Chapter 18: The Right Thing.

Today.

Harry gazed at his best friends as they sat together in breakfast. Ron was engrossed in another law book and occasionally glanced up to take another bite from his breakfast. Hermione gazed away at some unseen object, she was staring into space practicly since the moment they got to the great hall and it was starting to get on his nerves. But, seriously, she had the right to stare away, its not every day one's finding out that most of his life was a lie.

He took another swig from his juice and kept staring at her. So what? A new thought surfaced his mind. Not every day one's finding out he has to kill in order to live. Shaking his head, he tore his gaze from the brown haired witch and frowned. They didn't know, not about the prophesy and not about the fact that he had been visiting Remus for days now.

In his efforts to keep remembering he turned to the last link he had to his parents and Sirius. Remus was reluctant at first, looking guilty and upset but in Christmas day he found Harry and the two sat down for a long talk. Remus's stories were real. He didn't tell stories about pranks and heroic bullshit…he told him exactly what he wanted to know. He told him the truth. Harry learned about his parents and Sirius more then he ever thought he could and he enjoyed every minute of it. Every new story seemed to ease his pain, every new story made him remember the moments Sirius laughed and was happy and those moments slowly replaced the horrible memories from the night Sirius fell.

But Harry noticed that Remus rarly talked about himself and asked him about it. The tired looking wizard gazed at him for a moment before opening his mouth and telling him about the 'werewolves' decree and the trial they lost. Harry sat there stunned, tears almost spilling from his eyes. He was upset and angry…but could offer no consolation.

"So, you see, Harry." Remus finished his story. "You have to understand that life back then were totally different. Death eaters attacked almost every day and we couldn't match them. You may think that your father and Sirius were good men and fine aurors but they were more then that…they did more then I could ever do."

"But it's not your fault!" Harry exclaimed. "I'm sure you could have easilly became an auror if you wanted to."

"When I graduated I was supposed to receive a scholarship for the auror training but the ministry didn't let Albus give it to me." Remus said, smiling a little.

"How can you smile?" Harry exploded. "This is wrong in so many levels…"

"Yes it is." Remus agreed. "But who's gonna change that now? I'm fine where I am, Harry, I have a job and I have my friends…I still have you." The werwolf smiled fondly and Harry grinned, feeling closer then ever to the man who was so much more then a teacher for him.

"You still have your wife." He said and Remus smiled.

"Yes, I do." He said quietly.

"Is she alright?" Harry suddenly feared that he might have said something stupid and was relieved when Remus nodded his head.

"She's better. I spent Christmas eve with her, I made dinner." He smiled and Harry noticed the far away look in his eyes. He wanted to ask him about it but changed his mind and bid the professor good night.

And there he was sitting with his friends and still feeling helpless. He couldn't help Hermione, no matter what he did. She didn't talk to him and Ron since that night in the library. He elbowed Ron and the red haired wizard looked at him with surprise. Harry motioned Hermione that still stared at a single point and Ron sighed.

"Give her time, mate, she discovered some shocking news." Ron said quietly. "She'll come around."

"I hope so." He said. He wasn't very convinced but Ron's advise was good, for now.

It wasn't until later that night when Hermione walked down the almost deserted common room towards them, holding the Slytherin cloak in her hand. Her eyes were red and Harry could still see traces of tears on her cheek. She threw the cloak on the table and sat on one of the couches. Harry and Ron shared a look of worry. "Mione?" Ron asked.

"Guys?" Her voice was low and shaky. "What if my real parents are death eaters? What if they somehow hurted people I know? What do I do then?" Harry moved closer to her and enveloped her in his arms as she cried. Ron raised his eyebrows and then got up and rested a calming hand on the crying girl shoulder.

"It doesn't matter, Hermione, it will never change who you are."

"Maybe you should talk to Dumbledore." Ron offered and Hermione considered that for a moment before nodding her head.

"It's an idea." She said slowly, wiping away her tears. "Maybe he can help me." She got up and headed towards the portrait hall.

"Where are you going?" Harry asked.

"To see Dumbledore." She said and Harry and Ron smiled when they saw the proud look she wore on her features, knowing that she's going to be allright.

Then. February 1980.

Remus hurried to the fireplace, looking for the floo powder and getting frustrated and angry when he couldn't find the jar. He had to do something, he had to help her in some way. She was in so much pain it hurt him. Where is that damn floo? His heart beat faster then ever and he had that horrible feeling like someone kicked his stomach over and over again. Adrenaline butterflies flew everywhere in his stomach but he still couldn't find the floo powder.

Rose was in a mild state of shock, he realized that when she didn't respond to his questions so he just covered her up with a blanket and sat beside her to make sure she's alright. After a while she threw the blanket away from her body and Remus was mortified to see the ammounts of blood that covered the lower part of her nightgown. The strong feeling of panic began at his stomach and spreaded quickly everywhere around his body. He lifted the nightgown a little to try and find out the source of the blood but there was so much of it. Turning white as the wall, Remus knew she was bleeding from the inside and his little knowledge in human biology told him that she could die and die very quickly if she kept on bleeding.

Raising his head to check on her face, he discovered that her face was white and that her breaths were shallow and fast. His eyes wide and his heart pounding, he raced down the stairs.

And now he was looking for that damn…he snatched the small jar that was right under his nose and threw some powder into the fireplace. "Potter's mansion!" He screamed. The fire swirled around his face and the ash burned his eyes but after a while he could clearly see James and Lily's living room. His two friends stood at the entrance to the living room and looked like they were arguing over something.

"Lily!" Remus nearly shouted and startled them.

"Remus? What…" James started to ask but Remus continued to speak.

"There's something wrong with Rose, I think she's bleeding from…" he couldn't bring himself to continue and breathed hard for a moment. "Could she still bleed from the abortion?" He whispered and Lily shook her head.

"Don't worry, Remus, move away from the fire, we're coming." Lily answered him quickly and some part of his mind registrated that she didn't sound worried at all. How could she not be worried? He exclaimed in his mind as he walked away from the fire.

Lily appeared a moment later and hurried upstairs, James showed up a minute later, looking upset over something. Remus paced over the living room and wouldn't stop until James put a hand on his shoulder.

"Don't worry, Moony, she's going to be alright." He said quietly.

"You don't know that!" Remus sat on the couch, his entire body shaking. "There was so much blood." He said quietly, his voice shaking and tears forming in his eyes. James said nothing but offered comfort with placing his hand on his shoulder again and squeezing. Remus felt like he was falling appart, those few moments Lily was upstairs seemed like eterninty and not knowing drove him crazy.

The sound of Lily's footsteps coming down the stairs made him jump from the couch and he hurried to meet her at the bottom step. Lily smiled a little at him. "Don't worry, she didn't loose that much of blood, she just needs to rest. I gave hera calming potion and she's sleeping." Remus looked at her for a moment before releasing the breath he didn't know he was holding. "However…" Lily continued speaking again and Remus became alert again. "I need to tell you something." She said quietly, not looking at him.

He gazed at her for a moment before following her to the living room. He sat next to her on the sofa and she looked away from him. After a while he spoke. "Lil? Are you alright?"

"You have to tell him, Lily." James said and Remus was surprised to hear the cold tone in his friend's voice.

Lily raised her head and took a shaky breath. "I couldn't do it."

Remus found that he just couldn't understand what the hell she was talking about and raised his eyebrows. "What are you talking about?"

"I couldn't give her the abortion potion." She whispered and Remus's eyes widened.

"Wha…what?" He mumbled. "But I saw you with that vile of blood…the baby's blood!" He was hysteric now and Lily shook her head and grabbed his hand tightly.

"I gave her a very strong sedative. That's why she wouldn't respond to you. After that I cut her hip and allowed the blood to stream to the small vile. I couldn't heal the cut because the healing charms are being registrated and I didn't want people to question me about it."

"What are you saying?" He asked again, trying to fight the fog that clouded his mind.

"I have everything set up. I know a muggle doctor that can deliver the baby and run regular examinations. That way no one in the wizarding world will know that you kept the baby. Rose is bearly in her fourth month no one will notice until at least three more months and then we could use illusion charms to hide it. I could help you get a birth certificate, a muggle one, but still…" Lily was talking very fast and Remus gaped at her, can't find words.

"Lily…" James sighed. "They could go to Azkaban for doing what you just said."

"Wait a minute." Remus suddenly spoke. "The blood you showed the wizard from the committee was a regular blood…not…not the baby?"

"Yeah…I'm sorry I had to cut her hip but…" Lily stopped talking when Remus enveloped her in his arms and startled when she noticed he was crying. "Remus?"

"Lily…" He chocked. "You have no idea how happy I am right now." He whispered. "Thank you."

"I just couldn't do it, Remus." Lily sighed. "You deserve better then that. You deserve to be happy."

"Please think about it, Remus." James sounded like he was begging. "You all can get into real trouble if anyone from the ministry ever finds out..."

Remus looked at him for a moment before answering. "I won't give up the baby." He said quietly. "You must know how I feel, Prongs, Lily's pregnant too, how would you feel if it was your baby? I want this baby so much it hurts…now I have the chance to have it back."

James nodded his head. "I know how you feel, Moony, you have my support. I may don't like it, but Lily's right. You deserve happiness, both if you."

Remus smiled. It was the first smile he smiled in a week and it lited his face in a way that reminded James the first time he saw him and declared he wanted to be his friend. Young Remus frowned at him but James and Sirius could be very persuasive. It was also the smile Remus gave them after they discovered he was a werewolf and remained his friends. It was the smile he smiled when he was happy and James frowned when he realized he hasn't seen that smile in quite some time.

"Go, Remus, go and hold your wife." James smiled at him.

"She'll sleep until morning." Lily said and got up from the sofa, smiling a little.

"Thank you." He hugged her again and climbed the stairs.

Lily and James stared at each other for a while before Lily spoke.

"I know you're mad at me for what I did but I couldn't do it. I kept thinking it was me instead. And it's not fair, James, it's not fair…I may have broken the law but I did the right thing."

James looked at her for a moment before hugging her tightly. "I am angry with you." He whispered. "But I am also very proud of you…you did the right thing."

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Did they do the right thing??

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**To Katy…as you read Rose is in the ned of the third month and making love isnt much of a problem at this stage. If I'm not mistaken it shouldn't be a problem until the ninth month…**

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