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Thanks for all who reviewed or not! Happy Gackt Day yesterday! (aka: Happy Birthday Gackt!)
Smut is in the next chapter because this one is really long already… Hope you enjoy!
Chapter Two
For the next week after that incident, Sho ignored me completely. He started going on our missions alone—leaving me at home to worry about whether he was alright or not. And as soon as he would arrive home, I'd rush over and ask him how it went. More than likely he'd just smile and flash me a handful of bills—he was still angry at me, but he wasn't afraid to smile at me. Sometimes I just can't understand that man…
But one night, when he came home, I nearly died. He was clutching his right side, gasping painfully. "Sho!" I said, running over to him. "Sho, what—"
"'M fine…" Sho told me, trying to push me out of the way, but he doubled over in pain. Catching him off-guard, I moved his hand away from his side and pulled up his shirt. I gasped.
"Holy shit, Sho…" I breathed. It was a deep sword gash. What idiot uses a sword to kill people when there are guns? But maybe a sword was better in this case—Sho wasn't dead.
"I said I'm—OWW!" Sho said, hissing in pain.
"Get over here onto the couch, Sho." I said. He obeyed.
"You're not going to—kill me, are you?" Sho asked as he laid down on the couch.
"No," I said, walking over to a cupboard and pulling out some bandages. "And take your shirt off. I'm going to fix that huge sword gash in your side." Sho merely whimpered in pain, making me want to cry. "Please don't cry when I'm doing this, Sho. It really shouldn't hurt." I said as I kneeled down next to him on the couch.
"Kei—it's f-fine!" Sho tried to tell me as he sat up, but he moaned loudly in pain and fell back onto the couch. I put disinfectant on the wound and he hissed at me.
"Can you arch your back a little?" I asked him. He gave me a look that made me realize what he was thinking. I blushed slightly, but he didn't notice. "I-I have to wrap the bandage around your back, too. And I can't do it if you're laying down."
"Oh…" Sho said, arching his back a few inches. I quickly wrapped the bandages around him a few times. He finally collapsed back onto the couch as I slowly taped up the bandage.
"There. Give it a few days and you should be okay…"
"A-are you sure?" Sho asked me as he sat up slowly.
"Yeah. It isn't as deep as it looked." I told him.
"Good." As he stood up, he looked at me with his hypnotizing blue eyes. "Thanks." He muttered as he walked down to his room.
"So you're going to keep ignoring me?" I called after him. "After what I just did? After what I've done for you all of these years?" I saw Sho nod his head. He turned and looked at me, nodding again. I felt a burning sensation in my throat and I knew I could have cried. "I-I don't want you to get hurt, Sho." I paused as he turned around and continued to walk to his room. "If you fall in love with me, I'll just hurt you!" I yelled after him. I saw his figure reappear in the hallway.
"How do you know that?" Sho asked me.
"I—" I really didn't have an answer.
"How do you know if we simply kiss, I'll get hurt?" He asked, walking slowly towards me. "I'm hurt already, Kei…" He kneeled down in front of me on the floor. He put a hand under my chin. His blue eyes stared into mine. "You've rejected me so many times…" Sho breathed. "I've already been hurt enough…" I stared at him.
"S-Sho—"
"All I want is just one simple kiss, Kei." He slowly leaned forward, holding my chin in his hand. His grip was strong; I couldn't move away even if I wanted to. "That's all I ask…"
"Sho—please Sho—don't…I—" Sho was barely three inches away from my face.
"Don't say it!" Sho whispered, sorrow flashing through his eyes. "Kei—"
"—Don't want to hurt you." I finished. I watched a tear fall down his cheek. His hand underneath my chin dropped to his lap. I watched his face; he closed his eyes, tears falling down his face. I lowered my head, feeling as though the world had ended—I had finally made Sho cry. Why was I refusing Sho? I loved him like he loved me, but I knew that he would get hurt. I didn't want him hurt.
I suddenly felt wet lips on my forehead. My eyes shot open. I was face-to-face with Sho's neck. "Sho…" I said softly. His lips left my forehead. I watched him stand up and walk to his room. As I heard his door close softly, I gently pressed a hand to my forehead. Feeling horrible, I walked over to his closed door, knocking quietly. "Sho?" I asked softly.
"Go away," a watery voice sobbed. I nearly cried.
"Sho…" I turned the knob, but he had locked his door. God, why did I let him install locks? Frustrated and angry at myself, I rested my back on the door and slid down to the ground. "Sho—I'm sorry." I said, making sure I didn't start crying. "All these years—I've never made you cry…I've never set out to make you cry. A-and now you are and I didn't mean it and I feel horrible!" I wiped away a tear, listening intently for any signs of sobbing—I heard a faint sob. 'I love you, Sho.' I mouthed to myself. "I-I can't stand it when you're crying, Sho…" I stood up, facing the closed door and I heard it unlock suddenly. "Sho?"
"G-go away, Kei…" Sho said from on the other side of the door.
"Sho, please? I-I feel horrible…" The door opened and I found myself staring at a broken Sho. His eyes were red and puffy; tears were streaming down his face and his cheeks were already quite tearstained.
"P-please go away, Kei." Sho managed to say.
"There's just one thing," I said softly, stepping closer to him. If I wanted to make him happy, I had to do something I would normally not do. "Before you slam the door in my face…" I gently placed a hand underneath his chin as I leaned upwards. I pressed my lips to his wet cheek, kissing it softly. I let my hand fall as I pulled away. "I'm sorry, Sho." I said softly as I walked to my room. Before I closed my door, I shot a quick glance at Sho. He was still standing in the doorway, but he looked dazed and happy, his hand rubbing his cheek gently. I noticed a small smile on his lips. Closing my door, I smiled, happy that Sho wasn't crying anymore.
Of course, he was still going to ignore me.
Finally after one more week of being shunned by Sho, I confronted him as he was watching TV. "Sho." I called over to him. He didn't respond, he only turned the TV up louder. "Sho." I said, walking over and sitting down next to him on the couch. "Sho." I grabbed the remote and turned the TV off, throwing the remote across the room. "Sho, please listen to me." He turned his head away.
"No."
"Sho—please listen to me!" I begged him. He finally looked at me.
"What?"
"Sho…" I took a deep breath. "I-I don't know why I've been rejecting you all of these years." Sho leaned forward slightly. "All I know is that I know we'd both get hurt if it went farther than our relationship now." I paused, breathing deeply. "I-I think I should tell you something…"
"What?" Tears fell down his face because he knew what I was going to say.
"I love you, too." I told him.
"Then kiss me." Sho said softly, looking away.
"Not while you're crying." I told him, kissing away a tear on his cheek.
"I won't be able to stop, Kei…" Sho said, staring at me. "You've told me what I've longed to hear…you've made me happier than ever."
"Even when I gave you your trench coat?" I asked him. He laughed.
"Yes. You—you're more important to me than a trench coat." Sho told me, wiping away his tears. "C-can you kiss me now?"
"I don't know," I said softly. "Can I?"
"W-will you?" Sho asked, knowing the grammar I had taught him when he was little. I merely smiled and leaned forward slowly, licking my lips; Sho mimicked me. I paused an inch before our lips met.
"No." I told him sternly.
"K-Kei!" Sho cried as I walked away. "DON'T DO THIS TO ME, KEI!"
"I-I'm sorry…" I told him…
And then I woke up. I shook my head, trying to get rid of the nightmare. I pressed a hand to my forehead and felt sweat. Wiping my face off on my bed sheets, I stood up and walked over to my dresser. I changed into a pair of black leather pants and my peasant-cut blouse. "It was only a dream…" I whispered to my reflection. "When I walk out of this room, Sho won't be watching TV on the couch. He won't be…it was just a dream."
So, I walked out of my room and stopped by the kitchen table. Sho was sitting on the couch watching TV. "Sho." He turned up the TV louder; my heart began to pound. If my dream was true, I figured I should confront him now. "Sho." I said, walking over and sitting down next to him on the couch. "Sho." I grabbed the remote, turned off the TV, and flung the remote across the room. "Sho, please listen to me." He turned his head away.
"No."
"Sho—please listen to me!" I begged him. He finally looked at me, his eyes cold.
"What?"
"Sho…" I took a deep breath—this was going to be painful for me to say. "I-I don't know why I've been rejecting you all of these years." Sho leaned forward slightly. "All I know is that I know we'd both get hurt if it went farther than our relationship now." I paused, breathing deeply again. This was it. "I-I think I should tell you something…"
"What?" Tears were falling down his face because he knew what I was going to say—I did too.
"I love you, too." I said softly.
"Then kiss me." Sho said delicately, looking away.
"Not while you're crying." I told him, kissing away a few tears on his cheek. Unlike my dream, this was going to be fun in so many ways.
"I won't be able to stop, Kei…" Sho said, staring at me happily. "You've told me what I've longed to hear…you've made me happier than ever."
"Even when I gave you your trench coat?" I asked him, already knowing the answer. He laughed.
"Yes. You—you're more important to me than a trench coat." Sho told me, wiping away his tears. "C-can you kiss me now?"
"I don't know," I said softly. "Can I?"
"Will you?" I smiled softly as I leaned forward. Sho licked his lips so I mimicked him. I paused (just like in my dream) an inch before our lips met.
"No." I said sternly. Sho stared at me, not daring to move and inch.
"K-Kei—don't." I was glad that he couldn't see me smile—he was falling for it.
"You don't want me to…" I said.
"I don't want you to keep teasing me, Kei!" I stifled a laugh.
"Teasing?" I breathed on his lips.
"Yes, teasing!" Sho said, shivering slightly. "Don't tease me, I don't like it."
"Teasing…" I breathed again. I watched his mouth open slightly (I opened my mouth slightly as well)—now was my chance. Quickly and unexpectedly, I leaned forward another inch, pressing our lips together. Sho took a sharp intake of breath and pressed himself closer to me. I wrapped my arms around his neck—one hand trailing down his back underneath his shirt, my other hand running through his hair continuously, pushing him deeper into the kiss. I felt Sho's arms wrap around my torso and waist. My lips left his and Sho was confused for a moment.
"Kei—aah…" He said as I slowly kissed his neck. I trailed upwards to his lips again, slipping my tongue into his mouth. And then I realized—this was much better than in my dream.
Sho pushed me away after a few minutes of our passionate kiss. I took a good look at him—his cheeks were flushed and he was grinning happily. He pulled me close and whispered, "My room. Now." I smiled softly.
"Eager, are we?" I asked. Sho nodded his head, leaning up and licking my nose. "Hmm…maybe I should turn down your offer…"
"W-what!" Sho asked me frantically. I laughed suddenly.
"You're so susceptible, Sho…" I told him, tracing a finger down his chest.
"Ugh, big words…" Sho said. I merely laughed.
'You're not very bright…"
"Only when you're around." Sho said. "Your radiant beauty distracts me too much."
"See? Radiant is a big word, too." I told him. "Just not very big and intelligent."
"Can we just shut up and go to my room now?" Sho asked.
"No, I don't think so…" I said.
"Well fine then!" Sho said, suddenly scooping me into his arms and standing up. "I'll just have to take you there by force!"
"Sho!" I said, trying (not very hard, though) to break free. "I need to gain some weight." Sho laughed.
"I think you're perfectly fine how you are, my sweet little vampire…"
"Oh god…that better not be my pet name or I'll kill you." I told him. He merely smiled.
"Well, if you don't like that name then—"
"You're pushing your luck, sweetie," I said softly as he kicked open the door to his room. "You're going to kill your door someday, too."
"I know……" Sho said as he closed the door behind us………
Once beneath the stars
The universe was ours
Love was all we knew
And all I knew was you.
I wonder if you know
I wonder if you think about it
Once upon a time
In your wildest dreams…
RATED R NEXT CHAPTER. RATED R NEXT CHAPTER. RATED R NEXT CHAPTER. Sorry for repeating myself, but it'll make you remember. So….review and go eat a cake with Gackt's picture on it. His shoulder is exceptionally delicious :DD Seriously. Mel's eaten his face. He is very delicious…and doesn't taste like Platinum Egoiste, surprisingly. XD
Random ending Lyrics are um...In Your Wildest Dreams by the Moody Blues.