A/N: hey guys, sorry I've taken so long to update! I've been quite busy!
But I'm back now.
Liz slumped herself down onto the step of her apartment and let her head slide into her hands. Why was it that everyone seemed to be against her? When was she finally gonna catch that break that she'd been waiting for, for so long? She let out a deep heartfelt sigh and reached for her bag in search of her only real friend, the small brown book that had been with her though everything. Her hand delved deeper into her small bag as her fingers failed to light upon the small object for which she was looking. Still not finding it she raised her head and looked into her bag. Her pulse quickened and then slowed dangerously low as she realised that it was gone. Her blood ran cold.. Where was it? She had to find it, that book contained everything! Not just feelings everything but everything everything! The sort of everything that would bring the FBI knocking down her door and dissecting everyone in sight. She thought desperately back to when she had last had it, in the park with Adam! Adam. Liz' heart nearly stopped out of horror of the thought that crossed her mind. No he couldn't. he wouldn't! But as the colour began to drain back into her face Liz saw that he could, and he very easily wound! She had been betrayed yet again.
***
Kyle sat looking listlessly out of the kitchen window wondering when Liz would come back. Guilt clouded his every breath as he thought back to the transformation that Liz had undergone since the last time he saw her almost two years ago. He shouldn't have left them, he shouldn't have run away when they needed him most. But he had thought, no kidded himself, that they were OK, that they had all finally climbed out of the alien vortex as Alex had liked to call it. Another wave of guilt hit Kyle with sickening strength. He'd carried Alex' body, a torture he had to live with every second of the day, but he'd betrayed Alex in a worse way. Alex would never have left, he would have stuck by Liz and Maria through thick and thin. But no he, Kyle, had had to run at the first chance, leaving them to rot behind him. He was no better than Max!
'You know we don't blame you right Kyle?'
Kyle swung his head round to see Maria staring out of the window in the same fashion as him, her face calm and unemotional.
'But-'
'Kyle you did just what any one of us would have done! We were all trying to get away from Roswell, the only difference between us is that you succeeded and we failed! No one blames you, we all would have done the same.'
'Alex wouldn't,' said Kyle quietly.
Maria blinked back the tears at the mention of her best friend, 'No, perhaps not, but you're not Alex, non of us are!'
Kyle rested his forehead on the window, fighting back the tears. 'Every time I look at Liz I think I see the girl I dated back in high school, the happy girl, the girl with hopes and dreams, but when I look back I see who she is now, I see who we all are now.'
'Things change, Kyle, people change. Yes we've lost thing, but think about everything we've gained along the way. Alex wouldn't have changed it, remember what he said when you were trapped in that cave?'
'You know, I mean, you're part of this...this amazing thing. This...amazing knowledge that you HAVE that 6 BILLION people on this planet don't. You really want to step out of this cave if it meant that you were gonna be another dumb jock?'
'Would you Kyle? Would you really want to go back to that existence? Any more than I want to go back to being that clueless, blonde, hippie-chick, bouncing her way round high school believing that the only place worth being is in the top ten and the only person good enough to be there is me? Can't you see Kyle! We've gained so much along the way, sure we've lost a little too but when it comes down to it would you ever exchange any of it?'
'Just two things,' murmured Kyle. 'Liz and Alex.'
Maria nodded agreement and turned her eyes to look back out the window.
***
Isabel sat silently at the table listening to Maria and Kyle's conversation. She had no idea that that was what Alex had felt like, she'd never understood how any of them felt. It seemed weird when she looked back on it that she had never really trusted any of them, not even Alex, when they each held her life in the palms of their hands. Sadness crept over her as she realised that although these people had given up so much for her that she'd never really shown any of them who she truly was, she'd never allowed them to enter her life properly. Well that was one thing she could do right this time, she'd been given a second chance, one she wasn't going to waste. Alex would have wanted her to do this, she may have lost the chance with him but she could give the others what she'd kept from him. She would make sure that this time round things would go right, no matter what Tess said or did she was going to make the most of her blessing, and she'd be damned if max and Liz weren't gonna accept each other again!
***
Max and Michael looked across Maria's bedroom at Serena. 'What else can you tell us about the FBI?'
'I've been watching Maria and Liz for a while now. They're very clever, the FBI I mean, they must have enrolled here as students, otherwise they'd have been too obvious. But over the past couple of days there have been more and more of them, it's like they're flocking here for some reason, someone close to Liz and Maria must be supplying them with information or something.'
'Any idea who it could be?' questioned Max urgently, they had to get this sorted out as soon as possible, he didn't Liz any further in to this than she already was!
'No, they've kept themselves to themselves a lot, there's no one it could be.'
'What about Adam?'
'Well-'
They all turned their faces towards the sitting room as the sound of loud voices drifted towards them. Max leapt to his feet and rushed to the door, closely followed by Michael and Serena.
'What do you mean?' choked Maria angrily. 'He wouldn't do something like that!'
'He would Maria! He just did, it's gone! I'm telling you he's one of them!!' half-shouted Liz, her face aflame.
'Couldn't you just have dropped it?' asked Kyle reasonably.
'What's going on?' Max requested over the din.
'We have to leave,' replied Isabel from behind him, her face was white with terror.
'We what?' demanded Michael angrily. Leave? He'd only just found Maria, there was no way in hell he was leaving her now! Not while she was still stuck in this mess! the only time he was gonna leave was when she was out of this, when she was safe! 'The FBI have got Liz' journal,' explained Kyle.
'How?' asked Serena quickly before anyone could interrupt.
'Adam.' said Liz bluntly.
Serena raised her eyebrows.
'But-' interrupted Maria. She knew Adam, he would never do a thing like this! he just wouldn't! Surely she couldn't be as wrong as all that!
'He did! he came up to me asking all kinds of questions, so I left but now my journal's gone! I had it when I was talking to him.'
Serena looked round at her new found friends with a set face, 'No one leave this apartment. I have to go.' Why couldn't something go right for a change around here?
Liz slumped herself down onto the step of her apartment and let her head slide into her hands. Why was it that everyone seemed to be against her? When was she finally gonna catch that break that she'd been waiting for, for so long? She let out a deep heartfelt sigh and reached for her bag in search of her only real friend, the small brown book that had been with her though everything. Her hand delved deeper into her small bag as her fingers failed to light upon the small object for which she was looking. Still not finding it she raised her head and looked into her bag. Her pulse quickened and then slowed dangerously low as she realised that it was gone. Her blood ran cold.. Where was it? She had to find it, that book contained everything! Not just feelings everything but everything everything! The sort of everything that would bring the FBI knocking down her door and dissecting everyone in sight. She thought desperately back to when she had last had it, in the park with Adam! Adam. Liz' heart nearly stopped out of horror of the thought that crossed her mind. No he couldn't. he wouldn't! But as the colour began to drain back into her face Liz saw that he could, and he very easily wound! She had been betrayed yet again.
***
Kyle sat looking listlessly out of the kitchen window wondering when Liz would come back. Guilt clouded his every breath as he thought back to the transformation that Liz had undergone since the last time he saw her almost two years ago. He shouldn't have left them, he shouldn't have run away when they needed him most. But he had thought, no kidded himself, that they were OK, that they had all finally climbed out of the alien vortex as Alex had liked to call it. Another wave of guilt hit Kyle with sickening strength. He'd carried Alex' body, a torture he had to live with every second of the day, but he'd betrayed Alex in a worse way. Alex would never have left, he would have stuck by Liz and Maria through thick and thin. But no he, Kyle, had had to run at the first chance, leaving them to rot behind him. He was no better than Max!
'You know we don't blame you right Kyle?'
Kyle swung his head round to see Maria staring out of the window in the same fashion as him, her face calm and unemotional.
'But-'
'Kyle you did just what any one of us would have done! We were all trying to get away from Roswell, the only difference between us is that you succeeded and we failed! No one blames you, we all would have done the same.'
'Alex wouldn't,' said Kyle quietly.
Maria blinked back the tears at the mention of her best friend, 'No, perhaps not, but you're not Alex, non of us are!'
Kyle rested his forehead on the window, fighting back the tears. 'Every time I look at Liz I think I see the girl I dated back in high school, the happy girl, the girl with hopes and dreams, but when I look back I see who she is now, I see who we all are now.'
'Things change, Kyle, people change. Yes we've lost thing, but think about everything we've gained along the way. Alex wouldn't have changed it, remember what he said when you were trapped in that cave?'
'You know, I mean, you're part of this...this amazing thing. This...amazing knowledge that you HAVE that 6 BILLION people on this planet don't. You really want to step out of this cave if it meant that you were gonna be another dumb jock?'
'Would you Kyle? Would you really want to go back to that existence? Any more than I want to go back to being that clueless, blonde, hippie-chick, bouncing her way round high school believing that the only place worth being is in the top ten and the only person good enough to be there is me? Can't you see Kyle! We've gained so much along the way, sure we've lost a little too but when it comes down to it would you ever exchange any of it?'
'Just two things,' murmured Kyle. 'Liz and Alex.'
Maria nodded agreement and turned her eyes to look back out the window.
***
Isabel sat silently at the table listening to Maria and Kyle's conversation. She had no idea that that was what Alex had felt like, she'd never understood how any of them felt. It seemed weird when she looked back on it that she had never really trusted any of them, not even Alex, when they each held her life in the palms of their hands. Sadness crept over her as she realised that although these people had given up so much for her that she'd never really shown any of them who she truly was, she'd never allowed them to enter her life properly. Well that was one thing she could do right this time, she'd been given a second chance, one she wasn't going to waste. Alex would have wanted her to do this, she may have lost the chance with him but she could give the others what she'd kept from him. She would make sure that this time round things would go right, no matter what Tess said or did she was going to make the most of her blessing, and she'd be damned if max and Liz weren't gonna accept each other again!
***
Max and Michael looked across Maria's bedroom at Serena. 'What else can you tell us about the FBI?'
'I've been watching Maria and Liz for a while now. They're very clever, the FBI I mean, they must have enrolled here as students, otherwise they'd have been too obvious. But over the past couple of days there have been more and more of them, it's like they're flocking here for some reason, someone close to Liz and Maria must be supplying them with information or something.'
'Any idea who it could be?' questioned Max urgently, they had to get this sorted out as soon as possible, he didn't Liz any further in to this than she already was!
'No, they've kept themselves to themselves a lot, there's no one it could be.'
'What about Adam?'
'Well-'
They all turned their faces towards the sitting room as the sound of loud voices drifted towards them. Max leapt to his feet and rushed to the door, closely followed by Michael and Serena.
'What do you mean?' choked Maria angrily. 'He wouldn't do something like that!'
'He would Maria! He just did, it's gone! I'm telling you he's one of them!!' half-shouted Liz, her face aflame.
'Couldn't you just have dropped it?' asked Kyle reasonably.
'What's going on?' Max requested over the din.
'We have to leave,' replied Isabel from behind him, her face was white with terror.
'We what?' demanded Michael angrily. Leave? He'd only just found Maria, there was no way in hell he was leaving her now! Not while she was still stuck in this mess! the only time he was gonna leave was when she was out of this, when she was safe! 'The FBI have got Liz' journal,' explained Kyle.
'How?' asked Serena quickly before anyone could interrupt.
'Adam.' said Liz bluntly.
Serena raised her eyebrows.
'But-' interrupted Maria. She knew Adam, he would never do a thing like this! he just wouldn't! Surely she couldn't be as wrong as all that!
'He did! he came up to me asking all kinds of questions, so I left but now my journal's gone! I had it when I was talking to him.'
Serena looked round at her new found friends with a set face, 'No one leave this apartment. I have to go.' Why couldn't something go right for a change around here?