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Lily just sat there. No he can't be engaged her mind kept telling her. But then again it was true and Lily would have to accept it, some how. Ana had told that James would more then likely be at dinner tomorrow night with Amie. Lily remembered Amie from her school days. She had been just as smart as Lily, but had had few friends. She chose instead to spend most of her time in the library surrounded by books then with the few friends she did have. Great Lily thought I come back only to get hurt yet again. "Except this time he's hurting you Lily," she told herself. Lily needed to clear her head. She had said goodbye to Ana and Nichole hours ago. Yet she was still wide awake even with the jet lag from the trip. She wasn't use to going to sleep so early. Or it was early for her anyway. It was only 11:30. Lily grabbed her coat and walked out the door.

The night air felt cool on Lily's face. She had to admit that London had its own night life. She found it interesting to walk along the streets. Watching people had always interested Lily. She let her feet carry her where they would. She found herself in a park. It was beautiful. It must have recently rained or something for all the trees and the grass were covered with tiny droplets of water. The full moon shining down on it made it look as if the trees had been bewitched with tinny lights. Lily had many things to think over as she walked.

"James why did you have to be perfect," Lily asked the air in front of her, "Why did I run away?"

Questions such as these had troubled Lily since she had come back. They had managed to get worse after Ana told her about James' engagement. She looked up at the sky hoping there would some answer written among the stars, but none could be found. As Lily was still gazing up at the stars and walking at the same time. She managed to walk off the beaten path into the wet grass. Hearing some one call her name brought her back down to Earth.

"Lily what on Earth are you doing?"

Lily turned around in the wet grass to see James standing on the path.

"Taking a walk is that against the law," Lily asked smiling moving from her spot in the grass back to the path where James stood.

James hadn't been able to sleep. He really didn't need Lily to waltz back into his life now. Would she even talk to him? Did she know he's engaged? He couldn't sleep, when he did manage to dose a bit. He found that his dreams held nothing but broken memories. He thought of mixing a sleeping draft, but he decided that a little air would be better then a potion at the moment. He decided he's try the muggle world. Hopefully no one would notice him. He really just needed to think clear his head. He changed into a t-shirt and jeans. He had to admit that muggle clothing could at time be comfortable. He walked out of his apartment and stepped into the muggle world. It was a different feeling tonight. Like something was going to happen. His feet ended up carrying him to a small park in London.

Casting a quick glance up at the sky and noticing it was a full moon. If he had been at Hogwarts it would have ment that he would be enjoying a night out with his friends. However Remus had learned how to deal with his being a werewolf all on his own. So there was no more need for the Maraurders help on full moons.

He continued on the path he was on thinking over what the next few months would bring. He already had a job at the Ministry when he graduated training. There was a wedding date to set. Amie wanted it to be some time in June. Which in his opinion it made no difference to him when the wedding took place as long as it did. Then there would be Sirius's wedding to attend. He still couldn't believe that his best friend was getting married. Yet he still hadn't realized fully that he was too. Then there would be the whole deal with Lily. Why had she come back? Was it to hopefully find him waiting? Well he wasn't he had moved on and from what Sirius had told so had she.

He walked until he realized that someone else was in the park. She stood in the middle of the grass. Her auburn curls flowing over her jacket, and her green eyes gazing up at the heavens. She looked as James had always remembered her. Like an angle, perfect. He absent mindedly called out to her, "Lily what on Earth are you doing?" She looked over at him startled and replied, "Taking a walk is that against the law?" She walked back to the path and stood in front of him. She smiled up at him. She had grown some more she was almost eye level with him. He felt weird here she was standing in front of him smiling as if nothing had happened.

"How've you been," he asked.

"As well as one can expect. You?"

"About the same," he replied with a little trouble. She was so calm about talking to him. He was so nervous. He felt like he was back in sixth year again trying to ask her out. Except this time he couldn't. Searching for any topic that he could talk about with her, "Sirius tells me you own a club?"

"Yeah," Lily said with a smile, "Well co-own really, but-," she trailed off.

"Is it fun," yeah he know it sounded lame, but what more could he ask her about.

"Tons never a dull moment," Lily said with a smile.

Her smiles were infectious. He loved them and yet they would undoubtedly never be his to cherish. She would go back to America and most likely marry some one there, "I can only imagine."

"Well you should be the one to talk Mr. Auror man. Off to defend the world from evil. Never a dull moment there I'd think."

"Yeah well it's a blast until you come home with bruises," James answered.

"But I'm sure it's all worth it to help someone?"

"Defiantly."

They walked in silence for awhile. Each left to their own thoughts. Each wanting to ask the other about the last three years. And each worried how to go about the conversation. Now that the pleasantries were over and done with.

"Well I think I should be heading back to the Leaky Cauldron now. I've planed to go visit my parents tomorrow," Lily said, "It's been great to see you again James."

"Good to see you again Lily," he answered and before he could really think it through pulled her into a hug.

"Goodbye James," Lily said pulling away and walking into the distance leaving him standing there.

Lily walked back to her room, occasionally wiping away a stray tear. Thinking no this wasn't happening. He's getting married Lily. Jamming the key into the door and pushing the door roughly open. Sinking into an arm chair that sat in the corner of the room and pulling her feet up, "This isn't fair," Lily yelled out into the empty room. The tears had started to come faster. Even though there was no one to respond it felt good to yell at something. Get her anger out her pain. It was not fair she thought. I make one mistake and the world decides to turn against me. "I walk away and I lose everything that I used to love." She would not let James do this to her again. She couldn't. Speaking again to the room, "Why did I come back? I knew that this would happen. I hate you James," she mumbled knowing full well she ment the complete opposite. Rising from the chair and walking around the small room once things were so different. At the beginning of the night she had been completely okay with James being engaged to Amie. She might even have been happy for him. Now she didn't know what she wanted. Part of her wanted to curse Amie and the other just wanted to say forget about him it obviously wasn't ment to be. Dropping onto the bed and pulling the blanket up over her head. Tears softly hit the pillow until she fell asleep. And even then she could not rest. Dreams kept tormenting her the rest of the night.

Waking up late to the hooting of Hermia, Lily sat up in bed and looked over at her she had two things tied to her leg. Hermia gently flew over and stopped on the bed, waiting for Lily to untie the messages. Ripping off the first one it was a letter from Ana probably last minute things for dinner that night. The second was a copy of the Daily Prophet.

"I didn't order this, "Lily said looking up at Hermia. Lily flipped through some of the pages looking to see if there was something that she was suppose to see. Lily found out the time for Auror graduation. Since Ana had neglected to tell her the exact time this was a good thing. Flipping through the last few pages and seeing nothing of interest. A few interesting articles about that rise of a dark power. Tossing the paper aside, Lily pushed back the blankets and walked slowly to her closet and removed a fresh black t-shirt and faded blue jeans. She was going to see her parents again. Lily had come home during her three year absence exactly three times. She always came home for Christmas. Each time her mother had begged her to call or meet up with her old friends. Each time Lily had been too nervous. Too scared that she would end up falling back into the groove and then would have to leave again. But most of all she was too afraid to face James. Lily walked out of her room, walking out again into the real world. Lily was meeting her mother at the entrance. Her mother was there. As she always was. Mrs. Gwen Evans. Her light brown hair now had specks of gray in it tied lightly back. But her green eyes like Lily's were windows to her soul.

"Hey mom, " Lily said quietly.

"Lily it's good to see again," her mother said hugging her daughter, "You look terrible did you stay up late last night with Ana and Nichole?"

"Yeah," Lily responded knowing full well her mother would see through the lie. Thinking how horrible she must look. But at this point in her life she really didn't care about either.

"Lily I am so glad you finally came back to your old friends. But how is Whitney doing? How's the club," her mother asked as the walked to the car.

"Good, at least I hope. I left Whit in charge while I'm gone. But I have complete faith in her. The club's picking up some regular business."

"Oh that's wonderful."

The car ride back to the house went by pretty much without a slip. Lily's mother told her that Petunia was getting married to Vernon Dursley.

"Whoa everyone's getting married these days," Lily said exasperatedly, gazing out at the window pulling at piece of her hair.

"Really so who's all getting married my I ask," her mother asked interested in the topic.

"Well let me see there are Petunia and Vernon, Sirius and Ana," Lily said ticking them off on her fingers, "and James and Amie."

"James? That sounds familiar. James Potter? Didn't you date him for a few years at Hogwarts or was it that you hated him?"

"Yes James Potter and yes we did date and yes for the first six years at Hogwarts I hated him with a passion," Lily explained hoping that her mother would drop the subject before she said something that she didn't mean too.

"Hmm well that explains a lot."

"Explains what exactly," Lily asked glancing over from the window at her mother.

"Nothing dear," Her mother said dropping the subject.

"Mother what are you on about," Lily asked surprised as what her mother was implying.

"Nothing honey just explains your whole attitude toward the world today. The color of your shirt today black, interesting choice for you at least," her mother replied with some satisfaction.

"What explains my attitude," Lily asked.

Looking over at her daughter when she was stopped, "Dear you can lie to your friends; you can lie to James if you want. And for some miraculous reason you get away with all of it. But honey I've known you all twenty-one years of your life. And I appreciate not being lied to."

Her mother had seen through the lie, "Fine I'm not okay with the fact that James' is getting married. Okay happy?"

"Yes very. So are you going to tell him?"

"Tell him what? Oh James by the way you know after three years I'm still madly in love with you," Lily said sarcastically.

"Yes, only I suggest you think over the whole thing first. You know perfect it though he'd probably be happy to hear it."

"Mother the man is getting married. He's obviously moved on."

"Dear the man might have moved on but that doesn't mean he's forgotten you. And who knows maybe this Amie girl is only a trick to fool himself to the fact that he still loves you," her mother finished.

"Yeah sure that's the reason. Or maybe he's just moved on and he actually loves her," Lily replied.

"Lily men do a lot of things they don't mean too at the risk of loosing someone they love."

"Mother I've already been down that road with James. It's not going to work out the way things are looking. And though I might not be okay with it I have to learn to accept it."

"Lily I urge you just tell him. Talk to him. Please," her mother said almost begging.

"You and Sirius should get together and talk, because you both are really good on the whole guilt trip thing."

"Oh Lily please the man is getting married," Her mother said imitating Lily, "Plus I think he's got everything under control for himself."

"Hmm mom thanks," Lily said being serious for the first time, "it means a lot to me."

"Lily I will always be here if you have need. I just hate to see you break your heart again."

"Again? Mother how do you find out about these things? Is it like mother ESP or something?"

"Lily you will always be my daughter and when you left after your seventh year and without seeing James I knew something was up. There are just things that we mothers pick up on."

"I just didn't know what to do. I wanted to tell him, but couldn't find the courage," Lily said brushing away a few tears.

"Lily talk to him. Tell him you'll feel better."

Chapter 6- Some Where Over the Rainbow

When Lily pushed open the door of her room that night she was in much better spirits. The talk with her mother had helped the most. Her sister had been there for her she had tried to help her with her problem. But somehow couldn't figure how it all worked out. So in the end she was very little help. However there was little time to dwell on what her mother had told her or even what her sister had told her. Which the advice had been very much like what her mother said. Lily still needed to get ready for dinner with her friends that night. She picked up the letter that Ana had sent her that morning. It gave the basics, Sirius would be by around sevenish, where they were going, and who all would be there. Lily scanned the list and found Amie's name right there, "Well maybe I'll just have the luck to run into him at the park tonight."

Lily changed into something that looked half way decent. Mainly a nice pair of black pants and her favorite green sweater made up her outfit. Since she had been out of the wizarding world she had out grown her dress robes. She hoped that she wouldn't look to out of the ordinary at a wizarding restaurant. Lily finished by pulling her hair loosely back. She stared at her reflection in the mirror. She had found her self doing this a lot lately. She couldn't help but figure out if there was something missing in her life. She had thought she had had everything. Great friends, a job she thoroughly enjoyed, and but that was just it there was no and. Pulling aimlessly at a piece of stray hair trying to figure out what it was. But deep down she knew exactly what she was missing. However there was no more time to think about it. Since her thoughts were interrupted by a knocking on her door.

"Hello Sirius," Lily said pulling the door open. He was dressed almost the same way as he had been when he came to the club. Black everything.

"Hello Lily it's good to see you again. James tells me you went to see your parents today how are they?"

"Really good," Lily replied, grabbing her coat, "Shall we go?"

"Sure, this way please," Sirius said ushering Lily out of the room, "Tonight for your eating pleasure we will be dining at Some Where Over the Rainbow."

"What," Lily asked not use to hearing the term used as a restaurant.

"Yes, you heard what I said missy so please fallow me to the fire place and we will be there momentarily," Sirius added with a grin.

Lily Fallowed Sirius down the stairs to the main floor of the Leaky Cauldron stopping when they reached the fireplace. Standing in front of the fireplace and taking a small amount of Floo Powder form a small container he produced from his robes, "Here take some of this and throw it into the fire and-"

Lily interrupting him, "Sirius I've traveled by Floo Powder before." Lily took some of the stuff and throwing it down into the fire. Stepping gently inside the light green flames sticking her head out once more, "Are you coming after me," Lily asked not waiting for a response going back into the flames and calling out, "Some Where Over the Rainbow."

When Lily stepped out of the fire she found herself looking at the most interesting place she had ever seen. It was nothing what she had expected to go with the name 'Some Where Over the Rainbow'. It was a large room it had a ceiling like the one in Hogwarts Great Hall, but this one had rainbows constantly shooting across the sky. Chairs and tables where place evenly along the room in all different colors of the rainbow. They were placed just so that if one would look down on it, it would appear to one giant rainbow. The room its self was painted a pale blue color.

"Beautiful place isn't it," Sirius asked popping out of the fire.

"Yes it's very interesting," Lily replied gazing up at the ceiling.

"Ah there I see Ana," Sirius said, "Come on lets go Lil."

"Coming right behind you," Lily answered. Fallowing him through the place to the table where Ana and Nichole sat. They sat at a table talking of what they needed to do before the party for James on Friday.

"Hey Lily," Ana said looking up as they approached

"Oh so there's no hello for the man you're supposed to be marrying," Sirius asked taking a seat besides Ana.

"Yes but you're here every day and Lily only comes once in a while," Ana said smiling.

"I'm offended," Sirius cried in mock outrage.

"Well suit yourself then," Ana replied giggling as Sirius was about to make another comment but cut him off by asking Nichole, "Have talked to Becca yet?"

Lily just sat there watching Ana and Sirius go at it. Some things would never change. They had been even worse at school. As Ana asked Nichole about Becca Lily thought back to the girl that she had met a few times before.

"Nope remember we have a meeting with her tomorrow," Nichole replied.

"Oh duh how could I forget?"

"It's old age dear," Sirius added, "You know the mind's the first thing to go. First you forget to say hello to me and next you're forgetting meetings."

Ana replied rolling her eyes at him, "Oh that's just oh so clever dear."

"Was that an eye roll?"

"Would you two stop it," Nichole cried, "I mean your worse then when you were at Hogwarts."

"I must regretfully throw my vote in with Nichole," Lily added.

"Oh fine I'll stop," Sirius said.

"So Lily are you going to come to James' party," Ana asked.

"I was invited wasn't I," Lily replied.

"Good now I have a question what are you going to wear?"

"Good grief, please tell me this isn't going to turn into a conversation about clothing and crap like that," Sirius complained.

"Oh hush you," Ana replied, "By the time James' shows up all you two will only be talking about quidditch."

"Is there any other topic of conversation," Sirius shot back.

"None better," James said walking up to the group.

"James how nice of you to join us," Ana said looking behind James, "Where's Amie? Wasn't she coming?"

"Yeah well she got sick and so she's a no show," James said taking a seat next to Lily.