Title: Little Things V- Lost
Author: Celeste
Universe: Weiss Kreuz
Theme/Topic: Book lines challenge
Rating: PG-13 (shounen-ai-ish)
Pairing: RanxKen vagueness.
Spoilers: Nope
Word Count: 907
Time: 43 mins, no edits.
Summary: Schwarz the fallen.
Dedication: Christine- thx for the dinner last night, okaasan!
A/N: First post at tempsmort for the "Book lines" challenge…figures the nearest book was my English 10A Anthology and I opened up to the "Paradise Lost" page. Lucky first line though, it fit with an idea I've had anyway so I thought I'd throw it in with this clump of stories because really, they're not all that related as is and I don't want to make a new story at ;; But yeah, this is an all-dialogue fic, and I've really just been screwing around with narration this entire series, but it's fun to try out new things, right? Sure. Anyway, you're gonna have to forgive me my characterization of Schwarz, I've never written them before so it's kind of experimental on my part. --;; Uh, and the necessary apologies to Milton for screwing around with his words. Yay!
Disclaimer: Not mine, though I wish constantly.
Distribution: Just lemme know.

"'Better to reign in Hell, than to serve in Heav'n', was it?"

"Leave them alone, they're far from heaven. And we are far from sovereignty."

"Aw, Nagikins, didn't know you had such a soft spot for the kittens…"

"It's not a soft spot. I simply like to believe I have a shred of human decency left."

"Ahahahaha, such a sweet child, aren't we liebe? But our job was to find the weakness, wasn't it? That would be the big one, with those two, without doubt."

"Who says it's a weakness?"

"Now, don't tell me, little one, that you still believe those sorts of fairytales. Not after everything we've seen."

"Maybe it's not a fairytale."

"Ach, Crawford's right after all, kid. You've far too much heart to be on this side of the fence."

"… why can't we have heart? They're killers too after all, but they manage…"

"It's difficult, you know."

"And how would you?"

"Oh, that hurts, sweeting. I may not be able to love truly, myself, but I can read their minds, yes?"

"Reading a mind and feeling a heart are not on equal grounds."

"Ah, you and your happily-ever-afters, child. Do you want to know what plagues their hearts? Once you hear yourself… their turmoil is unquestionably the weakness Herr Crawford sent us to find, you'll see, how it torments them…"

"I don't want to…"

"Shhh, just listen with me, liebe…"

"The mission is tonight…I wonder… will it be the last time I see…"

"Ran… he seems troubled. I hope that everything works out tonight…"

"…Ken… will it really be okay?"

"I hate this so much. We forget…"

"With him…I forget, but…"

"…but then another mission comes along all of a sudden…"

"…then I'm forced to remember…the day before a mission…"

"…everything comes flooding back just like that…"

"…what if something happens…"

"…what if I die?"

"…will I be able to live if something happens to him?"

"…what if he…"

"…will he be all right without me?"

"…could I live without him?"

"…I don't want to…"

"…I don't want to…"

"…please God…on the possibility that…"

"…Oh God… if something happens…"

"…let it be me..."

"…me…and not him."

"Please."

"…please."

"There, you see, little one? It hurts, doesn't it?"

"I…"

"Ach, dry your eyes, we're not the same as them, Nagikins… no tears, not for ourselves, and especially not the enemy, ja?"

"Again, Shuldig."

"Eh? Come again? I don't think I quite understand, sweetheart."

"Again…please… just…just a moment longer…"

"Nagi…"

"Just a moment more…"

"All right, kid, all right. Wipe your eyes, I'll not deny you a few minutes more. But be prepared…it hurts, you more than me, I think. It'll hurt."

"Thank you."

"I wonder what he's thinking right now…"

"…maybe he's thinking the same as me…"

"…is he scared too?"

"I'm afraid… we're both afraid…"

"It could be tonight…"

"…if not tonight, the next, the next…"

"…every time it will be like this…"

"…I warned myself, didn't I?"

"…if I didn't love him…"

"…it would be easier…"

"…there might be less hurt…"

"…going into the dark…"

"…being a murderer..."

"It would be easier…"

"…wouldn't it?"

"…without a question…it would be easier…"

"And yet…"

"But…"

"…even so…just looking at him right now…"

"…even if…"

"…if the worst should happen…"

"…it's okay, isn't it?"

"…it's fine…"

"…because…"

"…even if it's just for one moment…"

"…for a lifetime…"

"…or for forever…"

"…I love him…"

"…because he loves me…"

"…it's enough…"

"…just one moment with him…"

"…it's okay…"

"…it's all I need…"

"…I've got…"

"…no matter what…"

"…in the end…"

"…I've got…"

"…him."

"…everything."

"Oh God… if something happens tonight…"

"God… even if something happens…"

"…I'm glad."

"…thank you."

"There now, sweeting, don't cry anymore, yes? It's all right now."

"Is that what we've lost, Shuldig?"

"Lost?"

"You and I… we aren't them, are we?"

"Abyssinian and Siberian?"

"Any of them. We aren't are we? I… do you understand what I'm… I can't…"

"Ah I think so, little one. I think so… 'this is the seat That we must change for Heav'n, this mournful gloom…'"

"…'for that celestial light'…"

"Or something like that, yes?"

"…something like that."

"Ach, haven't I told you to dry your eyes? Unbefitting, as Brad would say. Really, does it hurt so much, little one?"

"Shuldig…is it… is it bad to hope to be like them again one day?"

"For us? Yes, yes it is, liebe. The fallen can't regain heaven, after all. Not after they've rebelled from God. That's the whole moral of the story, isn't it?"

"Was it? I don't remember…"

"Don't dwell, little one. There are other things to concentrate on now, remember? Our mission tonight… why we came at all to watch these kittens play."

"I remember."

"Come now, sweeting, it's time… back to the fiery lake, yes? Herr Crawford will expect us."

"All right."

"Here, wipe your nose. I shouldn't have brought you along, to watch the kitty cats with me, I think. There's nothing quite so painful as dwelling on what you can't have, Nagi. It's best not to think of it anymore, ja?"

"Why are we so different from them, Shuldig?"

"Ah, a loaded question… but I think, if I remember correctly, that between devils and man… man was the only one God sent a savior for, sweeting."

"'As far removed from God and light of Heav'n As from the center thrice to th' utmost pole,' eh?"

"Aa, something like that, little one, something like that."

END