Saving Grace

With the only chance she had, she told me that to follow you would be insanity. She, the seer of balance and a keeper of her own True Rune...I had expected foresight deeper than that.

I suppose it is her sense of justice that spoke to me that night so long ago, but to appeal to me in such a way would not have amounted to anything. If it didn't stop you, then it would not have stopped me. She is more blind than I thought if she thinks I did this out of anything other than what is true to me. If she could open her eyes and look into mine, I doubt they would have spoken any differently from her words. Of course, I can never know for certain, but with that single plea, she had lost any chance to sway me from your path. I knew then, that if she didn't understand my reasons, then neither would anyone else.

Not that crimson-eyed devil who fights by our side, lured by the scent of blood. He looks at me, mocking and condescending and taking delight in what he perceives to be my weakness--following you without question. Though we tread the same path, we do so for different reasons.

Not that cool-eyed, ambitious strategist who regards me with a mixture of pity and disgust for my seemingly waste of existence. For walking in your shadow.

It is not their consolation I seek. It is not for them that I stand here tonight and guard this rune with my strength.

Tonight I pray that the souls sacrificed in this war find their way to heaven. I am not heartless. Nor am I blind. I know full well the consequences of following you and I do not ask to be forgiven because I cannot. Win or lose, my fate is sealed. Contrary to what they think, I decided it for myself when I followed you.

Because being with you has finally given me more purpose and direction in a life I had lost hold of since childhood. And so I will follow you even to the hands of death.

Madness, they call it. And I do not seek to protest nor to justify my actions.

For how can I make anyone understand that amidst all this chaos surrounding me, it is you, above all else, that keeps me sane?