Things I'll Never Say
By Duck Goddess
I would like to dedicate this chapter to Tiger Lilly Cayla. I'll miss you like hell and you'll always be my Charmed-HP-FF-AK-IZ-DF buddy/freak. You have to email me otherwise I'll get my minions to kill you via email. If you STILL don't reply, I'll go over there and kill you myself.
Disclaimer: don't own anything except plot and the lovely Leah.
Chapter Eight
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eatingmania – Ahem. –coughs madly- You couldn't be more subtle, could you? Yes, I did change it. Now, Blaise is in it! The only reason why he's in this story is cuz he sounds really hot. LOL. I'm reminded of Drew Fuller…drools. I can't forget GIR though…drools even more.
Draco ran back to the carriages, fuming. How could POTTER kiss her? Does she not realize that I am BETTER than the damn saviour? Okay, so maybe he saved the world but I am still BETTER!
How can she kiss him when a few days ago, I was in the position of Potter? Does she want to be with a saint? Well, to hell with her!
Draco stopped. How could he think that about her? Maybe it was just all a big misunderstanding...Oh, please. I saw them SNOGGING! He stepped into the carriage.
But it's no reason to be mad at Ginny...
You moron! Come on, she let him kiss her!
Maybe he forced it onto her...
Whatever. Frankly, I don't care anymore.
Yes you do.
SHUT UP!
Draco stared back at Hogsmeade. He thought he saw a flash of red hair flying across the town but he squashed the thought. No thoughts of Ginny. Just get over her. She doesn't want to be with a guy like you.
Well, you can test it. Send her another love letter. See if she comes.
"So I'm guessing you didn't like the kiss?" Harry asked, his face red.
"I'm sorry! It was a reflex. I didn't mean to slap you," Ginny said quickly.
"It's okay," he said sadly, the disappointment evident in his voice.
"Harry, you're a really, really good friend of mine even though you can be the biggest prat in the whole entire world. That's why I can't go out with you. We're too good as friends. I'd like to keep that relationship," Ginny said honestly.
"I understand," Harry said, nodding.
"That's good! Anyways, I have to go find someone. I'll see you later," Ginny said. She gave him a smile but before she left, Ginny reached up and kissed Harry on the cheek. It left a mark in Harry's heart. Ginny turned and left the shop.
Well, I guess that's the only kiss I'd get from her, Harry thought. Just then, Ron and Hermione walked in.
"Harry! What happened? Your face is all red," Hermione commented.
"Nothing happened. Thanks for the concern though," Harry said, smiling.
"Are you sure?" Ron asked. Harry noticed that they were holding hands.
"Yeah, I'm sure. You guys make a cute couple," Harry teased.
Harry didn't know who blushed more, Ron or Hermione.
"Anyways, I'm going to go back to Hogwarts. Bye!" With that, Harry left Honeydukes. He tried to look as though he was happy but he knew that inside, his heart was slowly demolishing.
Ginny ran through Hogsmeade, looking for a tall, skinny, evil-looking blonde-haired boy aka Draco Malfoy. But she didn't seem to see anyone that matched the description. Ginny checked her watch. It was nearly 2:00. The curfew was 3:00 since there could be Death Eaters walking around after that. She still had an hour left.
How could he just leave like that? Ginny asked herself. How could he just go back to Hogwarts, thinking that I willingly let Harry kiss me?
Ginny sank down on the steps to the carriages. If only I paid attention to what Harry was asking. God, ever since that damn Quidditch match, life has been so confusing; with the Death Eater attacks, it's just been even worse.
She saw Leah and Colin coming out of Dervish and Bangs; she wished she could be like them. Just being with the person you love. Ginny waved to them.
"Hi, guys," Ginny said as they came over.
"Why aren't you with Harry?" Colin asked.
"Oh, erm, it's kind of a long story," Ginny said.
"We have time," Leah said, exchanging glances with Colin.
The Younger Trio had left for Hogwarts. When they went back to Gryffindor Tower, Ginny wanted to go to the Girls' Dormitory to think. Leah and Colin stayed in the Common Room.
"I'm worried about her," Leah stated.
"Are you worried about her because of Malfoy?" Colin asked.
"No shit, Sherlock," Leah said. Colin laughed.
"Don't worry. I know Malfoy used to be the biggest conceited Death-Eater-wannabe in the history of Hogwarts but even I can see that he's changed," Colin said soothingly.
"I want to believe you but I don't," Leah said sadly.
"Well, just try to believe me. Ginny's clever; she'll make the right decision."
"Let's just hope her feelings don't get in the way of her sense of morality."
"Does Ron know about Malfoy?" Colin asked.
"I'm not sure...if he does know, he'll freak out," Leah said.
"I don't know, I mean, Ron's taking things better now," Colin said.
"The Weasleys and the Malfoys have hated each other for years. I don't think it's that easy to change the tradition," Leah said.
"We'll see."
Draco walked into the Slytherin Common Room to find everyone gathered there.
"What's going on?" Draco asked Blaise.
"Everyone's broken out of Azkaban again," Blaise replied.
"What?" Draco cried, "Oh God, that means my father is on the loose."
"Yup, he's on the loose. There's a Death Eater meeting coming up in about two months. Dad's taking me out of school so I can go. Your dad would probably do the same," Blaise said sadly.
"Wait, you're becoming a DEATH EATER? WHY AREN'T YOU GOING TO DO ANYTHING?" Draco shouted.
"What can I do? I'm a pure-blooded Slytherin; Death Eater immediately comes to mind!"
"You could..." Draco drifted off.
"See? I'm still wondering why you're not one. You're already seventeen."
"My dad was still in Azkaban when I turned seventeen. Besides, I don't even want to become one," Draco said.
"Yeah well, neither do I. But I don't have a choice. Unless we commit ourselves to Dumbledore but my dad would kill me if I did that," Blaise said with a wry smile.
What Blaise said made Draco have an idea. He didn't want the students' comments about him to become true. It was time for drastic action. Draco decided he'd go find him tomorrow.
"Drakey," Pansy simpered, "Are you going to the Death Eater meeting?"
"No. Why should I? I'm not even a Death Eater," Draco said coolly.
"You're not?" Pansy said, looking very surprised.
"Of course I'm not. Why should I waste the rest of my life working for some evil bastard liar who wants to take over the world but is probably going to die soon?" Draco said.
"DON'T TALK ABOUT THE DARK LORD THAT WAY!" Pansy suddenly cried.
"I can talk about him the way I want to," Draco drawled.
"YOU IDIOT!" Pansy shrieked. Draco went speechless, as well as the rest of the Common Room. Pansy had never shouted at him before. Actually, no one had shouted at Draco before except for Ginny.
"YOU'RE GOING TO GET YOURSELF KILLED IF YOU CARRY ON THIS WAY! JUST JOIN US! YOU HAVE A BETTER CHANCE THAN JUST SITTING ON YOUR ARSE, TWIDDLING YOUR THUMBS! EITHER JOIN US OR DIE! WHICH PATH DO YOU WANT TO TAKE?" Pansy screamed - her face looking as though it was on fire and her dark eyes were filled with a fire that reminded Draco of Ginny.
For once, Pansy's right. I can't just sit around and die...I have to join him. It's the only way.
"I'm going up to the dorm," Draco said coldly and he left the Common Room.
Draco sat down on his bed. My God, this day has been so damn confusing. Join Voldemort or die? There's no way in hell I'm going to die this young and pretty. Oh well, I've already made up my mind. I'll go see him tomorrow.
Blaise entered the room.
"Malfoy, the whole Common Room is talking about you," he said.
"So?" Draco said haughtily. Inside, he was worrying like mad.
"You better be careful, there are Death Eaters down there. If they find out about Weasley –"
"They won't!" Draco snapped.
"I'm just telling you to be careful, that's all. I mean, it's good of you to not want to be a Death Eater. But there are precautions you have to be aware of," Blaise warned him.
"Don't worry. I grew up with a Death Eater. I can handle this," Draco said.
"Dude, that guy was your DAD. These guys practically hate you. Actually, they DO hate you!"
"Whatever," Draco replied, "Blaise, you do know that you don't have to be one right?"
"No, I didn't know that," Blaise said.
"Look, I don't want you to be like one of those guys down there. I had an idea downstairs. You can come with me to see him tomorrow," Draco suggested.
"No. I told you, my dad would kill me."
Ginny tossed and turned, trying to get to sleep. She kept seeing Draco's look as he saw Harry kiss her. Ginny went over to Leah's bed.
"Leah? Are you awake?" she whispered.
"Ginny? What's up?" Leah said groggily.
"Do you think Draco's mad at me?" Ginny asked quietly.
"Merlin, I hate you!" Leah growled.
"What? Why?" Ginny asked.
"You woke me up to ask me that stupid question!" Leah snarled.
Ginny rolled her eyes.
"Just answer the damn question and you can go back to sleep," she said.
"Okay then. Yes, I think he's mad at you because he's madly in love with you!" Leah said quickly and soon, Ginny heard the familiar snores emit from her.
That didn't satisfy Ginny's needs. She went back to her own bed and continued tossing and turning. Oh God, how am I ever going to get through this? Ginny asked herself.
Geez, Gin, he's only a measly guy! Forget about him!
But I can't...
A/N: please review!
Originally written: May/June 2005