What happened in the last chapter

"You obviously don't trust me enough with your BIG stupid Marauders SECRET!" I jumped up from his lap, tears threatening to fall down my face. "See you later," I whispered. James jumped up to stop me running away. "NO! Don't touch me!" I said forcefully.

"Lily!" James called as I strode through the door. "Don't be upset Lil." Giving up quickly on getting me to listen, James slumped back into his chair, sighed and ran his hand over his face.

I stood outside the door, listening to James packing his books back into his bag. Slowly I made my way back to Gryffindor tower, up to my dormitory and into bed.

Chapter Eight

Four days later, I had never been so miserable. I wouldn't talk to anyone, I didn't do any work, I didn't sleep. I just sat and cried.

"Lily?"

I looked up from the chair in the furthest corner of the common room that was so dark no one would be able to notice me.

"Are you okay? Why are you crying?" Remus' gentle face looked down at me with concern etched all over it.

"I don't want to talk to you. Or Sirius. Or Peter. And especially James!"

"Why?"

"I thought James loved me." I wept onto his shoulder, not caring anymore who he was or what he was keeping from me.

"He does. So much. It's quite sickening to watch you two together sometimes. Makes you wish you could have it for yourself, even though you know that it could never happen." Now Remus was looking sad. And very tired.

"Why can't you have it? You're smart, caring, funny and not bad-looking."

"Thanks." Said Remus, sarcastically.

"How can you not know that?" Remus looked down at his hands that were playing nervously in his lap. "Want to know a secret?"

Remus looked unsure at the sudden change of subject. "Okay then."

"In fifth year, I kinda had a little crush on you."

Remus' eyes widened. "On…me?" I nodded.

"Don't tell James I told you that though." Remus shook his head hard. "You can tell me a secret now."

"What? I didn't agree to this."

"Tell me what you, James and Sirius were whispering about the other morning."

Remus surveyed my face for a minute. "Okay. But not here."

In the Room of Requirement, Remus sat gently on a chair. The room was very plain but that didn't matter. Remus sighed, almost growling. I stared at him silently, waiting for him to start talking.

"Promise me that when I tell you this you won't freak out, start screaming or get scared. If you do I'll have to stun you."

"It can't be that bad, surely."

"Believe me it is." Remus looked up at me with serious, monstrous eyes. When they had softened he said, "I'll understand if you won't want to be friends anymore either."

"Remus I will always be your friend. No matter what."

"I think you should wait 'til you hear what I have to tell you before you say stuff like that."

"Okay."

"Lily, I am a … a … a werewolf." I gasped.

"No." I whispered.

"Yes. James, Sirius and Peter are all animagi. They come to the Shrieking Shack with me once a month, on the full moon, and help me with the transformation."

"Oh my god." I was sobbing silently now. All I could think was how stupid and dangerous James was.

"Please don't be angry at James. Be angry at me. Just be sure that James does trust you, and he does love you. So much."

"Remus I will always be your friend. No matter what." I smiled through the tears that were falling down my face. "Thank you for telling me this."

After Remus and I had talked for a while longer, I walked around the castle trying to find James. Outside, in the middle of the Quidditch pitch, my steps were silent so James didn't turn round and notice me. He sniffed hard and I realised he was crying.

"Have you come to break up with me? 'Cause I totally understand if you have." He said once I had sat down next to him.

"No." I leaned my head on his shoulder. "I'm sorry."

James looked at me in surprise. "Why are you sorry? You have nothing to be sorry about. I'm sorry."

"No. Remus told me everything. I'm sorry."

"No, I'm sorry."

"No, I'm sorry."

"No, I'm sor…"

"This could go on for a while. Lets just both be sorry."

"Sounds good." James smiled at me and brushed the tears from my cheeks.

"I'm sorry."

James laughed. "I thought we'd already established that." I nodded and James leaned in, then out, then in again. He kissed me so softly. "So you still love me then?"

"Even more than I did before." We kissed again, and again, and again.

We sat outside in the middle of the Quidditch pitch just talking and kissing for half an hour. Then James took me up on his broomstick (I spent most of the ride with my hands covering my eyes and screaming).

We walked back up to Gryffindor tower, holding hands in silence, just being with each other. We said goodnight and went to our respective dormitories. Feeling sated, I fell into bed and had the best nights sleep for four days.

A/N: Sorry it's taken so long. My reasons are that I'm mega revising for the summer exams. These grades will decide which university I'm gonna go to. Eek!

Please don't hate me.