A/N: Well everyone, this is it. This story is coming to an end... I can't believe it! I feel like crying... but don't fear, I have many ideas for new fics, and the ones I already started. A year ago I posted my first fic, and now I'm about to finish my favorite one...
Anyway, I want to thank all the readers and the reviewers. Last time I checked it went like this:
-Five reviewers cried
-I was kicked four times (one in a response to a review I placed!)
-I was asked twice if that was the end
-Two reviewers thought Yuki was dead
-I was called meanie at least twice
-Someone out there hates me
-And someone out there asked to be informed of this update (if you are not a signed reviewer leave yout mail and I'll tell you when I update )
Well... read and enjoy, and I'm ready to be shot after this... but hopefully no one will try to kill me... Now that I think about it, I better go hide.
Disclaimer: I am the Evil Queen, but still I own nothing. I just dedicate my time to make other people's chatacters suffer
Beta-read by: ME! Forgive me if there are mistakes, but... Clari won't be able to help me for a while...
Chapter Ten: Unbreakable
"Shuichi..."
A hand was placed on his shoulder, but he didn't move. He didn't dare to open his eyes, he just couldn't. He wasn't strong enough to face the reality.
"Shuichi..."
The voice seemed to fade away, and with it, all thoughts were erased too. If he had known this would happen, would he still have risked it all and fallen in love with him? Would he have done everything the same?
Would he have stayed by Yuki's side?
--
"Come on! Yukiiii!"
"Shout up brat, I'm not going, no matter what you say".
"But Yukii! It's Bad Luck's anniversary party! You promised you would go with me!"
"That was before I knew it's at the park in the middle of the day. I have no desire to be chased by stupid fans, thank you."
"But Seguchi-san closed the park so we could have this huge celebration! And besides it's gonna be just some guys from NG and us! No one will bother you, I promise!"
"Does that include you?"
"Yukiiiiiiiiiii! ... ... ... please?"
-sigh- "Fine, but don't expect me to stay all day long there, ok? I have better things to do than looking at a bunch of morons fooling around".
--
Hiro looked at his best friend and sighed. Shuichi hadn't said a word since the paramedics had arrived and taken Eiri to the hospital. The boy looked out of himself, and had showed no reaction at all.
Meanwhile, he had been making calls to everyone from Seguchi to Shuichi's little sister, hoping someone would arrive soon and take care of the hospital policies while he took care of Shuichi.
Every now and then, the ghost of a smile would appear in Shuichi's face, just to be replaced by that blank look again seconds later. Hiro was getting more and more worried each time.
--
"What are you doing brat?"
"Nothing".
"Isn't the grass wet?"
"Not really... it's kinda nice just being here, you know?"
"... if you wanted to stare at the clouds you could have done it from the apartment, instead of dragging me here".
"..."
"Hn? Are you falling asleep!"
"Ouch! Yuki, you didn't have to kick me!"
"I didn't kick you that hard".
Shuichi rolled over to lay on his stomach as Yuki sat down on the grass. What could be better than to have the whole place to themselves?
--
"Excuse me? Nakano-san?"
Hiro turned around to see a doctor looking at Shuichi worriedly.
"Yes?"
"I was wondering if your friend is all right. He looks a little pale".
The guitarist smiled sadly at that. 'Looking a little pale' was a nice way to put it.
"He's fine I guess. This whole commotion it's been a bit to much for him".
"Well, you are in a hospital, if Shindou-san needs someone to talk to we can call someone from Psychiatry to help him out".
"... Thanks, but I think he just needs some time".
"Fine, call me if you change your mind, ok?"
--
"So how long do we have to stay here?"
"Well... we can leave if you want to... but there's gonna be cake later in the afternoon, so maybe we can stay 'till then?"
"... what do you think you are doing?"
"What?"
"Don't you put that innocent face on me, I won't fall for it this time".
"Hehehehe, ok. It's just... I can feel your heart beating".
"So you unbuttoned my shirt for that?"
"No, that was for the view".
"..."
"..."
"What!"
-smile- "Ne, Yuki?"
"What?"
"Don't you wish we could stay like this forever?"
"...NO".
"No? But Yukii!"
"I can think of better ways to spend my time than lying in the grass next to you".
"Wha- ... oh".
--
Tohma and Mika arrived at the hospital in a rush. They have never been so scared before than when Hiroshi called and told them Eiri had been taken to the hospital again. The first thing they saw when they arrived was the two friends sitting next to each other. And then Mika exploded.
"YOU!" She signaled Shuichi as she walked fast towards them. "This is all your fault!"
Hiro cringed at the harsh sound of her voice and immediately stood up in an attempt to stop her.
--
"Come on! Yukiii! Please don't go!"
"Move brat"
"No. Yuki please try to understand! Why are you so mad? It's just a photo!"
"I'm not mad. Now either leave or enter the car, because I'm leaving".
"... fine... but Yuki, he didn't mean to upset you. He just thought we looked so peaceful and maybe we would want to have a picture of it".
"Hn".
"Can't you just wait 'till I say goodbye? Please?"
--
"Move out, this is non of your business".
"Listen Mika-san, Shuichi has nothing to do with-"
"Nothing to do with what! If he hadn't convinced Eiri to go back to that place this would've never happened! Eiri would be just fine! This is all his fault!"
"I'm sorry".
"Shuichi has nothing to do with this!"
"Why?"
"How can you say that!"
"Because if I hadn't dragged you there we would've stayed home and you wouldn't be mad at me..."
"If Shuichi hadn't been there no one would've noticed what happened".
"I'm not mad at you, so stop worrying about it".
"If that brat hadn't convinced him to stay here he would have been in Kyoto and this wouldn't have happened at all!"
"Yuki... I love you so much..."
--
"Brat... Brat... Wake up dammit!"
"What!"
"What the hell were you dreaming about! You scared the hell out of me!"
"Yu... Yuki?"
"Who were you expecting? Mickey Mouse?"
"Yuki... Yuki! It's you! It's really really you!"
"Brat get of me! Of course it's me! What the hell is wrong with you?"
"I- it's just- I-"
"Why are you crying? It was just a stupid dream, it couldn't have been that bad".
"But it was! Yuki- I- there was an accident... and... and... you forgot m-me and-"
"If I forgot you it was a blessing, not a nightmare".
"... he... It was all so real... you were so nice and all..."
"Are you implying I'm not usually nice?"
"...no...it's... you were so different... and I missed you even if you were there... and then you fell unconsious and... and..."
"... brat. It was a nightmare. That's it. None of that happen, I'm here aren't I?"
"...yeah... but-"
"No buts. I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere".
"Really?"
"Yeah"
"You promise? You won't leave me like that?"
"... I'm not sure I can promise that brat".
"...ok..."
"But I can promise I'll try. Is that enough?"
"Really? I love you, Yuki".
"..."
"I like you a lot Shu-chan"
"Wha?"
"Why were you crying about? And who's Yuki?"
"E- Eiri?"
"Well yeah. Were you expecting someone else?"
"Bu- but Yuki! He- Why- what did you do to him!"
"Shu what are you talking about?"
"I...nooo! You promised! Yuki you bastard you promised!"
"Shuichi what are you talking about?"
"You are not him! I want him back! I- Eiri? Wake up! Eiri!"
--
"It's his fault! I don't care if you try to defend him! This is all your fault Shuichi! You hear me!"
"Mika-san please! Don't you see this is hard for him too?"
"How hard can it be for him!"
Hiro was there, trying to stop Mika. Seguchi was trying to stop them both from arguing there. There... in the hospital... so it had been just a dream... Why?
Shuichi felt his eyes stinging and closed them again trying to stop the tears that threatened to fall but didn't quite appeared. So it wasn't enough for him to go through this hell, on top of that he had to dream of all what he had lost? He had had to believe for one blissful second that this had been all a nightmare, that he had been with Yuki all along? He had to go through that loss in his dreams too?
What kind of cruel entity could do this to him? Why couldn't he just close his eyes and see that it was all ok? Why couldn't he go back to that morning when he said goodbye to Yuki as always and make it right, stopping him from driving that day?
Why did he have to be here, listening to Hiro and Mika fight instead of lying in the grass with Yuki, talking about clouds and feeling the beating of his heart? Why did he have to go through this all over again?
"Why don't you shout up!"
The sound of Shuchi's voice startled all of the people present and made Hiro turn around only to see his friend looking at them with his eyes red from all his crying, and he realized Shuichi was about to loose the little control he had left.
"What? Shindou-san, I think we all need to clam down and-"
Tohma was cut of by an angry singer, that took on them all the pain and the desperation he felt.
"You think this has been easy for me? To see him everyday and not be able to be near him? To see him treat me as a friend and look at me without recognizing me? To realize that he's not remembering anything that we went through? To sit next to him and tell him we are friends when all I want is to tell him how much I love him?"
"Shu-"
"You think it was easy for me see him faint in front of me and think that I might not hear his voice ever again? You- you-"
Shuichi shook his head, trying to control his breathing and Hiro rushed next to him. One last time... all he wanted was to kiss Yuki one last time, to hug him, but he wouldn't he..
"He's dead..."
After mumbling those words Shuichi suddenly began laughing uncontrollably as his best friend sat him and tried to control him.
"Is everything all right?"
A nurse had begun walking towards them, and Hiro almost panicked. Last thing they needed was Shuichi having a mental breakdown and being drugged. He knew his best friend, and knew that if he wasn't there when the doctor came out to tell them how the writer was he would never forgive himself.
"Everything is fine, don't worry. We just need a little privacy, that's it."
The nurse didn't seem too convinced by Tohma's words, or his polite smile, but decided to leave them alone.
"Thanks Seguchi-san".
"Don't worry about this, Nakano-san, better take care of Shindou-san, he looks like he needs it".
Hiro looked at his friend, who was currently mumbling something incoherent.
"I think we'll need that psychiatrist after all..."
Mika looked around and then she sat next to her husband. She began crying silently for her brother.
Thirty minutes later...
Shuichi had been staring at the ceiling for good twenty minutes now. His head rested in Hiro's lap, who continuously looked down to check on him. Suguru had arrived a couple of minutes ago, saying K was picking up Tatsuha and his father, while Sakano picked Ryuichi and Maiko up.
Little after that a doctor had come out to explain them that a coagulum had been developing since the day of the accident. The 'silent assassin' he had called it. He had also explained that there was nothing anyone could have done to prevent it, and now Eiri was having an emergency surgery to try to save his life.
Hiro had hoped that the news would help to take Shuichi out of his stupor state, but it had only seemed to make him more oblivious of his surroundings.
A couple of minutes later Sakano arrived with Ryuichi and Maiko. And they waited. The minutes became hours, and time kept passing by, without any news on the blond man's state.
"... I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere".
"Really?"
"Yeah"
"You promise? You won't leave me like that?"
"... I'm not sure I can promise that brat".
"...ok..."
"But I can promise I'll try. Is that enough?"
Suddenly, as for mighty inspiration, Shuichi stood up, scaring everyone in the process.
"Shu? Are you alright?"
"...I'm hungry".
"What?"
"Hiro, is there a vending machine here?"
Everyone stared at him, but Shuichi made no sign of feeling down anymore. He smiled at his best friend and then asked again.
"Hiro? Oh, but I forgot to bring some money..."
"Hiro, what is going on? You think he finally lost it?"
Hiro shook his head at Suguru and carefully approached his friend.
"Shu? You okay man?"
Shuichi looked at him and then sighed.
"No... but there's no point on being here just waiting, is there? Yuki's going to be there for a while and I'm hungry, so I thought we could go eat something."
"Yeah...but..."
"Don't worry Hiro, everything will be fine".
Mika looked up in that moment.
"How can you say that? Eiri...he- he is-"
Shuichi smiled at her and cut her of at the same time.
"Yuki is strong. He won't just die like this, he's too much of a bastard to do it".
Everyone blinked in confusion. Shuichi looked confident on what he was saying and, for the first time in months, he had a confident smile that reached his eyes and show hope.
"Shuichi... listen, I don't want you to get any false hope, ok? He's having a very delicate surgery. Even if he survive... well..." Hiro looked around for some support, but no one wanted to say it aloud. "He might end up as-"
"No".
"Shu..."
"No Hiro. I know him. He won't die. He'll be fine, and then everything will be back to normal".
Suguru looked at the singer and shook his head. After being in the band with him for so long, he had began to love him as a brother. He admired the way he never stopped hoping for the best and how he never gave up no matter what. But this was ridiculous, and it pained him to see him like that. He glanced at Hiro and understood that the guitarist felt the same way.
Shuichi was in denial.
"Shuichi..."
The pink haired singer smiled at them. He knew Yuki could die. He understood it wasn't really up to him but to the doctor's abilities and luck. Buthe wouldn't give up. He had had enough. He was tired of that feeling of loss and desperation that had accompanied him lately. He knew now that he wouldn't be the same if Yuki died, maybe he wouldn't even survive the pain of loosing him.
But he wouldn't give up. Not now.
"I need to believe Hiro. I won't break now. Yuki would hate me if he saw me like this, all pathetic and desperate".
"Shindou-san..." Tohma and Shuichi looked at each other and then the older man understood. He smiled too.
"It's too soon to give up hope".
It had been only two hours since that when a doctor came out of the surgery wing. He looked tired after spending so many hours saving the writers life.
Shuichi felt a reassuring hand on his shoulder, but kept his eyes fixed on the doctor. This was it: The end of this nightmare or the beginning of something even worse.
Sad ending? Happy ending? No ending at all?