"Assasinate him."

"Hai! Kazekage-sama.."

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Title: Love

Author: Chibi-nin-Adara

Disclaimer: Naruto is brought to us by Masashi Kishimoto, not me.

Summary: Love only yourself and fight only for your sake. The true personality of Sand Siblings.

Warnings: Contains spoiler.

Prologue Two: Kankurou

Those possessed by the badger demon , shuukaku, become such that they can't have even a single night of decent sleep...If they sleep, their personality is eaten away by shuukaku..Bit by bit..Until they dissappear.

Author's secret note: This is for Kankurou fans :) Hope you like it..

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I hear the words. I know the voices. I know what they are tend to do as I know I can not stop them.

Would Temari be able to stop them, I don't know.. All I know, when I ask for her help she would be there but when it comes to Gaara, she hesistates. Or maybe she is afraid too..

I know she is those kind of girls, you know, who bullies guys and acts tomboyish but female enough when it is needed. But she knows her place and so do I.. Even so, I can't stop thinking about, would we able to stop them, or can we?

I watch them, my father and Yashamaru. They probably thought I was asleep but I watch Yashamaru as he walked out and I felt fear in me. Not the fear of my father that is.. I know it is because I'm afraid of losing my brother.

He wasn't always like this, just lately, since the children refused to talk to him. He hurts them without knowing, without wanting to hurt them. It is not his wish, I know. Because I had seen his eyes.. Watching my mothers photograph as if she was talking to him.. And I heard him talking to her.

I sometimes think to myself, It isn't fair.. Why was mother is with Gaara, I questionize, why is he able to talk to her, see her and I am not. But..According to Temari, he sees her in his mind, because he wishes to. She told me she talks to her too, only she doesn't expecting an answer and so she receives none.

Temari..

"Temari.." I repeated, once I walked into her room. I heard her mumbling:

"What Kankurou, go to sleep."

She wasn't sleeping, I know. She heard them too, she was also worried. Even though she doesn't like to admit she had long ago started to act like our mother, behind all of our sibling fights, she had received the responsibility and I know it hurt her deeply when Gaara refused her love. Without his own knowledge, I presume.

"Temari.." I started once more. Capturing her attention. "Yashamaru left just now."

She understood. She opened her eyes and I captured the look, her fear, her worries. For a minute, I thought, maybe she and I will fight Yashamaru and Gaara will be saved..

But then her eyes had changed but into a fake coldness.

"Kankurou..Go to Sleep." Her voice was rough, once more, like father.

She turned her back and I left the room. I know, when one of us use that tone we will not change our minds. I went to my room and locked the door, sitting in the dark corner where I could feel safe...

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Was it when he died or was it when he was alive? When was I so disturbed from the resemblance, from the words that people were tend to tell me since I was a child, who were glad of my improvement in my classes and as a ninja, my success? Why I was so disturbed, when they told me I'm like him a lot?

Was it because when I look into the mirror, I see him?

I don't like my father, I never liked my father and I don't think I ever will. I don't know if it was because of the times he forced me to practice or was it because he was strict or was it because how he treated us but I know that I'm not like him.. Or to be more clear, I don't want to be like him..

"Kankurou, you're acting a lot like him.." The warning came, from the statue, from my little brother, in his calm disturbing voice but in a caring way.

Why did Gaara say that?

"Damn it Kankurou, you're just like our father!" So said my sister, angry, with cold looks, in her loud voice...

Why did Temari say that?

"I am NOT my father!" I will answer.. Because that is my fear, to turn into someone like him..

Assassinate him.

Who had sent his men to kill his son.

But am I, really? Why would they say that? Why did they say that?

I sighed as I leaned back to the wall, from where I was sitting, my favourite corner of my room.

I heard the knocking on my bedroom door and I raised my head just to see Temari, popping her head from the slightly opened door with a soft smile which she took when she wanted to apologize.

"Can I come in?" I heard her say and I nod, watching her with a frown as she closed the door and sat next to me. I looked ahead and so did she.

After some time, which was spent in a long silence, she spoke.

"Kankurou.." She started but I had the urge to stop her..

Maybe they were right..

"Don't Temari.." I said, softly, not facing her. "You wouldn't say that if you didn't mean it so don't apologize."

I saw her, with the corner of my eye, looking at me and that was when I looked at her. Not needing to hide my pain, how much the words hurt me.

But I must say, I didn't expected her to hug me. As she placed her head on my shoulder and hold me tight I heard her say with a broken voice.

"You are nothing like him Kankurou. I was just angry when I said that. You..are..no-"

"I love you Temari.." I whispered as in comfort, I hugged her back, hearing her sobs. She never cried before. I understand now...

"I didn't mean that." She said softly once more, letting me know that she is sorry. I know how she hates to have a fight.

"I know.." I caressed her hair and she cried for the first time. For our mother's death, for Gaara's ex-situation, for our fathers behaviour, for everything that had mattered to her.. For our fight..

What I most feared was..When I had my children, would I be my father? What would I do if Gaara was my son, would I made the same desicion which my father did? The possible answer freaks me out, I'm scared of what I might have done... But, I'm starting to figure this out and..I think the answer is no. Because I remember the night, when Yashamaru died, I remember what I thought. And I know, I will never be my father...