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Summary : See the previous chapter.
Forgotten Time
By Misaki Sakura
Ch. Two : Angel's Wings
Lily jiggled her leg in frustration and annoyance. She had kept her promise to Sirius for years and it had made her extremely frustrated. Oh, promises were meant to be kept, right? But she had had enough. He deserved the best as well as James and Harry deserved to know the truth. So she stood up and slowly, with determination, approached James who's still holding Sirius' hands with Harry sitting across him. Yes, they had to know.
"James, Harry, we need to talk. It's very important."
James gave her a weary glance and nodded his head. Harry looked at her with curiosity and nodded his head too in assent.
"Good. What I'm going to tell you is actually a secret between me and Sirius," she gestured towards the comatose dark-haired man, "I'm not supposed to tell you this. If he knew, he'd probably strangle me." she took a deep breath before spurting out, "Harry is not my son."
Both men gasped in unison. "What do you mean, Lil? You're his mother, of course." James sounded confused and bewildered.
"No, I'm not." She stated once more. "He is." She pointed Sirius who's still had his eyes closed.
They once again gasped. Lily gave them a nod and sighed, "I know I have to keep this secret as I promised but it'll be very unfair for him."
"How could ... how did it happen?" Harry managed to form words while James' mouth still hanged open.
"It was almost eighteen years ago ..."
Flashback
Lily walked out of St. Mungo Hospital with tears stung in her eyes. How was she supposed to tell James about this? They had been married only for two months by now and if he found out ... he'd definitely leave her. She wiped her tears with one hand and was thinking to go to the Longbottoms' house to see Alice when she heard someone called her.
"Lily! What are you doing here?"
Sirius smiled at her as if he had just won a lottery. She was so amazed that Sirius still wanted to be her friend after she took James away from him. Well, not that she did it intentionally. James was the one who made a move on her first and that happened once again after his fight with Sirius. So they broke up and James married her. She really didn't know why James had the guts to ask Sirius to be his best man in their wedding. She knew it would tear his heart greatly but he had accepted it. And now there he stood, still with his smile plastered on his face.
"Lil?"
She didn't know what to do so she flung herself to Sirius and sobbed uncontrollably. He was aghast but then patted her head and comforted her. "Do you want to talk about your problem, Lil?"
She nodded her head. He took her to the park and sat her on one of the bench then he sat beside her. She kept silent. Her eyes set on the children who're currently playing swings.
"Children are amazing, don't you think, Sirius?" She broke the silence.
"Yes." He smiled tenderly.
"But I won't have them."
Sirius turned his head and once again saw the tears ran on her cheeks. "What do you mean, Lily?"
"I can't have any children, Sirius. I'm sterile!!" she buried her head in her hands and started sobbing again.
Sirius just sat there. James' words came swirling in his mind and how he wanted to hit that man for ... This time he didn't know what to say or do. He glanced at Lily then at his stomach.
"I felt dizzy and nauseous this morning so I went to see the doctor. James thought that I'm pregnant but then the doctor told me that there're problems in my ovaries ... that I can't bear a child." Sirius stared at her as she continued. "Now, what should I do? If James finds out, he will ..."
"He will never find out."
"What? But how?" she looked at him wearily.
"I'll give you my baby."
She couldn't say anything so he continued. "I felt nauseous and a bit weak this morning so I went to the doctor and he said ... I'm pregnant."
She gasped and closed her mouth with her hand. "It's James', I'm sorry but it happened on the eve of your wedding. Don't ask me the details."
"I don't think I want to know." She muttered. "What do you mean you'll give me your-"
"First," he cut her off, "I thought I'd take care of this child and let no one knew about it but ... I figure you need him."
"Sirius, are you sure?" she sniffled.
"Yes, I'm sure. Even though I don't think James will leave you if he knows you can't give him a child." He smiled.
End of Flashback
"That's why you asked me to make him Harry's godfather."
Lily nodded. "I pretended to be pregnant and he used the concealment charm on himself. Then when he knew he was going to give birth he called me. We asked for Dumbledore's help with the hospital's arrangements. Anyway the doctors aren't allowed to tell their patients' cases to outsiders."
"I'm not an outsider!!" James stood up. His eyes blazed with rage yet she could see exhaustion in them.
"That was his request. He made me and Dumbledore promised him about this before he went into the labor." Her voice didn't sound even a bit of fear. She turned to face Harry.
"Everyone said that you looked exactly like James, which is very true, and your eyes looked like mine. In that part, they're wrong."
"But Sirius' eyes are blue ..." Harry said, remembering his godfather's ... mother's (?) soothing eyes whenever he laid his eyes upon him.
"Yes, they are but of course you don't know that his mother's eyes are green, do you? Yes, you got that eye-colour from your grandmother whether you like it or not. That's what he told me when he saw you after the labor." She smiled sweetly at him.
"So ... he's my mom ..." Harry took Sirius' hand and kissed it.
"Who else have known about it?"
"Dumbledore, the Longbottoms, the doctors, Remus ... and Snape, but no one told him. He figured that out himself."
"So I'm the one who's left in the shadow." He looked hurt. How could he not know that? How could he not realize that?
"I'm sorry, James."
"You should've told me earlier." James asked, not leaving his eyes from Sirius.
"I know, but there were many things happened. Now once they're settled I hope you can settle this one too. I won't be in your way this time. I shouldn't have been so selfish to hold you by my side when I knew that your love was not for me."
James walked at her and embraced her tightly. She knew the meaning of that, he also knew that that hug had told her everything. They're friends, they're only friends and they shouldn't have lied to themselves long time ago to make other people suffered, to make the people they really loved suffered.
"I'm sorry, James."
"You don't have to be."
Lily let herself go from James' arms and looked at Harry. She smiled. "I don't know what you will think of me after this but-"
"Do you mind if I keep calling you 'Mom'?" Harry approached her with tears in his eyes.
Lily bit her lower lip to stop the tears from coming and hugged Harry. "I don't mind, really, I don't. Thank you for letting me become your mom, thank you."
They stayed in each others arms for a while before they released each other in surprised. Lily stole a glance at James and she believed he too had heard that. A soft sigh, yet still a voice, coming from Sirius' mouth.
His eyes fluttered open, dazzled by the sun's ray that shone through the window but he managed to open his eyes fully. He looked at the three people who found themselves couldn't make any voice came out of their throats, and slowly opened his mouth. His voice only came out croaky, "Where ... am I?"
"Oh God ... Sirius ..." Lily gasped in surprise. "I'll call Madam Pomfrey!" she dashed out of Sirius' room.
Sirius tried to get up to sit but he found that he's too weak to do that so he reached out his hand to touch Harry's face. "Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm so happy that you're awake now, Sirius." He couldn't hold himself much longer that he flung his arms around Sirius and pulled him in a tight embrace. "I miss you." He whispered.
"I miss you too, Harry. I thought I was dead."
"Thank Merlin, you're not." He let go of Sirius as he found out he's a bit hard to breathe. He took a glass of water from the nightstand beside Sirius' bed and slowly helped him to drink it. "Sorry. I'll go tell Dumbledore and the others." He put the glass back and ran out after winking at his father.
Sirius had laid back and closed his eyes when James returned to his seat beside his bed. Knowing someone's presence, he opened his eyes once more and eyed James strangely. Somehow, James had a very bad feeling. His look ... that was unusual.
Sirius narrowed his eyes at him and asked, "Who are you?"
TBC
A/N : This one is even shorter than before! Ah, I'm sorry! But the
point of this chapter is Harry's real, um, mom. What do you think
Harry should call Sirius from now? Mom? Dad? Or just 'Sirius'? I know
it's a bit weird but I want to make them a family, a real one! I'll
tell you why they got married in the later chapters, I don't know
which one but I'll tell you. There are going to be a lot of flashbacks
and I hope you'll like them. I'm sorry I'm asking too much. Okay,
enough with my rambling. I love feedback so please do!
Forgotten Time
By Misaki Sakura
Ch. Two : Angel's Wings
Lily jiggled her leg in frustration and annoyance. She had kept her promise to Sirius for years and it had made her extremely frustrated. Oh, promises were meant to be kept, right? But she had had enough. He deserved the best as well as James and Harry deserved to know the truth. So she stood up and slowly, with determination, approached James who's still holding Sirius' hands with Harry sitting across him. Yes, they had to know.
"James, Harry, we need to talk. It's very important."
James gave her a weary glance and nodded his head. Harry looked at her with curiosity and nodded his head too in assent.
"Good. What I'm going to tell you is actually a secret between me and Sirius," she gestured towards the comatose dark-haired man, "I'm not supposed to tell you this. If he knew, he'd probably strangle me." she took a deep breath before spurting out, "Harry is not my son."
Both men gasped in unison. "What do you mean, Lil? You're his mother, of course." James sounded confused and bewildered.
"No, I'm not." She stated once more. "He is." She pointed Sirius who's still had his eyes closed.
They once again gasped. Lily gave them a nod and sighed, "I know I have to keep this secret as I promised but it'll be very unfair for him."
"How could ... how did it happen?" Harry managed to form words while James' mouth still hanged open.
"It was almost eighteen years ago ..."
Flashback
Lily walked out of St. Mungo Hospital with tears stung in her eyes. How was she supposed to tell James about this? They had been married only for two months by now and if he found out ... he'd definitely leave her. She wiped her tears with one hand and was thinking to go to the Longbottoms' house to see Alice when she heard someone called her.
"Lily! What are you doing here?"
Sirius smiled at her as if he had just won a lottery. She was so amazed that Sirius still wanted to be her friend after she took James away from him. Well, not that she did it intentionally. James was the one who made a move on her first and that happened once again after his fight with Sirius. So they broke up and James married her. She really didn't know why James had the guts to ask Sirius to be his best man in their wedding. She knew it would tear his heart greatly but he had accepted it. And now there he stood, still with his smile plastered on his face.
"Lil?"
She didn't know what to do so she flung herself to Sirius and sobbed uncontrollably. He was aghast but then patted her head and comforted her. "Do you want to talk about your problem, Lil?"
She nodded her head. He took her to the park and sat her on one of the bench then he sat beside her. She kept silent. Her eyes set on the children who're currently playing swings.
"Children are amazing, don't you think, Sirius?" She broke the silence.
"Yes." He smiled tenderly.
"But I won't have them."
Sirius turned his head and once again saw the tears ran on her cheeks. "What do you mean, Lily?"
"I can't have any children, Sirius. I'm sterile!!" she buried her head in her hands and started sobbing again.
Sirius just sat there. James' words came swirling in his mind and how he wanted to hit that man for ... This time he didn't know what to say or do. He glanced at Lily then at his stomach.
"I felt dizzy and nauseous this morning so I went to see the doctor. James thought that I'm pregnant but then the doctor told me that there're problems in my ovaries ... that I can't bear a child." Sirius stared at her as she continued. "Now, what should I do? If James finds out, he will ..."
"He will never find out."
"What? But how?" she looked at him wearily.
"I'll give you my baby."
She couldn't say anything so he continued. "I felt nauseous and a bit weak this morning so I went to the doctor and he said ... I'm pregnant."
She gasped and closed her mouth with her hand. "It's James', I'm sorry but it happened on the eve of your wedding. Don't ask me the details."
"I don't think I want to know." She muttered. "What do you mean you'll give me your-"
"First," he cut her off, "I thought I'd take care of this child and let no one knew about it but ... I figure you need him."
"Sirius, are you sure?" she sniffled.
"Yes, I'm sure. Even though I don't think James will leave you if he knows you can't give him a child." He smiled.
End of Flashback
"That's why you asked me to make him Harry's godfather."
Lily nodded. "I pretended to be pregnant and he used the concealment charm on himself. Then when he knew he was going to give birth he called me. We asked for Dumbledore's help with the hospital's arrangements. Anyway the doctors aren't allowed to tell their patients' cases to outsiders."
"I'm not an outsider!!" James stood up. His eyes blazed with rage yet she could see exhaustion in them.
"That was his request. He made me and Dumbledore promised him about this before he went into the labor." Her voice didn't sound even a bit of fear. She turned to face Harry.
"Everyone said that you looked exactly like James, which is very true, and your eyes looked like mine. In that part, they're wrong."
"But Sirius' eyes are blue ..." Harry said, remembering his godfather's ... mother's (?) soothing eyes whenever he laid his eyes upon him.
"Yes, they are but of course you don't know that his mother's eyes are green, do you? Yes, you got that eye-colour from your grandmother whether you like it or not. That's what he told me when he saw you after the labor." She smiled sweetly at him.
"So ... he's my mom ..." Harry took Sirius' hand and kissed it.
"Who else have known about it?"
"Dumbledore, the Longbottoms, the doctors, Remus ... and Snape, but no one told him. He figured that out himself."
"So I'm the one who's left in the shadow." He looked hurt. How could he not know that? How could he not realize that?
"I'm sorry, James."
"You should've told me earlier." James asked, not leaving his eyes from Sirius.
"I know, but there were many things happened. Now once they're settled I hope you can settle this one too. I won't be in your way this time. I shouldn't have been so selfish to hold you by my side when I knew that your love was not for me."
James walked at her and embraced her tightly. She knew the meaning of that, he also knew that that hug had told her everything. They're friends, they're only friends and they shouldn't have lied to themselves long time ago to make other people suffered, to make the people they really loved suffered.
"I'm sorry, James."
"You don't have to be."
Lily let herself go from James' arms and looked at Harry. She smiled. "I don't know what you will think of me after this but-"
"Do you mind if I keep calling you 'Mom'?" Harry approached her with tears in his eyes.
Lily bit her lower lip to stop the tears from coming and hugged Harry. "I don't mind, really, I don't. Thank you for letting me become your mom, thank you."
They stayed in each others arms for a while before they released each other in surprised. Lily stole a glance at James and she believed he too had heard that. A soft sigh, yet still a voice, coming from Sirius' mouth.
His eyes fluttered open, dazzled by the sun's ray that shone through the window but he managed to open his eyes fully. He looked at the three people who found themselves couldn't make any voice came out of their throats, and slowly opened his mouth. His voice only came out croaky, "Where ... am I?"
"Oh God ... Sirius ..." Lily gasped in surprise. "I'll call Madam Pomfrey!" she dashed out of Sirius' room.
Sirius tried to get up to sit but he found that he's too weak to do that so he reached out his hand to touch Harry's face. "Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm so happy that you're awake now, Sirius." He couldn't hold himself much longer that he flung his arms around Sirius and pulled him in a tight embrace. "I miss you." He whispered.
"I miss you too, Harry. I thought I was dead."
"Thank Merlin, you're not." He let go of Sirius as he found out he's a bit hard to breathe. He took a glass of water from the nightstand beside Sirius' bed and slowly helped him to drink it. "Sorry. I'll go tell Dumbledore and the others." He put the glass back and ran out after winking at his father.
Sirius had laid back and closed his eyes when James returned to his seat beside his bed. Knowing someone's presence, he opened his eyes once more and eyed James strangely. Somehow, James had a very bad feeling. His look ... that was unusual.
Sirius narrowed his eyes at him and asked, "Who are you?"
TBC
A/N : This one is even shorter than before! Ah, I'm sorry! But the
point of this chapter is Harry's real, um, mom. What do you think
Harry should call Sirius from now? Mom? Dad? Or just 'Sirius'? I know
it's a bit weird but I want to make them a family, a real one! I'll
tell you why they got married in the later chapters, I don't know
which one but I'll tell you. There are going to be a lot of flashbacks
and I hope you'll like them. I'm sorry I'm asking too much. Okay,
enough with my rambling. I love feedback so please do!
