Ch.3 End of waiting
/My needs will only fulfil by you. /
Two days passed slowly when they were days of waiting and longing for love. Cleitus could not keep himself sit still whenever he heard sound of horse race to the gate of chief's house, a place where Alexander, his General and companions had been invited to rest when they were staying in the city of Bactria. As much as he could not stop himself to walk toward window and staring to a new comer on the dusty road, He swore he saw his king, Alexander, also walked out and looked in the same direction. He forced himself not to laugh for what was in his mind, how two noble man of Macedonion, one general and one king could not control himself when it came to a man who hold their hearts, Hephaistion.
Finally, he saw troops of Marcedonion army riding toward the gate of the chief's house. A figure which he could remembered by his heart, a figure he always looked out in the battle field which always drove him mad to come closer, to protected those figure from the madness of confronting the enemy without fear of death. He knew, this young man would never been afraid of dying when he was fighting side by side with his lover, King Alexander. He looked through the afternoon light shrine on figure of Hephaistion who was riding gracefully on his horse toward his direction, he could not stop himself from smiling and fulfilling as those figures came closer to the house. He wanted to go down and welcomed a young man but he knew a routine, a young man always seeks for Alexander as soon as he got back. But this time, something had change, instead of walking directly to a king's chamber Hephaistion headed directly to his place in the general apartment. It did not take long before Cleitus decided to follow to a young man's room.
He entered a door and found a young man lying fatiguing in the bathtub. His back bend forward, his head dropped close to the water and his body was tense. Cleitus noticed a young man had loss weight and there were marks of sun on his naked skin. Cleitus came closer as quiet as he can, he afraid that a sound would frighten a beautiful figure in front of him and made them disappear. His heart wanted to pull a young man and kissed him forcefully to show how much he longing for him. But his hand just came forward and rubbed a young man gently at his neck. He felt a young man flinch on his first touch before he turned toward him. He could see disappointment in the eyes of Hephaistion. Spark light in a young man's eyes was disappeared when he turned face to face with Cleitus.
"Do you need anything, General Cleitus?" Hephaistion said softly and turned his back to him. He didn't want any companion right now. He just needed to take some rest and clear his mind before he had to face Alexander.
"I just come to welcome you and see if you need anything"
"Thank you for your generosity but I think I have everything I need, I will be finished in a minute if you don't mind."
"Yes. Please, be yourself. I didn't wish to trouble you" Cleitus stand up and walked to the table at the corner of a room and pour wine for himself while his eye look directly at Hephaistion's naked body.
Hephaistion didn't want to finish bathing so soon but he knew Cleitus would not leave him alone easily. Ever since he was a boy, he noticed Cleitus's eye following him around like a hawk and his constant attention toward Hephaistion was never change. He walked out of the bathtub naked and rushed to grab his robe to cover his body. It is not usual for Macedonion man to shy of naked body but he felt uncomfortable for having Cleitus staring at him. Before he finished his dress, he felt Cleitus hand grabbed his arms and spin him toward his face. There was a grin and heat in Cleitus look.
"Don't look at me as I am one of your boy, you know that I am not interesting"
"Yes. I know that you were not interesting because you had your king but now the king you love is no longer hold a special place for you, Hephaistion. Alexander has his new lover and you'll be nothing to him but his old toys. You know what I felt for you in all these years, Stop your puppy love and grow up, man, I can give you what Alexander could only imagine."
"Let go of me Cleitus. I am not Alexander's toy and certainly I'll never be your toy. Just leave me alone" Hephaistion snarled angrily to Cleitus and tried to walk away. But before he could go far, Cleitus grabbed a young man arms and pushed him toward a bed. He loss his balance and fell on the floor. His head was knocked and the next thing he knew he was dragged and threw down into his bed. Before he can push himself off, Cleitus body was on top of him and pinned him to a sheet. Cleitus face is an inch from his face. He can feel Cleitus breath tapping his eyes and nose. He could feel his heart and Cleitus's heart beating against each other. Cleitus's hip clushed against his hip. His body struggling to get loose from Cleitus strong hand but the harder he pushed the farther he was force down. His loose robe showing naked body fuel the heat in Cleitus eyes. He was totally pegged down on the bed before Cleitus kissed him fiercefully. Cleitus tongue was touching every inch in his mouth. His lips was swallowed by Cleitus lips and he felt Cleitus beard clushing on his skin. It is rough and base. He can sense every hot breath of demanding and hear Cleitus moaning and begging him for pleasure. His mind told him to push Cleitus away but his head was hurt and his body was paralyzed by Clietus force. Part of him needed to be touched and to be loved which he hardly felt for so long. Only if Cleitus was Alexander, this fierce action would sooth his torn-heart and made him felt love again. He always knew Cleitus feeling for him, he didn't want to hurt a man who was do nothing but nice to him since they first met. He understood feelings of loving someone who will never fully return his love. How easily his love would be if only he was in love with a simply soldier or General but not the king. Cleitus touch reminded him of how much he longing for his lover's touch. How much he wanted to feel love and secure in his lover arms. How much he wanted his lover to ensure him that nothing or no one can change love between them. He could no longer suppress his loneliness, insecure, torned-heart. His weakness controlled over him. His tear was dripping and his body was still. When he stopped struggling, he could feel Cleitus paused forcing him and looked in to his eyes. He felt Cleitus eyes look trough his frailty heart. He sensed a sort of comfort and understanding in Clietus look. Cleitus eyes were confused and hurt when he looked through his loss soul. Another kiss from Clietus was making Hephaistion totally loss again, loss in those deep and desire kiss. It was different from Alexander, his lover was more gentle and sweet. But this strong kiss was showing a real desire and lust. Would this be a time to return a favour as he promised.