La Li Ho! So it took me a while, I know, but it was worthy. I hope you'll enjoy it. Ja ne!

Disclaimer: I own only this plot, but it's so good I don't mind this time I don't own the characters on it (yeah I have a huge ego).

Beta-read by: clari-chan

Chapter Five: Together Again?

Shuichi managed to avoid confrontation for almost three weeks. Every time he visited Yuki he would tell him he hadn't found the proper time to talk to Mika and Tohma because they were busy with dealing with the media and the hospital papers. Yuki would say nothing about it and then Shu would change the subject and talk about something else.

The truth was he was just plain scared. After that afternoon he had gone to Hiro for advice, and the guitarist had told him to talk to them as soon as he could, but also to be careful. To get into their 'bad side' was dangerous, not only for Shu's relationship with Yuki, but for Bad Luck.

And the last thing Shu wanted to do was to affect the band. Surprisingly enough Suguru and Hiro had told him to go for it, and even K and Sakano had given him some words of support. All of them had agreed that 'A Shuichi without Yuki was like no Shuichi at all'.

That had made matters worst. The lead singer was supposed to keep the band together, not to risk it for his lover. Every time he was in front of Mika or Tohma he would loose all his courage and just run away. He felt like a coward, and not without reason: wasn't he the one that had risked it all to be with Yuki before? And know he couldn't even confront Mika.

Deep inside the pink haired boy knew that he was scared of being with Yuki again. After three weeks Yuki still didn't remember him at all. Of course, Shu didn't expect him to wake up one day with all his memories back, but the writer hadn't shown any sings of improvement. And that troubled Shu more than anything did.

Finally, two days before Yuki was released from the hospital he told Shuichi that, if he didn't talk to his sister, he would do it instead. Shuichi considered this idea for a second, but when he saw Yuki frowning at him he promised he would talk to them that afternoon.

So now he was expecting Mika and Tatsuha to come visit Yuki so he could talk to them. Hiro was with him for moral support mostly, because he had made clear he didn't want to get involved on this love quarrel. In that moment they arrived. Shuichi jumped from his seat and looked at them. This... this was definitely not going to be fun.

--

"What?! You better be joking!" Shuichi looked a bit scared of the woman in front of him. Maybe to him Yuki wasn't scary at all, but his sister was definitely another story, and Tatsuha was also looking at him like he wanted to murder him. Shu had expected this reaction from Mika, but he had thought Tatsuha would be one his side...

"I... well-" Mika interrupted him immediately "There is no way I'm letting Eiri go back to that apartment. He's doing quite well now, and I intend to keep him that way, he's going back to Kyoto with us and THAT'S FINAL!"

Mika's tone didn't give much space for a retort, however Shu wasn't ready to give up. As scary as Mika could be Yuki was more important than whatever his incredible scary sister could say. Or at least that was what Shuichi was thinking when Tatsuha intervened.

Yuki's younger brother put a hand on Mika's arm and then, looking straight into the older pink haired singer he spoke.

"I never thought you'd be so selfish. I always believed that you would do the best thing for my brother, so I supported you. I was wrong. Shuichi Shindou, you only think about yourself, and that's despicable".

Shu was startled by those words. However he wasn't the only one, because Hiro, completely forgetting his previous promise of not getting involved, reacted immediately.

"Hey! Don't speak to him like that!"

"Shut up! You have nothing to do with this, so shut up!" Tatsuha looked at the boy in front of him. "I can't remember the last time I saw my brother so relaxed. Or the last time he talked to me like that. He's happy now, can't you see? He doesn't have any bad memories from NY anymore. And I like that. I like having my brother back. Maybe I'm selfish too, but I truly believe that living without those memories is the best for him. Can you say the same?"

Shuichi looked at the floor, ashamed. He wanted the old Yuki back, he wanted to hear him call him baka and then kiss him softly before returning to work. But all that time he hadn't thought that Yuki was better this way; he didn't want to notice that his lover had slept peacefully during the last weeks without him by his side, or that Yuki had smiled and spoke nice to everyone and acted kindly even to strangers.

Tatsuha was right, he was being selfish. At that last thought Shuichi ran out towards Yuki's room. Mika tried to follow him, but was stopped by a serious looking Hiro.

"Let me pass".

The guitarist shook his head and Tatsuha took a step forward. "This is something Shuichi has to do alone". Tatsuha and Mika were looking at him like they were about to stomp over him when a voice was heard behind Hiro "I agree with you, Hiro. If our singer doesn't fix this on his own he'll be complaining for weeks".

A smiling Suguru stood behind him.

"You are late, Suguru".

"Maybe, but I brought help with me" Hiro turned around just to see K polishing one of his guns.

Mika and Tatsuha looked at each other, and then sighed. Until Tohma arrived they were trapped there. Meanwhile Hiro wondered how did Suguru manage to put an easy smile in such a situation where he would normally be the first one to complain. Well, he is Seguchi's cousin after all.

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Yuki had been reading one of his novels when the door burst open. Shuichi was there, looking at the floor, and for a second the blonde man wondered if he had done something to cause that painful expression.

"I'm sorry, Eiri" Shu muttered. He was trying hard to stop the tears that were forming on his eyes "Tatsuha is right, I was being selfish..." Shuichi began sobbing; he was feeling so stupid and guilty. Yuki looked at him surprised and, not sure of what to do, he walked towards the boy and put a reassuring hand on his shoulder, thinking it would make him feel better.

Instead Shuichi began crying. It was too much: the accident, the loss of his memory, living alone (Shu had moved back to their apartment), and now realizing that he had been thinking only about him when he should have been thinking on what was better for Yuki. No, not Yuki, Eiri...

"Hey, what is it? What you mean you was being selfish?" Yuki grabbed the boy and shook him a little. He definitely hated seeing this boy cry. "I- I-... I think y- you should g- g- go to... to Kyoto"

"What? Why?" He had heard Shu talk about lots of things they could do after he was released from the hospital, and now he believed he should go to Kyoto? "I- well... All- all your family lives there- and- and..."

Shuichi was having a hard time to complete his sentences. He wanted to hug Yuki, kiss him and hear him say 'let's go home brat'. But that wouldn't happen, instead Yuki would say 'I'll go home with my family, maybe you can visit us some time', and that would be it. He will have to see Yuki leave him again without knowing if he'll ever be back. Just the thought of it was breaking his heart.

"They all think that's be- better and- and- I think the- they are right- I'm so sorry Y- Eiri! I- I-". The blonde chuckled softly and then with one hand made Shuichi look up. "You think that's better too?" Shuichi opened his mouth, but no words came out of it. What was better for Yuki?

Finally calming down the pink haired boy took a deep breath and nodded. "They can take care of you" he felt miserable, but deep down he knew it was for the best "And if you don't remember what happened before..." He trailed off, tears flowing down freely "You are better off without those memories".

"So what if I am? What gives you the right to decide that?" Yuki sounded furious now, for the first time since the accident he was glaring at Shuichi. It made his heart skip a beat. "Maybe I want those memories back, no matter how terrible they are". Then he smiled softly, the way he used to do after Shu had made something stupid, "I want to remember" you he thought, but no words came out as he stared into those purple orbs he had began to like so much.

"But... but you are happier like this! And Mika and Tatsuha-"

"To be entirely honest I hate when my sister tries to force me into something she knows I don't want"

The singer smiled and giggled a little, he knew that first handed.

"I don't like Kyoto, and if they want to be with me then they can come anytime, right? Tokyo is not that far for them".

Shuichi was grinning at him now. What could be better than that? If Yuki truly wanted to be with him, who was he to stop him?

"So there's nothing we can do to change your mind, Eiri-san?"

Shuichi turned around to see Tohma and Mika looking at him.

"No". Yuki was looking serious again "The past of a person it what makes his present have sense. I want my past back, to understand why I'm here".

Mika was about to complain when Tatsuha smiled at Shuichi and said "I guess we can't do anything about it" Tohma nodded as well. Being surpassed by number Mika stormed out of the room, while Tatsuha grabbed Shuichi out of the room as well "Take care of him, Shuichi. Oh, and sorry about earlier if I was too harsh." Shuichi shook his head "You were right, I was being selfish... but I will take care of him".

In the distance three smiled at the scene. Hiro looked at K and Suguru, "Let's get out of here. I promise we'll have that rehearsal after Yuki-san gets back to their apartment".

Three days later...

-Shuichi's POV-

It was weird. Yesterday afternoon Yuki came back from the hospital. Oh, yeah, I should stop calling him Yuki in my head. I'm still amazed I had only called him Yuki a few times. I already explained him that that's his pen name, but he says it sounds weird, so I call him Eiri.

I remember many times before I tried to call him by his first name, but never really the courage to do it. And now he had asked me to do it. I think I should feel happy about it, but I'm not, it just doesn't feel right.

Also I had to remove every trace of us being lovers. I hadn't realized until now how deeply my intrusion has gotten into his life. It took us two whole days to have it ready, poor Hiro didn't know what he was getting into when he agreed to help me. He also stayed here, sleeping the couch.

These past weeks I've been sleeping again in my room. I don't sleep too well, but it's better than nothing, and I need to get used to because I highly doubt Yuki... Eiri! Yes, I highly doubt Yuki will let me sleep with him. Damn I said Yuki again.

Well, I shouldn't be to hard on myself, after all I've called him Yuki for more than two years! Well, I also have tried to call him different ways, but Yuki hates nicknames, even or especially if they are in the range of honey, sweetie or anything remotely similar to that.

A few hours ago I was right in this same spot waiting for him to arrive. Since I don't have a driver's license or a car I had to agree to Seguchi's request to drive him here. Hiro and Suguru had to hide the phone from me because I wanted to call every two seconds to know if they were coming soon.

I should've with him at the hospital, but I needed to finish taking some stuff out of our room before he arrived. Yuki's room! Not our room, Yuki's! Ehh... So I spent almost an hour wondering if Seguchi would be capable of taking Yuki to Kyoto without telling me. And I don't care what my band mates tell me, I'm pretty sure he is, and I think they believe it as well, they weren't very convincing with me...

-yawns- I'm sleepy, but I don't want to go back to my room. And I don't think I should move from this spot, half an hour ago I found myself entering into Yuki's room... He looked as cute as ever, all those bruises he had are gone, and all that's left is the scar made by that steel thing on his left shoulder.

I wanted to give him his computer back, but somehow I couldn't, so instead after he arrived, and I managed to get Hiro and Suguru out, I took him to that restaurant he loved so much. It was rather amusing to see his face when the manager looked at him and greeted him as he knew him since forever. It was also kind of sad. Still we had a good time there and Yuki thanked me for it because he was tired of the hospital food.

After we arrived again to the apartment he took a shower and... and ... ... eh? Oh, sorry, I was thinking something else, where was I? Oh yeah, the shower... ajem, well then I took mine and we watched a movie before finally going to sleep.

Or well before Yuki went to sleep. Today I have a rehearsal after almost a week of doing nothing of work. We have a concert next week, and I need to practice. Of course we practiced while Yuki was still in the hospital, but today it's gonna be at the place where we'll be singing. And it's four am and I haven't sleep anything.

K is gonna kill me. But I can't sleep, not after what happened after I came out of the shower! I keep thinking about it over and over again and it doesn't let me sleep! I want to be in the same bed as Yuki, and curl myself against him!

-flashback-

"Hey Shu! There's a good movie on the TV, don't you want to watch it with me?"

Shuichi jumped immediately the couch next to Yuki. He glanced at the man next to him and had to his mouth shut to prevent drooling over him.

Yuki's blond hair was still a bit wet, and some bangs covered his eyes. He had a towel around his neck and no shirt. His dark blue pants made a strong contrast against the pale skin of his chest. Shuichi could smell the soft scent of the shampoo he had used. And then he turned around and looked at him with those incredible bright golden eyes and smiled softly at him.

Shuichi excused himself to the kitchen saying he wanted a soda and tried to calm himself. In a normal situation they would been making out the second Shuichi saw him. But this wasn't a normal circumstance and Shu sighed before turning around with two sodas.

Yuki was there, looking at him, topless and sexier than ever. He looked eatable. And then, still smiling, the blonde man leaned over and took one of the sodas from his hand and began to drink from it. It was like one of those commercials with a hot chick drinking a soda or water, with sweat covering their body...

The picture was way to disturbing for Shuichi, and after a moment realized he was staring at Yuki, so he had opened his own soda hoping it would make him think of something else. It hadn't. All kinds of thought passed through his head, but none of them had anything to do with the movie they watched. He had always accused Yuki for having all kinds of thoughts like that, and often he had called him a pervert, but now he understood him. Too bad he couldn't just jump over his lover and eat him alive until he heard him scream and moan wpleasure...

Shuichi shook his head over and over again during the whole movie, but with little effect. And after Yuki dropped accidentally some crumbs of chocolate cookies over his chest and his pants, and Shu's first thought was to lick them off, he decided to call off the night.

Luckily for him Yuki was already tired and agree to rent the movie to see the ending later and went to bed. Shuichi's hungry eyes followed him all the way until he closed the door.

-end flashback-

Now, several hours later Shuichi was unable to sleep. And couldn't help staring at the door behind which Yuki was lying asleep instead of making love with him.

My body felt like it was on fire,
When I saw yours.
Several minutes have passed,
But the feeling won't stop.

And it's longing for you
Screaming and craving,
Even if my mind says stop
My body won't listen anymore.

I wanted you so badly
Right there and then
My mind became clouded
My hearth did as well.

And I know now that for a while
I'll be feeling the same
There won't be any sleep tonight
'Cause I want you by my side.