I Want A Lover I Don't Have To Love

Dengon Mitsukai

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Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto or the characters. Don't sue.

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Chapter One: Yesterday's Feelings

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It had been another beautiful day, but this was of no concern to the two boys hiding in the back of the Library. The sun was shining, and the air was crisp, but nothing penetrated the walls of the Library. On this day, there was much to much to explore than either of the two hiding boys could get to.

Sasuke's lips pressed firmly against Naruto's, his hands working up Naruto's quivering thighs. His innocence was such a turn on. Sasuke's kisses continued, his lust and need exposed, as their tongues danced slowly together. His fingers traced up the inside of Naruto's thighs, coming close to ecstasy, but each time Sasuke would try Naruto would bit down lightly on Sasuke's tongue, signaling his discomfort.

The air around them was humid. By now it was four o'clock, a good hour after they had met. If things had started off fast the other day, they hadn't started any slower this day. Now they were gasping for air. Now their lips were pressing. Now they were red in the face. Now they were inching closer and closer. Now it felt better and better.

Sasuke's hands moved once more, and Naruto bit down as hard as he could. Sasuke immediately pulled back, "Son of a bitch, Naruto, I was just playing around!" he hissed angrily.

Naruto looked at him guiltily. "I'm sorry."

Sasuke smiled quickly and moved in again and kissed him once more, and just as he was beginning to get into it, Naruto pulled back. "Sasuke, what's your favorite color?"

He groaned, running his fingers through Naruto's messy blonde hair. "Do we really have to get into this now?" He looked into his crystal clear blue eyes, trying not to lose himself, and seeing the desperation in them replied quickly, "I don't know. Blue, I guess." He moved in for another kiss and Naruto stopped him. "What now, Naruto? We don't have much time left…"

Naruto shifted uncomfortably. "I don't think you follow, Sasuke. I hardly know you." Sasuke's eyes hardened. "No, I don't mean that I'm not happy with this, because quite frankly I am… I just mean that… I want to know you, Sasuke, not just kiss you."

The darker haired boy nodded slowly. "So what do you want to know?" His hand traced up and down Naruto's leg, causing Naruto to blush. He loved to do that. He loved seeing Naruto's confused yet excited expressions, watching him, anticipating how he would react to the slightest touch…

Naruto shrugged. "Tell me about you, Sasuke. Not just what color is your favorite, or what your favorite flavor of pocky is. I want to know what you like and dislike, and what drives you crazy, and how you feel when you wake up in the morning…"

Sasuke grinned and pressed his forehead against Naruto's. "We have all the time in the world for you to search my soul, Naruto-kun. I don't want to give myself away just yet. That's no fun. But I'll help you out if you help me out."

Naruto smiled. "My favorite color is orange."

Placing his hands firmly around Naruto's neck, Sasuke kissed him once more. "Mmm, let's see. My favorite place to be in the entire world is in my room… and in your arms. I like fall and winter, and I hate spring and summer. School is a waste of my time, I'm intelligent enough. I hate my friends. I love parties. My brother is a bother. I love my parents, when they're home, which is never. I love the taste of your lips," he added, kissing him softly.

Naruto smiled, his cheeks flushed. "My turn?" Sasuke nodded, and Naruto sighed. "Um, I love to be at the park, it's beautiful. I really like summer and spring, the romance about them is fascinating. I…" he blushed, "I like to be with you, too. Um, I like school, it's pretty easy… I mean, I know you're smart and everything… but you can't know everything…Um, I don't like being home, I'm usually alone. I don't have a brother… and um, I like to read…"

Sasuke nodded. "Mmm-hmm…" He played with Naruto's hair, softly nibbling at his lower lip. "I like not talking better." He kissed Naruto slowly, the passion returning as he pulled the smaller blonde into his lap. Naruto was beside himself with fear as Sasuke slowly placed his hands on Naruto's narrow hips, tracing up and down them, moving his hands slowly and softly. Their lips met, but Sasuke moved to Naruto's neck, sucking softly at his skin, biting him roughly.

Naruto blushed. "Sasuke…" he whispered, as the dark haired boy traced his fingers around the rim of his pants. Immediately, Naruto pulled back. "Sasuke-kun, I don't…"

He nodded, his eyes soft. "I know you don't." He bit his own lip. "But you're really turning me on right now."

Naruto blushed. "S-Sasuke…"

The Librarian flashed the lights quickly, signaling the closure of the Library. It was already four-thirty, and both of the boys agreed that it was time to leave. Sasuke kissed Naruto once more before the two departed, each thinking something different of the day's encounters.

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Sasuke lay on his bed, his hands folded beneath his head. Naruto tasted so good. He was just a little scared, but they could work that out in time. After all, it was fairly obvious that Sasuke was his first everything, and Naruto didn't have much experience.

And what was with the sudden asking of questions, as if Sasuke's life was just that important? Did they really need to get into extreme details after a day? Or maybe he was one of those people who can't love someone unless they're completely secure with that person and know the deepest secrets hidden within their hearts. Sasuke would have to deal with this. He wasn't the type of person to run around with his heart on his sleeve, and he wouldn't let Uzumaki Naruto change that.

He was really cute though. Although he didn't show it well, for he had an image to maintain, he was driven crazy with anticipation the moment he saw Naruto walk the steps to the school. The way he walked. The way his voice sounded. The taste of his lips. One was enough to make him break down, but all of them?

Sasuke grinned to himself. How had this happened so quickly? How had Naruto gotten under his skin so easily? How had he allowed himself to become so close with him after just one day? He wasn't a god, he didn't think that was it. But something fascinating was growing within him.

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Naruto sat on his bed, flipping through that week's Weekly Shonen Jump, not really aware of what was in the book so much as what was on his mind. Sasuke was beginning to confuse him. Why had it taken so much to get an answer out of him? What was he holding back from him? What could he possibly have to hide?

No matter, they'd only been…whatever they were…for the past day. How could Naruto expect him to give away his deepest secrets after a mere twenty-four hours? They didn't even talk much. Sasuke'd instant messaged him last night, and even when he'd gotten home…but school was still an obstacle. Not to mention Naruto's friends…

"What did Sasuke want yesterday?" Shikamaru asked snidely. It was interesting for him to take such concern, considering normally Shikamaru didn't think much of anything or anyone but himself.

Naruto shrugged. "Oh, he just wanted help." He returned to reading his books, guiltily studying the words but taking in nothing. Maybe Shikamaru and the others could tell, maybe they knew that he and Sasuke were…But no, that would be impossible, unless Sasuke was telling people or they had seen. And Naruto supposed Sasuke hadn't told anyone, especially since his "best friend" Hyuuga Neji had given him his usual dirty look.

Shikamaru rolled his eyes. "I bet the prick is using you, what a jerk."

Quickly Naruto replied, "I don't know, maybe he just needs help." This thought had arisen in Naruto's mind before. Maybe Sasuke was using him, just for a cheap thrill. He hoped not, because he actually liked Sasuke, and it seemed like Sasuke actually liked him.

Anyhow, Shikamaru shrugged his shoulders and snorted. "Whatever. Your decision."

Naruto thought back to this many times. He wouldn't let himself get played by Sasuke, he just couldn't. For the time being, he just had to trust that Sasuke was doing everything for a reason, and go along with it. Although it was bothersome to hide their emotions all day, and although they were both trying to maintain their separate lives, at some point he realized that the charade would no longer be able to go on.

It was just a matter of time and situation.

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Okay, so this chapter was a little boring, aside from the feeling and the making out, and it was a little less long. Next chapter, here's a hint: Sasuke invites Naruto to his house! I really hope you guys somewhat enjoyed this chapter, it's more of a filler than a real exciting one, I know. Thanks for reading, please review! I love ya'll! Dengon Mitsukai