss.
He brushed Harry's tears with his fingers "It's too late already."
Draco gave him a loving and warm smile "I won't let you go… I can't let you go anymore…"
He kissed Harry again as he blushed.
"Can I ask you something?" he suddenly asked after the kiss ended.
Harry titled his head in confusion.
"Am I yours, Harry?"
Harry smiled at him "Yes… Draco, you are mine, and I'm yours…"
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I walked with you through the ordinary everyday.
Laughing about silly things, we talked together about dreams of the future as we walked hand in hand.
That kind of ordinary everyday… I think that's happiness.
Every time I look to the side, you're there.
Your eyes are a little higher then me, and you're always smiling happily.
That your for me… And only for me… I think that's happiness.
We can't change the past.
We can't see the future.
But we're here together.
If we stay together, the future will be together as well.
That's why we should continue stay together and love each other… Forever…
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There's only one thing that I wish to pray for. I pray that even when 'today' ends. May tomorrow be the same as today so while you are here, you will always be mine.
The End
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