Authors Note- due to the lack of Rin and Haru fics, I'm going to mainly write those from now on. As such, this fic is AU and slightly OOC. So sue me. Haven't decided on a last name for Rin, so for now I'll use Sumeragi. Cause I like the way 'Sumeragi Isuzu' sounds. The song lyrics that Rin uses are by Lifehouse, from their album No Name Face. Enjoy.
Sumeragi Isuzu was tired. Tired of living. Tired of trying.
And yet, she didn't want to die.
There was still someone that she cared for. But he didn't know.
For almost three years now, the only person that she loved was Sohma Hatsuharu. Her next door neighbor. He was the only person for her. But he would probably never know. He was dense in that department.
If I can't be with Haru, then I won't be with anybody.
She had waited three years for him to see her. She wasn't going to wait any more.
Written on a piece of paper was a song.
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what
I'm going to do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace
I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
I'm looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel alive
And break these calluses off of meOne more time
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want to be here now
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
Isuzu put the letter into an envelope as she walked out the door. She slipped it into the Sohma's mailbox, and made her way to her favorite place.
It was a bench, under a maple tree at their school.
Isuzu sat down, and laid her head against the rough wood.
Sleep comes easy, when you are waiting for something to happen in dreams.