The Story Behind the Breakup-pt.2

Well, in part 1 of The Story Behind the Breakup, Rikku was telling her story for the first time, and to whom of all people? Quistis! So she was just getting to something about a hot night…but what happened in the morning?

"Rikku?" Tidus exclaimed when he saw her, sleeping with Auron.

Rikku awoke and looked up, her face in absolute surprise. "Tidus! It's not what it looks like!"

Tidus raised an eye in disbelief. "It looks like you were…"

"Okay! So it is what it looks like but please don't say anything, please," Rikku said, cutting him off.

"What is all the…oh, never mind," Auron said when he woke up from all the commotion.

"I won't say anything, but, um, how exactly are you gonna keep this from everyone else, especially Lulu, you know she's like a psychic friend," Tidus asked.

Rikku giggled at his joke, then stopped when she saw Auron's face.

"This is not to be public, understand? Lulu won't find out, no one will, this is nobody's business," Auron said, his seriousness flooding back with each passing second.

"Ok, ok, you have my word, nothing to anyone, but you 2 should get dressed, and soon. Everyone's getting up," Tidus said, and he left them alone.

"Um, Sweetie," Rikku remarked when he left.

Auron buckled his belt and faced her. "Rikku?"

"First of all, you don't have to be all serious, he's gone ok, and he said he wouldn't say anything. But, you don't want anyone to know, ever?" she asked with a inquiring look on her face.

Auron sat down next to her and let out a sigh. "Rikku, we can't say anything, it's not right. This shouldn't be happening, if other people knew…"

"Then they would know. Who cares what they think? And what do you mean this shouldn't be happening?" she asked, growing more displeased by the moment.

"It's simple Rikku, I'm an adult, you're just…"

"A what? I'm just a what?"

"A child," Auron said, and left her to get dressed.

"Things started to go back to the way they were before that day at the Farplane. They increasingly got worse. After Yuna defeated Sin and Yu Yevon, and brought the Eternal Calm, everyone kinda went their separate ways. But he didn't. He came and found me. We got back together and this time we told everyone. They were happy for us, despite our age difference, despite what Auron thought. We were happier than ever, together for 2 years after that. Then, he got sick, had a disease brought about by the fact he was an unsent for so long," Rikku explained.

"He was always hurting. Took his anger out on any and everyone. Cheated on me numerous times. Every time I tried to confront him, he got mad, apologized, and we'd be together happily the same night. Told me we'd be married, big family, house, the works. But he was so angry because of him being sick. He began to get worse, and no one could really put up with it. Everyone said I should leave him; that I wasn't with the same person. That there was nothing I could do for him anymore and I was wasting my time. But I kept trying, because I loved him. The last straw was the fight that we had one night when I came home and he was with another girl in my bed. It made me sick to my stomach. Of course, I had had enough…"

"How could you! In my own bed! What the hell Auron! You're always in so much pain but what about me?" Rikku screamed as she stormed into the room behind him.

Auron turned around and lifted his hands. "Pain! You have absolutely no idea of what pain is Rikku. You don't know what it feels like everyday, thinking if dying again would hurt less than this. Wondering if it would be better to have become a fiend!"

"If you keep acting this way, your anger will make you a fiend! Auron I don't care anymore! How can you be in so much pain and do this to me? Have I not given you everything? I mean what the hell can you possibly want?" Rikku screamed at him, tearing up.

"I don't know ok! Damn it Rikku, I want to be sent, I want to be gone from this pain, from hurting you and everyone. Do you think I meant to hurt you?"

"Yes, very much. You know why? Because you've become nothing but a big jerk and I just can't take it anymore. Ok?" she screamed in his face.

At that moment the anger had boiled up inside and he snapped. He hit her, one time, straight across the face. When he realized what he had done, she had fallen to the floor in tears.

"Rikku…"

"Out," she said, in what seemed to be a whisper, but he heard her. Loud and echoing like a thunderclap.

"But Rikku…"

"Now," she said, again in a whisper.

"Rikku, I love you, you know I didn't…"

"I hate you," she said, and it played over in his head, louder than the words she said before, crushing what little bit of confidence he had into rubble. But he wouldn't let her see him like this. Did he not want her back in his arms? Didn't he want her to know he was sorry, that he'd never hurt her again? That he'd love her from now until the day he couldn't anymore, whenever life for him was truly finished?
Of course he did. He wanted to scream it as loud as he could, so all of Spira would know. But his pride wouldn't let him. 1000 some odd years of foolish pride and a hard shell enclosing his true emotions wouldn't dare let him breakdown, even if his heart wanted him to.

"You see Rikku, it's exactly what I said," he told her, making up the best excuse he could, hoping that as he told her, he'd believe it to. And he would stop the inner conflict between his past and his present. "You're just a child. You can't understand the needs I have, and you're not old enough to live up to my expectations. So maybe it's better off that we never did get this close, or you get so attatched to me. You, you have so much to learn, and you thought it was a mutual feeling we had, but Rikku, you honestly couldn't have believed this would work. An unsent and a mere teenager?" he finished, walking out of the door with a lone tear falling to the floor.

"And that :sniffle: was the :deep breath: last time I ever saw him. He killed me, my heart, my soul, my everything, and he'll never understand. No one will, because I never told anyone what really happened. Except you Quistis," Rikku said, finally finishing her story and finishing her crying. She had actually felt as if a weight lifted from her shoulders when she was done.

"Well, I'm really sorry Rikku. You're story's safe with me though, that I can promise you. But what I want to do, is one day take you out, take you to have a good time, which you need," Quistis said with a supportive pat on the back.

Rikku smiled for the first time in what seemed like weeks. "That sounds great. How about, um…tomorrow night?" she asked, walking Quistis to the door.

"Ok then, tomorrow night it is. And wear something provocative, it'll be fun," Quistis responded, and left.

"Fun," Rikku said, and headed to go clean up her room.

Yes, finally, the story behind the infamous Rikku/Auron incident was told and is finished. So what's going to happen tomorrow night? Girls' Night Out! Find out, and R&R!