Note: Non lo so is Italian and means I don't know.

Non Lo So

Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade.

Rating: PG 13 aka T

Dedicated to Italy!

Chapter 2/…

"Don't need to love me back." I muttered thoughtfully. I realized that I felt two completely different emotions that just didn't let me either smile or frown. There was both happiness and sadness.

I did like the feeling to be loved by someone who I had always been thinking hated me, but nonetheless being told that you were loved for the first time in your life and being told about it in such an… almost bored tone did hurt too. It couldn't be that much of a feeling if Kai didn't even care enough to keep it a secret, because frankly, that would have been what I had done if I were him.

I scowled and decided to stop thinking. It wouldn't help anyway. The first thing that came to my hollow thoughtless mind was an orange juice and I happily strode through the hotel room towards the kitchen, expecting to see Ray, the best cook I knew, inside, cutting some broccoli or tasting the soup.

When I opened the door, however, I saw an oddly agitated Kai… fighting loudly with Ray.

Now it would have been normal for Kai to fight with Max, Kenny or me. And it would have been an ordinary thing if Kai had been me, because I could fight with almost anybody, but Ray and Kai fighting? The considerate, friendly Ray glaring fiercely at Mr. Calm and Collected, who screamed at the top of his voice!

That was just creepy.

"If you would just dumb the daft act for a god damn minute, you'd see it yourself." Ray retorted icily. At that Kai furiously beat the counter with his fist. I jerked at the sudden act of violence. Even if everyone thought Kai was an aggressive guy I knew better. Usually he was quite calm, no matter how bad the situation seemed and never had I seen him that livid.

"See what myself! Oh sure, great all knowing Ray knows what's best for pitiful emotionally incapable Kai, right?" He snarled frantically. "Well you know what? Fuck you!" Kai whirled around and it looked like he'd run past me, but just at the moment he saw me he froze dead in his tracks, eyes widening in shock.

"I… I just wanted to grab a bite to eat." I stuttered, apologizing because I knew very well that it had looked like as though I had been listening to the whole fight without showing myself.

For a second it looked as though Kai was just going to resume his escape from the kitchen but suddenly he shoved me against the wall.

"Yeah just eat you fat pig." He snapped.

"Kai, that's going too far! What has he done to you?" Ray asked taken aback and quickly checked if I was alright.

I stared up at my team leader and saw his eyes trailing over my body, to see whether I was really alright and when he saw that he hadn't done any serious harm he turned to Ray again, this time more like his usual self and coldly said that Ray could not tell him what went to far and what not, since he wasn't God. About half a minute later I heard his door being closed and the door locked.

Something in my body clenched. Eating suddenly became the last thing I wanted to do.

Fat pig, huh? So that was how he really saw me.

To be continued