Her golden blonde hair was pulled into a ponytail and the ends were curled. She looked so beautiful. Plus she had grown up in all the right places since the last time I saw her. What can I sat I'm my father's son.

"Hi Sarah" Adriana said sweetly

"Hey Riana it's been a while you've gotten big" she said

"Thank you" Adriana replied.

"So whose here?" I asked her.

"The usual Declan and Narissa are at it again" she said

"Why don't they just admit they like each other and save the rest of us the aggravation" I said. Sarah seemed to be taken back by my sudden hostile attitude.

"So how have you been?" she asked

"You mean since I was let out of rehab or in general?" I asked

"Both" she replied

"I've been good I'm better now" I answered

"That's good to hear" she said

I could tell she was keeping something from me. The way she wouldn't look me directly in the eyes set me off.

"I'm kinda seeing someone he's here today" She said looking at her shoes.

Inside I was crushed but being my mother's son I was also a pretty good actor. I put on my most convincing smile before I said my next sentence.

"Why would you be afraid to tell me that I'm happy for you" I said lying through my teeth wasn't usually something I liked to do but I felt I had to.

"I know this is awkward but you are still one of my closest friends so it is important to me that you are ok with this" she said. I felt like she had stuck a knife into my heart and twisted it. Then he came up to her and put his arm around her shoulders I could feel the rage building up but of course I was not about to embarrass myself and my family. But looking at him I could tell he wasn't her type trust me I know what her type is she needed someone to spoil her in every way imaginable which I was more than happy to do.

"Josh this is my friend Deacon" she said "Deacon this is my boyfriend Josh"

"Hi nice to meet you" I said shaking his hand

Destiny and Landon had just pulled up so I excused myself to go talk to my sister.

"Hey Destiny can I talk to you for a minute?" I asked when I walked up to themselves

"Sure" she said "are you going to be ok?" she asked Landon

"Yeah I'll be fine I'll make my buddy Keith introduce me to people" he replied

"So what do you need to talk to me about?" she asked

"Ok you know how I ended things with Sarah right?" I asked

"Yeah that was when you started being a jerk what about it" she replied

"Well I was a real dick to her and I pushed her away because I felt sorry for myself and now I was hoping to get her back but she has a boyfriend and now I feel like someone has stabbed me with a knife in the heart" I explained

"Do you love her?" she asked

"Yeah I do" I replied

"Then tell her because the worst thing you can do is not tell her because she just might feel the same way" Destiny said

"But what about if she doesn't?" I asked

"Well at least she will know how you feel" she said

"Thanks sis" I said

"Don't mention it" she replied giving me a hug "and Deacon I'm really glad you are better"

I smiled maybe I was wrong about Destiny. I went through the motions of trying to have fun but the whole time all I could think about was what to say to Sarah. Finally towards the end of the picnic I got enough courage to ask if we could talk in private. Luckily I enlisted Landon's help to keep Josh busy. We walked a little until we were standing by this stream.

"So what is it you need to talk to me about?" she asked

"I never got to apologize for being such a jerk to you in the past but I am truly sorry I just felt like I was useless and that I didn't deserve you so I figured that if I distanced myself from you it would hurt less but it actually hurt more so that is why I started taking the pills to help ease the pain I know it sounds lame but at the time I wasn't thinking clearly and listen to me I'm rambling so what I really wanted to say is that I love you" I said

"What did you just say?" she asked

"I said I love you" I answered

"Deacon I have a boyfriend you shouldn't be saying that" she said

"I know but you were the only thing that got me through rehab or when I was in the coma for a day and a half all I could think was please let me live so I could see Sarah one more time" I said

"Deacon I honestly don't know what to say but it's too late you broke my heart and it took me a long time to heal but now I'm with Josh" she said

"Ok do you love him or are you just using him so your heart doesn't get broken again?" I asked.

"Deacon to tell you the truth I don;t even know if I know what love is anymore I thought I did but then you hurt me, I care a great deal for Josh but I don't think I could ever love him a part of me still loves you but I know it could never work out" she said

"Because you are afraid you know you love me and you won't do anything about it but think this could be the greatest thing that could ever happen to either one of us" I said "all you have to do is give it a chance"

"Deacon I can't" she turned the other way and started walking back she never saw the tears in my eyes and I never saw hers.