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Welcome to chapter four of Fruits of Chaos. There's only one more chapter after this, but I've been thinking of a sequel. I haven't started to write it, but it'll come soon. I promise
Chapter Four: Lapis (Gackt)
A few food trays clattered to the ground. Did they just see what they thought they had? The faithful Garden leader was viciously battering an innocent solider? Impossible!
Seifer looked up with his eyes very round, "Squ-"
"Silence!" Squall demanded through his teeth. He was too angry to see the crowd forming around them, "Seifer, I told you I never wanted to see you in my face again and I meant it!" his fist clenched tight, "I have no reason to kick you out of the Garden, but I will let you know that I am looking for one as we speak, understand?" he turned on his heels and walked away. He was still unable to see the students as they parted the way for him to leave.
"Leonheart…" Seifer stood from the floor. His feet staggered, but as soon as he was up, he smirked, "Your secret is safe with me."
Squall kept walking, hurt in his heart. Was there really a secret between them? Never. Seifer's feelings are nothing like his.
'That's right.' Squall thought, 'If I felt that way about Seifer, I wouldn't have spent the majority of my life fighting with him or kicking his ass in a battle or or…' he bit his lip as he opened the door of the cafeteria, 'or called his name while I was having sex with Irvine…' he fell to the floor in the middle of the hallway, students staring for only a moment, 'God…what did I do to deserve this sort of thing?'
Irvine was coming out of the dormitory. He had spent a good ten minutes on wondering if it was even worth it, but he said to hell with what he thought and hurried out to look for Squall. A group of girls his age walked by; their conversation grabbing his interest.
"Oh my GOD! Did you see Squall punch out Seifer? Rude much!"
"Poor Seifer. I hope that doesn't bruise. He's so dreamy." Another girl swooned.
"I can't believe Squall would just push him to the ground too. The cafeteria no less. That floor is so gross!"
Irvine blinked, "Seifer?" he ran off to the cafeteria, bumping into a rather distraught boy. He gasped and grabbed the boy's wrist, "Squall!" he pulled him close to his chest, "Calm down! It's okay!"
"No!" Squall cried out, struggling to push Irvine away. He didn't receive the comfort in Irvine's arms anymore. How could he after the pain he had given the sniper.
"Shhh relax." Irvine spoke gently into Squall's ear. He grinned as the other solider melted, "Good. Come with me." Irvine hip held Squall like a baby and led him back to the dorms; flipping off anyone who looked at them strangely.
Squall collapsed onto his bed the moment Irvine put him down. He curled his knees to his chest and stared at the wall with dry eyes. His throat was tight as he whispered, "I didn't mean for anything to happen."
Irvine removed his clothes before climbing into bed with Squall, "It isn't your fault, Leo. Nobody means for anything bad to happen. It just… does." He pulled off Squall's jacket slowly, "I don't blame you."
The leader shivered from the loss of his jacket. His eyes began to burn with a familiar sadness, "Irvine, I'm so sorry." He buried his face in his hands, "I…I can't see you anymore."
A slight gasp came from the sniper, "You can't be serious. Squall- I. No…"
"I'm sure you'll be fine. I just can't risk hurting you anymore." Squall bit his lip, thinking of all the girls who think Irvine is a God.
Irvine shook his head, "No! Squall!" he turned Squall over to face him. He stared into thunderstorms and sighed. There was a question was gnawing at the back of his mind, "What exactly happened between you and Seifer?"
There were moments of eerie silence. Squall squirmed, not liking Irvine's piercing stare. He felt hot tears sliding down his cheeks before he whispered, "He kissed me… and I did nothing to stop him."
"One kiss?"
"Two…" Squall pushing Irvine off of him, unable to take it anymore, "You should have been there though! He's nothing but a sweet talker! He tricked me into each one!" Squall shook, holding himself tight, "Please don't make me force you away, Irvine. Go."
"Never." Irvine snapped, climbing on top of his lover, "I will respect your decision, but…could I say goodbye?" he picked up Squall's hand and kissed the fingertips.
Practically sobbing, Squall sat up in the bed with Irvine in his lap. He nodded, pressing his forehead against Irvine's, "Yes, but I want to wake up and find no trace of you." He began to shake, tears falling uncontrollably, "Irvine, I'm so sorry." He apologized for his tears.
Irvine shook his head, planting soft kisses over Squall's face, "Shhh. Not another word."
(A/N: Okay… the rating is M. I said in chapter one there would be a lemon(s). This is one of those times. Please either read it or scroll down to the first x-x-x-x-x pattern you see. However, I have a reason for my SHORT lemon. For anyone who's been reading… this is a very emotional moment for Irvine and Squall. So, I figured I might as well make it a bit of a depressing lemon and make everyone appreciate just what they have. Also, I've been cheating out a lot of people who want to see a lemon, so here it is for them. Thanks for reading this and enjoy!)
Irvine carefully laid Squall back down, letting the soldier continue his tears. He kissed Squall's lips gently, but Squall wouldn't have it. He pulled Irvine down by his hair, deepening the kiss as if his life depended on it.
Hands run over what seemed like miles of skin in a desperate urgency. Both Squall and Irvine could barely contain themselves. Irvine licked the trails of Squall's tears, leaving kiss marks on his neck and shoulders.
Squall moaned, his breath raging as he tried to control his sobbing, "Irvine…"
"Shhh. Not a word." Irvine bit down on Squall's nipple, causing the fellow SeeD to gasp. He smiled, and trailed kisses down Squall's torso, knowing every spot that made his partner tingle in pleasure.
"Ah!" Squall gasped, struggling not to say anything.
Irvine didn't bother to prepare Squall for it's only been an hour or so since the last time they had intercourse. He pushed into Squall, both of them moaning loudly as the heat swallowed their bodies up. It was completely silent in the room afterwards. Just the bed creaking kept the room from being a mini ghost town. It was just the way to two wanted it for this time; their final time.
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Irvine climbed out of bed just as Squall was falling asleep. He redressed and retied his hair into his trademark ponytail. He gave Squall's lips a butterfly kiss and bit back a small cry, "We promised not to get attached, but I couldn't help it." He whispered as quietly as he could, "I love you, Leo." He smiled sadly.
Squall opened his eyes and smiled with just as much sorrow, "I know." He covered himself up with the sheet to his ears, "Goodbye, Irvine."
"See you around." Irvine offered Squall that golden smile, "I'll miss you."
Squall turned over in his bed, facing the wall so he wouldn't have to admit how much he would miss that smile.
x-x-x
Saturday afternoon, Quistis was knocking on Xu's dorm door. She had several bags worth of clothes and a case of her make up.
Xu yawned, opening the door. She was still in her pajamas, "Quissy?" she mumbled, rubbing her eyes, "What's going on?"
"I'm sorry I woke you, Xu." Quistis showed Xu the bags, "I have another date with Zell tonight. I have two hours. Please help me?"
Blinking Xu opened the door and let her friend in, "I'll go make some tea." She smiled.
Quistis beamed and kicked off her shoes, "Thank you so much, Xu."
Xu shrugged, pulling her hair back into a little knob, "What are friends for?"
x-x-x
Zell put the last of the streamers into a giant trash bag in the middle of the Quad, "Selphie!" he called out, "Can I go home now! I have somewhere to be in an hour!"
Selphie came down the stairs, her hands on her hips, "C'mon Zell! You're the only one who's helped me all day!"
"That's why I should go home now. I've done my part! Pleeeeeassse Selphie!" Zell got on his knees.
The girl sighed, rolling her eyes, "Alright. Get out of here. If you see someone, tell them there are still balloons to pop."
"Gotcha!" Zell nodded, running up the stairs, "See you!"
Irvine slumped through the hall, not really going anywhere, but he didn't want to go to his room. He sighed, digging his hands into his pockets.
"Irvine!"
The sniper looked up, spotting his friend, "Oh. Howdy Zell."
"Hey. Can you do me a favor? Selphie still needs help cleaning up the rave. I would, but I have a date. Do you mind?" Zell explained.
Irvine nodded, "Sure. Anything for Peaches. Enjoy your date."
Zell jumped for joy as he watched Irvine walk away; "Yes!" he did a series of back flips down the corridor. Time to get ready, Zell. You've got a big night ahead of you!
x-x-x
"Hey Seifer. You seem a bit off, ya know." Raijin said, sitting on the training center floor, "Something wrong?"
"I'm fine." Seifer growled, slashing through another monster.
Even quiet Fujin had to agree, "Seifer sad." She mumbled.
"I said I'm fine." Seifer snapped, picking up a potion, "What's with you two?"
"We've known you long enough to know when you aren't fine, ya know." Raijin stood up, brushing off his pants, "Maybe you should go take a break, ya know? Get some food and rest, ya know?"
Seifer scowled, but saw the looks on his friend's faces. He let out a deep sigh and nodded, "Okay, but don't you dare let me see you doing the same. You're fighting's gotten a bit sketchy. Especially you, Fujin." He smirked.
Fujin gave a disgruntled glare, "Not funny."
"Actually it kinda was, Fujin, ya know?" Raijin was still laughing.
"Raijin DEAD." Fujin growled. Though, she couldn't help but laugh a little when Raijin whimpered and ran deeper into the training center.
x-x-x
"You seem a bit off, ya know?"
Yea. Seifer thought, I know.
He walked down the dormitory hall. A few of the girls waved and giggled at him, but Seifer wouldn't look back. He didn't know where to go. He supposed if he visited Squall's room, he either wouldn't be there or would be there and be angry enough to kick him out of Garden.
I don't want either to happen.
"Seifer!" a girl's voice called out.
Seifer looked up and saw Rinoa (1) waving at the top of the stairs. He blinked and waved back. She smiled and hurried down the stairs and embraced her friend, "It's been a long time, Seifer. How have you been?"
"Absolutely..." There was that word again, "Fine."
"You didn't seem so 'fine' walking down that hall. Is there something wrong? You know you can trust me." Rinoa sat down in the middle of the hallway and tugged on his jacket.
The boy rolled his eyes and sat down on the floor with her, "Well…" he took a deep breath, "I had this secret, right? A secret that involved this person a great deal. So, I told this person my secret. Apparently the other person thought my secret was worthless to them and casted it aside. Now I'm totally out of ideas and on top of everything else… I'm still keeping this secret from everyone else so I can't talk about it to anybody." Seifer blinked. He felt a lot better already.
"Well you told me." Rinoa pointed out.
"That's different. You're not just 'anybody'." He admitted.
Rinoa sighed and pondered, "Well… this 'secret' of yours seemed very important to you. I'm sure that the other person didn't realize that it would hurt your feelings if they didn't care about it. Maybe you should explain that to him… or is it a her?" she stuck her tongue out a little.
Seifer laughed lightly, "You know… the way you said 'him' first amuses me."
"Oh shush. I'm trying to help you." Rinoa stood up, offering a hand to Seifer, "Okay. I have an idea. You're a brave guy…walk right up to him and tell him to his face what you're feeling. Don't be a charmer and beat around the bush. Tell him up front or he won't think you really mean it."
"Yea, but where would I start?" Seifer took her hand and stood up.
"Well… how about, "Squall, I'm in love with you. Either like it or punch my lights out." Rinoa laughed.
The soldier raised an eyebrow, "Okay… you're really good at figuring things out. Anyways, I don't think you can tell, but Squall punched my lights out this morning at breakfast."
Rinoa rolled her eyes, "Why am I not surprised?" she smiled, "Okay. Shoo. I'm sure you can check his dorm… wow wouldn't that be convenient."
"…I'm pretending you didn't say that."
Rinoa giggled, "Go! I have faith that you'll be fine."
Seifer nodded, walking up the stairs. He paused and looked over his shoulder, "What are you doing at Garden anyways?"
The girl blinked, "Oh um…Headmaster Cid wanted to see me?"
"Right." Seifer rolled his eyes and waved, "See you, Rinoa." She smiled, "Thanks." He hurried down the hallway. His jacket billowed out behind him as he turned the corner. He took a deep breath and opened Squall's door, not bothering to knock.
"Seifer!" Squall gasped, "What are you-"
"Kitten…" Seifer stood in the doorway, the light of the doorway was his only light. He saw Squall still laying in his bed, "I needed to see you." His mouth was suddenly dry.
Squall stood up in the darkness, sliding on some pants. He ran a hand through his hair and sighed through his nose, "Shut the door." He lit a stack of candles in the corner, making the room glow. He looked over at Seifer, the flames from the candles reflecting in his eyes, "I told you to stay away from me."
"I know." Seifer swallowed, "Just…hear me out and don't punch me this time." He removed his jacket and placed it on a chair, "Okay…when I told you I've fallen in love with you, I meant it. I wasn't trying to trick you or ruin any sort of plans you had. I wanted you to know because I thought I was ready to spend the rest of my life with you." (2)
Squall's eyes had gotten wide. He backed up against his bed, shaking his head, "No. I don't…I can't…"
Seifer looked around, his heart aching. He spotted Irvine's jacket on the floor. He gasped and locked eyes with Squall, "You…and him…?" he hung his head in embarrassment, "This whole time…and you didn't say anything to me."
"It's not like that. Not anymore." Squall said with anger oozing in his voice, "That's all your fault. You put ideas in his head and he left me!" Squall sneered, "Everything I had…wasted because I'm in love with you! (3)" he covered his face in his hands and began to shake.
The taller of the two shot his head up. He stepped closer, his hands moving Squall's away from his face. The SeeD leader looked up at Seifer with silent tears going down his cheeks, "You tricked me into this."
"I never tricked you." Seifer said, running his strong fingertips over Squall's lips, "You just think too much." He cupped Squall's cheek, brushing away his tears, "Can I kiss you?" he practically begged.
"Only if you promise to never call me 'Kitten' in public." Squall smiled.
Seifer laughed softly, "Promise." He pressed his lips against Squall's and for the first time in a long time, Squall felt the world disappear.
x-x-x
1: Rumor has it, Rinoa and Seifer were REALLY good friends at some point before the game even started.
2: I apologize in advance for making Seifer a cheesy romantic pansy.
3: Who the heck saw that coming?
Yay! Chapter 4 is done for the 4th of July! Hehe. Okay, next chapter is the last. Reviews are my best friend! I want them to visit me, so SEND THEM.