Author's Note: Hey, all. Sorry it took so long for me to get this out, but I've been really busy lately. I'm glad that you all liked the last chapter so much because I enjoyed writing it. I think that this one needs some more fluff though, what do you guys think? There is always room for some good old Baley fluff. And it'll be fun to write. While, that's all there really is to say, other then 'Hey, Jodi!' Enjoy this chapter.
...WWHT…
"So," Brooke began, sitting stiffly on the bed beside Haley. It had always been so easy to talk to Haley, to be around her, and now she was incredibly nervous. She knew that she had said some pretty harsh stuff down stairs and she didn't blame Haley for being angry with her.
"I'm sorry I freaked out down there," Haley began, not realizing that Brooke was coming in here to apologize for her actions. Haley knew that she sometimes had the tendency to overreact to things, but she just did what she felt. What Brooke had said had really hurt her feelings and even if her head was telling her she was being a baby, she just couldn't help the way she felt. "I was completely over reacting."
"No you weren't," Brooke protested. She should have known that Haley was going to act like this. "Baby, what I said down there was completely out of line. I was being just as bad as my mom was. I never should have said anything like that."
"You were just angry," Haley decided. She wasn't sure if she was asking or not. Peyton had kept telling her over and over that Brooke didn't mean and she wanted more than anything to believe her friend's words. "You didn't mean it. Right?"
"No," Brooke stated, her voice not wavering a bit. "God, no, baby." She reached forward and took both of Haley's hands in her own, wanting to make sure that Haley understood that she didn't mean anything that she had said. She didn't know what she would do if Haley thought she meant it. "My mother just gets under my skin like that. It had nothing to do with you. I promise."
"So you're not upset about not getting any?" Haley asked, making sure to use the phrase the same hurtful way that Brooke had said it earlier. Brooke grimaced at the words that she had used. She still couldn't believe that she had let herself say something that vulgar.
"I can't believe I said that," Brooke sighed. She knew that she was going to have to do a lot more than some simple sweet talking to get out of this one. She closed her eyes and shook her head. After a moment, she locked eyes with Haley again. "You know that I don't care about that. Yeah, it's no secret that my past relationships have pretty much been solely based on that, but this is completely different."
"But our relationship shouldn't be completely different, Tigger," Haley explained. Brooke had to hide the smile that creeped to her lips when she called her Tigger. "Just cause I'm a girl doesn't mean that you need to treat me any different than you would a boyfriend."
"That's not what I mean, Hales," Brooke tried to explain. "It's like I told you that night we decided to officially become a couple, you make me feel different than I've ever felt before. No guy that I've ever been with has ever made me feel as special as you make me feel."
"So, it's a good different?" Brooke smiled and leaned forward, kissing Haley lightly on the lips. She pulled back and smiled at her girlfriend.
"It's the best different," she assured her with a wide smile. "What you and me have, it beats anything I could do with a guy. Yeah, sex can be great, but just cuddling with you is better then sex has been with any guy. I'm not interested in that stuff anymore."
"So," Haley began, eyeing Brooke unsurely. The thought had been in the back of her head for the past week and she had been fighting with herself about whether she should say anything. "If I were to say that I was ready to, you know, you wouldn't be interested?"
"Are you saying that you're ready?" Brooke had to be sure. She had been dreaming about this moment since that night in the café. She knew that she shouldn't have, especially when she always told Haley that it didn't matter, but it did. She had spent almost half of her teen years sleeping around; it was in her nature, so of course she thought about what it would be like with Haley. She wasn't frustrated or anything, nor would she ever think about pressuring Haley into doing something she wasn't ready to do, but she was more than willing if Haley was.
Haley smiled at Brooke, without saying anything. She brought one hand up to Brooke's face, brushing the hair behind her ear and bringing their lips together. She shifted over to press their bodies closer against each other. Haley gently guided Brooke's body back so it was lying against the bed and brought her leg to the other side of her girlfriend so she was straddling Brooke's waist. They didn't break their lip contact once.
Brooke felt like her entire body was on fire. She could swear that she could feel Haley's hands all over her body, touching her in every place she ever wanted to be touched. She closed her eyes as Haley slipped her tongue back into her mouth, before bringing it back out quickly. She let out a whimper as Haley sucked and nibbled on her bottom lip. Just when she thought that Haley couldn't kiss any better…
Without thinking, she started slipping her hands up the back of Haley's shirt, massaging the creamy, silky smooth skin she found there. There was a voice in her head that was telling her that she should stop this before it got out of hand, but it just felt too good, too right.
"Oh, God," she moaned when Haley moved away from her lips and started kissing a trail down her neck. Brooke's eyes rolled back at the sensation and brought her hands further up Haley's body until she felt Haley's bra strap under her fingers. She tugged on Haley's shirtsleeve until her bare shoulder was visible and she attacked it with her lips, kissing and sucking on the sweet tasting tanned skin.
"I want this," Haley whispered into Brooke's ear before taking the lope in her ear and sucking gently on it. Brooke's entire body arched up at the sensation. She had heard that the ear was one of the most sensitive places on your body, but no one had ever done that to her. Haley smiled at the effect she was having on Brooke.
Haley let her right hand trail it's way down the length of Brooke's body as she continued to kiss her neck, following the example of the sloppy kisses Brooke was kissing her. She didn't know what she has expected when this finally happened, but this was better than she ever thought it would feel like, and they hadn't even taken off any clothes yet. Suddenly needing to feel Brooke's lips against her's, Haley pulled back and captured Brooke's swollen lips in a kiss.
Brooke tried her best to ignore the hand that was slowly sneaking beneath her shirt. The hand that was attached to the fingers that were giving her feather light caresses across her stomach. She brought her own hands out from behind Haley and buried one hand in Haley's tresses and the other one up the front of her shirt. She tried her best to focus all of her thoughts on the feeling of their dueling tongues.
There was that hand again. Her breathing quickened and she ran her tongue along the length of Haley's bottom lip before bringing it into her mouth and sucking gently on it. Haley's hand continued its journey across her toned abdomen and further up her shirt until it brush against her breast….
"Haley," she groaned out, as she pulled their lips apart. Haley ignored her call and sought out her lips again. For a moment, Brooke forgot what she had been trying to do, trying to think of why she would possible want to stop something that felt soooo good. She remembered when she felt finger's brush her nipple. "Baby, please."
"It's okay," Haley assured her, seeking out her lips again. This time, Brooke didn't let them make contact. She quickly pulled her hand out of Haley's top and untangled her fingers from Haley's auburn hair so she wouldn't be tempted to continue with what they were doing.
"No, it's not," Brooke protested. She started to sit up and sighed, reluctantly getting off of Brooke and flopping down on the bed beside her. Brooke sat up, crawling up to lean against the headboard. She started fixing her messed up top. Once she felt she was presentable again, she glanced at Haley just staring at the ceiling. Brooke could tell by her posture that she was angry. "Hales…"
"Don't," Haley stopped her, not bothering to tear her gaze from counting the tiles on the ceiling. It was a ritual of her's, to count when she got angry, it was usually better than blowing up at people and making a fool of herself.
"Haley, I just," Brooke tried, but snapped her mouth shut. What was she thinking? She didn't know what had come over her, but all of a sudden, things just started to become overwhelming and she had to stop it. "I'm sorry, I don't know what happened."
"I do." Brooke was surprised at the words. If she didn't know what had come over her, how could Haley possibly know?
"You do?"
"You didn't want to," Haley answered, her voice shaky. Brooke could tell that she was near tears. She raised an eyebrow and slowly started shifting herself towards the end of the bed where Haley was laying. Once she was sitting beside Haley, she leaned back so she was copy Haley's position, staring up at the ceiling. After looking up for a moment, she tilted her head to the side to gaze at Haley, trying to figure out what she was thinking.
"What are you talking about?" Haley continued to stare up for a few moments longer before turning to look at her girlfriend, unshed tears glistening in her eyes.
"You don't want me," she whispered. There, she said it. She had been thinking it, there was no other conclusion to jump to, but it hurt so much more to say the words out loud. When she said them out loud, there was a bigger chance for them to be proven right.
"I want you too much," Brooke corrected her. She was more than used to Haley's insecurity issues by now. She swore, if she ever met Haley's parents, she was going to ring their necks for causing this beautiful girl to feel the way she did. She tugged on Haley's sleeve, urging her to roll over. Finally, Haley gave in, and snuggled into Brooke's side, letting herself be wrapped up in her arms.
"You really want me?"
"More than I've ever wanted anything, baby," Brooke told her honestly, her voice not wavering a bit. She took Haley's chin on her fingers and tilted her head up so she could look into her watery eyes. "Where we were going there, if we went any further than there would have been no turning back."
"But I'm ready," Haley protested. "I know I am."
"I know you are, too." Brooke knew that Haley was a smart girl, and there was no way she would ever do something this big just because she felt the pressure to. She had to be ready. "But I'm not."
"Huh?"
"Haley, listen to me," Brooke began. She couldn't resist placing a simple kiss on Haley's incredibly swollen and beat red lips before she started her explanation. "I've been having sex since I was fourteen. That kind of thing really isn't new to me. Hell, I'm so used to it, that it started losing its appeal. But with you? God, I felt like I was on fire. It was intense."
"And that's bad?"
"Not at all," Brooke answered, shaking her head and smiling reassuringly at her girlfriend. The last thing she wanted Haley to think was that she didn't turn her on. Nothing could be more wrong. "I've never felt like that. You were just kissing my neck and I almost had to bite my lip to keep from screaming."
"I was that good?" Haley asked, a proud smile slipping onto her lips. Brooke giggled at the adorable look on Haley's face. Brooke nodded her head emphatically. "You did say I was Heaven sent," she reminded her.
"I guess I was right." They shared a smile and Brooke was happy to see that Haley was starting to understand where she was coming from. "I don't want to rush this. It's our first time together, it's your first time period. I just want this to be special, you know? I don't want to make love to you out of spite against my mother."
"That was never the reason," Haley told her, leaning up and kissing Brooke's nose. "But thank you for not rushing. I am ready, but that doesn't mean we have to do it right now."
"So, we're good?" Haley gave her a tooth-baring grin and planted a sloppy kiss on her lips.
"We're perfect."
...WWHT…
I know that was short, but I'm uberly tired and I really wanted to get this chapter out. This didn't go at all how I planned, but I hope you like it anyway. Don't worry, next chapter will being them out of this storyline and into the next, which I have yet to determine. Please tell me what you thought about this chapter.
Important Question: I was thinking about making a prequel to this story, showing their night in the café, how they started dating, sneaking around…I was just wondering if anyone would be interested in that. Tell me what you think.
