Lost But Not Yet Broken
Chapter 6: Meetings
An: Konnichiwa ppl how is every one well I have news and more news. For one my updates are going to be a bit more spread out than normal. I got a job and well life sucks heheheh. Anyway ok I'm half asleep so I think I'm rambling. Am I rambling? Ooo you know writing this and listening to .Hack Sign opening theme : obsession really gives you a go.
Draco: yeah I think so but then I talk to voices.
Harry: half asleep and you can still find away to torture me
Lucius: didn't you know pain is the only way to be alive
Severus: okay……. Lucius I think you need to take your medication.
MD: um do you mean these. *lifts up empty bottle*
Severus : what did you do!
*horrified*
MD: oh shit!!
Warning: Um yeah what warning he meets Draco ok maybe some self mutilation I don't know the damn chapter writes itself.
Disclaimer: I no own. But if you if you want to sell I'll buy Draco, Harry, Severus, Lucius. Thank you! Come again!.
Oh yeah!
* * is draco's little voice and
- - is Draco's thoughts k. good enjoy!.
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Don't Turn Away
Don't Give In To The Pain
Don't Try To Hide
Though They're Screaming Your Name
Don't Close Your Eyes
God Knows What Lies Behind Them
Don't Turn Out The Light
Never Sleep Never Die
Evanescence: Whisper
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Lucius Malfoy sat idly twirling a glass of wine in his hand as he pondered about the events of the previous day. ( Yes cliché. I know. Indulge me please.) 'What the hell have gotten myself into? I mean sure I can understand that Severus would obviously come to me for help in such a delicate matter but Harry Potter? What the hell is going on in Severus' head? Well then again I guess he figured since I haven't turned him in as spy that I wouldn't automatically kill the kid. Then again if it benefits me I probably would. After all the only reason Severus is still up and kicking is because he's a friend and the tiny fact that it just isn't beneficial to have him dead or exposed. And……..why am I answering my own questions. Okay…… I'm just going to go wake up Draco and we'll be off to whatever the hell it is that I have agreed to.' Lucius sighed loudly as he stood and stretched his leg muscles which were a bit sore.
"Sometimes a deal with the devil can be really bloody annoying."
Lucius trekked towards his young heir's room to get him ready for an early arrival at Snape Manor. Lucius absently wondered if Severus had been capable of coaxing the boy into taking a bath.
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Severus awoke early, not a normal custom during the summer break from school, a bit grouchy from the early morning rays stinging his eyes. He treaded to the kitchens where he indulged himself drinking some tea and having a light breakfast. He knew full well that the black haired, emerald eyed boy that currently lay in one of his many guest bedrooms, lay sleeping. At least that was what the raven haired man believed.
The slim pale figure trudged up the stairs finally out of his grumpy state, although few could actually tell the difference. As he entered the emerald eyed boy's room he noticed the boy was indeed awake and sitting stiffly on the bed. The bed apparently had been done up perfectly, it looked as if no one had even slept there the night before. Severus noticed that Harry had continued staring at the floor as he entered fully into the room. Not wanting to put the boy on guard he decided to get his attention and reassure the boy. 'Boy must think he did something wrong by sleeping on the bed' thought Severus absentmindedly.
"Harry."
"Yes Sir."
"The bed is yours, you will not be punished for sleeping on it."
"It isn't right sir. The floor is better for me." responded Harry as if an eight year old boy sleeping on the floor was the most normal thing in existence.
"Harry, you are a child and children sleep in beds understood?" said Severus his voice silky and demanding. He noticed Harry's eyes close briefly as if contemplating what to do before he heard that ever so disturbing answer leave the boys lips.
"Yes sir."
"Now, come with me." Severus waited for the boy to stand and then led him to the same bathroom that they had entered yesterday. Immediately the boy stiffened and stood in the middle of the bathroom reminiscent of the previous days actions before his lapse. Severus had decided that perhaps, he could coax the boy to at least take a shower whilst the water was placed under a silencing spell. Severus unnoticed by Harry placed the spell on the shower quietly before addressing the emerald eyed boy again.
"Harry."
"Yes sir?"
"Perhaps it would be advantageous for you to shower instead of a bath."
"I don't understand sir." Harry's gaze had locked on Severus' onyx eyes, cold and apathetic resembling the boy of a fallen angel who had lost his soul forever.
Severus turned on the water of the shower making sure to divert the boy's attention from the mini pool sized tub next to it. "I would prefer if you were cleaned up Harry. Come it is okay. I won't hurt you there are no punishments here Harry, try it." Harry looked at the shower, the water slightly steaming from the warmth the boy subconsciously craved; there was no sound coming from the shower the only thing telling the emerald eyed boy that the water was indeed flowing was missing and with it the memories that he had relived the day before.
Severus had been correct in assuming that it was the sound of the running water that had triggered the memory to resurface. Having been held under water repeatedly while the water still flowed must have left an imprint of the sound echoing in his mind. Kind of how certain smells can activate a long forgotten memory the sound of the water flowing rapidly must have done the same to the boy.
Severus heard the indifferent response from the boy and fought back the smile that had tried to creep onto his face as Harry began to undress. Severus ignored the scars that marred the boy's body like an open book narrating a story of pain and agony. He held back a gasp as the boy revealed more scars lining his legs and thighs. Severus' determination to make the bloody muggles pay increased ten fold but for now he had others matters to attend to. The raven haired man indicated the soap and shampoo to the boy who obviously looked a bit perplexed by the items as he kept shifting his eyes towards each trying to determine which was for what. Severus, biting back a snap explained what each use was and then closed the door of the shower leaving the boy to his privacy. As he turned to leave, he uttered one more thing to the emerald eyed boy.
"Take as long as you want. It is okay to enjoy."
"Yes sir. I'll be quick sir." replied the small boy as if he had not heard Severus' last remark. Severus sighed as he quietly closed the door. Severus had removed the raggedy cloths that the boy had been wearing and had burned them leaving a fresh new set on the boy's bed. Although they had been transfigured from his muggle cloths, they consisted of a pair of black soft cotton pants and a black polyester shirt so as not to aggravate the boy's still healing wounds.
Almost an hour later and having to convince the boy to wear the cloths Severus' had laid out for him rather than stand there naked the whole day. They had finally proceeded to the kitchen. Harry looked much better after the shower; his hair was much cleaner although still disheveled, his skin was clean of caked and blood and grime, although Severus could now see old faded scars that had been hidden under the dirt. The boy's eyes shone an even brighter green now even though they remained dead and expressionless. The shower had done the boy a whole of good. Harry had actually stared at his skin for a good ten minutes confused. Severus' had smirked at the look on the boy's face and indicated for him to sit while he brought breakfast for the boy.
Severus scowled as he turned with the boy's food only to see the boy sitting on the floor like a dog awaiting scraps from his master. Severus fought to keep his temper in check knowing that it wasn't the boy's fault and that he shouldn't take out his frustration out on him because it would only harm the already traumatized child. However, he was unable to keep down the cold sarcasm in his voice back as he addressed the confused boy.
"Are you so adamant to be a dog?"
"I'm sorry sir?"
Severus sighed "Sit in the chair."
"But sir…."
"Now!" seethed Severus as he tried valiantly to gain control of his temper.
Harry didn't even bother responding as he stood up quickly and seated himself in the nearest chair. Severus laid out a bowl of oatmeal laced with a nutrient potion in order to get the boy to gain some much needed weight. He had decided to start the emerald eyed boy with small nutrient laced meals before moving him up to more solid foods.
"Everything. Understood?" said Severus leaving no room for argument.
"Yes sir." said the raven haired boy as he obediently ate. However, apparently the boy had no idea what a spoon was because he had endeavored to use his hands and drink directly from the bowl. 'Well I think I've found my starting point. Utensil usage, great me teach an eight year old I don't know the first thing…….WAIT! I am a teacher for bloody sakes. Oh that's right I hate my job' thought Severus resentfully as he watched the young boy continue to eat. Noting that it was almost time for Lucius to appear with his young charge, Severus stood, motioning for Harry to remain and continue his meal, and trekked gracefully to the study that was down the hall.
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Lucius landed gracefully as he dropped out of Severus' fireplace, unfortunately the silver blonde did not move quick enough out of the way and was hit in the back of the knees by his incoming son's feet. The pressure caused his knees to buckle and Lucius tumbled to the ground face first.
"Ah! Bloody Fucking Hell!" exclaimed Lucius as he rubbed his shoulder which had hit the floor first in order to cushion the fall.
"Sorry Father." said Draco, a pale blond with eyes that were the color of Dragon's ice fire. The boy was of average height for his age, his skin was a pearly white which made the ice blue of his eyes shine brightly.
"Well Lucius, it seems you've taken a liking to my floor would you like me to give the owl of my interior decorator to?" Severus smirked at the death glare his friend was giving him at the moment.
"One day Severus………right to the moon."
"If I'm not mistaken, that is a muggle expression."
"…….."
Severus snorted and turned his attention to the young boy who had been watching his and Lucius' banters with amusement.
"Hello Draco."
"Hello Uncle Severus." greeted the boy brightly.
Draco had always been a very active child. Always running around doing anything to keep him entertained and for a Malfoy, the boy was much more innocent than what one would think. Lucius had apparently saw fit that the boy not know any of the horrors that his father had committed, and allowed the boy to grow into his own person. As a child Lucius had been conditioned to be the perfect heir to his father, having to mask himself from the true person he was. It was apparent that Lucius had endeavored not to do the same to his son and for that Severus respected the man greatly, having grown up in a very similar environment as Lucius; Severus understood the need for individuality and self expression. Something he would need to instigate in the emerald eyed boy that currently sat in his kitchen.
"Draco there is someone I would like you to meet. He's around your age but very quiet."
"Where?!" asked the boy excitedly, content to meet a new playmate as Lucius had put it when having their talk.
"He's in the kitchen but………." Severus was not even allowed to finish his sentence as Draco had immediately dashed out of the study, towards the kitchen.
"Are you sure he's your son and not the product of an affair between Narcissa and a Veela?" asked Severus unconcerned.
"Actually I'm a quarter Veela." said Lucius proudly.
"Really? Are you the runt of the litter?"
"Now that was wrong."
"Pretense Lucius, all in pretense."
Lucius and Severus left the study in favor of watching the interaction between Harry and Draco. However when they arrived they were awed at the sight of the young pale blond speaking to Harry as if he were a lost soul in the depths of darkness. Neither boy noticed the two adults standing at the entrance of the kitchen completely bewildered by the interaction between the boys.
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Draco skidded to a halt as he reached the entrance of the kitchen, taking in a large breath of air the pale blond slammed the door open and trekked inside happily. However, Harry, hearing the bang from the door immediately thought that he had done something very wrong and had angered the raven haired man, and dropped the glass of pumpkin juice that he had been drinking on the floor. The glass shattered as soon as it touched the hard stone floor. Harry stared at the door his gaze locked with one of ice blue.
Draco saw as the emerald eyed boy dropped his glass, startled by the sound and looked at him.
-Wow pretty eyes.-
*Twit you scared him!*
-Did not!-
*Did to and he's looking at you.*
-He looks so……-
*sad.*
-Yeah that. Hey I can think by myself!-
*No you can't, you can't even tie your shoes yet.*
-I'm telling father!-
*Oh yeah. Father! The little voice in my head is making fun of me!*
-…………-
*He's moving.*
Draco watched as Harry tore his gaze away and jumped out of the chair only to kneel next to where the shard of glass were, laying forgotten on the floor. He watched in shock as Harry began to frantically pick up the shards both large and small with his hands not flinching as the shards made tiny cuts on his hands and some actually imbedded themselves in the skin. Draco didn't notice his father and uncle behind him watching in the doorway as he approached the odd boy.
"Hey." was all Draco said as he kneeled next to the emerald eyed boy. Draco noticed the faint scars on the boy's cheeks but kept his attention away from them. Not knowing really what to do except that he didn't like how the boy was hurting himself over nothing. He had never had to pick up sharp things that he had accidentally broken. His father always used a spell to fix it and would reprimand him about being careful so; it was confusing to see the raven haired boy in front of him ignore him as if he didn't have a right to even speak to him and then start picking at the glass like a servant.
For a moment Draco had thought the boy to be indeed that, a servant, but knowing his uncle didn't like having human servants dismissed that possibility. Thus, the young pale skinned boy tried again. Setting a hand on one of the raven haired boy's wrists to stop its movement, the blond spoke again this time more enthusiastic than his last comment, "hi my name's Draco."
Harry stopped his movements suddenly when he felt a hand on his wrist he was about to withdraw and wait for his punishment when he noticed that the hand was significantly smaller than the tall pale man who had brought him here. Then he heard the hand's owner's voice and looked up.
Draco stared at Harry as he spoke to the boy again.
"Why are you doing that? You don't have to pick it up you know, Uncle Severus won't be mad. I've broken a lot of them before. Ok, he might give you a look but he gives everyone the look. What's your name?" Draco then noticed that Harry's hands were bleeding and went to call Severus and his Father however, as he turned to go find them Severus immediately moved towards the two.
"Uncle Severus, he's hurt can you fix him?"
Severus looked at Harry who was about to continue picking up the glass shards upon seeing him enter. Severus however, would have none of it and knelt next to Harry.
"Harry."
"Yes sir. I'll pick it up sir. I'm sorry sir."
"Harry?"
"Yes sir. I'll be punished sir."
"Harry!"
Harry stopped muttering and looked at the onyx eyed man before him.
"Yes sir?"
"It's okay. There is nothing to be punished for here. The glass can be repaired and I believe Draco wishes to meet you. Now, give me your hands."
"But, sir, yes sir." Harry lifted his hands showing Severus the small cuts and some shards of glass that had gotten imbedded in the skin from grasping too hard. Severus muttered a simple healing spell and slowly the blood dissipated and the wounds healed leaving only a slight throbbing pain.
Draco having grown impatient with his uncle went up to Severus and tugged on his robe.
"Uncle Severus!"
Severus sighed softly "Harry, this is Draco my godson, it is okay to speak to him, I'm sure he's anxious to know you."
Before Harry could respond Draco grabbed him by the wrist "are you done?"
"Yes, Sir" said Harry assuming that Draco although as old as him had authority over him and thus he should only address him as one.
"Sir? No I'm Draco, come on I wanna show you Uncle Severus' garden."
Harry merely stared at Draco and followed obediently as Draco led the way to Severus' garden. Severus and Lucius stared at the two boy's retreating backs. Then Lucius turned to Severus, one of his trademark Malfoy smirks on his face.
"So, should I by a collar to go with the leash that the boy has?"
Severus sighed "Lucius if you don't stop with the derogatory remarks I'm going to collar and chain you in one of my dungeons."
"You wouldn't dare."
"Perhaps I'll allow you the company of a few frogs." Severus smirked as Lucius paled.
"Bastard."
"Do you enjoy pointing out the obvious?"
"I will not respond to that. Anyway, what do you think?" Lucius asked indicated the scene between the two boys.
"I don't know let's go see and we'll find out……." Severus was cut off by the arrival of a hazel nut colored owl rapping at his window. Stepping to the window and allowing the owl entrance, Severus removed the letter and read it. Lucius watched as Severus' features from a customary scowl to a deeper one only to go back to his regular scowl. 'Merlin, the man is confusing!' thought Lucius as Severus closed the letter and turned his attention to the silver blond.
"Can you stay here with them?"
"Going to go talk to the old man, what are you going to tell him?"
"Lie."
"Ah, yes, and how pray tell are you going to convince the old man that Harry Potter is not currently in your custody?"
"I never said I was going to deny that fact."
Lucius was about to protest only to stop and smirk as he caught the meaning in his friends words.
"Ah well, do give my greetings to the kook."
"Yes, would that be the death threat or the when are you going to retire question?"
"Both."
Severus smirked as he took a pinch of floo powder yelled out his destination in Hogsmeade and disappeared in a blast of green emerald flames.
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MD: this chapter is like blah to me I don't know I needed them to meet so whatever I flows it wrote itself it's all good. It up to my faithful readers to decide. Blah blah blah. Ok truth is I had a bad day at work and I'm depressed, pissed, apathetic at the same time. Weird huh!
Arizosa: If you think that's bad wait till Harry grows up muahahahahah which I'm hoping to reach soon. Thanks for the Review I hope you keep reading. Oh and Draco is mine on Wednesdays it's part of his contract to please me muahahaahahaah.
Layce74: I will don't worry I have something very special planned for them but unfortunately won't happen till later. But I will put a small Lucius and Severus pay them a visit *cackles evilly*
Shawn Pickett: LoL Thank you! Hey I never thought I could actually right a likable Lucius I mean even I love him and I made him up! Keep reading review some more. Yeah about Dumbledore, that is next chapter but I have to give it some thought.
Keitorin: Oh cool so it's your Japanese name see mine doesn't change much really oh well. Anyway I know the meeting with Draco was well blah but I'm leaving that up to develop next chapter and hope you liked the shower part it was really more to the psychological aspect of the conflict so yeah I'm going to shut up now.
Callas-and-Ivy: I know I made Draco a bit naïve and innocent but I figured my Lucius being the way he is wouldn't want his son to know of the aspects of good and evil because frankly I don't think even Lucius sees it that way heheheh. I love my interaction between Lucius and Severus and I'm glad you enjoy them to thank you. Now please hit me upside the head so I can stop rambling.
Charlie-potter1: I don't suppose you'll believe that my muses are on loan from the P.P.B.A. (Pink Plot Bunny Association) lol. Thank you for reading my stuff I'm glad you like.
Creamy Miffy: hahahahahahhahah how I love angst I'm evil I know. Thank you for reading I hope you continue to like it.
Amirathis: Actually it isn't that Dudley was a menace. Harry was raised to believe he was lower than human so he thinks that Draco is in a sense another human who can just as easily have Severus hurt him like Dudley had Vernon (f**ker that he is). Hey I love Sadism it's great. Lucius yeah I know isn't he the best? Lol
ShadowQuirk: yeah he will trust in the most diabolical way possible muahahahhahaha
Usagibuffy: Thank you! For reading. Yeah I'm so glad that every one likes Lucius he's sort of my pride and joy in this story. A likable Lucius who knew I could pull that off. Lol I'd recommend Lady Foxfire but then you already know her don't you? Lol. Thanks for reviewing and I hope you enjoy the rest.
Lady Foxfire: I'm sorry but this will be an HP/DM fic I had contemplated on HP/ SS but it didn't work out with the future basis of this story so it's a no go. But I am working on an HP/SS fic for when this one is finished. I hope you won't stop reading this one though cause trust me the angst has just begun hahhaahah I'm planning Lucius, Severu, Harry, Draco, Ron, etc. muahahahh all of them will suffer at my hand. *cackles madly* Anyway, OH! Hey did you get your heater working. Reference A broken Child author's note. Lol. I'm still waiting. But hey life sucks it gives no time it's ok I'll just continue to wait here in the corner as I devise more plotlines lol.