A/N: Hey everone… I hope you like this…I just seemed to REALLY fit… You'll understand after you read it. By the way,as a rule, I normally only go by the manga version.
Disclaimer: I don't own Fruits Basket…or Sister Hazel's song, Your Winter… I'm afraid I never will… I'm not making any money either…
Rating: G
Genre: Angst!
Warnings: Spoiler for the second volume of the manga…you have been warned… (Does anyone even consider that a spoiler anymore though?)
Main Characters: Sohma Hatori…his thoughts on Kana…
Your Winter
I sighed; it was another dreary, gray winter morning on the Sohma estate. I hated it. I hate winter…it reminds me, painfully, of her…of Kana… She had loved snow…loved days like this because of the gift they promised. In turn, I have grown to hate them with all my aching heart. It was on a day just like this one that I left…that we parted…
Grey ceiling on the earth
Well, it's lasted for a while
Take my thoughts for what they're worth
I've been acting like a child
Your opinion
What is that?
It's just a different point of view…oh…
"Oh yeah! May I ask you a question? When snow melts, what does it become!" I had thought she was making fun of me somehow…a trick question… I was wrong…it was an innocent a question as she was…
I remember my answer… "It becomes water, of course." Now that I look back at our points of view I understand how precious her innocence was…
"Wrong!" she had cried, laughing. "It becomes spring!" She was right…but my tears have not yet turned to joy…
What else
What else can I do?
I said I'm sorry
And I'm sorry…oh…
I said I'm sorry
But what for?
If I hurt you
Then I hate myself
Don't wanna to hate myself
Don't wanna to hurt you
I…I should have known what would happen… I…I should never have allowed her to fall in love with me…myself likewise… The only thing that came from it at all was pain…there was happiness as well, but at what cost had it been attained? To this day, I still don't know if what I did was right; if it was truly love and not a selfish desire to be near her that kept me from ending it sooner…less painfully… Even when it tore at her heart to look at me, she stayed near…she chose me over happiness… I didn't understand…but it broke something deep inside of me… I loved her too much to let her fall apart…and I still love her…
Why do you choose your pain?
If you only knew
How much I love you
Love you
I couldn't handle being the cause of her pain…being its center. I couldn't bear the knowledge that I was slowly killing her inside and out…
"What's hurting her right now is her memories of you. Her love for you."
Akito was right… So I did as he suggested… I erased our love from her memories, I erased the memories I held dear to me, I erased myself from her life… I would never hurt her again…
Well, I won't be your winter
And I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
And we can be forgiven…oh yea…
And I will be here…yea…
Oh yeah…
I don't know why…why I keep that old picture… Every time I see it, I can't help but think of how it used to be…how it could have been… I suppose that loosing her was my punishment…my retribution for all the lives I'd hurt…Yuki's…Momiji's…
I'll keep that picture till I die though… No matter how painful it is to look at… No matter how much I want to forget the pain of loosing her… I know one thing is certain; I'll never want to forget her, even if it means I must suffer for the rest of my life…
The old picture on the shelf
It's been there for a while
Frozen image of ourselves
We were actin' like a child
Innocent and in a trace
A dance that lasted for a while…oh…
Oh God…I just pray that she finds someone who truly deserves her love, who'll return it better than I ever could… Just…just let her be happy…
"I'm…happy I met you, Hatori."
I don't care if I'm never happy again…as long as she can find love…and peace… Let me rot…for me to die surrounded by snow would be better than to have her in pain and sorrow.
You read my eyes just like your dairy
Oh remember
Please remember…oh
Well I'm not a beggar
But once more
Well, if I hurt you
Then I hate myself
I don't wanna to hate myself
Don't wanna to hurt you
I feared the same thing would happen to Tohru… I wouldn't be able to bear watching it happen all over again… Kana…Tohru…they both have innocence… They both take the world as it is, and see it as it isn't… they make it seem as if there is an up to every down, a high to every low… That every glass is half full, that every cloud has a silver lining… That in itself, is more precious than gold…
Why do you choose that pain?
If you only knew
How much I
Love you
No
I couldn't protect Kana…but I swear that this time… The same fate will not befall Tohru… I will not let her suffer as Kana did… Tohru… Yuki… Kyo… I couldn't protect myself or Kana…but I will not let Akito hurt you three as well… This I promise…
Well, I won't be your winter
And I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
And we can be forgiven
And I will be here…oh…
Kana…I miss you with all my heart…all my soul… When I saw you that day, you looked so much like you did back then… I hope you are happy…with him… Perhaps I am cursed…trapped forever in the Sohma cage…but you can still live on…
No
Well, I won't be your winter
Oh yeah
And I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
And we can be forgiven
I know
I will be here
Kana…live on… Live for me… Please, be happy…for the both of us… And I…I won't cause you any more pain…
Well, I won't be your winter
I won't
And I won't be anyone's excuse to cry
If we can't be forgiven
Oh I know
Well I won't be here…
But Kana…I…I won't be your winter…
/Owari\\\
A/N: There... Believe it or not, I wrote this after I read the 3rd book... Anyway, I hope you enjoyed. (See? Didn't I tell you the song fit! Almost too well...) In any case, please, review!