Polaroid of Perfection
Chapter 2- Girl In The Mirror
I was sitting on my pink soccer quilt that was on my bed in my baby pink room strumming the notes to a song I was writing. I had no lyrics; I was working on that part now. My brother Taichi and I just got back from a very tiring, but fun, game of soccer in the park. Even though he's my brother, I feel like I have a special bond with him, that I don't have with my sister, Hikari, or even my best friends, Mimi, Yolie, Koushiro, or Yamato.
As I thought about my family, I realized how different to them I really was. Hikari had dark chocolate eyes that matched Taichi's so well. It seemed like they would be the twins not him and I. Me, I got red hair and pretty pale skin, my family has no idea where I get it from, but apparently someone had to look like me. Then my thoughts gradually went back to my song.
The tune to the song was sad, I don't know why though; my life is literally like a Polaroid of perfection. I have a loving mother, a fun father, Taichi my brother is Taichi there's no other way to describe him, and Hikari is just so awesome. I'm also not a social reject, I have plenty of friends; actually I have more than plenty of friends. I guess I feel that something is missing.
That's when I found out what.
"Knock Knock" my mother said as she opened the door to my room. I took my guitar strap off. I knew I wasn't going to get any inspiration anytime soon. To my surprise my dad followed. "Sweetie" my mother tried to suck up to me. That's when I knew they did something wrong, they never suck up to me, never.
"Well" my dad began "Umm and uhh... your mother has something to tell you" my father stuttered, trying to hide his inability to explain by saying my mom has something to tell me.
"Hun, baby... do you still have that picture of you with a young couple when your about 4?" my mother asks me
"Well yes I do... Why" I ask. I had no idea what that possible had to do with anything.
"Come here baby," my dad says. I sit in between them on my bed. I hold the picture.
"Well... you see that we always knew you would ask questions, like whose those people were, but we never thought you were ready but your 18 and in your last year of high school and we think you should know." My father continued to explain to me.
"So we decided we should tell you now" My mother took over explaining for my father "the lady in the picture is..." My mother got cut off by my siblings.
"Mom, tell Taichi not to hit me" Kari, my 15 year old sister yelled to my mom.
"Taichi... Stop hitting your sister" my mom threatened. She got up and left the room to deal with the problem, leaving my father and me alone. "So who is the lady?" I question, not sure if I wanted to know the answer.
"That's your mother," my dad says really fast, like he almost didn't want me to hear it.
"But that's not mom?" I half question, half state to my father.
"Yes I know... let me tell you a little story" My father replied.
FLASHBACK
"Sora... I want you to explain to me, what happened" I heard my wife explain to a little red headed girl. They sat down at the table; I was in the living room. I could see exactly what was going on. The little girl told an amazing story. One of a family, that became broken, and one of love and death. She said that her family was very close, and that her parents loved her very much, but then one-day things went very wrong. She said at that time she was four. Her father lost his job. He was so upset, that he resorted to drinking stuff. That stuff made him angry, and when he was angry he hit. He was an abuser. That went on for about a year. One day when she got home from kindergarten, she locked herself in her room. That annoyed her father, so he went to tell her to open the door. Her mother protected her, and in doing so ended her life. The little girl knew what happened so she left. She met this boy the next day. He wanted to help her, and he did. His family welcomed her with open arms to stay until they speak to her father. That night they got a hold of her father. He said take her he didn't give a shit about her. That's when the family adopted her. That story Sora is your story.
END FLASHBACK
"So my real father just gave me up..." I asked not really sure what to think.
"Well not exactly, he told us that he didn't want you but was going to fight us for you. He wanted to try and make it seem like he was a good person. We didn't say anything because we knew his evil would show through. The judge decided to give us custody, since you seemed very comfortable with us here." My father explained
"And you're just telling me now!" I yelled, extremely surprised
"Well..." My father stuttered to try and come up with an excuse.
"I hate you, I hate you so much... you lied to me, I hate you and I hate this family... get out, get out of my room!" I hissed with so much hatred that I didn't know was in me. What happened next I couldn't explain. It wasn't myself controlling my body.
I hit my father; I actually hit him. Then I realized I must have tried so much to escape my father yet I was just like him.
My father looked at me his deep chocolate eyes bore deep into mine. I could see the hurt that he felt, but he didn't do anything. I guess he didn't blame me for my actions. He just got up and left, leaving me to my thoughts.
I pulled out my guitar again. That's how I got things off my chest, by playing, coming up with songs. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I tried to stop myself from crying but I couldn't. Who was I? What was I really like? Have I always liked soccer? Does my life have any meaning? The one person who truly cared about me was gone.
"It's not fair," I yelled out loud to no one. That gave me my idea though.
"There's a girl in my mirror, I wonder who she is. Sometimes I think I know her. Sometimes I really wish I did" I paused for a moment to think, but continued right away.
"There's a story in her eyes, lullabies and goodbyes. When she's looking back at me, I can tell her heart is broken easily" I stopped singing because I heard a knock on the door.
"Yeah" I answer coldly figuring it was one of my parents. I begin to put my guitar away, when my 'Sister' came in.
"Yeah Kar" I ask
"Well I heard the yelling so I figured mom told you, and I figured that you need your sis to talk to," she answers meekly.
"Well I don't want to talk about it" I snap
"Yes you do, that's why Mimi and Miyako are here" Kari replies excitedly.
Mimi my best friend walked in. Her bight, pink her shown brightly in my pink room. Her Low light green pants showed off her legs, while her white half shirt showed off her stomach.
Miyako, or as her friends Called her Yolei was next to her. Her deep lavender hair shimmered in the light. Her glasses framed her face nicely. Her low pale green pants with a light red rim (not x-mas colors different shades!) didn't show off her legs as much as Mimi's but still flattered her. Her white tank was tight enough to show off her figure.
Hikari's short brown hair was pulled up into a pony. Her low pink pants were basically identical to Yolei's. Her sleeveless white shirt was also very flattering.
I don't even compare to them. There all so pretty and then you look at me. I'm the ugly duckling of the group. My low red pants, are just like Mimi's but in my opinion don't look half as good on me, even though Mimi begs to differ. My white halter-top in my opinion wasn't that flattering, but yet again Mimi would beg to differ.
"I'm Sorry Sora-Chan" Mimi began
"We still love you" Yolei continued,
"To us you will always be Miss Thang" Kari joked. I couldn't help but laugh as I pulled them all into a hug. They were all the best friends I ever had.
I couldn't help but think about my nickname. I was the most popular girl in school. All the guys wanted me, and the girls wanted to be me though I don't know why. I dated the hottest guy in school- Yamato Ishida, who everyone called Matt, but to his closest friends Yama-Chan. That gave me the nickname Miss Thang.
"I know that, but what does everyone else think. Does Tai-Chan still love me and what about Yama-Chan, and Mom and Dad" I question them. "Were all my dreams, hopes and beliefs they gave me false, they lied to me for 13 years, how can I trust them again."
"Well I think I know what you mean" Mimi began "It's like the time where my mom said I could get these really kawaii boots and then she said I couldn't, she lied then-"Mimi got cut off by me.
"Its not the same" I yelled
"Sora I know you were going to take this hard, I knew for like 3 years and did I stop loving you? NO" Kari began to raise her voice.
"Did Tai treat you differently... NO" Kari yelled
"And Sora so what the difference, only that your last name isn't Kamiya" Yolie adds.
"But its not the same" I snap
"You know what Sora, were only trying to help so just continue to be a bitch. I'm outta here." Yolie spat. She left the room and slammed the door. My auburn eyes began to fill up with tears. They crinkled up and I buried my head in my pillow and burst out crying.
"Sora its not your fault" Mimi trued to explain to me.
"You were there in her many hours of need like when she failed her history exam, when she went out with Ken even though her mom said no. You protected her. You twisted the truth, and you loved her, but when you needed love she failed. But we know she loves you. She's just not use to Miss Thang needing help. I'll go talk to her Sor... ok" Kari finished explaining. Kari got up and left the room leaving Mimi and me alone. Mimi then looked at me and turned to leave, she left the room in a hurry and that got me confused.
"This is being planned," I say aloud to no one in particular. I turned around to look at the door but saw no one.
"Great" I mumbled. "False hopes and dreams lead to a paranoid me." I turned my back to the door to get my guitar. I sat down and started to fix the strap. I had to get my mind off of this. I played the song I was writing but then stopped. I wasn't alone. I looked up and saw Taichi, my brother standing there just looking at me.
"What" I asked him
"Kari told me what happened" Taichi began "I will always love you Sor... Ok" Tai paused and saw that I wasn't looking at him. "Dammit Sora look at me" he yelled at me.
"I'm sorry Taichi, I never meant to hurt you," I scream through my sobs.
"Is ok" Tai whispers as he pulled me into a big hug to comfort me.
"Taichi... Tai- I love you so much... Thanks" I whisper. (That's strictly brother and sister, I just want to say that so I don't get myself in trouble)
"Your Welcome" he whispers back. He then leaves the room, leaving me to myself. I picked up my guitar and started from the beginning.
"There's a girl in my mirror. I wonder who she is. Sometimes I think I know her. Sometimes I really wish I did. There's a story in her eyes, lullabies and goodbyes. When she's looking back at me, I can tell her heart is broken easily. Cuz the girl in my mirror is crying out tonight and there's nothing you can tell her to make her feel all right. Oh the girl in my mirror is crying cuz of you. And I wish there was something, something I could do." I paused. I decided that should be the chorus. I then began again.
"If I could I would tell her not to be afraid. Cause the pain that she's feeling, the sense of loneliness will fade. So dry your tears and rest assured. Love will find you like before, and when she's looking back at me I know nothing really works that easily. Cuz the girl in my mirror is crying out tonight and there's nothing you can tell her to make her feel all right. Oh the girl in my mirror is crying cuz of you. And I wish there was something, something I could do. I can't believe its what I see. And that girl in the mirror the girl in the mirror... is me ohh is me. I can't believe what I see no... the girl in the mirror... the girl in the mirror, the girl in the mirror is me. Cuz the girl in my mirror is crying out tonight and there's nothing you can tell her to make her feel all right. Oh the girl in my mirror is crying cuz of you. And I wish there was something, something I could do." I finish the song. That made me realize that these hopes and dreams I have isn't really false. I accepted them, what makes it different. I will make sure they will not be forgotten. I'm with the people I love, and my life is the Polaroid of perfection.
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