A/N- Here is the next chapter. I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving.
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Suspicions
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Time passed slowly by for the attendants of Hogwarts. Harry avoided everyone by the 25th of September because the full moon was nearing and Harry was looking so sickly and pale. He didn't want people to get suspicious but he didn't know that he wasn't doing anything to stop everyone's curiosity. He never did forget about the painting that he saw in the hospital wing and he went to see it often to look closely at it and study it. There was nothing unusual about it at all.
Quidditch started much to Harry's joy. They practiced around Harry's busy schedule and Ginny and Ron both were on the team. At the end of September people were getting quite worried about Harry. Hermione and Ron barely saw him and when they did he looked terrible. They didn't know why this was but on the 26th an order meeting was called and everybody expressed their concerns about the-boy-who-lived.
"What are we going to do Albus? He looks very sick and he is avoiding everyone. Do you think it is because of me?" Sirius asked. The order was the only group of people who knew that Sirius Black was indeed alive posing as Professor Orion. Snape stayed quiet. He knew why Potter was acting so distant but for some reason he wasn't going to tell anyone that Harry was a werewolf. Snape also knew that Potter's emotions went deeper than just that. He felt bad about the deaths that occurred in the last three years. Unfortunately for him he couldn't know that Sirius wasn't dead.
"I think someone should talk to him. He needs to tell someone how he feels and get the weight lifted off his shoulders," Dumbledore told them.
"And his guilt," Snape muttered.
"What did you say Severus?"
"I said he also needs to get the feeling of guilt out."
"Well then who should talk to him?" Tonks asked.
"I think Severus should be the one," Dumbledore mused.
"Like Hell!" Sirius spat. "Albus please let me tell him. I can talk to him and find out what's wrong with him," he pleaded.
"Sirius, I am afraid you can't tell him yet."
"Severus, because you have been teaching him Occlumency, you have seen his past and you know what his secrets are. I think you should be the one to talk to him," McGonagall said.
Sirius sighed heavily and Lupin glared at him.
"I can't talk to Potter."
"And why not Severus?" Dumbledore asked.
Snape glared at Dumbledore but no one said anything else on the subject. After the meeting Severus finally agreed to talk to Harry but he had a better idea and it involved someone he hated very much. The meeting ended and Snape asked Black to stay behind so they could discuss something.
"What do you want Snape?" Black growled.
"Down dog, I have an idea on how to get Harry to talk to you," Snape told Sirius icily.
Sirius listened as the potions master proceeded to explain his idea and then it was decided as an acceptable one.
That night Harry did what he had been doing for the last couple of days and he went to the astronomy tower just to think about things right after curfew. So far he hadn't gotten caught because he used his invisibility cloak but he also didn't know that Snape knew he came there. He just didn't say anything. Snape really had no idea why he was acting as if he cared.
Harry was lost in thought as he stared out the window and someone put their hand on his shoulder. Harry jumped a foot in the air in surprise. He whipped his wand out but stopped when he saw who it was. He sighed and put his wand down.
"Potter, what are you doing here after curfew?" Snape asked slowly.
"Nothing sir, I uh.couldn't sleep."
"That still does not explain why you are here Mr. Potter."
"I know sir," Harry said.
"Mr. Potter, people are very concerned and worried about you. Some are getting very suspicious," Snape told him.
Harry didn't know what to say.
"Um.it's almost full moon sir," Harry whispered.
"Yes Potter and you have your potion but you are smart enough to know that you don't want people suspicious."
"Yes Professor."
Snape took a risk and sat down in a near chair. Harry raised his eyebrows.
"Are you alright Potter?" Snape asked slowly.
"Excuse me?"
"Are you alright? After going through Occlumency with you I see that your life is definitely not perfect. Everyone is very concerned about you. You have become very distant from everyone including the golden trio."
Harry groaned when Snape said that last part.
"I just don't want people to know that I'm a werewolf professor. It isn't anything more than that."
"Are you sure Potter? Is it.guilt?"
"What?" Harry asked shocked at how calm the usual snippy professor was being.
"Snape what are you doing in here?" Someone said from the doorway. Harry missed the reversal of the silencing spell that Snape did on the room.
"Nothing Orion. I was just leaving," Snape said.
Harry thought Snape's behavior was very curious but he didn't question it.
Harry stood up and saw Orion and Snape before him. He didn't say anything but he made his way to the door.
"Potter wait," Orion said. Harry stopped walking as Snape exited the room. "Hello Harry, how are you feeling?"
"Um.I'm fine professor."
"Do you think I could um.talk to you Harry?" Orion asked.
"I guess."
"Listen, I am in the order too and I know that we haven't exactly talked or anything but people are worried about you. You can tell me what's wrong if you want. I think that since I don't know you very well it will br better. I won't tell anyone anything you say."
"Sir?"
"Harry, what's wrong? Are you okay?"
Harry thought for a minute. He was in the order but could he really trust anyone anymore? Dumbledore lied to him and so did everyone else. Everyone had lied to him about something his whole life. But Orion. Harry didn't really know him. Would he judge him? He was in the order so Harry could say a lot. Harry made up his decision. There was something about him that made him want to say more.
"No," Harry finally whispered. Harry would avoid the subject of lycanthropy but he could say other stuff and maybe tell the man what he was feeling.
"Well then, could you maybe start on telling me why from the beginning of the year you have been avoiding me? You don't usually look at me during class and you used to ignore me completely."
Harry went back to the windowsill and sat down. Orion took the seat that was closest.
"You remind me so much of him." Harry said barely above a whisper.
"Who?" Orion asked.
"My godfather."
"Oh," Orion said. So much was going through Sirius' mind. He wanted to tell Harry that he was alive more than anything but he couldn't. Not yet.
"I'm sorry Harry."
Harry still couldn't say Sirius' name.
Sirius looked at Harry in the eyes for several minutes. Neither said anything. Sirius saw sadness and isolation and then he realized something.
"You can't say his names can you?" Orion asked slowly.
"What?"
"You can't say um. Sirius Black's names can you? It's too hard to face the fact that he's.dead."
Harry couldn't believe his ears. How did his professor know?
Harry shook his head. "It was my fault," he muttered looking out the window
"N..no it wasn't" Orion stuttered. Sirius knew that this was what Harry thought but he desperately hoped that he didn't.
"Yes it was professor. I um...have to go," Harry said quickly and ran out the door. He didn't want to talk about it anymore. He was fine. Emotionally he was still hurting. As he made his way through the hallways he put his invisibility cloak on and sped off towards the Gryffindor common room. He didn't realize Snape was walking down the hallway the opposite way and he accidentally ran straight into this potions professor. They both fell down flat on their faces and Harry pinned Snape down.
"Sorry sir," Harry said quickly as he scrambled off of Professor Snape.
Snape said nothing as he stood up. Harry took off his invisibility cloak and waited to be punished or yelled at.
"Follow me Mr. Potter," Snape said simply and strode to his personal quarters. It was much like Harry expected except it had rich green walls. Snape motioned for him to sit down and Harry sat down a comfortable forest green chair.
"Potter, you cannot continue to keep breaking curfew. You also have to start taking care of yourself so people do not get anymore suspicious then they already are. Do not avoid your friends Harry. Do not avoid Lupin. You will have to tell someone else sooner or later Harry. I wanted you to tell Dumbledore but I also think you should tell Lupin. He can help you. He can relate to you."
"But he will feel bad sir," Harry said. Harry did not miss all the times that Snape had called him by his given name but he didn't acknowledge it.
"That may very well be Harry but he might have a right to know. Now, you have Occlumency with me tomorrow but take care of yourself."
Harry left in confusion. He just got off of punishment. As soon as he got to the Gryffindor common room he saw that everyone was asleep and he soon followed his example.
After Sirius had talked to Harry, still pretending to be Orion, he went to talk to Lupin immediately. He knew he said that he wouldn't tell anyone what Harry said but Lupin was different. Sirius told him everything with tears in the corner of his eyes.
"Sirius, you have to not be afraid to cry. Harry never cries and I think he needs to."
"I know Moony."
"Sirius?"
"Yeah?"
"He is showing the same signs as me. It is near a full moon and he looks pretty bad."
"You think he could be a..werewolf?"
Lupin sighed.
"I don't know Padfoot. I really don't know."
A/N- There it is. That's another chapter. I will update again on Monday if not tomorrow and I might update The Velvet Glove tomorrow. Everything will be explained. I left a lot of things open on purpose. As to why Sirius can't tell Harry that he is really Orion will be explained as well. Sometimes I call Sirius Orion and other times I call him Orion. I um..have that isn't too confusing.
Thank you for the kind reviews I've been getting. I'm so glad that some of you are very involved with the story and I love reviews so much. If I get more reviews they make me want to update sooner. EVERY REVIEW COUNTS!! Please review. I am sorry I don't have time to respond to each review but do know that I am reading and smiling at everyone one of them.
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Suspicions
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Time passed slowly by for the attendants of Hogwarts. Harry avoided everyone by the 25th of September because the full moon was nearing and Harry was looking so sickly and pale. He didn't want people to get suspicious but he didn't know that he wasn't doing anything to stop everyone's curiosity. He never did forget about the painting that he saw in the hospital wing and he went to see it often to look closely at it and study it. There was nothing unusual about it at all.
Quidditch started much to Harry's joy. They practiced around Harry's busy schedule and Ginny and Ron both were on the team. At the end of September people were getting quite worried about Harry. Hermione and Ron barely saw him and when they did he looked terrible. They didn't know why this was but on the 26th an order meeting was called and everybody expressed their concerns about the-boy-who-lived.
"What are we going to do Albus? He looks very sick and he is avoiding everyone. Do you think it is because of me?" Sirius asked. The order was the only group of people who knew that Sirius Black was indeed alive posing as Professor Orion. Snape stayed quiet. He knew why Potter was acting so distant but for some reason he wasn't going to tell anyone that Harry was a werewolf. Snape also knew that Potter's emotions went deeper than just that. He felt bad about the deaths that occurred in the last three years. Unfortunately for him he couldn't know that Sirius wasn't dead.
"I think someone should talk to him. He needs to tell someone how he feels and get the weight lifted off his shoulders," Dumbledore told them.
"And his guilt," Snape muttered.
"What did you say Severus?"
"I said he also needs to get the feeling of guilt out."
"Well then who should talk to him?" Tonks asked.
"I think Severus should be the one," Dumbledore mused.
"Like Hell!" Sirius spat. "Albus please let me tell him. I can talk to him and find out what's wrong with him," he pleaded.
"Sirius, I am afraid you can't tell him yet."
"Severus, because you have been teaching him Occlumency, you have seen his past and you know what his secrets are. I think you should be the one to talk to him," McGonagall said.
Sirius sighed heavily and Lupin glared at him.
"I can't talk to Potter."
"And why not Severus?" Dumbledore asked.
Snape glared at Dumbledore but no one said anything else on the subject. After the meeting Severus finally agreed to talk to Harry but he had a better idea and it involved someone he hated very much. The meeting ended and Snape asked Black to stay behind so they could discuss something.
"What do you want Snape?" Black growled.
"Down dog, I have an idea on how to get Harry to talk to you," Snape told Sirius icily.
Sirius listened as the potions master proceeded to explain his idea and then it was decided as an acceptable one.
That night Harry did what he had been doing for the last couple of days and he went to the astronomy tower just to think about things right after curfew. So far he hadn't gotten caught because he used his invisibility cloak but he also didn't know that Snape knew he came there. He just didn't say anything. Snape really had no idea why he was acting as if he cared.
Harry was lost in thought as he stared out the window and someone put their hand on his shoulder. Harry jumped a foot in the air in surprise. He whipped his wand out but stopped when he saw who it was. He sighed and put his wand down.
"Potter, what are you doing here after curfew?" Snape asked slowly.
"Nothing sir, I uh.couldn't sleep."
"That still does not explain why you are here Mr. Potter."
"I know sir," Harry said.
"Mr. Potter, people are very concerned and worried about you. Some are getting very suspicious," Snape told him.
Harry didn't know what to say.
"Um.it's almost full moon sir," Harry whispered.
"Yes Potter and you have your potion but you are smart enough to know that you don't want people suspicious."
"Yes Professor."
Snape took a risk and sat down in a near chair. Harry raised his eyebrows.
"Are you alright Potter?" Snape asked slowly.
"Excuse me?"
"Are you alright? After going through Occlumency with you I see that your life is definitely not perfect. Everyone is very concerned about you. You have become very distant from everyone including the golden trio."
Harry groaned when Snape said that last part.
"I just don't want people to know that I'm a werewolf professor. It isn't anything more than that."
"Are you sure Potter? Is it.guilt?"
"What?" Harry asked shocked at how calm the usual snippy professor was being.
"Snape what are you doing in here?" Someone said from the doorway. Harry missed the reversal of the silencing spell that Snape did on the room.
"Nothing Orion. I was just leaving," Snape said.
Harry thought Snape's behavior was very curious but he didn't question it.
Harry stood up and saw Orion and Snape before him. He didn't say anything but he made his way to the door.
"Potter wait," Orion said. Harry stopped walking as Snape exited the room. "Hello Harry, how are you feeling?"
"Um.I'm fine professor."
"Do you think I could um.talk to you Harry?" Orion asked.
"I guess."
"Listen, I am in the order too and I know that we haven't exactly talked or anything but people are worried about you. You can tell me what's wrong if you want. I think that since I don't know you very well it will br better. I won't tell anyone anything you say."
"Sir?"
"Harry, what's wrong? Are you okay?"
Harry thought for a minute. He was in the order but could he really trust anyone anymore? Dumbledore lied to him and so did everyone else. Everyone had lied to him about something his whole life. But Orion. Harry didn't really know him. Would he judge him? He was in the order so Harry could say a lot. Harry made up his decision. There was something about him that made him want to say more.
"No," Harry finally whispered. Harry would avoid the subject of lycanthropy but he could say other stuff and maybe tell the man what he was feeling.
"Well then, could you maybe start on telling me why from the beginning of the year you have been avoiding me? You don't usually look at me during class and you used to ignore me completely."
Harry went back to the windowsill and sat down. Orion took the seat that was closest.
"You remind me so much of him." Harry said barely above a whisper.
"Who?" Orion asked.
"My godfather."
"Oh," Orion said. So much was going through Sirius' mind. He wanted to tell Harry that he was alive more than anything but he couldn't. Not yet.
"I'm sorry Harry."
Harry still couldn't say Sirius' name.
Sirius looked at Harry in the eyes for several minutes. Neither said anything. Sirius saw sadness and isolation and then he realized something.
"You can't say his names can you?" Orion asked slowly.
"What?"
"You can't say um. Sirius Black's names can you? It's too hard to face the fact that he's.dead."
Harry couldn't believe his ears. How did his professor know?
Harry shook his head. "It was my fault," he muttered looking out the window
"N..no it wasn't" Orion stuttered. Sirius knew that this was what Harry thought but he desperately hoped that he didn't.
"Yes it was professor. I um...have to go," Harry said quickly and ran out the door. He didn't want to talk about it anymore. He was fine. Emotionally he was still hurting. As he made his way through the hallways he put his invisibility cloak on and sped off towards the Gryffindor common room. He didn't realize Snape was walking down the hallway the opposite way and he accidentally ran straight into this potions professor. They both fell down flat on their faces and Harry pinned Snape down.
"Sorry sir," Harry said quickly as he scrambled off of Professor Snape.
Snape said nothing as he stood up. Harry took off his invisibility cloak and waited to be punished or yelled at.
"Follow me Mr. Potter," Snape said simply and strode to his personal quarters. It was much like Harry expected except it had rich green walls. Snape motioned for him to sit down and Harry sat down a comfortable forest green chair.
"Potter, you cannot continue to keep breaking curfew. You also have to start taking care of yourself so people do not get anymore suspicious then they already are. Do not avoid your friends Harry. Do not avoid Lupin. You will have to tell someone else sooner or later Harry. I wanted you to tell Dumbledore but I also think you should tell Lupin. He can help you. He can relate to you."
"But he will feel bad sir," Harry said. Harry did not miss all the times that Snape had called him by his given name but he didn't acknowledge it.
"That may very well be Harry but he might have a right to know. Now, you have Occlumency with me tomorrow but take care of yourself."
Harry left in confusion. He just got off of punishment. As soon as he got to the Gryffindor common room he saw that everyone was asleep and he soon followed his example.
After Sirius had talked to Harry, still pretending to be Orion, he went to talk to Lupin immediately. He knew he said that he wouldn't tell anyone what Harry said but Lupin was different. Sirius told him everything with tears in the corner of his eyes.
"Sirius, you have to not be afraid to cry. Harry never cries and I think he needs to."
"I know Moony."
"Sirius?"
"Yeah?"
"He is showing the same signs as me. It is near a full moon and he looks pretty bad."
"You think he could be a..werewolf?"
Lupin sighed.
"I don't know Padfoot. I really don't know."
A/N- There it is. That's another chapter. I will update again on Monday if not tomorrow and I might update The Velvet Glove tomorrow. Everything will be explained. I left a lot of things open on purpose. As to why Sirius can't tell Harry that he is really Orion will be explained as well. Sometimes I call Sirius Orion and other times I call him Orion. I um..have that isn't too confusing.
Thank you for the kind reviews I've been getting. I'm so glad that some of you are very involved with the story and I love reviews so much. If I get more reviews they make me want to update sooner. EVERY REVIEW COUNTS!! Please review. I am sorry I don't have time to respond to each review but do know that I am reading and smiling at everyone one of them.