Things I'll Never Say
By Duck Goddess
Disclaimer: Don't own anything (including Iris by Goo Goo Dolls) and Leah.
Thanks to all my reviewers! I'm so glad I finally got rid of that damn virus!
Helldarkangel1 – Thanks! I loved writing about Ginny's tuna obsession since I LOVE tuna...it's the best food ever!
basketball15 – Yup, I originally wrote that chappie in April. Hmm...the word 'egotistical'...doesn't it remind you of Lily and James?
mairead – Yes, he is on crack. I loved writing about that side of him!
justahpfan – Thanks! Glad you liked it. Lol, yeah, I have to admit it is a bit freaky but I loved writing it since I have an unhealthy infatuation with tuna myself...I'm not sure if I'll be able to update soon next time, though. I just realized something. Ironically, you reviewed my friend's story and I'm her beta! Lol. I laugh at weird things.
Riality – Wow! I've never gotten such a review before. I'm really, really glad I'm your hero! –blushes- I'm sorry but I have no idea whether or not I'll be able to update soon next time since I have a virus and I transferred it onto my sis' laptop and she banned me from ever updating on her laptop ever again.
eatingmania – Yes, I am writing about Ginny. Although she possesses my infatuation with tuna, she has a totally different character. Well, that's what I think anyways.
iluvbeingme23 – Thanks! I'm not sure if I can update soon, though. I love your penname!
jenny – I love writing D/G but I like H/G as well. I'm actually an H/G shipper in canon. I liked the poem as well. I didn't write it though - Tiger Lilly Cayla did. Thank her!
Nerual Serip aka Tiger Lilly Cayla – LOL you copied my name-spelt-backwards thing! Is your comp okay? Why shouldn't you be reviewing? And, um, I've read your fic, I just haven't reviewed because I'm banned, remember? I love tuna too!
azimataiji – Geez, calm down, woman! I told you, I have a virus so I can't update frequently! Anyways, how is it embarrassing? Thanks for the review!
People who actually LIKE this story or my writing: Locked in the Loo is finally posted! It's the R/Hr one-shot I promised you.
Also, Happy Birthday, Draco! I just checked MuggleNet and realized that Draco's birthday is on June 5th. I was originally going to have his birthday on April 9th but oh well. Close enough. I'll probably celebrate his birthday in You Set Me Free, the last story in the trilogy.
Chapter Five
Ginny set off to the dungeons to meet Draco after going to the Kitchens. The strange thing was, she was arguing with herself. Should I tell Harry that I fancy him? And I STILL don't have any tuna!
No. Face the truth, Gin. You got over him in fourth year.
But he looked so helpless and sincere.
What the hell has happened to you? Hello, Gred, Forge and Ron. They could ask him to do this to distract you.
Harry's not the kind of person who would listen to them. He's my FRIEND, Goddammit.
That is why you should just tell him you don't fancy him because YOU DON'T. Friends appreciate honesty.
Cut the crap. You know you don't believe what you just said.
Why do you have to be so bloody smart?
"Malfoy!" Ginny called when she caught sight of him.
"Hi," Draco greeted monotonously.
"Er...what's wrong?" she asked.
"Nothing, let's get to work," Draco snapped and stalked into the dungeons.
"Okay," Ginny said. Geez, what's eating him up?
"So...why are you so cheerful? Did Potty finally ask you out?" he asked as he added the bicorn horn.
"Not really...he just said that he liked me, that's all," Ginny replied, carefully not looking at him.
"What did you say?" Draco said, trying to be casual.
"I said that I needed time to process it, since my brain is not big enough to contain that much info. And I need some tuna to help me think."
There was silence after that but Ginny soon broke it.
"Hey...you're a guy right?" Ginny said.
"Hmm...that's a difficult question but the answer is no, I'm not a guy," Draco said snarkily.
"Okay...the thing is, I don't like Harry but he's one of my best friends and I don't want to hurt his feelings," she explained, "So what should I do?"
"Just tell him, he needs to suck it up and get over it," Draco said oh-so-kindly.
Ginny didn't answer. That's weird; she usually has some witty comeback. I guess the thing with Scarhead really affected her. She looks so unlike herself. It was true. Ginny's chocolate brown eyes, normally filled with an eternal flame, were shut, her eyelashes wet. Her lips, normally drew in a tight thin line, were drooping down. She looks beautiful even when she's upset. She's the only one who really sees me.
"You're the only one who sees me, Ginny, that I'm not just some Death-Eater-to be. It's strange, I don't want to be Dumbledore's little saint like Potter but I don't want to be some Voldemort-worshipper either."
"How do I know you're not a worshipper?" she asked.
"Oh please, I'd rather be my father's house-elf than work for Voldemort." Ginny smiled, her eyes still closed.
Subconsciously, Draco moved closer to Ginny until he could count every freckle on her face and kissed her. Ginny's eyes snapped open. What the fuck is going on? She could see Draco's pale face reflecting the moonlight; she could feel his soft lips moving on hers. Ginny felt his tongue slowly slip into her mouth and acting out of shock, she pulled away and slapped him with all her might.
"WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR?" Ginny and Draco shouted in unison. A red handprint was now embellished on his face. Draco could see the fire in her eyes again and her lips were red from the pressure he applied. Her hair was dancing in deep red and gold waves. Before Draco could stop her, Ginny turned and ran from the dungeons.
What the hell did I just do? Why the hell did I just kiss her?
Ya know, Draco, if you needed to snog someone just go get Pansy. She'd make out with ANYONE, even Voldemort. And he'd probably kill her in the process.
Shut up, you. Okay, time to apologize to her. How?
She probably won't want to talk to you. Girls are like that.
And you're some expert on girls, eh?
Well, its not like you're so good.
Maybe I should send her another thing. Not a poem. Do you think she'd like a song?
No.
Didn't I tell you to shut up?
Draco snapped out of his feuding with himself as he heard a voice saying, "Stay away from her, Malfoy." He looked up and instantly narrowed his eyes. "Weasley, what the hell are you doing here?" Draco sneered.
"I forgot my textbook. I know you may hate us but don't use Ginny so you can get to us. She's innocent," Ron said angrily.
"She's not as innocent as you think. Maybe if you started caring more about her, you could get to know her better," Draco snapped.
"How would you know about us? You don't even know the meaning of family. Your family is evil and you're going to be a Death Eater just like your lovely, caring father," Ron hissed.
"Do you know what your problem is, Weasley? You judge people from what their family did. You're calling me an evil bastard when you don't even know me!"
"You know what you are, Malfoy? A HYPOCRITE! You say that I judge people from what their family does? Remember all those times you called Hermione a mudblood?"
"I've changed since then," Draco muttered, "And Ginny saw that. She knows that. That's why I kissed her."
"YOU LOVE HER?" Ron shouted.
"Merlin's beard, do you ever shut up?" Draco hissed, looking around to see if anyone heard.
"If you love her, prove it. Tell me how you feel about her," Ron said, folding his arms over his chest.
"I can't do that, you're her brother!" Draco said.
"Tell me!" Ron said menacingly.
"FINE! I think she's the most beautiful woman ever to exist in the universe, she's the cleverest and she's definitely the most sarcastic. Is that good enough?"
"If you hurt her, Malfoy, you'll have eight Weasleys after your blood," Ron warned and left the dungeons with his textbook.
Ginny continued running, even though she was a long way from the dungeons. She was getting closer to the Gryffindor Common Room when she saw Harry.
"Ginny!" Harry said, "I've been looking for you!"
"Hi Harry," Ginny said, checking to see if Draco was nearby.
"Well, I was wondering if you'd like to come with me to the next Hogsmeade visit?"
"Yeah, sure," Ginny replied, even though she didn't know what the question was.
"Great!" Harry said in a very chipper way and bounced off through the Portrait Hole.
Thank God he's not here. I don't know how the hell we're going to work together in Potions. Wait...what did Harry just ask me? Oh yeah, something to do with a Hogsmeade visit...I'll check when that's on. Ginny went into the Common Room and looked at the notice board. They were all to do with...-drum roll- Valentines Day. Oh shit.
The Hogsmeade visit was on Valentines Day, there was yet another delivery etc. SHIT! What the hell did I just get myself into? Okay, therapy time! She caught sight of Colin sitting by the fire.
"Hey, Colin," she greeted, sitting next to him.
"Hi, Gin. What's up?" he asked.
"Okay, when a guy you think you have feelings for kisses you, does he mean it or is he just messing with me?"
"Why? Who kissed you?" Colin asked eagerly, "Is it Harry?"
"No. It's...okay, don't freak out, alright?"
"Sure." Ginny proceeded to tell him all that happened since the Quidditch match.
"Holy shit," Colin swore, "Draco Malfoy? I mean, he used to call me a Mudblood!"
"He's changed, I swear. Besides, if he calls you a Mudblood again, I will kick his arse! Anyways, I'm gonna go up to the dorm," she said and left.
She arrived at the dorm to find the same eagle owl sitting on her bed. Great, more crappy poems. Ginny slit open the envelope but was surprised to find that it was empty. Instead, a song was playing. "Huh?"
It was Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls. (A/N: I'd love to put the lyrics here but the damn people don't allow that anymore so just listen to it while you read this). Merlin's beard! Ginny loved that song and soon found herself singing along with it. As the song ended, letters formed above the envelope saying: I'M SORRY. LOVE, YOUR SECRET ADMIRER.
"How did he know that's my favourite song?" Ginny asked herself. "Oh Merlin, he better not be stalking me! Holy cow, I have a stalker!"
"You have a stalker?" Leah asked arriving at the dorm since Colin had to go do Prefect duties.
"My secret admirer knows what my favourite song is!" Ginny said hysterically.
"How do you know it isn't Harry?" Leah said, grinning.
"Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you!" So Ginny explained to Leah what happened in that very weird day.
"So Harry's not your secret admirer. Well, whoever it is, I don't think he's stalking you. Has it ever occured to you that he just likes it as well?" said Leah, the ever-so-practical one.
"Oh yeah, he said he was sorry. I don't know why he would say that," Ginny said, her face screwed up with confusion.
"Well, Malfoy kissed you, didn't he?" Leah said, lying down beside her.
"But it doesn't mean that he's my 'secret admirer'. I mean, he's not the type of person who would do that," Ginny said.
"Urgh, sometimes you and your brothers are too similar," Leah said, getting up.
"Hey! Just because we all have red hair it doesn't mean we're too similar!" Ginny protested.
"Merlin, you had better get some more brain cells before I kill you!" Leah growled, going into the loo.
"Seriously, apart from red hair and Quidditch, how are we similar?" Ginny asked through the door.
"You're all thick-skulled!" Leah shouted back.
A/N: I love the song Iris! Please review!
Originally written: May 2005