A/n- I am not sure how happy I am with this chapter but I really hope you
like it. I wanted to update sooner but swim team, school, homework, (not
that I do much of it) babysitting, chores around the house, reading
fanfiction and being with my friends all takes up so much time. I think
swim team takes up the most time but I love it a lot. Right now it is 2:00
a.m and I am watching the fellowship of the ring. I never got into LOTR
before and I wish I did so I am trying to now. I wrote the first half of
this chapter a couple of days ago but I just finished writing the second
one. So.if the second half seems a bit weird it is because I wrote it at 1-
2 a.m. I am really tired but I think I will stay up and watch the rest of
LOTR. It isn't over until 3:45. Sorry, I know this author's note is a long
and pointless one but I am lonely in my house. Everyone is asleep.
Anyways.please give me your feedback on this chapter. It is going somewhere
and Hermione and Ron will find out about Harry being a werewolf before you
know it. Have a little patience and please review!
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Feathered Mistakes
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Before Harry knew it, it was the next night of the full moon. Harry had made a wolfsbane potion with Snape's help days before but unfortunately Remus was still in the hospital wing. He used a concealing charm because he wasn't looking too well but no one seemed to notice.
Harry did the same thing as he did on the last full moon bight and he told his friends that he was not feeling well and he was going to the hospital wing. Instead of doing that he took his wolfsbane potion and went to the whomping willow tree and awaited his transformation which was again, extremely painful.
He was huddled in a corner but then he started scratching the walls and clawing up the ground. He felt very alone and he desperately wanted Remus in his wolf form or Sirius in his animagus to be there but that was impossible.
Remus didn't understand why Harry didn't want to tell Sirius or anyone about his lycanthropy. The reason Lupin didn't tell anyone when he was younger was because he didn't want people to disown him. Harry knew people weren't going to disown him but that wasn't the reason. Sirius wouldn't disown him because his best friend was a werewolf and Hermione and Ron wouldn't because they hadn't when they found out that their former professor was. No..that wasn't the reason. The reason was because he was ashamed. He shouldn't have been ashamed but he was. Harry felt like he shouldn't be a werewolf. He should have stuck up for himself and fought back instead of just running. It was a stupid feeling but was strong one nevertheless. Sirius would most definitely be sad for Harry and sympathetic. Harry hated sympathy. He hated it more than most things. Sirius might even be mad at Remus and Harry really didn't want that.
After awhile of scratching and clawing, Harry got the sudden urge for food. It wasn't that that was unusual but what he craved for most was.. owls. He had to have them. He needed them. His stomach needed them. Harry was scaring himself but he waited until it felt like the middle of the night and he left the whomping willow and headed towards the strangest place..the owlry.
Hogwarts halls were completely deserted. It was quiet. Harry ran through the halls and reached the owlry very quickly. No one came across him as he ran in his werewolf form.
He really had no idea what he was doing as he locked the door to the owlry and looked up. Hedwig sensed Harry and flew down to him. Harry immediately growled at Hedwig and shooed her out the window. The next thing Harry did shocked himself and even the owls in the big room. He actually ate several owls. Feathers were everywhere and...he fainted.
When Hedwig noticed there was something wrong with Harry and she was shooed out the window she immediately looked for help. The first person she came to was the strange man dressed in all black, Professor Snape.
Severus had just gotten back from a walk around the grounds when an owl came up to him and starting cooing madly at him. He recognized her as Potter's owl and looked up at the moon. Potter should be in the whomping willow at that direct moment. The owl was flapping her wings wildly and Snape knew there must be something wrong. He couldn't do anything though. He would get bitten if he tried so he had to wait until morning. Snape went to his dormitory and sent a magical alarm for sunrise.
When the sun rose Harry was still in the owlry asleep. Stray feathers were strewn all over the place and the room had five fewer birds than it did the night before. It was very unfortunate that it had occurred but the worst thing.Harry would not remember doing it when he woke up.
Snape immediately went to the owlry. Hedwig practically dragged him there, which was quite weird considering Snape was almost fifteen times its size. What he found shocked him. Potter was lying in the middle of a pile of bloody feathers.
Snape slowly crept up to him and shook his shoulder.
"Potter! What are you doing?" He yelled when Harry opened his eyes.
Harry yawned and looked around. Suddenly he realized where he was but he was confused. He couldn't remember anything. All he knew was his breath tasted really bad and he was in pain from the transformation just hours before.
"What?" Harry stuttered.
"Potter, what the bloody hell do you think you are doing?" Snape asked again looking around. He quickly pulled the teenager to his feet and used a cleansing spell to clean up the feathers and disgusting blood.
"Come on Potter, we are going to see Lupin."
Harry was so confused but they made there way in a hurry to the hospital wing.
"Severus, may I have a pain relieving potion please?" Remus asked not seeing Harry at first.
"Yes Lupin but first I think you better talk to Mr. Potter. He is now Hogwarts newest cannibal. I found him in the owlry with blood and feathers all over the place."
"What?" Harry yelled out in shock. "What are you talking about? I..I..why can't I remember what happened? Last thing I remember was.oh my god!" Harry cried collapsing on the bed next to Remus. Snape left the room immediately after handing Lupin two potions.
Remus immediately gulped down the potion and felt suddenly better. He should have warned Harry about this. He should have been there. Harry lay partially on a hospital bed with his head buried in the mattress. The teenager was in distress. He so wanted to cry but he wouldn't. No tears were to be shed ever again. Crying was a sign of weakness and Harry felt he could show no signs of weaknesses.
"I cannot believe it," Harry muttered with as dry a face as he could muster. His head stayed buried in the mattress. "I'm a cannibal," Harry moaned.
"No, Harry. No, you are not. Please let me talk to you. We really need to talk," Remus said.
"No..no.no, I ate those owls. I don't remember doing it but I know I did. I.I.I actually killed them. They were pets to students and now.now they're gone."
"Madame Pomphrey!" Remus called and soon the medi-witch came bustling in.
"Yes, yes what is it Remus?" She asked not seeing Harry.
"Would you please give Harry a calming potion? I would like it very much if you didn't ask questions but I think he needs one."
Poppy gave a sideways glance at Harry and then nodded. She came back moments later and after trying to get Harry to take the potion but failing she left the calming potion on a nearby table.
Remus sat up and got out of his bed. He was feeling a lot better and was almost over the wizard's chill so he walked over to Harry and reached for his shoulder and pulled him up gently. "Harry, please take this. It will help you."
Harry tried to get the redness away from his face. He quickly drank and then laid his head face down on the bed again.
"Come sit with me Harry. I should have warned you about this. We never did really talk exactly about everything. You shouldn't have to go through this alone."
Harry sat up on the bed next to Remus and he looked down at his hands.
"I killed them," he whispered.
"Harry, please stop. You could not have helped it. I should have warned you about this. It's just.when I was first bitten I had cravings for different things too. I ate so much fish in a lake that it was unbearable and I didn't even remember doing it. Yes, you did unfortunately eat those owls but that is a side effect to being a werewolf. There are lots of other different side effects that come they are mostly good."
"Like what?" Harry asked hoarsely.'
"You will be stronger and have sharp senses. Your sense of smell, sight, hearing, touch and you will sense things around you better. That comes with time but you should already be noticing different things."
Harry nodded. "What about.the owls? They are dead and now Dumbledore is going to find out and then everyone will. I killed them Remus! I will be kicked out of school. I will have to go back to the Dursley's!"
"Harry!" Moony practically yelled. "No one will find out. Snape and I will make something up about how the owls died. Even if people find out, you won't be expelled so stop thinking you will."
"But-"
"No buts."
"I killed though. Surely that deserves a punishment."
Remus sighed and put his arm around Harry. "Harry," he tried again speaking as calmly as he could, "it was not your fault. I know you and I know you blame yourself but you really shouldn't. You of course you would never hurt owls intentionally but this is really different. Please don't blame yourself."
"But.I can't. What if something happened to Hedwig? Why can't I remember?" Harry asked. It was really bothering him that the only thing he remembered was transforming and then waking up in the morning.
"That I am not sure of but nothing happened to Hedwig. You are going to have to control your cravings and not give into them from now on. I will be there to help you from now on and we can both transform together. I will make sure you stay with me so you won't want to eat anything that you will regret. I have to make sure Sirius doesn't transform into his animagus form with us though. Usually he does and stays with me but unless you tell him, I have to tell him a lie so he won't."
"What lie are you going to tell Dumbledore about the owls? Won't he know?"
"No and I won't tell him anything unless he asks me directly. Harry..please tell Sirius."
Harry vigorously shook his head. "No," he said. "I'm.I'm sorry but no."
"Okay Harry" Moony said sadly and then he stood up. "Why don't you take a dreamless sleep potion and rest? I will go get one."
Without question, Harry nodded and gulped the potion Remus received after a couple of minutes. He soon fell into a deep slumber, which was thankfully dreamless and visionless.
Remus immediately checked with Madame Pomphrey if it was okay he left and with much protest he made his ay down to the dungeons to speak with Severus.
"What happened exactly?" Lupin asked Snape.
"I found Potter in the owlry with blood and feathers all around him. That is all."
"Nothing else?"
"I said that was all."
"We cannot tell anyone. If Dumbledore asks you will have to lie."
Snape groaned. "How long is this going to stay a secret?" he demanded.
"Are you going to tell anyone or not?" Remus said through gritted teeth.
Snape was silent for almost two minutes.
"I will not tell anyone." Snape said finally.
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A/N- I know the thing with the owls was really strange. I hope it is good. I REALLY hope you like it. I need to know so tell me what you think in a review. Thank you to the person who reminded me about the strength and the hearing and senses of a werewolf. I don't know how I forgot about that stuff but I think I cleared it up. Some of you reviewers are really loyal and I thank you kindly. You know who you are. Whenever I get a review I am so happy. Now.time to post this and watch the next hour and a half of LOTR 1. PLEASE REVIEW!!!
Oh yeah! Cookies and pizza to all who reviews last chapter! Hope this chapter was a little longer. It was.
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Feathered Mistakes
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Before Harry knew it, it was the next night of the full moon. Harry had made a wolfsbane potion with Snape's help days before but unfortunately Remus was still in the hospital wing. He used a concealing charm because he wasn't looking too well but no one seemed to notice.
Harry did the same thing as he did on the last full moon bight and he told his friends that he was not feeling well and he was going to the hospital wing. Instead of doing that he took his wolfsbane potion and went to the whomping willow tree and awaited his transformation which was again, extremely painful.
He was huddled in a corner but then he started scratching the walls and clawing up the ground. He felt very alone and he desperately wanted Remus in his wolf form or Sirius in his animagus to be there but that was impossible.
Remus didn't understand why Harry didn't want to tell Sirius or anyone about his lycanthropy. The reason Lupin didn't tell anyone when he was younger was because he didn't want people to disown him. Harry knew people weren't going to disown him but that wasn't the reason. Sirius wouldn't disown him because his best friend was a werewolf and Hermione and Ron wouldn't because they hadn't when they found out that their former professor was. No..that wasn't the reason. The reason was because he was ashamed. He shouldn't have been ashamed but he was. Harry felt like he shouldn't be a werewolf. He should have stuck up for himself and fought back instead of just running. It was a stupid feeling but was strong one nevertheless. Sirius would most definitely be sad for Harry and sympathetic. Harry hated sympathy. He hated it more than most things. Sirius might even be mad at Remus and Harry really didn't want that.
After awhile of scratching and clawing, Harry got the sudden urge for food. It wasn't that that was unusual but what he craved for most was.. owls. He had to have them. He needed them. His stomach needed them. Harry was scaring himself but he waited until it felt like the middle of the night and he left the whomping willow and headed towards the strangest place..the owlry.
Hogwarts halls were completely deserted. It was quiet. Harry ran through the halls and reached the owlry very quickly. No one came across him as he ran in his werewolf form.
He really had no idea what he was doing as he locked the door to the owlry and looked up. Hedwig sensed Harry and flew down to him. Harry immediately growled at Hedwig and shooed her out the window. The next thing Harry did shocked himself and even the owls in the big room. He actually ate several owls. Feathers were everywhere and...he fainted.
When Hedwig noticed there was something wrong with Harry and she was shooed out the window she immediately looked for help. The first person she came to was the strange man dressed in all black, Professor Snape.
Severus had just gotten back from a walk around the grounds when an owl came up to him and starting cooing madly at him. He recognized her as Potter's owl and looked up at the moon. Potter should be in the whomping willow at that direct moment. The owl was flapping her wings wildly and Snape knew there must be something wrong. He couldn't do anything though. He would get bitten if he tried so he had to wait until morning. Snape went to his dormitory and sent a magical alarm for sunrise.
When the sun rose Harry was still in the owlry asleep. Stray feathers were strewn all over the place and the room had five fewer birds than it did the night before. It was very unfortunate that it had occurred but the worst thing.Harry would not remember doing it when he woke up.
Snape immediately went to the owlry. Hedwig practically dragged him there, which was quite weird considering Snape was almost fifteen times its size. What he found shocked him. Potter was lying in the middle of a pile of bloody feathers.
Snape slowly crept up to him and shook his shoulder.
"Potter! What are you doing?" He yelled when Harry opened his eyes.
Harry yawned and looked around. Suddenly he realized where he was but he was confused. He couldn't remember anything. All he knew was his breath tasted really bad and he was in pain from the transformation just hours before.
"What?" Harry stuttered.
"Potter, what the bloody hell do you think you are doing?" Snape asked again looking around. He quickly pulled the teenager to his feet and used a cleansing spell to clean up the feathers and disgusting blood.
"Come on Potter, we are going to see Lupin."
Harry was so confused but they made there way in a hurry to the hospital wing.
"Severus, may I have a pain relieving potion please?" Remus asked not seeing Harry at first.
"Yes Lupin but first I think you better talk to Mr. Potter. He is now Hogwarts newest cannibal. I found him in the owlry with blood and feathers all over the place."
"What?" Harry yelled out in shock. "What are you talking about? I..I..why can't I remember what happened? Last thing I remember was.oh my god!" Harry cried collapsing on the bed next to Remus. Snape left the room immediately after handing Lupin two potions.
Remus immediately gulped down the potion and felt suddenly better. He should have warned Harry about this. He should have been there. Harry lay partially on a hospital bed with his head buried in the mattress. The teenager was in distress. He so wanted to cry but he wouldn't. No tears were to be shed ever again. Crying was a sign of weakness and Harry felt he could show no signs of weaknesses.
"I cannot believe it," Harry muttered with as dry a face as he could muster. His head stayed buried in the mattress. "I'm a cannibal," Harry moaned.
"No, Harry. No, you are not. Please let me talk to you. We really need to talk," Remus said.
"No..no.no, I ate those owls. I don't remember doing it but I know I did. I.I.I actually killed them. They were pets to students and now.now they're gone."
"Madame Pomphrey!" Remus called and soon the medi-witch came bustling in.
"Yes, yes what is it Remus?" She asked not seeing Harry.
"Would you please give Harry a calming potion? I would like it very much if you didn't ask questions but I think he needs one."
Poppy gave a sideways glance at Harry and then nodded. She came back moments later and after trying to get Harry to take the potion but failing she left the calming potion on a nearby table.
Remus sat up and got out of his bed. He was feeling a lot better and was almost over the wizard's chill so he walked over to Harry and reached for his shoulder and pulled him up gently. "Harry, please take this. It will help you."
Harry tried to get the redness away from his face. He quickly drank and then laid his head face down on the bed again.
"Come sit with me Harry. I should have warned you about this. We never did really talk exactly about everything. You shouldn't have to go through this alone."
Harry sat up on the bed next to Remus and he looked down at his hands.
"I killed them," he whispered.
"Harry, please stop. You could not have helped it. I should have warned you about this. It's just.when I was first bitten I had cravings for different things too. I ate so much fish in a lake that it was unbearable and I didn't even remember doing it. Yes, you did unfortunately eat those owls but that is a side effect to being a werewolf. There are lots of other different side effects that come they are mostly good."
"Like what?" Harry asked hoarsely.'
"You will be stronger and have sharp senses. Your sense of smell, sight, hearing, touch and you will sense things around you better. That comes with time but you should already be noticing different things."
Harry nodded. "What about.the owls? They are dead and now Dumbledore is going to find out and then everyone will. I killed them Remus! I will be kicked out of school. I will have to go back to the Dursley's!"
"Harry!" Moony practically yelled. "No one will find out. Snape and I will make something up about how the owls died. Even if people find out, you won't be expelled so stop thinking you will."
"But-"
"No buts."
"I killed though. Surely that deserves a punishment."
Remus sighed and put his arm around Harry. "Harry," he tried again speaking as calmly as he could, "it was not your fault. I know you and I know you blame yourself but you really shouldn't. You of course you would never hurt owls intentionally but this is really different. Please don't blame yourself."
"But.I can't. What if something happened to Hedwig? Why can't I remember?" Harry asked. It was really bothering him that the only thing he remembered was transforming and then waking up in the morning.
"That I am not sure of but nothing happened to Hedwig. You are going to have to control your cravings and not give into them from now on. I will be there to help you from now on and we can both transform together. I will make sure you stay with me so you won't want to eat anything that you will regret. I have to make sure Sirius doesn't transform into his animagus form with us though. Usually he does and stays with me but unless you tell him, I have to tell him a lie so he won't."
"What lie are you going to tell Dumbledore about the owls? Won't he know?"
"No and I won't tell him anything unless he asks me directly. Harry..please tell Sirius."
Harry vigorously shook his head. "No," he said. "I'm.I'm sorry but no."
"Okay Harry" Moony said sadly and then he stood up. "Why don't you take a dreamless sleep potion and rest? I will go get one."
Without question, Harry nodded and gulped the potion Remus received after a couple of minutes. He soon fell into a deep slumber, which was thankfully dreamless and visionless.
Remus immediately checked with Madame Pomphrey if it was okay he left and with much protest he made his ay down to the dungeons to speak with Severus.
"What happened exactly?" Lupin asked Snape.
"I found Potter in the owlry with blood and feathers all around him. That is all."
"Nothing else?"
"I said that was all."
"We cannot tell anyone. If Dumbledore asks you will have to lie."
Snape groaned. "How long is this going to stay a secret?" he demanded.
"Are you going to tell anyone or not?" Remus said through gritted teeth.
Snape was silent for almost two minutes.
"I will not tell anyone." Snape said finally.
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A/N- I know the thing with the owls was really strange. I hope it is good. I REALLY hope you like it. I need to know so tell me what you think in a review. Thank you to the person who reminded me about the strength and the hearing and senses of a werewolf. I don't know how I forgot about that stuff but I think I cleared it up. Some of you reviewers are really loyal and I thank you kindly. You know who you are. Whenever I get a review I am so happy. Now.time to post this and watch the next hour and a half of LOTR 1. PLEASE REVIEW!!!
Oh yeah! Cookies and pizza to all who reviews last chapter! Hope this chapter was a little longer. It was.