There she goes

by Vampire Toy

“Children have the uncanny ability to know that they’re different and that their love is special at a very young age, it’s when they get older that others cloud their hearts.” A series of events leads Hinata to realize things about herself she’d rather no

3. The demons inside us

There She Goes

Chapter 3: The demons inside us

By: Vampire Toy

PG 13 (Just in case)

Disclaimer: Me no own ;;

Summary: "Children have the uncanny ability to know that they're different and that their love is special at a very young age, it's when they get older that others cloud their hearts." A series of events leads Hinata to realize things about herself she'd rather not know, but are these realizations going to make her fall deeper into depression or help her survive? (Votes for side couples or rivalries welcome)

"Talking"

(Thinking)

:Sound effect:

The meeting ended pretty quickly after I joined in. The Hokage and all the guests (which I noted were from the Hidden Snow, not the head of the Hidden Leaf clan's as I'd thought earlier) kept giving me uncomfortable glances, while my father kept his cold expression through his pain. The gathering broke up around twenty minutes later, with the subject of our conversations being mostly about protecting the Hidden Snow from the Hidden Grass.

My opinion or voice was not called for, so I didn't speak unless someone spoke to me first. In my boredom, I studied a beautiful jar the Hidden Snow had with them upon the table we had been sitting around. It had unique blue patterns all along its sides and something I couldn't quite view was written on the lid that was half covered by a long black cloth that also wrapped around the bottom of the container.

"Thank you for visiting, I hope this is all cleared up now, and thank you for coming even in your state Mr. Hyuga." Tsunade said to the representatives and to my father as we left.

"Yes the problem has been resolved," the Snow Nin turned to my father, "I'm glad we had this opportunity to discuss our trade."

"Further discussion will be held in a few more weeks." My father replied to the Snow Nin.

"Yes, and until then, best of luck working with this." The Snow Nin handed my father the pretty jar wrapped in cloth.

"Thank you, it's appreciated."

(What's IN there?)

"Goodbye sir, may your health better," both Snow Nin bowed and walked out, disappearing quickly into the now misty afternoon.

"Father…" I began timidly.

"Hinata, you've begun to run off a lot lately. I've excused it only because you've kept up your training, but this is inexcusable."

"I-I'm sorry…"

"That's not good enough Hinata, apologies will never be good enough. Your actions must show me you're sincerity."

"W-what should I d-do?"

"Hnn, there's nothing you can do now. You missed the important part of the meeting so I'll tell you on our way home; because you'll be training the rest of today."

(All day? I suppose that's fair; I need to work harder)

"Yes father."

"Your sister is stronger than you Hinata."

My heart stopped and I lowered my head ashamed.

"Neji is stronger than she is."

(Yes, Neji is very strong; he's proven that)

"Hanabi cannot take over unless you were to die, despite her being the stronger of you two."

My heart began beating faster this time and it felt as though someone was trying to rip it out of my chest; how much longer was I going to be compared to her?

(I am reminded of this everyday when I see her, father; you don't need to restate this in my mind…)

"Should I….pass away soon, Neji might seize the opportunity. Ignore what he's told you about accepting your position. He's built up this hatred all his life; I am doubtful it will vanish after only that one statement his father left."

(What are you trying to say then?)

"He might come after you and will easily succeed in defeating you and taking over."

With every word he spoke, my heart was pierced in pain; the first time I had heard him say these things, it was not in front of me, but now he was bluntly saying them to my face…..saying what he thought of me…

"Hanabi at this point wouldn't be able to fend him off either. His victory is guaranteed and it is likely he'll kill Hanabi as well."

(What are you trying to achieve by telling me these things?)

"I have thought over finding a husband for you, a strong reliably man to protect you and take over our clan."

He paused and stopped in front of our home's gate.

(We're here so soon? The agony probably keeps me lost….)

The guards rushed to open them and we walked inside.

"At this point, however, I could not find anyone stronger than Neji who was also from a decent clan."

(So…I'm not being sold?) That doesn't change much for my self-esteem, all those things you've said… have already depressed me.

He walked into his office and waved a hand for me to follow. I meekly proceeded into the room, closing the door; this was obviously not a conversation for anyone else to hear. I turned and saw my father sitting in his chair, the jar in front of him as he leaned ahead with his forearms on the desk in front of him to support his tired body. He looked near fainting, but I bit my tongue from trying to get him to go to bed.

I should at least wait till he finishes…(I don't want to hear what he has to say…)

"The only way to protect the clan, is to make you stronger."

"I will push myself and train hard everyday." (Not that I haven't been…)

"Good…good… but….that alone wont help you Hinata…..at this point, even you must realize, that your resistance only goes so far."

(Your saying…..I'm weak….I'm worthless, I knew that before you did)

"That is why I have made this deal today….a deal with the Hidden Snow."

"…."

"See this jar? This holds your future strength."

(…..)

"In return for the Hyuga Clan's protection against the Grass Nin, who are trying to take some of their valuable resources, they have given us their demon."

(WHAT!)

"Eh….?"

"Hinata, most every village at one point has caught a demon, whether for use or to protect itself; many demons dwell in rough climates such as snow. This Hidden Snow demon…. It's a demon that was so powerful it almost destroyed them; but as with our Village, they caught it and sealed it in here."

"W-what are y-you saying….w-what's it for? N-no one can control a demon!"

(Not without a body they cant! But….but he wouldn't ….)

"That's why you'll be training to your absolute limits and beyond for the next two or three months, understand?"

"NO!"

"Hinata…"

"S-sorry, I-I don't….understand…."

"They gave us this demon to give to you…..we need to prepare your body to take in this demon….it's rather weak right now, it's been sealed for so long….but that's best for you, because that way, you can learn to control it before it can control you."

(No, no, no, no….NO! This…NO! He's not serious! This is a sick joke; he wouldn't make me do this…no….)

"In this, you will be able to protect our Clan from itself and outsiders."

Tears started streaming down my face; I had been ready to cry all day and now….with this news…this…terrible news…I couldn't hold them back anymore.

"Hinata…"

":hic: Please…p-please t-tell me…your joking :hic: I-I cant take in a d-demon…. I-"

"Hinata!"

I began shaking and my I threw my arms around my body as if to hug myself tightly… because no one else was going to….I might as well do it myself.

"I-I can't do t-this :hic:"

"Hinata! Don't speak like that! I was assured this would work, you would be safe."

"N-no!"

"Hinata!"

"NO!"

"HINATA!" He pushed himself up with, what seemed renewed strength, and shot me a pained glare, though, whether it was his own physical pain or pain in seeing me cry, I wasn't sure.

"Please…just…" he dropped back into his seat taking in deep shaky breaths and rubbing his temples as his face twisted into a look of desperate frustration, "…just go….train, go train! We'll speak again….later….and, don't you dare run off….just…train…."

I let out an anguished sob and spun around, threw open the door, and dart out, almost slamming into Hanabi and tripping over her as I faltered on my hurt leg. I stumbled, gaining back my balance and I shot her one surprised look before letting out another wail and throwing my hands to cover my mouth before running as quickly as I could with my slight limp down the hall.

(Daddy! Why would you put a demon in me? Don't you have any confidence in me? I can become stronger! I don't need to….I don't……need….)

Do I? DO I! No! Just- I-I can't!

I have to leave here; I have to get out! (Well you could go where you always go…because…you know she'll be there) I….I hope so….(Of course she will!)

I ran past the guards, who were used to my outbursts and hadn't heard yet that I wasn't to leave. I stumbled clumsily when I got out of my home's gates; the mist left over from the rain was unusually thick and I was confused at first as to where I'd run. I paused for only a second before darting off into the direction of Sakura's house.

As I ran my leg began to ache again which only made me sprint faster; the medication was wearing off; I'd have to get to Sakura's house quick or my leg might slip from under me while I'm running. I was already weak from the emotional stress and again I was running a long distance with a hurt leg.

I finally reached her home and hit the door when I couldn't stop in time and stumbled back, fumbling back onto my bottom, my hands by my side, breaking my fall a little too late.

I sobbed harder and gasped for air; I couldn't even stand up, I was crying too hard and my entire body felt like it was having a seizure of some sort. My leg began throbbing wildly and the stinging pains went up my leg again like it had the first time.

:Click:

"Hnn…? Hinata!"

I looked up through the blur of my sobbing and only trembled more violently.

(She's here; she's here…)

"Hinata!" Sakura rushed over and took my face in her hands, "Hinata! Are you ok? What's wrong? Are you hurt? Are you ok? Does anything hurt? Tell me please! I need to pick you up! I don't want to hurt you further or anything…Hinata!" she hugged me tightly and my sobs were caught in my throat for a moment in surprise.

"M-my….leg…" I murmured softly into her shoulder.

"Y-your leg! What happened? Which one..? Er…umm, oh, it must be the bandaged one, heh, ok I should've known that! Alright, I'm gonna pick you up, tell me if anything else hurts ok?"

I nod and coughed, my crying reduced to sniffles as I tentatively reached up to wipe away some of my tears.

"Put your arms around my neck, can you? Here," she took her thumbs and rubbed away some of my tears lightly from the corners of my eyes. I wobbly wrapped my arms around her neck as she leaned over and she quickly threw one arm around my back and another one under my legs. She slowly stood up and walked into her home cautiously, leaving the door open as she made her way to her room.

She laid me down gently and rushed to shut the door and ran back.

"Ok, now, where does your leg hurt? Does your entire leg hurt or jut a small part…?"

"J-…my whole leg…h-here…"

"Alright, stay still, I'll get you something for it ok?"

"Ok…:sniff:"

"Oh Hinata!" she hugged me again and this time I hugged her back, wrapping my arms around her neck and closing my eyes lightly.

(This is nice, she should just stay here with me like this, its comforting…) she pulled away and ran out the door; I could here her fumbling around the house as she searched for medicines and ointments.

:SLAM:

"OWW…!"

"S-Sakura?"

"I-I'm ok! I just…..ran into a desk, I'm ok! Don't move!"

"O-ok…"

Sakura soon came running back in with bandages and creams and medicines stuffed in her arms and one bandage roll in her mouth. She dropped the things beside me on the sheets and dropped to her knees besides the bed.

"Can you swing your legs down here?"

I dangled my legs over the side of the bed and she pointed to my left leg curiously. I nod and she immediately went to work; she got water and washed out the wound (though I'd already taken a shower, I must not have cleaned it too well) around my sprained ankle and put on some creams, then wrapped the bandages firmly around my hurt leg.

"Does it feel ok? It must hurt now…it looks painful, er…here, these pills are painkillers, drink this one…I mean only if you're in pain right now! If you can't feel anything…."

I smiled at her and took the pill, she quickly handed me a glass of water and I gladly swallowed the painkiller.

"Thank you Sakura-chan….you're always taking care of me." I took another sip of water and Sakura just laughed and sat down next to me, taking a deep breath to calm herself.

"I don't look at it that way. You'd do the same for me."

"I would."

"Are you hurting anywhere else?"

(Does my heart count…?)

"No. Thank you."

"So….Hinata, please….tell me what's wrong…..you came here crying again…." She grabbed my arms and checked my wrists and I chuckled slightly when she couldn't find anything except the healing cut from yesterday.

"I didn't try to kill myself Sakura."

"That's good….so what's wrong then?"

"Well…"

"You can tell me." Sakura smiled, I smiled in return; it was hard not to. Her hair was everywhere and her big smile always cheered me up. She was the only one I knew who smiled at me with more love than my ever family would.

"Ok."

Vampire Toy: AI! Shit, shit, shit, ok somebody pointed out two HUGE mistakes on my part XP Hokage is now Tsunade and servant has some other name O-o hnn, oh crap, well, I rewrote it to the best of my ability, thankfully those little factors didn't change my plot at all, I just hope that Tsunade wasn't too OOC this time ' they can call her 'Mistress' right? Hnn, hope so nn; My bad, I wrote the 2nd chap. really late at night after watching my Naruto DVD XP so I shoulda already known the old guy was dead nn' (feels insanely stupid). Well, lets pretend there was another servant aye? (paranoid) unless there's a Hokage limit to only having one O-o…..if that's the case then I'll have to change the servant part too. My apologies again, and thank you so much for pointing that out! Feel free to point out anything else I might've messed up, I wanna try get this as believable as possible.

Ok, now about THIS chapter, whadda think? Super long! There might be problems with this too cause its late and this is the only time I have time to write….ahem, well, I'm positive the village mentioned is a real one, just not very important, since there's not much on it I made up some things on it, as well as the demon and its aspects (as in, every village has a demon, that might not be true, its made up). Hopefully Sakura wasn't too OOC this time. Whadda think about Hinata's 'outbursts'? I figure someone like her can only express their feelings in 2 ways, bottled up sadness or venting to someone; now that she has someone to vent to, why not:D WHELP. Tell me what you thought, thanks for the help and the reviews! R & R and flames welcome XP