There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go. Author Unknown
Events, Knowledge and People
My sister, Parvin, would often stay up late and chart the movement of the stars. She said that looking at the stars made her feel like she was in the company of family. I on the other hand felt very alone. I guess it seems fitting that she's died it was while looking at the stars. She never knew that meteor was coming at her. My parents couldn't understand why I withdrew from the world after Parvin died. They didn't realize how Parvin kept me in touch with the world.
After she left I learned not too really to love or trust anyone until I met my husband. He brought me back into the world but sadly he disappeared right after our youngest fifth birthday. I didn't want to believe that he had disappeared but I accepted it for our children.
I visited the Remembering Wall every chance I had to see my beloved. It was there I met Aveneri and where my life changed drastically. He told me that the currently Virgil Vox was dying and needed a replacement. I jumped at the chance doing something else besides mourning and raising two children. He told the only drawback was I too had to disappear. That meant I could never be seen in public again.
He said I should back here with an answer by sunset tomorrow. I spent some time with my family and I realized that my children barely knew me. I had become so withdrawn into my grief that I barely acknowledged them. It was then I decided to take Aveneri up on his offer. I felt it was best they thought I had disappeared instead of dieing.
They come visit my image, which rest alongside their fathers', every once in a while. This makes me happy to know they do indeed love me and their father.
This is what I would tell the world if I could.
I think it's time to dedicate a song to sadness.
Everybody Hurts by REM is for those who have some sadness in their lives, I say .