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Chapter 16: Lost.
Today.
Rose sat next to the window and watched the falling snow. It was snowing for over a day now and by tonight, Christmas eve, all the streets will be covered with festive white. She knew it was Christmas because she heared the nurses talk about it. They were fighting about who's gonna do the night shift that no one really wanted to do.
She tightened the blanket around her shoulders and returned to gaze at the window. She couldn't sleep last night. From some unknown reason she couldn't keep her eyes away from the full moon. As a result from that she spent the entire afternoon sleeping only to wake up from a very realistic dream.
Slowly, but surely, her memory started to return. She remembered Remus the first, probably because he kept visiting her. And then she remembered more…she remembered Sirius and James and Lily and even Peter…but they never visited her, why was that? She remembered curses and spells but still couldn't bring herself to speak.
Sometimes, her dreams were memories from the past and today she dremt something so realistic she was sure it happened. She felt her cheeks burning and a wonderfull feeling of anticipation in her womb when she remembered her dream again. It was nothing special, really, but in that dream/reality he was making love to her on their living room carpet. It was only a dream, she frowned, a vivid one, but still a dream.
You had an erotic dream about your husband, her subconscious told her firmly, and there is nothing wrong with it…Rose frowned again. In her dream, he was crying. She could feel his hot tears on her cheek and shoulder as he moved with her. Why was he crying?
"Hey, Aren't you cold?" The soft voice disturbed her thoughts and she turned to face Remus who smiled warmly at her. She shook her head with respond to his question and he sat beside her on the bed. "I talked to the healers today and they told me you made wonderfull progress." He smiled and she shrugged with response and examined his face closly. He seemed tired, exhausted even. His pale face only highlighted the circles under his eyes. She traced his cheek lightly with her finger and he smiled a little. "Yes, I'm tired, I didn't sleep very well last night." She nodded and pointed herself. "Oh, you too?" Remus wondered.
Rose smiled gently and then frowned when she heared a man's voice inside her head asking her who was the only creature that never slept durring the full moon. She knew the answer to that question…but couldn't remember it. And that was the answer to the question why Remus never visited her durring the full moon.
"You know it's Christmas eve?" He brought her back to reality and she nodded, smiling. "On our last Christmas together we had a fight…I ran away from our house and showed up only late at night." He smiled a little. "I have a surprise for you." He said.
Rose felt her eyes widening. A surprise? He handed her a dark blue cloak and she traced it with her fingers. It was made from thin wool that chnaged it's colors with the change in light. "Here, put this on. I don't want you to get sick." She raised her eyebrows with suspicion but did as she was told. "Come on, let's go." He laced his fingers with hers and pulled her after him.
Rose tightened the cloak around her as Remus pulled her after him towards the stairs. They climbed several floors when he stopped to look at her. "Are you tired?" he asked and she shook her head. "Okay, two more floors to go." She frowned a little when she realized he was taking her to the roof.
When they got to the last floor of the hospital he told her to close her eyes and then led her to the roof. Instead of the coldness she expected to feel she felt a wave of hot air and opened her eyes.
Before her stood a small round table with two large bowls and a bottle of Butterbeer. The roof was filled with candles and she could see snow falling on the ceiling…like Hogwarts, she remembered.
"It's like the ceiling at Hogwarts, do you remember Hogwarts?" he asked gently and she nodded, smiling. "I made your favorite food." He said and she walked over towards the table smiling at the sight of the bowls that were filled with tomato souce pasta. She couldn't remember if it was her favorite food or not but it didn't matter. She felt hot tears sliding down her cheeks and turned towards him, enveloping him in a fierce hug.
Remus went rigid under her touch, for the first time in sixteen years that was not a hug of comfort, not a hug of sorrow…it was a hug of happiness, and he felt the change. Slowly, he returned her hug, caressing her back slowly, trying to ignore his body's reactions to the change, trying not to scare her.
Oh, how he missed her touch…she backed a way from him but remained between his arms, smiling at him, her eyes dark and sparkling. He cleared his throat and smiled at her. "Do you like my surprise?" She turned serious for a second and then slowly moved closer and closer to him. He almost stopped breathing when her lips touched his lightly.
It took him less then a second to deepened the kiss. His mouth covered hers, pressing gently until she allowed him to explore further. Sighing into her mouth, he pulled her more firmly against him, sneaking his hands up her waist. Her body changed, he could feel it…and yet, it was like he's being doing it for years, it felt so natural.
She gave a small whimper when he touched her breast lightly and that small sound brought him back to reality. He gazed down to her flushed face and dark eyes and smiled gently. "We can't do it here…it's not the right time or the right place." She nodded a little, not meeting his eyes and he stroked her cheek gently. When she finally met his gaze he hugged her again. "I missed you, Rose, I missed you so much."
She missed him too…but she still couldn't say it…
Then. January 1980.
Something heavy fell on top of her and she collapsed to the ground, feeling all of a sudden a sense of choking and panic. Oh god…she was inside a coffin…but she wasn't dead. She tried to raise her head but couldn't move, panic rose inside of her when she couldn't breathe all of a sudden. Oh, Merlin…don't burry me alive!! Her mind screamed.
From a distance, someone called her name but she couldn't answer him. Blackness surrounded her and she saw no more.
The room was fuzzy…and it was spinning…rooms usually don't do that, do they? She groaned when the room made a violent turn and someone caressed her hair lightly.
"Rose?"
Lily, it was Lily.
"Are you okay? Do you need something?"
The room stopped spinning and Rose sighed when she opened her eyes, relived when she saw only one version of Lily Potter. "Water…" She whispered. The red haired witch helped her to drink a little and then sat beside her on the bed.
"What happened?"
The door opened and Sirius and James walked inside whispering to each other. In their heated discussion they didn't notice she was awake.
"What are saying, Padfoot? That we shouldn't live our lives? That we should hide in our homes and never get out just because some death eaters are blowing up stuff? We can't let them ruin our lives!" James hissed.
"That's not what I said, James, but maybe people should start looking more around themselves when they're walking in the streets."
"But you can't always recognize a death eater when you see him…"
"Guys!" Lily scolded them and they looked at her.
"Rose! You're awake, thank Merlin…" Sirius said.
Rose raised her eyebrow at the sight of Sirius's blue, almost black eye. "What happened?" she asked again in a hoarsed voice.
"One of the couches fell on top of you. Remus was histerical and paunched me when I tried to help him pulling it away from you, altough I don't think he remembers hitting me at all."
Rose paled all of a sudden and grabbed Lily's hand. "The baby? Did I loose the baby?"
Her three friends looked at each other and then Lilyshook her head. "No, the baby is alright."
"Then what happned? Where is Remus?" she asked, suddenly feeling a horrible, sinking feeling of fear. "Did something happen to him?"
"No, no…Remus is fine." James hurried to tell her. "It's just that…" He stopped for a moment. "You see… a death eater blowed up the pub, the building is a mess. The explosion was so strong it destroyed the muggle side of the pub and the wall that led to Diagon Alley…"
"What are you saying?" Rose demanded, panic in her voice.
"Rose…Remus's parents were killed."
"What?" she whispered, her eyes watering. "No, it can't happen…it's not possible. We can't loose them both in the same day…"
Lily enveloped her in a hug. "I'm sorry, honey…I'm so sorry…"
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