TheUbu (I'd be Ubu but someone took it!)

I'm a crazy Canadian and some of my writing may reflect that. Don't be alarmed and run for the hills, I'm sure it won't hurt too badly.

Disclaimer: I offered to purchase the Teen Titans but WB said $10 wouldn't cut it so I don't own them; any characters contained within are not mine and belong to their respective owners with whom I have no affiliation. I do own the story and I hope you have fun reading it so far.

Chapter Four

Beast Boy and Raven walked toward the common room hand in hand in their own little world. Everything would be different now. Raven felt as though a great weight had been lifted off of her when she realized and told Beast Boy her feelings for him. She felt odd about the fact that she, the unlovable, cold, recluse could be genuinely loved by someone and was finally happy. She'd always expected to continue on alone just surviving, but now she was truly alive and it was wonderful! She didn't exactly know how she was supposed to deal with all these new and powerful emotions but she didn't care.

Beast Boy was also in deep thought. He felt kind of tingly all over and he wanted to jump for joy but something kept it all in and he reflected. He reflected on what had happened since he met Raven and what was going to happen now that they both loved one another. How were the other Titans going to take it? It didn't really matter; nothing they could say or do would change his feelings for her.

Raven broke the silence. "What should we say to the others?"

"I'm not sure." Beast Boy honestly replied. "What do you want to tell them?"

Raven stopped walking and looked into Beast Boy's eyes. She bit her lower lip for a moment but made up her mind. "I want to tell them that I'm in love with the kindest, cutest, and bravest guy alive." She finished with a blush as a light bulb behind them burned out and shattered with a resounding pop.

The changeling blushed and gave Raven a quick kiss on the lips. "I love you too."

They continued on down the hallway drawing ever nearer the common room both thinking of the best way to word their confession to their friends.

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Robin was shifting uncomfortably in the semi silence of the large common room. It would have been total silence were it not for Starfire's periodical squeals of giddy excitement. Cyborg had a tough time believing what was actually happening and went to the garage to distract himself by working on the T-car. Robin was trying to think about how they were supposed to proceed with this situation. Nothing like this had happened before and he'd never really thought of the course of action to take if it did. Well, that was a lie. He had thought about it before, fairly often actually, almost every time he thought about Starfire.

Turning to her he asked, "How can you be so excited about this?"

She looked at him and an even wider smile spread across her face. "How could I not be? Two of our friends are incredibly happy now! I can't help but be happy also!"

Robin smiled back to her. 'She's so pretty when she's happy.' He thought.

His thoughts were cut short though as the hydraulic double-doors opened to reveal Beast Boy and Raven holding one another's hands. Starfire let out another little squeal of excitement but quickly covered her mouth. Robin just looked at them still trying to collect his thoughts.

"How glorious it is to see you friends! How are you on this lovely day?" Asked the auburn haired Titan.

A toothy grin was stuck on Beast Boy's face. "All in all, I'd have to say pretty well Star."

A small smile played on Raven's face as she shifted her gaze back to Beast Boy. "So far, it couldn't have gone any better."

Again Starfire squealed in delight and shot off the couch embracing the two into a bone-crushing hug.

Robin cleared his throat slightly. "So are you two…" He asked unsure of how to finish the question.

Starfire let them go and sat on the couch eagerly awaiting the answer. Beast Boy hesitated for a second but tried to respond.

"Well… Uh… I guess you could say…" He attempted while nervously rubbing the back of his neck.

"We're in love." Stated Raven simply as though she was just asked what she'd had for breakfast. She stepped closer to Beast Boy and hugged him. He returned her gesture of affection.

Starfire was bouncing in her seat and looked as though she was about to explode due to pent up excitement. She suddenly stood up and happily stated, "I will make a pudding of joyous celebration for everyone!" Robin let out a small laugh at Star's enthusiasm and decided it would be best to just let things play themselves out. As Starfire left for the kitchen, Robin felt uncomfortable being alone with the two other Titans. Eager to change the subject he commented on the medical gauze on Beast Boy's hands.

"So when are you able to take that stuff off?"

It took Beast Boya moment to realize to what Robin was referring but eventually lifted one of his hands. "I guess I could take it off now." He thought aloud remembering his intention to take the bindings off after lunch.

He tried to pull the tape off with his other gauzed hand but couldn't manage to get a hold of it. He sighed in frustration but a black aura enveloped the gauze and tape and they gently began to unwrap themselves. Raven smiled as the last of the gauze was removed from Beast Boy's hands. She then squished the bandages into a very tiny black ball and floated it over to the trashcan in the corner of the room.

Beast Boy examined his hands and grinned. 'Just another reason to love her.' He thought.

"So do you guys wanna go out for pizza or something?" He asked.

The others nodded in agreement. "Hey Star, we're going for pizza, come on." Robin called.

"Should we not eat some pudding of joyous celebration before we leave?" Asked Starfire slightly downcast.

Robin didn't want to disappoint her and quickly thought up a way to keep her pleased. "Why don't we go out and eat the pizza now, then come back and have it for desert?"

Starfire's expression immediately changed back to that of the happy one that was on her face moments before.

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Cyborg was idly working away on the T-car in the garage. He knew it didn't need a tune up or anything but this was simply his way of relaxing his mind. It just seemed too odd to be real; It was obvious that Beast Boy had had a crush on Raven for a while now but there was no way she could feel the same about him. She shot down every joke he made, every attempt to make her smile, even most conversations he tried to start with her. At times it seemed as though she down right detested him. Then again, maybe it wasn't so odd.

Cyborg had gotten to know Raven's personality a fair bit better when she helped him build the second T-car, he kind of thought of her as a younger sister now. Maybe Beast Boy had just sort of grown on her. He may have seemed like a pest to her, but he was the only one who tried to get that little bit closer to her when the others just gave her the space she wanted. Thinking about it in that context, it no longer seemed quite so odd. True it'd take some getting used to but it wouldn't take that long.

As Cyborg accepted the last thought, the other four Titans came through the door to the garage. Beast Boy and Raven were walking very close to one another as Beast Boy's arm was around Raven's waist.

"Hey Cy," greeted Robin, "Want to go out and grab some pizza?"

"Sure, I just finished tuning her up." He replied gesturing toward the T-car. "Hop in."

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Cyborg, not ever allowing anyone else behind the wheel of his so called 'Baby' was driving and Robin was sitting in the front passenger seat. Starfire, Raven, and Beast Boy were all sitting in the back. Starfire was still doing her best to contain her excitement but couldn't help but hug both her friends in an awkward sideways hug as they were belted to their seats.

"You must tell us friends, when did this happy revelation occur?" The Tamaranian asked.

"Maybe we'll talk about this later." Said Raven nestling herself closer to Beast Boy.

Starfire seemed a little saddened by Raven's reluctance to tell her of what was happening but with one of her trademarked mood swings smiled widely and nodded.

Throughout the entire time since the two informed Robin and Starfire that they were now in love with one another, Raven had been working extra hard not to let her powers slip up. She thought about masking her emotions completely again but she couldn't help herself. She simply wanted to be close to Beast Boy, she just enjoyed the wholeness he brought her. 'He's so warm.' She thought to herself. A few minor slips happened but she'd almost always caught herself before anyone noticed.

The T-car pulled into a parking spot in front of the pizza place and everyone began to get out. Beast Boy was reluctant to exit the vehicle because he didn't want to separate himself from Raven's wonderful and relaxing touch.

'Chill out Beast Boy,' He thought. 'She'll be sitting next to you in the pizza place so there's nothing to worry about.'

Inside the restaurant, Raven and Beast Boy were again sitting very close to one another and seemed to have little interest in their food. In fact, Beast Boy had barely taken two bites of his vegetarian pizza. He had been far too preoccupied fawning over his lavender goddess to even think about food. Raven also had her attention divided between her food and Beast Boy. She ate what little pizza she could with her left hand, and gently stroked her right against that of the green titans beside her under the table.

'It feels so good to be with him.' She thought to herself. She let her control slip just a little as she concentrated on the pleasant sensation Beast Boy brought her. As a result, the pizza in front of them began to shimmer in the familiar black aura and started to shake. Cyborg quickly slammed the lid of the pizza box shut just in time to contain the cheesy explosion within.

"Uh, everything OK Raven?" The semi metallic Titan asked.

Raven snapped out of her dreamlike trance. 'Damn it! I can't keep slipping up like this. Someone's going to get hurt…'

"I'm fine." She lied.

"Right… Fine with me so long as you don't decide to pop my pizzas!" He replied in a half joke.

They continued on with their meal making light conversation for the next half hour before they decided to leave. The day had been crime free and save for what was going on between Raven and Beast Boy completely uneventful. It was only seven o'clock but lacking anything better to do, the Titans decided to head home to the Tower.

"Maybe there'll be a movie or something to watch on TV." Said Robin as the Titans walked upstairs from the garage.

They all dropped down onto the large half circular couch and began to channel surf.

"Boring, boring, mushy, boring, seen it, boring, bor-hey!" exclaimed Cyborg as he found something suitable to watch. "Can't go wrong with Starship Troopers! What do you guys think?"

Raven groaned slightly but muttered, "I guess it could be worse." Not at all interested in the movie, Raven lay on Beast Boy, her back on his stomach and her head lying on top of his chest. The slow rhythmic breathing gently rocked her into slumber.

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Raven awoke but didn't open her eyes. She was cold and reached for her blanket but found she was not in her bed. She was in the dark and empty common room on the couch. Well, actually she was on Beast Boy and a small smile spread across her lips.

"Hey, wake up." She said softly shaking her green love.

The changeling mumbled something incoherent but did not wake. Raven almost let out a small giggle but restrained herself. She slid up hiss chest until she was mere inches away from his lips and kissed him. Nothing happened for a moment but soon after his mouth opened a little and his arms wrapped around her. They parted and Beast Boy had a lopsided grin on his face.

"Good morning to you too Rae."

"It's not morning yet sleepy head, it's only 11:30." She informed him.

"We should probably get to bed then." He stated as he stifled a yawn.

Raven nodded and slowly rose. It was a lot colder now that her body was no longer in contact with his but they did need to get some sleep.

Beast Boy walked Raven to her room and stopped at the doorway. He desperately wanted the crawl into the same warm bed with her but decided it would be best to wait a little while before something like that. It wasn't the fact that he doubted Raven would want him there, quite the contrary; He wasn't sure how the others might take it if they were to find the pair sleeping in the same bed.

Raven seemed to be thinking along the same lines so she did not invite the changeling in. She leaned forward and gave him a quick peck on the cheek. "Good night."

"Yea, sweet dreams." He replied as he walked off to his room.

Raven changed into a pair of dark pajama bottoms and matching top before sliding into bed. So many things had happened that day. Since when was she the type to get all touch feely and googoo eyed over someone? Something had changed. Many of her emotional barriers were starting to crumble. Was that such a bad thing though? Wasn't she allowed to love too? It felt so wonderful to release what she had kept cooped up for so long. Maybe she would be allowed to feel again.

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Beast Boy leapt into his bed. It wasn't the same bunk bed he had when he was younger though, since he'd grown, he needed a larger bed. Besides that, the room was mostly the same. Empty food containers, clothes, and what looked like the contents of his closet were still strewn over the floor.

'Today has to be the best day of my life!' He thought, 'Something's different though…'

Beast Boy had been in a state of shock and slight disbelief when Raven admitted to loving him as well. At first he thought she had just said it to calm him down, after all, he had just told her about his ongoing inner battle with the Beast. All his doubts were quickly forgotten when she'd kissed him though.

He remembered the feeling of her body against his and the warmth it brought. That relaxing complete warmth that he never wanted to let go of. He would have to go without it for now but he relaxed himself so sleep would come all the faster, bringing with it morning and Raven.

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Raven was sleeping quietly, dreaming the most pleasant dream she'd had in a long time. She and Beast Boy were on a grassy hill under a large leafy tree on a bright and beautiful summer's day. They were on the outskirts of Jump City but had a view that overlooked the entire city and ocean beyond. A warm gentle breeze blew past them making the leaves of the tree they were resting under dance and rustle.

Beast Boy was saying sweet thing into her ear as he stroked her hair. The feeling was so wonderful! She was truly feeling, truly living and she loved it. Nothing exploding, no one screaming, no one could harm her or her friends. Nothing was wrong in the world, everything was at peace, she was at peace.

"I love you Gar." She said resting against his chest.

"And I love you Rae." He replied squeezing her gently.

She stood up. Now was the time, the time she wanted to be with him. Time to join her body with his and become one in body and soul. So many feeling, so many emotions were rushing through her. A flood of happiness and desire washed over her but something was not right. She felt something rising in her core. It wasn't happiness, love, desire, or even jealousy it was hate.

The small bubble that started deep within her was swelling now, flowing like a tidal wave wiping out all other emotions. Wiping out the warmth and joy she once felt. All she felt now was the seething cold hatred and the torrent of the power it brought with it.

She closed her eyes tightly in a vain attempt to hold the power in but the pain it brought was unbearable. Her eyes snapped open as she let out a scream at the top of her lungs, along with the scream came darkness. The darkness shot out of her eyes and mouth like beams of light twisted into something evil and perverse. Her power poured out of her and when the tidal wave hit, all of the energy was released. The amount of energy released could not be imagined, hydrogen bombs looked like mere firecrackers compared to he sheer destruction caused.

As the smoke began to clear Raven saw nothing. There was nothing but barren wasteland as far as she could see. She destroyed it; She destroyed everything that had ever meant anything to her. Beast Boy and countless lives had been wiped from existence because of her.

"W-why? Why did this happen!" She cried.

"Because my dear," Answered a demonic voice. "It is what you exist for. It is the reason you were conceived. To wreak destruction and death on all those who would not accept me as their one true god."

"NO!" Screamed Raven. "NO! YOU DID THIS! YOU KILLED THEM, YOU KILLED HIM!"

"I wish I could say that were true, but it was all your doing. I may have given you a little nudge but the rest was all you. All that you stored inside screaming for freedom."

She dropped to the ground crying out in the pain of her loss. There was no more reason to live now that he was gone. She had killed him. 'I'm sorry Beast Boy. I wasn't strong enough.' She thought.

Raven woke with a start. Her breathing was heavy and her face was wet with tears. 'Just a dream. Only a dream.'

Was it though? Couldn't this be some kind of premonition? Trigon. That small part of him still resided in her. Her hate was the strongest emotion, partly because hate is just naturally a strong emotion but mostly because Trigon had tied himself to her with it.

'That's how he will escape… My emotions will flow freely and he will be freed along with them.'

Raven sat up and felt the cold sweat that covered her body. She thought it best to take a shower.

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Beast Boy tossed and turned in his distressing sleep. His dream was the most unpleasant he'd had since his parents died. It was Slade. Slade had captured Raven and was going to kill her. He wasn't just going to kill her; he was going to make a sacrifice of her. The changeling struggled to get to her but an army of the mechanical minions barred his path.

He charged headlong into the sea of enemies and smashed giant green gorilla fists into as many as he could. There were so many of them, but it didn't matter, he'd fight for all eternity to get to her.

Slade drew a dagger from an ornate sheath and held it above Raven who could not move because of her restraints. Raven shouted her three magic words but the metallic collar that was around her neck seemed to suck the energy out of every spell. The dagger descended.

Beast Boy fought with all his strength pushing past every limit. He had to get to Raven, had to stop Slade, he had to get past anything that would stand in his way. He charged through his robotic enemies no longer wasting time fighting them. Dozens leapt and pinned him to the ground. He tried to get up, tried to change into something bigger but more and more of the metallic army piled themselves on top of him. He watched helplessly as the dagger drew nearer and nearer to Raven.

He had to move, had to get to her but it was no use. There were just too many of them. Raven let out a scream as the dagger plunged into her abdomen and spots of red spattered the floor. Raven's scream subsided and she appeared dead but Slade twisted the blade in her stomach and she screamed out in pain again. Fiery red markings appeared all over her skin and shone brightly. The symbol on Slade's forehead burned brightly as well.

"Now." Said Slade. "I beseech thee. Rise god of power, rise god of destruction, RISE TRIGON!"

Black beams leap from the wound inflicted upon Raven and a cloud of darkness seeped out. The blood still poured freely and was now pooling below her. The cloud began to form a figure, the twisted evil demonic figure of Trigon. As Trigon became fully physical, he knelt beside Raven and said something in a language that had not been spoken in a thousand years, and in one swift motion, he brought his clawed hand up and snapped her neck.

"NOOOOOOOO!" Screamed Beast Boy.

His body filled with hate. Rage took over all of his senses and he felt the change coming. The Beast was about to surface but he didn't care, Raven was dead and he couldn't prevent it. His muscles bulged and talons replaced fingernails, fangs replaced teeth, and fur grew. He could barely think now, he was completely blinded and deafened by the rage and all he knew was that he was going to rip Slade and Trigon to shreds.

Beast Boy sat bolt upright in bed. "That bastard! He breathed. "I'll never let him lay a fucking finger on her!"

He was loosing control and could feel the change coming. He tried to stop it but he was failing. His face contorted in pain as his spine began to elongate with sickening crunching sounds coming from the reformation of the bone. Razor sharp claws erupted from his fingertips and a snout started to grow from his face. Thick hair began to grow all over his skin and he tried to scream but no sound escaped his throat.

No. He couldn't let this happen. Nothing had happened to Raven, she was safe. He concentrated on the thought of her, remembering her soft skin, amethyst eyes, lavender scent, and delicious lips. The transformation stopped and slowly began to reverse itself. The snout made cracking noises as it sank back into his face and the claws retracted and became normal fingernails again. Loud cracks and crunches emanated from his spine as it shrank back to its normal size, and the fur pulled itself back into the skin.

Beast Boy was left panting on the floor. "I need to relax… I need a freaking shower." He said to himself.

Hurray! This was a longer chapter because I just couldn't bring myself to end it before the dreams. I also wanted to get that little bit of the struggle with the Beast as well. I wish I could say that I'm completely happy with this chapter but I honestly dislike almost everything that comes prior to BB and Rae waking up on the couch : ( It just felt so forced : (

It's going to get a little angsty in the first half of chapter five but I promise that there will be action of the fighting variety in the later half.

Thanks to warprince2000, They-Call-Me-Orange, Darth Sonic, DeepThoughtsX, and FireBall Energy for their supportive reviews.

I know Raven may seem very out of character but come on, how can you have a romance involving her without her going waaaaaay out of character?

I hope you've enjoyed the story so far. Please R&R!

Thanks for taking the time to read my story.

P.S. Starship Troopers rocks!