Dream On

Chapter 4: A Chat and a Broken Heart

The next day after potions as every one was leaving Severus told his daughter, "Shiva, may I see you a moment?"

"Yes, Professor." Shiva waited for everyone to leave and then asked, "What is it you want, father?"

"I don't want you to be thinking about or falling in love with that Malfoy person. Understand?"

"But, father…"

"No buts, Shiva. You are dismissed." Shiva just stood and stared at him angrily. "I said dismissed," Severus said again.

"Father, will you please let me live my own life?"

"What…"

"Just listen to me for once. I will love who I love. You never care to think of what I want. To you it's just what you want. Well, I want you to stay out of me personal life. Please, just leave me alone!" Shiva yelled. She quickly summoned her books and left with them.

On Shiva's way out Severus called to her, "You'll get hurt!" But she never heard. She was too busy fuming in anger. Shiva slammed the door and, once again, skipped lunch. The sixth years had no classes after lunch so Shiva headed up to the astronomy tower. There Shiva found an empty, quiet, peaceful place and just sat down in the middle. The room was bare and empty except for a window that was facing the back of the school. It looked out over an empty field. Shiva closed the door behind her as she walked towards the window.

For the rest of the evening Shiva sat by the window thinking things. She never noticed as her warm tears rolled down her cheeks as she cried loudly (although no one heard her). She never noticed as it grew dark. Most of all Shiva didn't notice Draco come in because he had heard her cry.

"Shiva?" Draco asked worried. Draco had never heard Shiva cry before. He hadn't heard Severus cry before or his father or his mother. In fact he had heard few Malfoys and Snapes cry. Shiva still didn't realize that Draco had come in. He walked over and sat down next to her. He didn't know how to comfort someone. No one had ever comforted him before either. No knowing what to do or what he was doing Draco began to sing softly, "I love you forever. I like you for always. As long as you're living my baby you'll be." Soon Draco had tears falling silently down his face.

Shiva looked up as soon as she heard singing. She saw Draco looking at her. Then Shiva noticed Draco was crying. Then she noticed that she was crying to and wiped her face dry with her sleeve. Shiva hadn't heard anyone sing, what she just heard, to her since she was little. "Where did you learn that?" Shiva asked.

"When I was little I was always alone. One day when my father was visiting yours I went with him. We stayed the night because our fathers had come home so late. At around twelve o'clock when I though I was asleep I heard singing. I followed where it came from and peered into your bedroom. You were fast asleep, but your father was singing to you, 'I love you forever. I like you for always. As long as you're living my baby you'll be." Shiva smiled as Draco sang once again.

"I remember the little boy who visited. He was kind and polite. I only met him once for when I woke up he was gone. I thought it was a dream. Now I know it was real. I never forgot the little boy with the silvery hair."

"And I never forgot the girl with the hair as dark as the midnight sky and eyes as deep as the sea." Shiva smiled again and then threw her arms around his neck. She pulled herself closer and rested her head on his chest. Shiva felt like the little girl who had sat happily on her father's lap as a child. Now she knew those days were over. Those days Shiva would never forget. But now, everything was different. Her father had changed. Shiva's whole life had changed.

Shiva felt her cheeks become wet again as she realized her father was loving her less and less as the days went on and the years passed by. 'One day,' Shiva thought, my father's love will abandon me completely.' Shiva felt herself be pulled closer to Draco by his strong arms as they wrapped themselves around her. Shiva looked up into Draco's face to see him looking out the window. His tear stained cheeks had a hint of red in them. Then his cheeks went pale as both of them heard something.

Draco stood up suddenly so Shiva fell. Draco turned towards the door and left quickly. Shiva never knew that Pansy was watching them through the crack in the door that Draco had left walking in. Draco walked out and grabbed her wrist. He dragged her into another empty room and asked dryly, "Why were you spying on me?"

Pansy ignored the question and taunted, "Wait till everyone hears how you like a Gryffindor!"

"You better keep your mouth closed!"
"What will you do?"

"What do you want?"

"You know what I want." Everyone knew how much Pansy fancied Draco, but Draco just ignored her.

"Fine. You're my new girlfriend. Now just don't spy on me again," Draco said disgusted that he lost to a girl.

"Yay!" Pansy jumped for joy and kissed her new boyfriend on the lips. Draco mentally slapped himself for having ever come to the astronomy tower. By the next morning at breakfast, as Draco walked in with Pansy hanging all over him, everyone knew that Pansy was Draco's newest girlfriend. Shiva was silent and didn't eat. She just stared at her food.

Throughout classes Shiva didn't answer questions as she usually would. Nor did Shiva participate much in class. Everyone was worried, including the professors and her father. That after noon at lunch Dumbledore announced who the talent show winners were. "Before I tell you who the winners of the talent show are I have to apologize, but there will be no hugs from Severus today as he is not with us right now. Anyways, third place goes to…Luna Lovegood, for her dance! Second Place goes to…Ginny Weasley for her singing! And finally, first place goes to…Shiva Snape for her singing!"

When Shiva heard her name she smiled brightly and walked up to the head table with Luna and Ginny. Shiva, Ginny, and Luna received hugs from Dumbledore and house points. Then Dumbledore handed Shiva her trophy. The entire hall cheered. Shiva, Luna, and Ginny bowed to their audience. Shiva smiled again to everyone, but the smile faded as she noticed that Pansy's head was leaning against Draco as her head had the evening before.

That was the last smile Shiva would give anyone for a long time. As Shiva sat back down at the Gryffindor table Ron hugged her. Next Harry hugged her and kissed her gently on her cheek. After Harry let her go Hermione smiled and hugged her. After dinner the three went back to the Gryffindor common room talking about quidditch, school, and other things they could think of. As the weeks went by, Shiva raised her hand and participated in classes again. The only thing was, she never smiled.

Soon it was the first of December. Lucky for the sixth and seventh years, they got a longer Christmas vacation. Everyone who went home was leaving that day. Shiva watched, from her window, the carriages leave. "I thought you were going home for the holidays," a cheery and familiar voice said behind her. Shiva turned around to face a person.

"Harry! Well, my mom is ill so I am staying at Hogwarts this year. What about you?"

"I usually go to the Weasley's, but I didn't feel like going this year. Hermione, Ron, and I were just going to hang out. You can if you want."

"I'd like that," Shiva said kissing Harry's cheek. Then she left Harry with a big smile on his face. The next morning Harry woke up early. It was only seven o'clock, but the sun was up. Ron was the only other boy there so Harry left him to sleep. Harry walked to his window to see that it was snowing. He looked down and saw a girl in pajama pants, with the legs rolled part way up her calf, and a short sleeve pajama top. As Harry looked closer he noticed she was dancing. Then he noticed the girl was Shiva. Harry's eyes widened and he got dressed quickly, but warmly. Then he ran from the common room and outside.

When he got there Shiva had stopped dancing. She was standing and looking at the lake, her back facing him. He could hear her sweet voice loudly singing, "Children sleeping, snow is softly falling. Dreams are calling like bells in the distance. We were dreamers not so long ago, but one by one we all had to grow up. When it seems the magic slipped away, we find it all again on Christmas day... Believe in what your heart is saying, hear the melody that's playing. There's no time to waste, there's so much to celebrate. Believe in what you feel inside, and give your dreams the wings to fly. You have everything you need, if you just believe. Trains move quickly to their journey's end. Destinations are where we begin again. Ships go sailing far across the sea. Trusting starlight, to get where they need to be. When it seems that we have lost our way, we find ourselves again on Christmas day... Believe in what your heart is saying, hear the melody that's playing. There's no time to waste, there's so much to celebrate. Believe in what you feel inside, and give your dreams the wings to fly. You have everything you need, if you just believe. If you just believe. If you just believe. If you just believe. Just believe. Just believe."

Harry clapped his gloved hands loudly. Shiva turned around and, when she noticed who it was, blushed. Harry smiled at her and Shiva smiled back. Harry's smile widened when he discovered that Shiva was actually smiling. Shiva ran up to him and said, "What are you doing here?"

"I saw you and came out. Aren't you cold?"

"No," Shiva said. She continued when he gave her a confused look. "I love it when it snows. The first day it snows each year I usually just run from wherever I am and come outside. Snow. It's like magic!" Suddenly Harry burst out laughing. Soon Shiva was laughing too. Then she stopped and Harry noticed she was grinning evilly. Suddenly a snowball whirled towards his head. Harry ducked in time, but as soon as he stood up straight another snowball hit him directly in the face. Shiva laughed.

"I'm gonna get you for that, Shiva. You better run!" Instead Shiva turned towards the lake and shouted, "Race you to the lake!" Before Harry could say anything Shiva was halfway there. Harry ran after her, but stopped, his eyes wide, when he noticed she was gliding across the lake. It was frozen solid. Before the lake had never been frozen.

"What the?"

"It's a spell my mother taught me," said a warm voice in his ear. Harry turned and almost knocked Shiva to the ground. He caught her just in time. "Thanks, Harry," Shiva said standing up straight. Then she gently kissed Harry on his lips. Before he could respond she pulled away and glided across the lake. Harry watched her in amazement. He had never seen her so happy. He looked at the ice and tried to glide lie she was doing. As soon as he stepped onto the ice, however, he slipped and fell. Harry heard Shiva laughing and looked up to her hand extended to help him up. Harry took the hand and Shiva helped him stand. Shiva didn't let go of his hand as she helped him along on the pond.

Little did they know it Draco was watching all of this from the window of the sixth year boys' dorms. He felt a pain tug at his heart as Shiva kissed Harry. Something he had never felt before. Like the boy he was, Draco ignored it and turned away from the window. At the moment Shiva was helping Harry along the ice. Then as he was getting the hang of it Harry felt Shiva's hand let go of his. As soon as she did Harry fell. He fell in front of her so Shiva tripped over him. They both started laughing, but were cut short as Harry crashed his lips into Shiva's.

When they broke apart for air Shiva was smiling a very real smile. She felt warm like when she had first kissed Draco. Then before any of them could say anything Harry kissed Shiva again except more passionately this time. When they broke apart again Shiva stood up. She helped Harry up. Harry kissed her again and again in short, yet sweet, kisses. Finally Harry stopped and looked at Shiva who smiled at him. Shiva couldn't help the words that came out of her mouth, "I love you, Harry."

"I love you too, Shiva," Harry replied smiling. Then he threw a handful of snow at her. She laughed and said, "I'm getting cold. Can we go back inside?"

"Sure. Come on," Harry said picking up Shiva. He carried her back inside and up to the common room ignoring her protests that she could walk herself. After Shiva took a warm bath and changed into her winter school robes she walked into the common room to see Hermione and Ron talking about a class that they were in without Harry or Shiva.

"Hi, Shiva," Ron said slowly.

"Hi, Ron," Shiva said cheerfully. Hermione smiled at her and said, "Where is Harry?"

"I'm not sure." At the same moment Harry came downstairs dressed in school robes. He smiled at everyone and then asked in front of Hermione and Ron, "Shiva?"

"Yes, Harry?"

"Will, you be my…um…my…"

"Girlfriend?" Shiva finished for Harry.

"Yes. So?"

"I already am," Shiva said kissing Harry again. They looked at Hermione and Ron whose eyes were wide. Then Hermione started clapping and soon Ron joined in. They both smiled at the new couple. Vacation went fast and Shiva had already told Harry that she didn't belive in sex before marriage. Harry said he didn't care. He would wait if it meant he could love and be loved in return. The only time people saw Shiva smile was when she was with Harry. Even then she didn't smile often. Love was in the air as Valentine's Day rolled in. Before anyone knew it the sixth year was over.

Severus forbid her daughter to see Harry over the summer and had already decided that it was best if she was home schooled for her seventh year. Without permission from her father Shiva owled Harry at least three times a week. She would owl Hermione and Ron as well. She soon lost contact with Ron, but owled him now and then once in a while. During what would be her seventh year, when she was being home schooled instead, Shiva lost contact with Hermione because she had graduated early and was now doing aurora training. The only person Shiva actually owled a lot was Harry and Sirius, who had been found by the Ministry of Magic and was awaiting a trial. Shiva had told Harry about her friendship with Sirius and he was happy for her. Shiva was just as happy when she found out that Sirius was Harry's godfather.

As soon as she was eighteen, Shiva went to a university to study to be a Potions Master. One day when Harry was visiting her she received a note in her father's handwriting. It was blurred from tears so she knew something bad had happened. She opened it up and read to Harry:

"Dear Shiva,

Do not be alarmed as you read this letter. It depresses me to tell you that your mother is dead. She died in an accident at Diagon Ally. I do not yet know the details in how she died, but I am asking you to please return home for a few days so you can attend her funeral. You may come at once.

Your Dear Father,

Severus Snape"

"Shiva, I'm so sorry."

"You shouldn't be. You did nothing wrong. You never even knew my mother." Then Harry helped Shiva pack to return home for a few days. While Shiva was home Harry would be visiting with Hermione and Ron. Shiva returned home for her mother's funeral. The day of the funeral her father told her something, "It was my fault your mother died."

"No it's not. You didn't do anything."

"Yes I did. We got in a fight before she left. She left the house to find somewhere where she would be welcomed and not have to argue with anyone. If I hadn't of fought with her she might still be here. I never even got to sat goodbye." Then Severus cried silently as Shiva just kept silent.

Soon after her mother's funeral Shiva and Harry were wed. Severus didn't attend the wedding as he was ill during that time. He recovered, but never visited Harry and Shiva much. One day, when she was 21, Shiva returned home and screamed in joy, "I'm pregnant!" Harry and Shiva rejoiced for they had been trying to get Shiva pregnant because she wanted a baby badly. Nine months later Shiva gave birth to a baby girl with thick black hair and jade green eyes. The baby's father wasn't there to welcome his daughter into the world. Shiva left the hospital soon afterwards to meet Harry in Diagon Ally. Unfortunately when she got there she witnessed a Deatheater kill Harry to avenge his master's, Voldemort, death. Harry was dying slowly and painfully. Shiva cried out and ran to her dying husband.

"Harry, please don't die. You need to see your daughter."

"I see her," Harry said softly looking at the baby in Shiva's arms, "and I know she will do great things. Take care, Shiva, and know that whatever happens I will always love you. Goodbye, my love." Then Harry closed his eyes and his soul was slowly driven from his body.

"Goodbye, Harry," Shiva said, tears falling from her eyes as Harry died. Soon after Harry's funeral Shiva's father died. Shiva felt her heart fall into a million pieces. "I have lost everyone I have ever loved," Shiva told herself every night before she cried herself to sleep. Then when Shiva heard that Hermione and Ron were getting married her heart broke remembering her marriage to Harry. Each night as she put her baby girl to sleep she told her stories of her father, Harry, and her grandfather, Severus. Shiva's heart was permanently broken, or so she thought.

Did you like my story? Isn't it sad so far? I am not done so don't think I am. What should I name the baby? I really don't know so I am asking for your suggestions. Thank you for all the reviews I have gotten and please R&R this chapter. Thanks!