::sweatdrops and creeps in slowly with her tail between her legs and blushing madly:: please don't hurt me! I'm really sorry! Really I am! I didn't mean for it to take me this long to update! I…so many things happened! Something happened to our computer and it got all messded up and then our internet peoples were being meanies and then I got really really sick and couldn't do anything but lay in bed and throw up! I couldn't keep SOUP down! I'm really really reeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaallllllllllllly sorry! ::showers her readers with Inuyasha gifts:: Do you forgive me? ::big watery chibi eyes::
This chapter is basically…one big flashback I believe…so enjoy…or else *busts out with a hypnotizing watch thingie*
Chapter 10: Inuyasha's Thoughts
Inuyasha lay on his bed berating himself for the hundredth time that day. He awoke that morning feeling guilty about how he had treated Kagome the other day and he was quite embarrassed also (secretly) for what he did. He sat up with an inward grumble at himself and crossed his arms. Glaring at the floor he began to think to himself.
You are such a fool Inuyasha…He thought. What made you in your right mind…how could you…what were you thinking?! He grumbled loudly and looked up at the ceiling as if it were to be some kind of help.
*~Flashback*~
He had gotten up late. He wasn't going to meet Kagome at her door. He got out of bed and dressed, Kagome would arrive soon. He had to be ready. At that thought he stopped dead in his tracks and sneered at nothing in particular.
"What the hell am I thinking?! I don't HAVE to be ready for anything!" He said aloud to himself. "Damn right."
With a sly smirk he took his sweet time in getting ready, going as slowly as he could. He was just tying the silk ribbon around his hair when he heard the door close. Before he knew what was happening he was out of his room and jogging down the long hallway. A choked breath escaped him and he stopped.
"Dammit!" He cried, punching a wall. "How in the hell am I supposed to NOT care about that stupid girl when every chance I get I feel as though I HAVE to see her!"
Because you DO care about her Inuyasha. You just wont let yourself accept it yet. A voice inside of his head said mockingly.
"SHUT UP! I DON'T HAVE TO LISTEN TO YOU, I KNOW ME AND THAT'S NOT ME! I WOULD NEVER FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT A…
Kikyou.
"Shut up."
Grumbling and feeling a bit pouty he grudgingly stomped his way down the never-ending hallway, trying to think of a way to vent.
Stupid girl…making me do such things…talking to myself for one…how the hell did I even get in this situation anyway?
His thoughts were interrupted by the sound of voices. By the Gods that little brat talked loudly!
"So…Kagome must be here all ready. Early today." He said as a smirk came to his face. He slowed his pace and listened intently to the conversation.
"Rin was thinking about Miss Kagome." Rin said.
Silence.
Dammit! He couldn't hear what Kagome was saying! "Figures the wench would speak quietly." He snorted but kept on eavesdropping.
"Does Miss Kagome like being with Inuyasha-sama?"
Inuyasha rolled his eyes. "And it would figure that a nosey little brat would ask such a question." He sneered, narrowing his eyes in annoyance. "I bet she's sputtering now, not even knowing how to answer."
He was so deep in thought that he didn't hear Rin's next question which surely would have sent him for quite a loop.
"Rin shall make the question easier for Miss Kagome." She said as she took Kagome's hand. "Miss Kagome loves Inuyasha-sama, ne?"
Inuyasha set off again still thinking. By the time they turned the corner and walked a few paces he would reach them. But he wasn't going to say anything he decided.
"Please 'scuse Rin, Miss Kagome." Rin said as she let go of her hand and started going down the hall in the wrong direction. "Rin must need to use bathroom."
This made him stop again and a sly grin came to his face. Surely Kagome was flustered by now and probably wasn't in her right mind. Good.
There she is. He thought as Kagome rounded the corner. His heart skipped a beat when he saw that she was staring at him and he began to get edgy. Could she tell that he had something planned? Could she see it in his eyes that he had mischief planned like his mother could tell? He swallowed but kept going, not noticing the glazed look in Kagome's eyes.
What the hell is she doing? Why hasn't she noticed me yet? Is she mad? She is staring right at me but she hasn't said a thing! They were a few feet from each other now and if he was going to try and make himself feel better through her embarrassment then he had to do it now. But he didn't understand why she hadn't noticed him. She was going to bump into him now.
Her eyes closed and her mouth opened. Inuyasha's eyebrows vanished beneath his bangs.
"Do I love-
Impact.
One of her hands went to her nose and rubbed at it as she tried to gain her balance and he suddenly snaked his arm across her waist, pulling her to his chest. Her eyes opened slowly and traveled up to his smirking face. Kagome's eyebrow twitched as he tightened his arm around her and his smirk grew into a broad smile.
"Good morning dear!" He cried in a high-pitched voice and wrapping his other arm around her waist giving her a good squeeze. This shall be as sweet as the candies Mother used to get me. He grinned evilly.
"Inuyasha…where did you go?" Kagome said with a blink, slightly surprised at this sudden show of affection.
"Somewhere…" He said quietly, nuzzling her neck. She closed her eyes and tilted her head upward with a breathless sigh.
"Somewhere?"
Her question was left in the air as Inuyasha pulled her closer and dipped his head and softly pressed his lips against the bare skin at her neck. She gasped and clung to him.
He hadn't meant for it to happen. What was he expected, what was supposed to happen was that he was supposed to kiss her neck and she was either to quickly pull away and be indefinitely embarrassed and go rushing off like a coward (thus making him feel better...) or quickly pull away and slap him. Nothing was supposed to happen to him. He couldn't feel anything for Kagome. But something happened.
When his lips met her skin he felt her muscles jump and he tried not to grin. He inhaled her sweet perfume and it registered in his brain that her skin was very soft, to his lips and face anyway, and it began to take a little bit of a toll on him. A very delicious feeling began burning in his loins and it sent a tingly feeling to his fingers. His ears began to tingle also as he trailed butterfly kisses along Kagome's neck and she paid no heed to her mind's objections, if there were any, and pushed herself against him. The little mewing sounds that bubbled from her drove him wild, but he wouldn't show it. It was going to be sheer power not to let Kagome see him losing his grip because of some measly moaning she did.
But it did make that oh so delicious feeling turn into an all out painful yearning. He had to stop his ministrations there or something might happen, and there wouldn't be anyone there to stop either of them, because neither of them would have wanted to stop anyhow.
He got himself somewhat under control and decided to give her a bit of a tease before he left, something for her to think about. She was slightly pulling back, as if she was going to pull away and scold him or something but he quickly diminished that thought by nipping her neck and then holding on lightly. Her startled gasp brought a small smile to his lips and he pulled away.
Heat rushed through him as she gave a whimper of protest at his sudden decision to stop. Get a hold of yourself old buddy…this is not the time to be…egad she's just as hot as I am…if not more… That thought brought a small smirk to his face as he put a gloved index finger over her lips and looked into her heated gaze.
"Shh…" He whispered. "I shall see you when it is time to leave. Rin is returning." With that he went down the hall and to the stairs as quickly as he could but trying not to look so. He had no idea that Rin was actually returning from her little bathroom break even though she had seen the last thirty seconds of their 'conversation'.
It had been a tough feat just to get down those many, many stairs in his 'condition'. "I am in definite need of a good cold-
"A cold?"
Inuyasha froze in his tracks and his eyebrow immediately twitched. He wasn't in need of that cold something anymore.
"Miroku…" He seethed not turning around.
"Yes my dear friend?" He said, appearing as if by magic next to him. "What were you doing up there, are you not supposed to be getting Miss Kago-
"She has all ready arrived." Inuyasha interrupted irritably.
"Hm…" Miroku said while he stared at his friend. They continued to walk down the stairs and finally when they reached the bottom Inuyasha couldn't take it anymore.
"Miroku. What in the HELL are you staring at?!" He cried, stopping and grabbing him by the shoulders.
"You have been coupling with Miss Kagome haven't you!" Miroku said with a large grin on his face.
Inuyasha's whole body gave one twitch and he stood there frozen, blue in the face.
"But it does seem that our young master has not been completely satisfied…does this mean that there were…interruptions?"
Inuyasha's eyebrow twitched again. "Mir-
"That look in your eyes gives it completely away!" Miroku laughed before being successfully thrown into a nearby room and locked in. "I say, this may be a bit childish don't you think?"
"If it'll keep your audacious comments from reaching my ears then so be it." Inuyasha grumbled stomping away.
"Oh dear. I may have put myself in a situation I may not be able to get out of." Miroku said dejectedly, slumping onto a corner as he blinked in the darkness. Suddenly the door opened and Miroku's eyes lit up, a mischievous smile quickly coming to his features.
Stupid Miroku…Inuyasha thought as he walked. He didn't really know where he was going and he didn't care at the moment. What does he know anyway? Kagome and I are nothing like that…who even says we…want to be?! I am still waiting for Kikyou…she will return! My hope has not lost for her! Kikyou…she's nothing like Kagome…and Kagome is nothing like her. How could I have mixed the two together? They have their similarities…but of course, Kikyou…with a face that looks as though it has years more than he true age…Kagome…the face of an angel…she's so bright…everything about her just makes me feel so…
"OW!" He cried as his shin bumped into something quite solid. Something so solid that it decided not to give when he bumped into it. "Dammit! Fucking bench!"
He had walked outside and into the garden, a little off from the maze where he was pretty sure his brother would most likely be at the moment but that didn't matter now. Inuyasha sat down on the bench and let his hands rest on the cool rock and leaned his back against the Weeping Willow that cried silently behind him.
Inuyasha sat and began to think. He began to think about everything he could think of, but it kept winding down to Kagome. He didn't know why and it was beginning to make him nervous.
Kikyou…how long has it been since I've seen you? It isn't fair that you just suddenly disappeared without my knowing! Where did you go? You must return to me! I thought I had lost you forever until I saw Kagome that day and-
Kagome…your smile all ways brightens my day. I don't know what it is…I…I cant describe how I feel…I am at ease when I'm with you, no matter what the circumstances. You…just have that calming affect on me. Do I really, truly, care for you like I do…Kikyou?
Wait..Kikyou…what if she were to return? No…if she has been gone this long…I do not think she shall return to me. Maybe she has found herself a rich husband somewhere far away and does not want to return to me. At that thought Inuyasha suddenly became a little sad. He sighed in defeat. Maybe she is happier without me, and that is why she deserted me. She had had it planned all along to leave me without saying a word. She ran off with another man, or to meet the other man. Kikyou…why could you not just tell me? Would I have not understood? Of course not, I am but a fool. I would have done anything to have made her stay with me. Selfish fool. That is why she left.
*Another flashback*
Inuyasha lay in bed, his silken sheets in a disarray and covered in sweat. Kikyou lay next to him, their arms wrapped around each other warmly, although she did not have a hint of sweat on her. Of course, nothing sexual had happened. Inuyasha was suffering the heat of having sheets on him for Kikyou's sake, for she was always cold. Even in the dead heat of a steaming July night did she become chilly. A breeze did not bless anyone that night and Kikyou had been cold.
Kikyou's eyes suddenly snapped open and she turned her head to the sleeping Inuyasha. His breathing was calm and slow and he didn't move when she removed her arms from him and his from her and slid out of his bed. In her nightgown she quickly hopped from his window and climbed swiftly down the vines along Sesshoumaru's exquisite mansion. When her bare feet touched the ground she took one last look up at Inuyasha's window and blew a soft kiss toward it.
"Goodbye, Inuyasha." She whispered before swiftly running through the garden, avoiding the many thorny rose bushes as possible.
She did not see the calm eyes of Sesshoumaru watching her as she seemingly ran for her life away from his home. He narrowed his eyes in suspicion and looked back at Inuyasha's open window. Did she not know that he toured his land every night? Apparently she did not, or did not care for she was running for her life.
Or, Sesshoumaru thought. Was she running from it?
Inuyasha did not discover her departure until he awoke the next morning. In a frantic fear he swallowed his pride and went to Sesshoumaru for help.
"Forget her, Inuyasha. She risks the thorns of a rose to leave behind the caress of the most caring lover."
At that moment, it had been from Sesshoumaru's words hitting him like a horse-drawn carriage, Inuyasha's heart broke.
*End Flashback*
Inuyasha sighed again. Kagome…
*~* ::sweatdrops:: Isn't Sesshoumaru so poetic? ^.^ ok this was not a good chapter. It didn't end the way I wanted it to. I think I got into a writers block right in the middle of it. It's also too short for me. But I think this is really all I could do for this chaper. ::sighs:: I'm disappointed. I wont be hurt if you don't review this one, its not some of my good work. Why do I post it you ask? Because I fear that you might hurt me if I didn't! :D and I really wanted to have chapter 11 out also with this but I ran out of time, I didn't want to keep you waiting any longer! It's cruel I know but chapter 11 should be up really soon I promise this time! Oh, and check out my updates on Under the Big Top..my circus story ^.^