A/N Once again I have to fix titling, part 5 is Wednesday Noon.
"The Heights" just confirmed my thoughts about how Ryan would react to lying and that he'll actually talk if he's got a good reason. So yay, he's been in character this whole time.
Title: SHIFT Part 6: WEDNESDAY AFTERNOON
Seth stood stunned for a second until his brain finally kicked in & told him to go get some solid answers out of Ryan before this weirdness went on too long. He rushed through the pool house door almost tripping over Ryan who had sat down to tie his sneakers on.
"Dude, what the hell is going on?" Seth sounded truly confused about the situation.
"You fucking know."
"You're seriously mad at me. What am. . .how am I supposed to do anything about it if I don't know what I did." Ryan wouldn't look at him, he kept messing up his attempts with his laces and he just shook his head angrily. Seth circled around & squatted in front of him swatting at his hands in frustration. "Did I miss something here? Was I supposed to do something or." Ryan stood up and kicked Seth's knee knocking him to the ground and walking away.
"Ryan, what the hell?!" Seth's words made Ryan spin around.
"Did you think I wouldn't find out? Did you think that you could live in the same house with me and somehow hide the fact that you're fucking him?"
"What? What? What are you talking about?"
"And the fact that you could lie to my face even when I tell you I fucking KNOW!"
"I don't know what you're talking about." Seth looked frightened as Ryan closed in on him and hovered above.
"I find. It hard to believe. That you're fucking somebody. And I know it before you." Seth looked up at Ryan silently. Ryan nodded at him. "No fucking response. That's nice. Well, you enjoy your day, I'll be next door 'cause at least she's somewhat honest about being with him."
Ryan snapped up and walked briskly away from Seth ignoring Seth calling after him. Seth ran after him. He tried to speak, but as soon as Ryan's name came out of his mouth he felt an arm shoving him backwards.
"You could at least look at me when you do that." Seth remained where he'd been shoved. Ryan stopped, but still didn't look back.
"Seth, what do you want from me?"
"I just want you to talk to me. . .not get all weird and run off every time I come to you. I want you to not be mad at me."
"That's not gonna happen, Seth."
"Look, it's not what you think. . . whatever it is you think you know it's. . . not."
"I know. that you were laying on the beach with someone who's tried to kill BOTH of us more than once. And I know. that every time I was in a room with the two of you I was standing in the middle of a lie. And I know. that you had something with him that you were hiding from me and every time he looked at me he was smiling on the inside about how fucking stupid I was."
"It was never like that and if I could have stopped the day you moved in here I would have, but I couldn't and I wish I could take back not telling you, but I can't because it's happened and I think that even if I could change things I probably wouldn't because I couldn't stand to have you look at me the way you are now and it's my fault that he's got it in for you because he knows how much I like you and that if I could I'd probably do nothing but hang out with you and maybe tell you everything if I didn't think he'd do something really bad to you if he found out because he's already said he'd do it and I can't let that happen."
One sentence that somehow lasted longer than Ryan's little heartfelt speech. And Ryan didn't know what to say because Seth had just said so much in that one breath. And he partly wanted to say 'if you really wanted to stop you could have', but then he remembered what started all this-those scratches and bruises. So he didn't say anything, he just turned to look at Seth with watery eyes.
"So, can we be cool now, please." Seth watched Ryan shake his head. "Oh, come on now, dude, we've got to get past this. I know I was stupid, but if you think about it, it was because I didn't want to lose the only friend I have over something so. . ."
"Fucked up?"
"Well, yeah, but I was thinking more 'petty' ."
"Are you fucking insane?" Ryan placed his hands on Seth's shoulders and looked him directly in the eyes. "This is not petty and as much as you're still avoiding the actual word-it's pretty obvious that Luke has been raping you."
"What? No." Seth shook his head vehemently.
"Yes. And I'm going to make sure that he knows it's not happening anymore." Ryan let go as if he was about go look for Luke right then.
"No." Seth lurched forward with a little jog step to grab at Ryan's arms. "Ryan. No. It's not like that. Just. . .let me handle it."
"Like you've BEEN handling it? No. I'm going. Now."
"Look, there's more to it than that. And it's not. . .he's not. . .it's not like a rape thing. It's just gotten a little out of hand." Ryan did not seem convinced. "It's kind of been consensual just with you coming he thought I'd tell you or stop or whatever.
"Seth. I want you to tell me-because there's no such thing as "kind of" consensual-and I don't even want to know if you. . .I don't need to know everything just. . . if he's ever forced you into anything."
"It's just that you're the last person that needs to get involved in this. I don't want you to get caught up in it."
"I was obviously caught up in this long before I knew. Tell me." Seth just looked at him.
"Well, it doesn't matter, I'm going either way."
"Please don't do this. I promise you I will take care of it. I will go right now and stop everything. He's been getting really crazy lately," Seth realized he wasn't helping things when Ryan looked even more determined to go, "Not like 'I'm gonna kill you' crazy-which he's like sometimes-but, no, it's kind of 'I'm gonna kill myself' crazy. And I know you don't like him, but I also know that you're to good a person to not do the right thing. And I think the right thing is to let me handle this tactfully." Seth awaited Ryan's answer.
(A/N it would have been really wrong to just stop the chapter here so I won't do that to you)
"I really don't think you should do this." Ryan's voice was calm again, "You do know that's a really fucked up relationship to have, right?"
"Yeah, but it was what I had."
"Just tell him and leave. If I think you're gone to long I'm coming to get you."
"I will." Seth pulled in for a hug oddly similar to their first one. He let go smiling shyly. Ryan did not want to let him go over there, but he stood still as Seth turned and left. Seth stopped and twisted back around.
"Other than Luke, I think you're the first person to actually look at me close enough to notice all this," Seth held up his wrists displaying his scratches then putting them back down, "Guess he always knew you'd find out. And here I was assuming he just thought I'd start sleeping with you." Seth's smile beamed as he trotted off. Ryan thought that maybe Seth had not been so wrong in his assumption. He returned inside and glanced at the clock noticing it was 3:24 pm. He sat restlessly not knowing what to do for the next half hour. . .hour? He didn't know how long something like this was supposed to take and by 3:38 he felt like too much time had passed. He had no idea when it would be rational to go find Seth because he was already scared that something bad was happening. He decided to lay down and take a nap. He knew he wouldn't be able to sleep long, but that if Seth wasn't back by the time he got up he'd be going to get him.
(A/N but, I will do that to you.)
Oh, and in case you thought my lack of disclaimer was just bravery, no I simply forgot. But you know what? I'm going to live life on the edge and still not include one.
"The Heights" just confirmed my thoughts about how Ryan would react to lying and that he'll actually talk if he's got a good reason. So yay, he's been in character this whole time.
Title: SHIFT Part 6: WEDNESDAY AFTERNOON
Seth stood stunned for a second until his brain finally kicked in & told him to go get some solid answers out of Ryan before this weirdness went on too long. He rushed through the pool house door almost tripping over Ryan who had sat down to tie his sneakers on.
"Dude, what the hell is going on?" Seth sounded truly confused about the situation.
"You fucking know."
"You're seriously mad at me. What am. . .how am I supposed to do anything about it if I don't know what I did." Ryan wouldn't look at him, he kept messing up his attempts with his laces and he just shook his head angrily. Seth circled around & squatted in front of him swatting at his hands in frustration. "Did I miss something here? Was I supposed to do something or." Ryan stood up and kicked Seth's knee knocking him to the ground and walking away.
"Ryan, what the hell?!" Seth's words made Ryan spin around.
"Did you think I wouldn't find out? Did you think that you could live in the same house with me and somehow hide the fact that you're fucking him?"
"What? What? What are you talking about?"
"And the fact that you could lie to my face even when I tell you I fucking KNOW!"
"I don't know what you're talking about." Seth looked frightened as Ryan closed in on him and hovered above.
"I find. It hard to believe. That you're fucking somebody. And I know it before you." Seth looked up at Ryan silently. Ryan nodded at him. "No fucking response. That's nice. Well, you enjoy your day, I'll be next door 'cause at least she's somewhat honest about being with him."
Ryan snapped up and walked briskly away from Seth ignoring Seth calling after him. Seth ran after him. He tried to speak, but as soon as Ryan's name came out of his mouth he felt an arm shoving him backwards.
"You could at least look at me when you do that." Seth remained where he'd been shoved. Ryan stopped, but still didn't look back.
"Seth, what do you want from me?"
"I just want you to talk to me. . .not get all weird and run off every time I come to you. I want you to not be mad at me."
"That's not gonna happen, Seth."
"Look, it's not what you think. . . whatever it is you think you know it's. . . not."
"I know. that you were laying on the beach with someone who's tried to kill BOTH of us more than once. And I know. that every time I was in a room with the two of you I was standing in the middle of a lie. And I know. that you had something with him that you were hiding from me and every time he looked at me he was smiling on the inside about how fucking stupid I was."
"It was never like that and if I could have stopped the day you moved in here I would have, but I couldn't and I wish I could take back not telling you, but I can't because it's happened and I think that even if I could change things I probably wouldn't because I couldn't stand to have you look at me the way you are now and it's my fault that he's got it in for you because he knows how much I like you and that if I could I'd probably do nothing but hang out with you and maybe tell you everything if I didn't think he'd do something really bad to you if he found out because he's already said he'd do it and I can't let that happen."
One sentence that somehow lasted longer than Ryan's little heartfelt speech. And Ryan didn't know what to say because Seth had just said so much in that one breath. And he partly wanted to say 'if you really wanted to stop you could have', but then he remembered what started all this-those scratches and bruises. So he didn't say anything, he just turned to look at Seth with watery eyes.
"So, can we be cool now, please." Seth watched Ryan shake his head. "Oh, come on now, dude, we've got to get past this. I know I was stupid, but if you think about it, it was because I didn't want to lose the only friend I have over something so. . ."
"Fucked up?"
"Well, yeah, but I was thinking more 'petty' ."
"Are you fucking insane?" Ryan placed his hands on Seth's shoulders and looked him directly in the eyes. "This is not petty and as much as you're still avoiding the actual word-it's pretty obvious that Luke has been raping you."
"What? No." Seth shook his head vehemently.
"Yes. And I'm going to make sure that he knows it's not happening anymore." Ryan let go as if he was about go look for Luke right then.
"No." Seth lurched forward with a little jog step to grab at Ryan's arms. "Ryan. No. It's not like that. Just. . .let me handle it."
"Like you've BEEN handling it? No. I'm going. Now."
"Look, there's more to it than that. And it's not. . .he's not. . .it's not like a rape thing. It's just gotten a little out of hand." Ryan did not seem convinced. "It's kind of been consensual just with you coming he thought I'd tell you or stop or whatever.
"Seth. I want you to tell me-because there's no such thing as "kind of" consensual-and I don't even want to know if you. . .I don't need to know everything just. . . if he's ever forced you into anything."
"It's just that you're the last person that needs to get involved in this. I don't want you to get caught up in it."
"I was obviously caught up in this long before I knew. Tell me." Seth just looked at him.
"Well, it doesn't matter, I'm going either way."
"Please don't do this. I promise you I will take care of it. I will go right now and stop everything. He's been getting really crazy lately," Seth realized he wasn't helping things when Ryan looked even more determined to go, "Not like 'I'm gonna kill you' crazy-which he's like sometimes-but, no, it's kind of 'I'm gonna kill myself' crazy. And I know you don't like him, but I also know that you're to good a person to not do the right thing. And I think the right thing is to let me handle this tactfully." Seth awaited Ryan's answer.
(A/N it would have been really wrong to just stop the chapter here so I won't do that to you)
"I really don't think you should do this." Ryan's voice was calm again, "You do know that's a really fucked up relationship to have, right?"
"Yeah, but it was what I had."
"Just tell him and leave. If I think you're gone to long I'm coming to get you."
"I will." Seth pulled in for a hug oddly similar to their first one. He let go smiling shyly. Ryan did not want to let him go over there, but he stood still as Seth turned and left. Seth stopped and twisted back around.
"Other than Luke, I think you're the first person to actually look at me close enough to notice all this," Seth held up his wrists displaying his scratches then putting them back down, "Guess he always knew you'd find out. And here I was assuming he just thought I'd start sleeping with you." Seth's smile beamed as he trotted off. Ryan thought that maybe Seth had not been so wrong in his assumption. He returned inside and glanced at the clock noticing it was 3:24 pm. He sat restlessly not knowing what to do for the next half hour. . .hour? He didn't know how long something like this was supposed to take and by 3:38 he felt like too much time had passed. He had no idea when it would be rational to go find Seth because he was already scared that something bad was happening. He decided to lay down and take a nap. He knew he wouldn't be able to sleep long, but that if Seth wasn't back by the time he got up he'd be going to get him.
(A/N but, I will do that to you.)
Oh, and in case you thought my lack of disclaimer was just bravery, no I simply forgot. But you know what? I'm going to live life on the edge and still not include one.