Betrayed by the only ones you thought you could trust,

Betrayed by everyone you loved and cared about,

When you die will any one care?

Or will they laugh at your demise?

Will you be capable of living with the thought of loneliness?

Or perish because you know there are people out there,

But they just don't care you exist?

Walking past you not giving you a second glance!

Will you take a chance,

And reach out to someone?

Hoping they don't betray you like the others,

And learn the only one you can trust is yourself.

Knowing the only ones who can take the pain away,

Are the same ones who caused it!

Knowing that you are alone,

Left without any one, stuck in your own little world.

Your sanctuary,

Your place, away from the rest of the world,

Where you are NOT alone,

And they are with you.

Smiling, laughing, like before,

Before they left,

Before the pain,

And before you were alone, and scared.

In your world you are NOT alone,

You are NOT scared,

You are happy,

You are how you used to be.

But you must come back to reality,

You must keep going,

But the pain is so great,

You are soon slipping…

Slipping into darkness,

Slipping into that special place,

Never wanting to come back…

Knowing that if you come back,

You will be alone,

Without any one,

But yourself,

You start hoping,

Dreaming,

For someone,

Anyone to help cure this pain,

But realizing that no one will help,

No one cares,

And no one even knows who you are,

Except them.

The ones that betrayed you,

Left you,

And shattered what was left of your soul.

That is the harsh reality of your life.

Not knowing what happened,

And why they left you,

Or how they could do this to you,

You blame yourself.

You think it's your fault,

You think that if you hide away it won't happen again,

You won't have to go through it,

All the pain you suffered before, not again.

You want to scream,

You want to just run, run for everything and everyone.

You think that will help,

That will cure the pain.

But it doesn't,

You keep coming back,

You try not looking back at the past,

But you're drawn to it.

Remembering everything you had,

Never realizing how lucky you were,

Until it all went away,

And you were left all alone.

All along you knew,

You knew this would happen,

But you didn't care,

All you though about was how happy you were.

How much love you felt,

Even though it was all a lie,

They never cared,

If you had died they wouldn't have cared!

You get mad,

Thinking about how they had lied,

Tricked you into thinking the cared,

Never realizing you did.

You're mad at yourself,

Mad for thinking they cared,

And that they actually gave a damn about you!

But no!

They left you,

All alone in world,

Not knowing where you were,

Or why they left.

So you start to slip again,

Wanting nothing more than to step into your world,

But this time it's different,

This time you're still alone!

Now you have no where,

No one, nothing,

You feel worthless,

Like nothing you do matters.

So you start doing things you'd never imagine.

You'd rather be dead than do this but you can't stop,

You're addicted to it.

And for a brief second you feel no pain.

Now always wanting that brief second back,

Trying over and over again to find that second,

Never realizing what you've become,

You've become a fool, searching,

Searching for something, you'll never have!

You'll never have that feeling again,

Just pain,

You start to become numb,

The only think you feel is pain

Pain and depression

You feel betrayed,

Everything that's happened,

It doesn't seem to matter anymore,

And everyone you've ever cared about,

They're not important any more,

They, like you are worthless now!

And you have begun to realize that…

Hermione closed the book, and headed to bed. Tomorrow was her first day of the seventh year, and she hoped, as she looked out the window in the ophanage that it would get better again.