Well, here's the next chapter. Thankyou to everyone who offered to help with translating the Russian, but it's all done already. That was one of the first things I checked up on. Usually before I start to post a story it will be finished, but I am, at heart, a perfectionist, so if it isn't exactly to the standards I want it to be I will spend a lot of time tweaking it and changing little bits and, if necessary, checking translations. Like I put on my bio, there's a lot of stuff happening for me at the moment, to do with my family, or more importantly my step-family. At the moment, being there for my family is what matters most to me so updates might be a little slower. I have more time than I did last time I posted, so I'll reply to all your wonderful reviews, but only for chapter three because otherwise I'd end up typing my fingers off!

Just that good: I know. I got sick of making Kai the strong one, and decided to make him weak by doing all this to him.

Ellen: I hate splinters as well. I originally said 'spelk' because that's what I've always called them, but during the tweaking I realised that it's slang and people might not understand...

skimmie: Here it is!

VGMaster04: Thank you, I agree, and here it is.

Echo in the Dark: I also am not particularly fond of Mariah. She gets in the way of all the good Rei yaoi. I've tried pairing her with Bryan, and that isn't too bad, but otherwise no, I don't like her.

BloodyShadows: It's much easier to make Kai kawaii when he's insane, because I can make him act like a little kid and be dependant on Rei.

SoulSister: Well the Russian swearing was all off a site called 'swearasaurus', which you can find by putting 'how to swear in foreign languages'. I'll warn you now that it has some very offensive content. I found it while I was trying to find German swearwords to annoy my teacher with in german (sir, what does ... mean? My brother said it to me and he said to ask my German teacher...). Yes I know it's childish and stupid but hey, I'm not too fond of my German teacher! The rest of it is phonetic. I can't remember the actual site, but it had sound clips, so I just wrote down what it sounded like. Little bits of it are from...can't remember the name, but if you put in 'basic russian' in google it comes up with a site where some of it uses the romanic alphabet.

miriam906: I'm glad you like it so far, and I'll try to update as soon as I can!

keisan: I am sneaky... The reason I had Kai say that he loved Rei was because, being insane, he wouldn't be able to understand the consequences of loving another man. Usually in my fics I end up having someone persuade Kai that it's okay to be gay, whereas here he doesn't understand that it often isn't socially acceptable to be gay. Which is why he doesn't understand why Rei rejects him.

animeobsession: For the Russian sites, see the reply to SoulSister (I don't think I could type all that waffle out again!). And yeah, Ian has a wife. It will all become clear when you read the chapter, I hope.

shuchan: Aww, don't say you hate me or I'll just kill them all off! Not that I don't anyway, but hey... I can tell you haven't read my other fics, or at least noticed the pattern. When I write a long fic, it'll be full of angst and then have a happy ending. This one is no exception!

WolfDemonQueen: I must say, I have a soft spot for poor insane little Kai. I might write another one like this because it's so interesting to write!

Thin-K: Well you don't have to wait any more, because the next chapter's just down the page!

ArcticalWolf: Yup. It is pretty horrible, and this chapter is going to be just as horrible as the last...

PandaPjays: Pink Menace! Ahaha! That one really made me laugh, it's so appropriate for that yaoi-spoiling dunce!

Ice Spirit: Like I said before, I so often write Kai as the strong one, and it was a refreshing change to make him the one who needed help.

Endoh Chiaki: I'd dance with you, but right now I have a cramp in my leg... And yes, Ian has a wife, but you''ll find out why soon!

Mei Kimari: Heh, sorry. Last time I posted there was a lot of bad stuff going on with my life, I barely had the time to post the chapter, let alone check the author notes. Prostite means 'sorry'. This time there'll be a full guide of the Russian used at the bottom of the page.

darkangelintheshadows: I'm officially a dudette, but dude does me just fine! I'm glad you think it's going well so far, and as for if he's going to be normal again...well, you know I always leave it at a happy ending.

Kiko cat: Aha, but I've made him weak! Weak I say! And this time Kai can be the emotional one, not Rei! Hey, I'm all for variety, what can I say?

smellyToaster : I'm glad you like it!

Curtis Zidane Ziraa: How could you doubt me? I'm a dedicated yaoi writer, and any het I ever do will be highly experimental or at the request of a friend (and probably for another fandom, but they're all as yaoi obsessed as me so no worries!). Het would only ever be a fad, and while I enjoy writing alternate pairings from time to time, KaiRei is eternal, along with KaiTala, TalaBryan, ReiTala, and ReiBryan... Heh, well maybe I don't have an OTP (one true pairing). I love them all, but only because of all that squishy yaoi love!

And now, the chapter. Be warned, Kai suffers (more).

"Kai?" Rei walked into the room, smiling. "Hey. I brought a friend to see you!" Kai blinked as Tala came into the room, smiling nervously.

"Hey Kai. Um...I can only stay a little while, I have to get back to babysit Ian's kid. Um...oh. Do you remember him and Saskia getting married? Well she got pregnant and they had a baby girl, but it's their anniversary today, so I said I'd...look after Irina for the night..." Kai stared at him, then looked at the wall. Tala looked at Rei for help, and Rei shook his head.

"Kai, how was your session this morning? Was it with Angelina again?"

"I got a splinter. She wanted me to draw him and I couldn't..." Kai looked down at his hands as Rei sat down beside him. "I-I couldn't..." Tala sat down on his other side, concerned.

"Are you okay?" Kai shook his head and turned, burrowing his face into Tala's shoulder and bursting into tears. Tala held him tightly, looking slightly lost. This wasn't Kai. The real Kai would never have cried about splinters and drawings... He looked up at Rei, and Rei smiled sadly, shrugging. He couldn't explain out loud, not while Kai was there. Kai was just so broken...he'd changed so much that even the smallest things made him cry, or just stare blankly into space. It wasn't out of ignorance, he just couldn't react, it was beyond his capacity. Rei laid a hand on Kai's shaking back.

"Don't cry, Kai, it's okay."

"I'm still scared...he'll come for me..."

"No, Kai, he's not coming back." Kai snivelled and clutched at Tala's jacket. The older Russian sighed, stroking Kai's hair tenderly. Rei had warned him that Kai was a bit...different, but he hadn't been prepared for this. He glanced down at his watch, and looked up at Rei, mouthing 'I have to go'.

Rei bit his lip, thought for a second, then crawled around to sit behind the other two. "Kai, let me have a look at your hand..." Kai sat up sniffing, and held out his hand. Rei jerked his head for Tala to go, and looked at Kai's hand with careful concern before leaning down and pressing a gentle kiss to it. "There, all better." By the time Kai looked around, Tala was gone. Rei sensed his puzzlement. "Tala had to go, remember? He has to look after Ian's baby tonight." Kai blinked.

"Where's Ian?"

"He's going out with his wife for their anniversary. Don't you remember their wedding?"

Kai thought hard. "No." He said eventually. "When was it?"

"About...well, it'll be a year now, because Saskia was about three months pregnant when they got married, and Irina's six months old now..."

Kai frowned, still trying to remember. "I can't remember...why can't I remember?" He asked, panicking slightly.

"Hey, calm down, don't get upset..."

"But I can't remember! What does she look like? Who's Saskia?" Kai brought his knees up to his chest and buried his face in them, ignoring Rei's every attempt to talk to him. When an attendant came to tell him to leave twenty minutes later, he sighed, kissed the top of Kai's head and left, hoping Kai would be a bit better the next time he came.

Tala sat on Ian's sofa, brooding, as Ian and Saskia ran around getting dressed. As he sat there, Saskia swept into the room, her blonde curls swooshing behind her, and handed Tala a blanketed bundle. Tala sighed, looking down at the peaceful, sleeping face of the child he was holding. "I'm still not happy about it...but Ian trusts you. I'm not trying to be funny but I barely even know you..."

"What do you think I'm going to do, kill her or something?"

Saskia made an impatient noise as Ian came in. Not many people had approved when he'd gotten Saskia pregnant when they were both just sixteen, but a year on, both of them were quite happy with their lives. Tala, on the other hand, could think of no worse torture, having a wife to nag you all day. "Do you even know how to-"

"I used to live in an orphanage, it was expected of me to help out. I know how to look after babies, why the hell else would Ian have asked me?"

Saskia looked annoyed, and probably would have said something else had not Ian whisked her out of the door. Tala stood up, cradling Irina to his chest, and walked around the room. It was small and sparsely furnished, but it was meticulously clean. That was probably Ian's doing. He'd always been a clean freak...

"Last time I saw you you were a newborn and all you did was scream. Nice to see that's worn off. But now I've said that, you'll start screaming." The baby looked up at him, wide blue eyes unblinking. "No? Thank you. Tch, look at your eyes. They're like mine, aren't they, titch? I wonder if your Mummy and Daddy are having a nice time? They said they'd be back in an hour or two, so you don't have to put up with me for very long, don't worry."

He unwrapped Irina from her blanket and settled her on his hip, making sure she was comfortable before heading into the kitchen. He was never sure why Saskia and Ian had chosen turquoise for their kitchen, but it worked somehow... "You're probably wondering who I am, hm, Iri? I'm one of your Daddy's friends. Your Mummy thinks I'm a freak, but that's because I'm gay, and she doesn't like gay people. I think Kai's gay...he's another one of your Daddy's friends, and he's in a mental hospital because his Grandfather did bad things to him. You might think your Daddy's a nutter at times, but he's normal compared to the rest of us. And your Mummy...well, she'd probably kill me if she knew I was talking to you about mental hospitals and gay people."

With a sigh, Tala decided to try feeding Irina, for want of anything better to do.

Kai lay in his bed that night, trying to remember who Saskia was. The more he wound himself up about it, the less he could remember, and the more hysterical he got, until he was at the point where he was sitting in the middle of his floor, ranting about who the hell Saskia was. In the end, the doctors decided to drug him.

The first thing Saskia saw when she walked into the living room was Tala, seemingly asleep, with Irina laid on his chest, and a glass bottle of clear liquid on the floor beside the chair. She gave a squawk of rage, and Irina started to cry. "Don't get upset, Iri, your Mummy's just getting angry with me like she always does..." Said Tala soothingly. He opened his eyes and smiled. "See, I'm not asleep." He winked and stood up, depositing Irina back into her mother's arms.

"What's that?" Asked Saskia irritatedly, pointing to the bottle. Tala picked it up and took a sip of it, smiling.

"Mineral water in a vodka bottle. I wanted to see if you'd really believe I'd drink vodka while I was looking after a baby. I suggest next time you get a babysitter, you make sure you actually trust them before you ask them round." Tala took another swig of water and kissed Irina's forehead softly before leaving.

Saskia glared after him, and Ian sighed. "I told you, Sas, he knows about kids. He looked after loads of them before we went to the abbey, and he had brothers and sisters as well. You've royally pissed him off now. And he probably wasn't too great to begin with- he went to see Kai today, you know."

Saskia's face softened. "The one in the asylum?" Ian nodded.

"I should really go and see him myself some time..."

"It's horrible...that his own grandfather hurt him..." Subconsciously, Saskia held Irina a little closer to her chest.

"He's only a year younger than us, Sas. He just cracked one day, and it all came out. He'd been hiding it for years..." Ian sighed. "It's so weird, thinking that Kai's...insane. If you'd asked me a while ago, I would have said he was the last person I'd expect to go mental..."

"Well sometimes things don't happen like you think they will, hon. Come on, let's put Irina to bed..."

Rei sighed as he walked into Kai's room, opening his arms for Kai to fall into them, sobbing. "I couldn't remember...and they...they..." He pulled back and showed Rei the tiny mark left from where they'd put the needle in the night before. "I'm still scared...he's still out there and I don't want them to come near me and I don't want to draw pictures of him and I-I'm scared because everyone hates me and he'll find me and he'll...he'll...he'll hurt me again!" He wailed. Rei rubbed his back soothingly.

"Kai, calm down." Kai burst into tears, and Rei led him over to the bed, sitting him down and waiting while he curled himself up in his duvet and then sat in the corner, on top of his pillows. When he was particularly frightened, that was always be what he would do- hide in the corner, cover himself up, or both. It was...strange, but in a way obvious. If you were in a corner, you didn't have to worry about people sneaking up on you, even if they were invisible people, and even if it was only a duvet it could stop someone touching you if you didn't want them to.

"Kai...what did he do to you? Why did he-?" Kai looked around nervously.

"I'm not allowed to tell you...he told me he'd kill me if I told people..."

"Well I'll kill him then. Kai, he's not important. Just talk to me, Kai."

"No...he'll find out..."

"Well if I don't tell him, and you don't tell him, how's he going to find out?"

"He'll make me tell him, he always does! And if I don't...he..." Kai shuddered and pulled the duvet up over his head. Rei sighed and shifted over to him, wrapping his arms around Kai's blanketed waist as far as they would go. "Kai, please. Please tell me what he did...all you've said is that he hurt you. How did he hurt you?"

Kai's face appeared through the blankets and he leaned in to Rei's ear, holding Rei's shoulder with a shaking hand. "I...I... H-He said..."

"What did he say?" Rei turned and looked at Kai. The Russian was shaking his head, eyes glassy with tears, moving his lips soundlessly. "What are you trying to say, Kai?"

"Y-Y-"

"Kai, come on, you can tell me."

"Yabayus!" Kai sobbed, holding his head in his hands. Rei bit his lip then started to cry.

"I'm sorry, Kai...please talk to me again...don't go back to talking in Russian...I'm sorry..."

"P-Prostite...I'm s..." Kai hesitated, lips trying to form the rest of the word. "I'm s..." He wailed. "S..." He clawed at his mouth, as if trying to tear out the word, leaving red lines across his jaw and cheeks. Rei could see that he was getting hysterical, so he grabbed Kai's hands.

Kai screamed, startled, and tried to pull away, succeeding only in hitting his head hard off the wall, dazing himself, enough for Rei to be able to comfort him and calm him down. A scant thirty seconds later Kai had regained his balance enough to try and speak again, once again getting frustrated, once again starting to claw at himself. As he was doing so, one of the attendants walked in, and, seeing that Kai had hurt himself, and was now trying to again, he ran over, dragging Kai away from Rei.

"NIET!" He screamed, struggling to get back to Rei. The guard misunderstood his quest for freedom and pinned him against the wall. Kai screamed again, eyes wild and rolling with fear. He was screaming so much he was foaming at the mouth, evidently terrified beyond belief, struggling wildly, but that just made the guard hold him harder. Rei watched in horror, then ran over, dragging the guard off Kai forcefully. Kai fell to the floor, twitching, making choked, incoherent sounds of fear.

"Kai...Kai, it's okay, you're safe now...he's gone..." Kai twitched once more and lay still. Rei rolled him onto his back and saw that Kai was unconscious. Tenderly, he picked the Russian up and laid him on his bed, covering him with the duvet, which had been knocked to the floor in all the confusion. After that, he turned to the attendant, murder in his eyes.

"Is that company policy? Shoving abuse victims up against walls? He could have been raped for all you know!"

"But he was..."

"Yes, he was hurting himself, but at least he was in control of that! You've just destroyed any kind of progress he's made!"

"But he was trying to escape!"

"He was trying to get back to me, you imbecile! Because he trusts me! Because he knows I won't hurt him! Because..." Rei drew himself up, decisively. "Because I'm his boyfriend!"

"Oh...oh my God...I'm so sorry..."

Rei glared. "Lovely. Sorry. Well what's that going to do for Kai? Sorry, I just reminded you of the worst experience of your whole life! Sorry, I just made you remember being tortured by your own grandfather! GET OUT OF MY SIGHT!" He reached out, slapping the attendant across the face. The individual in question scuttled out, forgetting that his original mission was to tell Rei to leave. Rei took it upon himself to get out, and to lock the door behind himself.

Yabayus: I'm scared.

Prostite: I'm sorry.

Niet: No.

Next Chapter: Tyson causes a LOT of trouble. Next chapter's kinda short too, so sorry in advance. The one after that's longer though.

I know, I know, I was cruel to Kai. But there's a reason, there's always a reason if you're just a bit more patient. Let's just say that sometimes you need a shock to make you think things through...

Plans: Well after I finish this story there are some definite things I want to do. First off, I want to write something a bit like what's going on for me at the moment, because it's a lot on my mind. Secondly, I want to try doing a yaoi OC fic. I have nothing against OC writers, some OCs are marvellous, but I look on the just in for Beyblade and all I see are 'A team of five girls joins the bladebreakers. KaiOC, ReiOC, TysonOC, MaxOC, KennyOC (and all the restOC!). No offence, but it's getting on my nerves, because a lot of the time the OC in question is just an author insert. But that's a big generalisation. I've found some OCs I've really loved and accepted as part of the story, but five Mary Sues put in as an excuse to give everyone their 'perfect' girlfriend is a bit much… And they're always MARY-sues, never Gary-sues, because, and correct me if I'm wrong, but so far there are few, if ANY yaoi OC fics! BTW: OC means Original Character, in case any of you didn't know.

Anyway, I'll stop ranting at you now!

As ever, R&R, I appreciate every single comment you guys make, even the flames!