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Ch.19
Hao drove on saying with a smile, "Where do you want to go?"

"The park," I answered. I wanted to swing. But Hao nodded and turned the other way from the direction of the park. After a while, which was probably just a few minutes, I asked again, "What park are you going to?"

"One you've never been to before. You'll like it. Trust me."

I nodded, but there was a tone in Hao's voice that made me nervous. He sounded…different. I sat still. I had no other choice. What was I going to do? Run? For some reason, I wished Yoh was with me. I wished that he wasn't so mad at me. And most of all, I wanted to apologize for being so mean to him. Maybe I didn't listen to him enough. Wait a second! This is YOHH! Strike that! Forget Yoh! I'm having fun with Hao!

We reached another park in fifteen minutes, but it was one I had never been to. He got out of the car, but didn't even look back for me as he disappeared for five minutes. Then, he returned smiling. He was acting strange. I didn't like it…

But, he simply didn't notice my strange expression and took me out of the car. He picked me up into his arms and carried me to this area where it was remote from the area and veiled by a grove of trees. It was almost like a mini forest. Hao instructed me to close my eyes, which I did. Then, in the darkness, I could hear him walking further and further…deeper and deeper into the forest.

Finally, he let me open my eyes and I looked and saw a circle of lit candles in a little clearing surrounded by trees. The place looked enchanted because there were laces of angelic white silky curtains hanging from the branches of trees. It looked like I was being carried through shreds of clouds. In the center of the large circle of candles, Hao set me down and sat outside the circle. He smiled as he said in a quiet voice, "I love you."

I smiled. The feeling inside…oh…it was indescribable. I had never felt so loved and appreciated. IT was almost as if everything were too right. Things were too good…like a fantasy…a cliché storybook. Hao was Prince Charming and he had finally come to take me away from this horrid place.

But of course, not all dreams last because guess who came crashing our party…

"YOHHH!" I shrieked as I saw him breaking through the forest, yanking some of the white silky ribbons from branches as he stormed into the clearing. Of course, this was all to good. Of course, this moment with Hao was too perfect. Of course, this wouldn't be my crappy life if YOHH didn't come bursting into it at just the wrong time. Of course…of course…of course…I just wonder why I didn't expect it. Stupid me.

Yoh looked angry from what I saw, but suddenly, his face changed from rage to shock as he saw the romantic setting. Suddenly, he seemed to change his mind about being surprised, and returned to being furious as he grabbed Hao up by the collar saying, "What're you doing to her?"

"Ah…ha," Hao said laughing in Yoh's face, "well, before you came barging into our romantic moment, I was about to officially ask Anna out…but I guess, that's ruined."

I felt the heat rising to my face. The only thing that was keeping me from strangling Yoh was the fact that I could not stand up. But I let my glare do the beating as Yoh glanced at me. "You!" Yoh shouted, pointed at Hao, "You! You said (imitating Hao's voice) 'I'm gonna have your girl now'!"

"I am," Hao answered coolly, "Sorry if I sounded harsh, but what were you thinking I was going to do? I meant what I said. Anna loves me and I love her."

Yoh let go of Yoh's collar, or rather, threw Hao back in disgust.

Finally, I couldn't contain myself. I could not believe that Yoh would come so far to ruin everything for me. He couldn't just let me be happy….not just for once. I screamed at the top of my lungs, "YOH ASAKURA! I HATE YOU! I WISH I HAD NEVER MET YOU! YOU KNOW WHAT! YOU RUIN EVERYTHING FOR ME! YOU'RE THE REASON FOR EVERY AND ANY FEELING OF UNHAPPINESS THAT I FEEL! I WISH YOU'D DROP DEAD AND NEVER EVER EVER EVER COME BACK TO MY LIFE! GET OUT OF HERE! NOOOOOOOWWWWW!"

I stopped and standing there before me were two completely opposite facial expressions. Hao looked like he was perfectly at ease. His smile was satisfied, like ones that people wear after they've had a warm, filling dinner plate. As for Yoh, his expression looked like he was going to cry. The way his eyes were wide with hurt almost made me feel bad for a second, but I reminded myself NONONO! Yoh deserved it! IT was kinda harsh…NO! He really did deserve it! NO! YES! NO! YES!

I argued with my conscience for a while. The angel on my right shoulder was screaming back and forth with the devil on my left shoulder. If I felt bad now, I would simply ROT with guilt for everything I've ever done to Yoh in my past. I would not feel guilt! I would not ROT! NO guilt! No ROT! So, in the end, the devil finally jumped over to my right shoulder and punched the lights out of the angel. I WOULD NOT FEEL SORRY FOR MINBONG…NOT NOW…

"You heard me," I said darkly, "Get out of here, Yoh, and I don't ever want to see you after this moment on."

I expected an argument to spur. But…

Yoh turned.

He sighed.

Walked away…

Back through the trees, I watched him disappear…

And that's when the little angel returned to my right shoulder. I glanced at my conscience and saw that the little angel was weeping with her face buried in her pretty, delicate little hands.

GUILT. GUILT. GUILT.

ROT. ROT. ROT.

For a moment, I almost wanted Yoh to turn around and come back. I didn't realize how harsh my words were to him. Yoh was like a little kid. He expressed himself in all the wrong ways, and he took harsh words to his heart.

ROT. ROT. ROT.

But before I could think anymore horrifyingly depressing thoughts, Hao turned and looked down to me saying, "Now that Yoh's gone for good…"

"I feel so bad," I admitted.

Hao seemed to ignore my words as he looked into the woods, making sure that Yoh was gone. "Now that you told him off like that…he'll never come back."

"I know," I moaned, wanting to beg Hao to drop the subject.

But Hao's tone of voice changed. "He's gone now…who'll save you?"

I looked up. There was a flame in Hao's eyes, but I couldn't' figure it out. It looked animalistic. It looked like he was a beast, preying on his meal. It looked like…

Hao suddenly lunged foreword and slapped his hand over my mouth. I wanted to gasp in shock, but I couldn't even manage to move. My legs were sprawled out and useless under me. Hao's hand was harsh and squeezed painfully over my face as I felt his hands tear my clothes open. My shirt fell over my shoulders to reveal my undergarments. But Hao didn't stop. "What're you gonna do now ," I heard Hao say in my ear. His breath was warm upon my ears, "What're gonna do huh? Run?" A cruel chuckle followed as I tried to scream through his flesh, but I failed. He continued to tear my clothes from my body…tear my dignity from me…

Omg…save me…anyone…YOHH…I'm sorry.

The pain…the blood…the shame…the sorry…the helplessness…the regret…

In a matter of minutes it was over…and I felt nothing now…not even the bitter cold of the night could break through the barrier I built to keep out the shock.

This did not happen. It was only a nightmare. I woke up. But I did not. I did not wake up.

The only confirmation of reality was when I was shriveled up in a ball on the ground. I was trying to cover my shamed body from Hao's preying eyes as he pulled his clothes back on. I cowered as his smile struck me…it burned…it burned and tore my eyes from their sockets. I closed my eyes to keep myself from crying. But the tears came anyway. Hao stayed to watch me cry a little. And I did not want to. But I did.

I cried.

Finally, I heard him leaving. His steps were loud on the forest floor. I saw the sweat beaded on the back of his neck. Sweat that had dripped onto me. Sweat that had been made with such shame. Shame…

I watched his feet walking away. As he did, he accidentally knocked over a lit candle that was now as short as a fingernail. The spark of the candle lit onto some dead leaves. The flames rose and were now starting to ooze over and catch fire onto the silk ribbons. The fire crawled up and began to make a wall of heat and consuming death before me. A reflection of hell's fury.

I curled up, naked and bare. I did not care. Let it be.

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