The Meaning of Love
Leaving
Oneself
Very
Exposed
-Words Defined, ca. Earth Year 2005
Love's Lessons
My mother would often say that love can make you vulnerable to your enemies. I never knew what she meant until I meet Kake. I was running illegal goods between Seefra-1 and Seefra-2 when he came into my life. My gut told me to run but my heart told me to stay.
Damn! I knew I should've listened to my gut!
He'd convinced me to do a run between Seefra-1 and Seefra-4. He promised that this would be one of the biggest payloads I'd ever see.
Biggest payload! The only thing I got from it was a broken heart and a jagged scar on my leg. After that I couldn't love anyone because I feared they turn me in. I pushed so many people aside and didn't come to out to mourn my fathers' passing. It wasn't until I meet Zusman while at the Remember Wall. We talked a bit and gradually my heart began to heal. Shortly after he proposed and I accepted.
It was shortly after his disappearance that I realized how much he'd helped love, again.
I was talking about this with Avineri when Tiw harshly said that there's no such thing as love. It's only a trick Mother Nature plays on people to get them to reproduce. I glared at him but held my tongue. I still wonder why he hated love so much.
I still hope that Zusman will appear one day, but I know in my heart of hearts that he's gone. But sometimes it's important to love someone even after they're gone.