A/N: Hello again guys, thanks for all the reviews with this story, I hope you like it!

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Alexsis: The best you've read, really? Wow. Yeah she misses Hunter but if he were my boyfriend I would miss him too!

JadeMoon: I know it was, I just couldn't help making it so emotional! OC sounds really good actually, do you watch it yourself? The Simpson's is on Sky one everyday at 7 o clock, I love it too. Yeah I have heard of MTV, it's really good; I watch it most days after I come home from school. I have other TV programmes to, the ones on Coras Cable are BB1, BBC2, UTV, Channel four, RTE12, Network 6, sky one, TV3, Sky news, Cartoon Network. I think that's it, but you can get loads more on satellite. I can't believe you are actually aloud to date when you're so young. My parents say I have to wait till I'm 17 at least and they wont let me go out with anyone till then, so unfair! Yeah I don't like Jessica Simpson much myself, she seems like a bit of an air head (no offence to her) you know? The things she comes out with? I loved troy, but yeah it did get a lot of different reviews, some liked it some didn't, I guess it depends on the person really. O yeah Orlando is very popular here, like over there, a real heart throb, I really didn't see what was so great in Lord of the rings but then I saw Pirates of the Caribbean and... wow! I saw the hulk myself and it wasn't really good, but I do love Eric Bana so I gave it a chance. O and Brad Pitt? Hmmm... (Enough said I think) I keep asking you so many questions; do you have any?

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Billie Joe: I really don't deserve it but thank you anyway, you're so nice! Yeah it would be great to talk about American culture, I know so little about it. I love Rock music myself, like Evanescence and Linken Park, they're my favourites. Yeah I think I would be devastated if I lost a baby, I can't imagine what it would be like, torture probably. Who is the head of your govenerment? Like over here, we have the Taoiseach and the Taniste (There in Irish)

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Thanks again guys. Now on with chapter 22!

Chapter twenty-two: Who am I? Part one.

The sky was a shade lighter, but when I felt the raindrops on my face I felt confident that the darkness the misery, the pain would last much longer than I could ever realise.

What had it all been for? Maeve having me adopted, herself being burned to death by her Muirn Beatha Dans, my father Ciaran.

The silence around me fell deep into me, locked away into my soul. The rain beat down onto my face and I started to cry, to sob unable to hold it back, unable to stop the flow.

In the darkness, as it pressed in around me I realised, I had to know, I had to know why I was the way I was. Why it seemed I could do no right.

It was who I was and who I will always be.

The sky above me was ringed with Black- like my heart. Black, cold... and tired.

I must have fallen asleep, because when I woke up it was light out and my clothes were dry.

I sat up almost stiffly and put my head into my hands, feeling completely lost within myself "I though I would find you here" someone to my right said suddenly and I whirled.

Hunter.

"You found me," I said, knowing deep down that I new he would.

"I found you," he repeated, quietly coming towards me, twigs snapping underfoot, sitting down on the cold bench beside the Hudson River.

I looked sideways at him once then twice but he caught me looking and reached over to take my hand.

"I help you get through this, I'll do whatever I have too," he said gently caressing my palm and I smiled at him, a small smile.

"Why does it always have to happen to us?" I asked feeling hollow, almost alien.

I heard Hunter sigh beside me "I don't know Morgan, I really don't know" and he leant over to me and put my head against his.

"I love you," he said closing his eyes.

It was all I needed, but the day would come when I would need so much more.

To know true pain is suffering, to suffer is to know true pain, and to know pain you must first know why you suffer.

-unknown writer, dated 1700's.

I don't know why I am the way I am. To figure it out could take a lifetime. I just know that I have to know why I am the way I am.

What have I done so wrong? Am I a bad person?

Nothing ever was the way it should be and I have no idea why. I don't know what I should do anymore.

There is only one person who knows those answers, only one person that could look to me and say them.

Ciaran, my father, my worst enemy.

-Morgan Rowlands.

"Could I have a return ticket to Ireland please?" I asked quietly trying not to wake my parents. They had gotten back pretty late last light since they had been at Opera dace show.

They knew nothing of the baby, new anything of the miscarriage and I wasn't going to tell them. I couldn't see that loom on their faces, the look of disappointment and pain.

Hunter was still in America till this weekend, he hadn't wanted to leave yet but I had told him he needed to go, knowing it would only get harder. He had protested but I had made him see he had to go soon or I feared I would never let him go from me.

I know he hurts as much as I do. He is just better at hiding his true feelings than I am, but I can feel he is bottling it up, he wants to be strong for me.

"And where are you heading miss?" the woman asked me, breaking my thoughts.

"Oh Ireland back to America" I said, closing my eyes for a moment, not knowing if I was doing the right thing or not.

"Okay there is a flight leaving tomorrow at nine, okay? Tell you name to the hostess and she'll give you your boarding pass and ticket"

"Alright" I said

"Do you have a credit card?" I thought.

"Yes" Thinking I could use dads, I didn't think he would mind since I hadn't actually thought to get one till know.

"Alright, thank you for calling" she said and then the line went dead

I put the phone down and stared at my walls. Goddess what would I say to him? What would he say?

He was the father I both loved and hated.

Authors note:

O god so crap, and so short! I'm sorry guys it's a two part. I'll have the next one up tomorrow for you, I promise.

I thought it would be easier to do it in two parts so I could spend most of the next chapter with Morgan "talking" to Ciaran.

Anyway review guys even though I know it was crap.