Disclaimer: Yuki isn't mine, Shuichi isn't mine, Tohma isn't mine... you get the point, right?

A/N: This chapter is dedicated to clari-chan, my new beta-reader, and to Megamie, who offered to help me, Thanks!

Author's brain: ...maybe I should ask Megamie to beta read my CCS fanfics... and clari-chan my Gravitation ones... and then when I start writing that Ruroni Kenshin fanfic I'll ask someone else to beta-read that and... ¬¬

Ajem, let's start ok? Read and review! Better yet, read and ENJOY!!

Chapter Three: No feelings from the past

Shuichi had never run so fast in his entire life. He went straight to the floor Tohma had told him Yuki was in and left the others behind in the car. The words Tohma had said were repeating themselves in his head over and over again…

-flashback-

"Shindou-san…"

Shuichi shook his head, it couldn't be, it wasn't possible… it isn't happening…

"Shindou-san listen, Eiri he-" Tohma was abruptly stopped by Shuichi, who grabbed his arms and started shaking him.

"No!!" He screamed at his boss, "he is fine, he must be fine!!" Hiro tried to hold him back, but he didn't stop.

"Where is he?" When the man in front of him didn't answer he took a step back.

He's fine, he can't be… no, he can't be…

Reading the look on his face, Tohma quickly understood and put a hand on his shoulder.

"He'll be fine, he's in the hospital now, I'll take you there". Shu looked up, already in the verge of tears. When the boy nodded, the president of the company arranged everything and left with him and Nakano towards the hospital.

-end flashback-

Shuichi arrived at the floor he was looking for and went to the nurse central. A young woman looked at him and asked, "May I help you?"

Shuichi was panting; he had climbed the stairs of the six floors because the elevator was too slow. Trying to catch his breath he said "Eiri… Yu- Yuki…" The nurse looked at the records, and answered "We don't have any patient under that name sir". Shuichi felt paralyzed for a second, why wasn't he there? What if he has taken somewhere else? What if… what if it was too late??

Just in that moment he heard a feminine voice behind him say, "You should try Uesugi Eiri, Shuichi" He whirled around and saw Mika, Yuki's sister behind him. He started crying of relief, he was so stupid, of course he wouldn't be under his pen name! That would attract fans and the media, and Yuki would hate that!

The nurse said "Uesugi? He's still in surgery. Are you his relatives?" Mika nodded and asked when she could see her brother. The nurse told her a doctor would came talk to them soon. Meanwhile Tohma and the others arrived. Mika hugged her husband, both feeling the need for support. Hiro took a seat next to where Shu was and put a reassuring hand on his shoulder. The boy rested his head against him, he looked so pale, like he was the one who needed a doctor.

"Hey, Shuichi, wanna eat something? Maybe we can go to the cafeteria or something" Shuichi shook his head, he didn't want to leave, so Hiro asked again "Sure? You must be hungry, you were about to eat when-" Hiro stopped at those words. He knew his best friend. He didn't want to think about it. He stood up and told everyone "I'll bring drinks to everyone" He looked again at the boy and walked away. He hated to see him like this, consumed with the fear of loosing his lover.

Hiro cursed as he entered the elevator. Why it had to happen now, when everything was going so well? The band was more popular within every minute and they had several concerts scheduled for the next three months. Shuichi had been so happy, especially when he managed to convince the blonde writer to go with them to one of his concerts outside Tokyo. It was an all-winning situation, Sakano had even been more relaxed, and Suguru looked like he was for once enjoying the rehearsals. And now this.

Shuichi heard Tohma and Mika discussing something. He didn't pay attention though. In his head all his thoughts were directed to his lover. He tried to convince himself that everything would be fine, that the doctor would come back and say "He'll be fine, he was lucky there wasn't much damage, you can go see him now". He silently begged God to hear those words. He didn't want anything else. Never before had he wanted anything so desperately, he would give anything to hear Yuki will be fine...

In that moment a doctor came out and asked something to the nurse. When she pointed at them, Shuichi jumped from his seat and waited. For the three of them the world seemed to stop and then go in slow motion, matching the doctor's pace. They tried to read in his expression the result of the surgery, the answer to a silent question they all knewcould change their lives for better or for worse.

At the sight of the anxiety of the three people before him, the doctor smiled. "He'll be fine".

The effect of those small words was visible immediately. Mika held Tohma's hand and smiled out of relief. Her husband looked like the world's weight was taken off of his shoulders. Shuichi started crying silently, and as he heard the next words he felt like he was the luckiest person in the world, his desire had been granted: "he was lucky there wasn't much damage, you can go see him now".

Tohma agreed, not so easily, to call Tatsuha and tell him the good news. Hiro, who had arrived shortly after the doctor came out, called Sakano and the others. As for Mika and Shuichi, they went to see Yuki. As they walked to the room the blond was in, she took Shuichi's hand. The boy looked at her surprised, and she smiled at him. "We are family now, aren't we Shuichi?" He nodded and smiled, then squeezed her hand slightly. They entered the room and looked at the man both a little shocked.

Yuki was lying on a bed, tubes and machines surrounding him. The doctor had told them he had an arm broken as well as two left ribs, a black eye and several bruises and cuts. A fragment of steel had pierced his left shoulder and caused some damaged to the muscle, but in general he had been extremely lucky. He would be able to leave the hospital in a couple of weeks or so. Considering the state of other victims of the accident he was perfectly fine.

Mika let go of Shu's hand and took her brother's. He looked so peaceful, despite the bruises and cuts, he looked as handsome as always. She let her breathe out slowly and then said to Shu "I'll be back in a second". He understood. He had been able to release the tension he had felt the second the doctor assured him Yuki was fine. Mika needed some time. He took a seat and grabbed Yuki's hand. For a while he only stared at him.

After what seemed to be hours, he realized Mika was taking too long, maybe he should go look for her? But he couldn't leave his side. It was already late afternoon though. How did time pass by so fast? The boy looked at the door again, and sighed, she would be fine, but on the other hand the writer... "Yuki... You are so mean! You make me worry so much!" he smiled at his own foolishness and kissed his forehead. "Yuki..."

As he had heard the boy call him, the man opened his eyes. He looked at the boy strangely and to his surroundings. It looked like it was already night. What the hell had happened to him??

Shuichi however didn't notice the confusion in his face. All he knew was that Yuki was awake. And that made him happy. "Yuki-" He stopped when he finally noticed the man's puzzled look. He was about to explain everything he knew when he heard the words that would make him wonder if the nightmare had not finished yet, but begun.

"Yuki? I think you are confusing me with someone else, my name is Eiri. And who are you? I don't think I've met you before".

"What? Yu- Yuki that's not funny! I- I'm Shuichi! Of course you know me! I- I'm your... I'm-" Shuichi couldn't finish the phrase, and Yuki's next words didn't help him either. "So I know you? Are you a friend or something? Then why are you calling me by that name instead of my own?"

Shu looked at him. He wasn't teasing him; he didn't recognize him. He felt his heart falling apart, again, for the second time in one day. He didn't know how to answer. And then Yuki smiled at him and said "Well, if we are friends you must call me by my first name! That's what friends do right? Hey, have you seen my sister? Maybe she could tell me what's going on..."

There's something wrong. He never speaks this much. He never smiles so easily. He had never asked me to call him by his first name...

Shuichi ran out of the room, leaving a very confused Yuki behind.