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A Vision of Love

Setting: In Jordan's car right after Angela's conversation with Brian. She and Jordan are not talking, she is looking out of the window.

AngelaVO: What am I doing here? I should have stayed and talked to Brian. He looked so sad. He just doesn't understand. ( She takes a peek at Jordan, then tucks her hair behind her ear) I just can't change my feelings. God! I'm such a horrible person. Especially since I know exactly how it feels to be, like in love with someone that doesn't feel the same. I wonder if Jordan will tell me about the letter? ( She looks over at him, his eyes are on the road. Slowly he turns his head and looks at her and smiles. She smiles, a weak smile.) How could they do this to me?

Jordan:So... um... where do you wanna go?

Angela:I don't know.

Jordan:Tino is having this party...

Angela:(cutting him off) I really don't feel like going to a party... Listen we need to talk.

AngelaVO:I'll give him a chance to tell the truth.

Jordan:Okay... well the loft will be empty, everyone will be at Tino's party. There are some things I wanna, like...um... talk to you about anyway.

Angela:Okay.

AngelaVO:At this point I don't know what to do. I guess I just have to tell myself that if he doesn't tell the truth its over. For good. Yes I loved the letter, but he didn't write it. He copied it like it was an English assignment. How is that supposed to like make me feel. Have you ever had a really good dream, you know like when your dreaming it, it actually makes you feel...good, but then you wake up and realize that it was actually a nightmare disguised as a good dream. That's how I feel right now. Like my whole entire so-called relationship with Jordan Catalano, and the letter is a nightmare disguised as a good dream.

Setting: Jordan and Angela are at the loft, they are alone. They are sitting facing each other just a few feet apart. Jordan leans in to kiss Angela, she lets him just for a second, and then pushes him away.

Angela:I thought we were coming here to talk.

Jordan:Um... Okay lets talk.

AngelaVO:Somehow I knew this would happen. We get here and its back to the same old thing.

( There was a long awkward silence where they just stared at each other until Angela finally broke the silence.)

Angela:Why are you like this? (upset)

Jordan:Like what?

Angela:Like the way you are? (Eyes filling with tears)

Jordan:(confused) How am I?

Angela:I can't talk to you, because I don't feel like what I say matters. And I could tell you the world was ending and you wouldn't care.

Jordan:I do...care...

Angela:About what Jordan, what do you care about? Getting me to have sex with you?

Jordan:(Hurt)No!... Ya know... it did used to be about sex. And not just with you... what I mean is...Its not about sex with you, its about... everything else.

Angela:I don't understand? ( her lips are trembling tears are falling down her cheeks)

Jordan:I tried to tell myself that I didn't like, ya know care or what ever. And that I could just ignore you like I have every other girl. But the truth is I can't, and its like more than that... For once, I don't want to.

Angela:Why couldn't you just tell me that? I mean the letter...

Jordan:(before she could say anything else he stopped her) Angela, about the letter, I...um... Look I wanted you to forgive me, ya know for the whole... Well you know what for, so I was going to write you this letter, but I couldn't think of anything to say. I just wanted it to be right, to say what I mean. I asked that kid Brain, ya know my tutor, for help... I know I probably shouldn't have, but I just wanted another chance.

AngelaVO:At that very moment, I knew. I would forgive him, I did forgive him. I mean... Jordan Catalano, is like, sitting here trying to tell me how he feels. And he is using whole sentences. This is what I've wanted for so long, I can't even begin to describe the battle of emotions I feel right now.

Angela:(softly crying, still trying to be strong) Why? Why do you want another chance?

Jordan:( he searches the walls and the floor as if the right words will magically appear, then he leans close to her and looks he straight in the eye) You are different from any other girl I've been with, you make me want to be ... not like how I am (He runs his fingers through her hair)God, Angela you know, your so beautiful, sometimes I feel like it hurts just to look at you.(he leans closer their eyes just inches apart) I Love You. ( Then they kiss, a kiss that will define their relationship full of passion, and commitment, and love)

Angela:(glowing with happiness) I Love You too.

AngelaVO:I had a vision of love, and it was Jordan Catalano.