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Last Chance – Part 2
Paige Matthews, she knew who she was and where she'd come from. Too bad she remembered how she got there – to bad she couldn't forget that! She was sat on the front steps leading from the manor, looking into the darkness, she refused to cry for her past…she refused to give it that satisfaction. One thing that she did do was now sit and think about it. About how she got here…
Arm wrapped around her waist as someone sat down next to her, "Honey?"
It was Piper, Paige looked next to her, "We don't have to do this you know…"
"I think we do…some of the stuff In there isn't easy to just forget"
"Yeah and some of the stuff that particularly I said in there near the end I want to be forgot" Paige explained as she pushed her hand threw her hair.
"Like I said not that easy…talk to me"
"It was all put into my past Pipe…"
"Yeah and in there are two sisters fighting over how to deal with our past, one which you helped them accept so let me help you. Look, just talk to me about what you're thinking about right now" Piper said warmly, Paige felt strangely drawn to Piper's caring nature.
"What I'm thinking about right now?" Paige asked. Piper nodded her head, yes. "I'm thinking about how I killed myself after mom and dad died, I killed myself with drugs and sex and no one cared. Because I had no one, to care – until I fell for a guy, Glenn, he was a guy who…cared about me. And god did I fall hard. I lived with him, I lived for him and he loved me Piper…I know he loved me like I … I still love him" Paige looked down the street as she blinked tears away. "One night, I got wasted. And…I was raped…by a guy who I had always considered as a friend. Glenn found out, and he near enough killed him, then after that we tried, I tried so hard. I just couldn't let anyone near me…and, I lost him. He couldn't deal with it…with me… because I didn't let him deal I wouldn't let him help me. I went back to hard core drugs, and I pushed him away." Paige whipped away the silent tears that fell. "I haven't let a guy get close to me emotionally since…it's just sex now. Because…to me, it's easier… the worst part of been raped was the guilt…I couldn't look at Glenn, I couldn't let him touch me because…" Her voice cracked as a sob fell through, "Because I loved him too much."
"Have… you ever talked to someone about it? Did you go to the police?" Piper asked she was obviously hurt. Paige whipped the tears away not liking to show this emotional weakness as she saw it, "I lived in a different world to this Pipe…you didn't get involved with the law mostly because I was doing so much illegal shit myself it would have been like cutting my own throat. Glenn sorted it out…I just remember him coming home with blood stained shirts and having to throw them into the wash."
"Maybe if you talked it out with someone?"
"I'm not crazy Piper, I've dealt with the rape…"
"What about with trust? Can you trust someone now…a guy?"
"I don't know…" Paige said, she turned to Piper, "Truthfully I've never let myself try." Paige shrugged her shoulders, "Would you trust a guy again?"
"No, I don't think I would" Piper said truthfully.
"Well truthfully… I don't think I ever will"
"So what your just going to keep sleeping with guys? Not letting them get too close." Piper asked,
"It's worked this far" Paige explained, "it's hard for me Pipe"
"I can imagine it is Paige but hell you deserve a hell of a lot more than this…you deserved to be loved"
"Do I?" Paige asked, "Yeah see I have a hard time accepting that also… that I should be loved because I always seem to hurt them. The ones I love. I mean looks like I pretty much pissed Phoebe off in there"
"Hell that girl, as much as I love her, sometimes needs someone to tell it to her straight. In there right now my two sisters are thinking very carefully about going to see a father who three hours ago neither wanted to acknowledge… I think they owe you a lot."
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"I don't understand why now when he's dieing if he cared that much then we'd have been told earlier" Phoebe explained, she was now a lot calmer having blown of her original anger – directed wrongly at the youngest – but she was now back to herself, as much as you can be after hearing your youngest, new found sister was raped at the age of seventeen – kind of put a hell of a lot in prospective.
"Well I've got as much anger towards the guy as you Phoebe, I mean I can't remember a time when I haven't hate him but Paige…she's right I do have questions…and I do want answers…" Phoebe pushed her hand threw her hair, as she decided she needed to get away from this so she stood up. "I'm getting out of here okay…look I'm not running I just need some space some thinking time"
"Well in that case take all the time you need…just promise me one thing… you don't drink yourself into a depression…"
"Can't promise you that Prue…"
"Well lie to me then. Just so I can pretend your okay"
Phoebe smiled, "Don't worry about me…I'm going to hit a few beers"
"Before you go what's going on with you and your guy…did he hit you?"
"Nah, he grabbed me… my arm. Just another of our fights I was drunk he was drunk. I have to talk it out with him."
Prue nodded her head, "Okay well look…you need me, any time give me a call. And be careful" Phoebe just nodded.
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The door behind them opened and Phoebe stepped out, she saw her two sisters on the step. "Oh sorry guys didn't mean to break into anything"
"It's fine" Prue said as Paige sat up out of her arms.
"Err, Paige I kind of want to…"
"Phoebe you don't have to"
"Yeah I kind of do…how I acted in there was Bang out of order. I just lashed out and you were there…I'm sorry" Paige stood up and turned to Phoebe,
"I said it don't matter…it's over Phoebe. I mean we are sisters now huh? Ent that what we do…fight?" Paige smiled, Phoebe had known that pAige had been crying but she knew that Paige didn't want her to know that so she left it.
"Yeah, we are sisters and I don't want it any other way"
"Well good, cause you ent getting it any other way." Paige laughed as she walked up the steps, grabbed Phoebe's shirt and pulled her into a hug which Phoebe more than happily fell into… she wrapped her arms around Paige's neck and whispered into her ear, "You, me and a bar how'd you like that?"
"Right now very much so but I think there is a guy I got to call so…I'll catch up with you some other time"
"No problem… Love you"
"Love you too Paige" With this Phoebe walked away slapping Piper on the back of the head playfully – "don't wait up" She called back as she walked off into the darkness.
Piper turned to Paige, "That how you really feel? Okay with all the shit she threw out at you"
"Pipe, trust me I've said worse stuff about you" Paige laughed, "But really, what she got in that letter today it's hard to take on for her and I was harsh to her"
"Yeah but you know what Kiddo…I think you got threw to her"
"Yeah we'll I hope so… I mean I didn't fight for nothing in there you know"
Piper walked up to her lil sister and put her arm around Paige's waist, "how about we make a deal…you ever…and I mean EVER want to talk you come to me and I'll stop everything to be there for you"
"I might just hold you to that" Paige laughed as the two walked back into the manor.
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She lifted the phone as she took a seat on the floor in her bed room, feeling that maybe he was the only one who could answer some of her own questions. Questions that she needed to be answered. She rang the number…a number which she still knew off by heart and waited. With each tone…he breath became tighter and her heart pumped faster. She was listening and waiting and that's when she hared it a voice that still had the power to pull her apart. "Hey…" He said into the phone, "hello is anyone there?" Paige took a deep breath and spoke in an unsure voice.
"Hey…"
"Paige?" He knew instantly that voice,
"Yeah… It's me Glenn"
tbc...