CHAPTER 8:

KAGOME'S DESPAIR

A/N: Okay! Hi! So, now, Kikyo won't be seen much in this chapter cause she's in Hokkaido. So it's just mostly about Inuyasha. Yup…well, enjoy!

Inuyasha sighed. He couldn't sleep at all last night. He turned to the other side of the bed. "This sucks…now I can't do anything…" BEEP-BEEP! Inuyasha hit the snooze button. "Time to get up."

Ever since Sesshomaru and Kikyo left, he felt pretty lonely. Kagome…he didn't know where she was. It had been days since Kikyo left…days…or weeks? Was it weeks…or months? Years? He wasn't sure. It had seemed just too long. Inuyasha got ready and drove past the hospital Kikyo was once in. Souta, who had once shared a room with her, moved to another room and then he felt better. There was no one to see…to visit. But, of course there was Kagome. Inuyasha shook his head. "No…I can't see her…"

Inuyasha went to the park that he went to everyday now. It was so peaceful and it reminded him of Kikyo. Man, it's either I'm obsessed with Kikyo so I go here everyday, or I'm desperate to do something… He sighed. "I guess I'll go visit some of my high school friends…"

He drove to the most unpredictable place ever…Kouga's place. He was that desperate.

"Whatta ya want mutt?"

"Hey…how's it been?"

Kouga smirked. "Okay until you showed up!"

Inuyasha sighed. "Man…it's so boring."

"That's why you showed up?"

"Why else?"

"I thought you were here to beg to have Kagome back?"

"What?"

"Oh yeah…you have that sick disease girl, Kikyo…heh?"

"Shut up! Don't ever say that!" he grabbed his collar. "Say that again and you'll get in big trouble!"

"Okay, okay!" Kouga felt Inuyasha's anger hit him. "I won't talk about her!"

Inuyasha dropped him. He cooled down.

"You must really love her…huh?"

Inuyasha kept quiet. Then he nodded.

"Heh…too late to try and make you turn back to Kagome now huh?"

"What?"

"You see…we broke up a long time ago. I didn't tell you that huh? I kept it quiet."

"What?"

"I'm with Ayame now…my family and her family wants us to be together. I mean, they don't like Kagome. But of course, I still have feelings for her. So you see…well. Let's just say Kagome's not doing so good."

"Why…? I thought-"

"Well, you thought wrong. You see, she's-" Kouga paused.

"What?"

"She's-well, Kagome won't forgive me if I tell you this, but you're the only one who can help her. She's…she's been trying to do suicide."

"LIAR!"

"I'm not lying! I caught her twice! Once, she took drugs and the second, she cut herself!"

"So she got caught…

Kouga sat in his chair. He folded his hands and leaned his body towards it. "She's gonna do it again…"

Silence was in the room.

"WHERE IS SHE?"

"I dunno! If I knew, I would've helped her a long time ago!"

"Shouldn't she be at her house?"

"Oh yeah…Kagome also ran away…"

Inuyasha ran outside. "I'm gonna find her!"

"Wait! Inu-" Kouga yelled. He stopped at the door as he heard footsteps coming near him. "Ayame…"

"Kouga-kun, you're worried aren't you…about that girl…" she hugged his arm.

Kouga sighed. "Ayame…you know that…that I still love her…"

Ayame kept quiet. "But…BUT YOU'RE WITH ME NOW!" she cried. Tears fell on her cheeks. "I want you to love me now…" she said in a soft voice.
Kouga turned to her and patted her head. "You're still too young you know. We can't get married so soon…"

Ayame quieted. "Gomenasai…" then she went up to her room.

Ayame… Kouga thought.

:X:X:X:X

Inuyasha parked at the end of the street when he saw one of Kagome's friends. "Hey! Kagome…! You know where she is…?"

"No…wait...um…oh yeah! She stopped by Hojo's house just yesterday but I don't know where else…why? Is she in trouble?"

Inuyasha ran. "Yeah…in big trouble!" Kagome…where are you?

He ran through to Hojo's house. "HOJO!" he yelled.

"Inuyasha? What're you doing here?"

"Ka…gome…! Where is she?"

"Kagome…" he thought. "Oh yeah, she told me she's going to the park where they held the Hikari Festival…"

Inuyasha widened his eyes. Why would she go there? That park is huge! He went in his car and drove over there. Before he knew it, it was dark. "KAGOMEEEE!"

SHHHHH! It began to rain.

Inuyasha was soaking wet. Please Kagome…don't- he stopped dead in his tracks.

There was Kagome. She sat on the bench, a razor in her hands and blood dripping from her wrist.

"It's not fair…" she told herself. "I got dumped by two people I love so much…IT'S NOT FAIR!" she yelled. Kagome felt the pouring rain on her face as if the sky was angry at her.

"Kagome…." Inuyasha whispered.

Kagome wiped her eyes as she let the blood pour down.

Inuyasha ran to her. "KAGOME!"

Kagome saw Inuyasha running to her. "Don't come here! I don't need you-I"

Inuyasha sighed. "Kagome…why are you doing this…?"

Kagome widened her eyes.

"It's because…of Kouga and me huh…? Because we dumped you…right? It doesn't have to be like this! I'll convince Kouga to go back! You know, he doesn't really love Ayame…he likes-"

"NO! It's not him I want back…" she stood up, facing Inuyasha. She raised herself up, pressing her lips against his. "It's you…"

Inuyasha was shocked. Why does this feel so weird…like…I- I mean…am I enjoying this? Do I want Kagome back? Or…is it sympathy? I can't understand? Suddenly, a picture of Kikyo popped in his head. He remembered what she said, "I love you, Inuyasha…" those words echoed in his head. I love you, Inuyasha… No! Kagome…this isn't right…because the one I love is-the one I love is- Inuyasha broke the kiss. "The one I love is Kikyo!"

Kagome widened her eyes.

"Kagome…" Inuyasha stared at her in the eye. "It can't keep going on like this…you know that." He gulped. "But…there was a time in my life that I loved you…but now. I think it was a love that wasn't true. I mean…it just didn't feel right. When I met Kikyo, my heart skipped beats and I was so happy to see her face smiling right back at me."

Kagome shook her head. "No…"

Inuyasha grabbed her hand. "No! Kagome! Listen! Kagome…I…"

"NO!"

"Love…"

Kagome closed her eyes. Don't say it! It'll break my heart!

"Kikyo…"

"NOO!" Kagome tried to squirm away.

"Kagome!" Inuyasha hugged her. "Please! Listen…I can never go on if you keep doing this. Kagome, you need to move on…for Kouga…and for me…"

Kagome dropped her arms. She stood in place for a moment. Tears ran down her face…or was it the rain. Silence…that was all. Then Kagome spoke. "I'll move on…but…not for Kikyo…or Ayame…." Kagome looked up. "For you…"

Inuyasha smiled. "Arigato…Kagome…" He ripped a part of his shirt and put it on Kagome's wounded wrist that she cut.

"Inuyasha…?" she asked.

"Nani…?"

"Sorry…and thank you…I needed that."

"No problem." He carried Kagome on his back and carried her to his car. Then he drove to her home, the rain pouring on the streets. Inuyasha smiled. Kikyo…I hope you're okay…

Kagome sat in the backseat. Inuyasha…thank you so much…I owe you a lot…

And for the next few months, Inuyasha spent time with Kagome, but still thinking of Kikyo. Then one day Inuyasha got a phone call.

"Hello?" Inuyasha asked.

"Inuyasha?"

"Yeah…"

"I'm coming home…"

Inuyasha dropped the phone. "Kikyo? KIKYO!"

"No…I'm not coming home…I'm…here…" KNOCK-KNOCK!

Inuyasha opened the door. Then, he was embraced tightly by a certain raven haired girl. "Kikyo…" he whispered.

Kikyo cried. "I'm home…"

Inuyasha felt her hair. "You grew hair…!"

"Yes…and…the chemo therapy worked a bit…"

Inuyasha felt tears coming. Suddenly he heard a familiar voice.

"Yo…Inuyasha."

Kikyo rubbed her face. "And here is…"

"Sesshomaru…" Inuyasha said in jealousy. "What's he doing here?"

"I saw Kikyo at the hospital she stayed at so I helped her." Sesshomaru smiled softly at Kikyo.

Inuyasha hid Kikyo behind her back. "Oh no you don't! Don't even try stealing her away!"

"Don't worry…she's all yours…" he walked to his room.

"Eh?"

Kikyo kissed him on the cheek. "I missed you…"

Inuyasha embraced her. "Me too…"

Kikyo smiled. "So where am I sleeping?"

"Oh! Um…you-you can sleep in my room." He blushed. He lead her up to his room.

Kikyo and Inuyasha got ready for bed. They had to share the bed that night. (A/N: don't worry! They didn't ne thing…nasty…)

Kikyo closed her eyes. "Inuyasha…tomorrow, can we go to the hospital one last time?"

"Sure…why?"

"I feel…weird. Like something will happen…I dunno. I just wanna go."

"Okay." Inuyasha played with Kikyo's hair. Then he leaned in and kissed her.

Kikyo turned red but then she fell asleep. And little did they know that something big would happen tomorrow…something very big…

A/N: okay, I tried to keep you in suspense. Okay, I noe that u hated the kag part but I wanted her OUT OF THE WAY! So plz don't hate me! Well, this is NOT the end. See ya in the next chappie! hehehehe