well, here we are. ANd it's only the third day or something, so there's more to go. I think this is going to be my longest fic ever...xD well, i hope you enjoy this! now for answering questiosn:
ProcrastinatorGirl: I have read all 5 chapters so far. This is great stuff. I hope when I am finally able to submit fan fiction, it'll be comparable to this. My stories are sometimes good, sometimes not. Anyway, I love this story!
Rin: Don't sweat it, just write what you feel like. and submit fanfic soon! i look forward to reading it!
animeobsessed3191: It was quite a change, to see Raven from going to nurturing to cold and back again. I'm starting to enjoy it.
Some constructinve-ness: Uh... work on your grammer (or grammAR? Can't spell it!) a little. And love ya all and WRITE MORE SOON!
Rin: yea, i have to work on it. I guess i use a it too much slang when i talk. xD...well, thanks and btw, it's grammAR. dun worry, i can't spell either. Last time i spelled the number: TWO "TO" xD i'm a little psycho sometimes
mirsan4ever:hey nice job i was wondering if raven goes into her mind at all. get back to me please
Rin: well, i'm not planning to have Raven go into her mind...yet, but she will...kind of. but thanks for the encouragement.
Coolcatjas:Oh! SO close! LOL oh well. And for the song what about 'Beautiful In My Eyes' by Joshua Kadison or
'WHAT IF I SHOULD SAY I LOVE YOU' by Poco or 'I Think I Love You' by Mxpx
Rin: THANK YOU! yes, someone finally helps me with the songs! xD, not that those who didn't help aren't good supporters cuz y'all are great! but, Coolcatjas, i listened to 'Beautiful In My Eyes' and i LOVED it! i seriously think i'm going to use that in one of the chappies. that song is awesome! thank you so much!
disappearer/Syani: An interesting read. Wonder when will Raven be getting the flu?
Rin: Nah, i planned on having Raven get the flu, but it was all too hetic if she did. Think, one sneeze or something, and something blows up...still, good idea. it's like you could read my mind or something...
moo: an awesome story. i really hope he confesses soon:)
Rin: confessing for BB would take forever, Moo. But he will eventually, i just plan to make it flow into the right time.
Earth Blues Baby: Hey man I really dig this story! I hope you update soon! I love the BB and Rae fluff! Update soon please! Peace and rock on-
Earth Blues Baby
Rin: thank you. And don't worry, update shouldn't take me long unless i get grounded...but, anyway, i just wanted to say this. You used one of my favorite phrases! "Rock on" that's awesome! Well, rock on, back to ya! (what can i say? i'm seriously into rock)
Cole the Demon Hunter: Okay, bravo job! Keep up the good work. I'm interested in what happens, so update soon darnit! Okay, your form and style are really good, and I ran out of things to say so I'll give you a better review next chapter. L8r days!
Rin: Thanks! and don't worry, that review is good already. i appreciate it very much.
Beast Boy lay there at night, his eyes staring at the ceiling. The room was once pitch black, but since his eyes adjusted to it, he can see in the dark. Raven just practically told him how she felt about him. He felt slightly shattered but refused to believe it himself. It'll just take time, shouldn't it? Doubt started to fill his heart as he quickly shook it away.
But then again, what can he be for Raven? Better yet, what does he want to be for Raven?
I want to be the face you see when you close your eyesI want to be the touch you need every single night
I want to be your fantasy
And be your reality
And everything between
Beast Boy tightened his eye shut and the first image that flickered into his mind was Raven. 'Is this how Raven think of me when she close her eyes?' he thought. He couldn't sleep now; he needs her cool hand against his cheek and her soft singing. He wants Raven, and he wants Raven to need him.
I want you to need meLike the air you breathe
I want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every dream
The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you
I want you to need me
Like I need you
His eyes were completely shut yet sleep has not dawned on him yet. Every muscle was tense and slightly cramped now. It is definitely not lust that he's feeling, but then why does he want her so bad? He loves her, and all he wants her to do is to love him back.
I want to be the eyes that look deep into your soulI want to be the world to you
I just want it all
I want to be your deepest kiss
The answer to your every wish
I'm all you ever needHis picture of Raven centered into her eyes. Those dark blue eyes that sparkle like jewels, yet they never let you in – they're like ice – cold and forever staying that way. But Beast Boy wants to soften those eyes, to hold her…and perhaps even kiss her if that'll do.
I want you to need meLike the air you breathe
I want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every dreams
The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you!
I want you to need me
'Cause I need you
More than you could know
And I need you!
To never, never let me go
And I need to be deep inside your heart
I just want to be everywhere you are
"Raven," he whispered. He knows her heart is cold, and he wants to be the one…to heal it. He wants to be near her more than anything else. He murmured her name out loud once again; the name was sweet on his lips.
I want to be the face you see when you close your eyesI want to be the touch you need every single night
I want to be your fantasy
And be your reality
And everything between
I want you to need me Like the air you breatheI want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every dreams
The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, IT'S YOU!
I want you to need me,
Like I need you….
But will she? Will she let him near her heart, whether she will or not, he's not giving out without a try. He's tried to heal her heart before after Malchior broke it, and somehow it drew them closer. Now, if she'll let him in all the way…
Raven stood by the living room doorway hearing her name being called out softly. Her heart thudded like drums. She placed her hand slowly on her cheeks and felt the blush that rose underneath her pale skin. Her lips were pursed together and her legs felt weak and her head feel weightless.
'No,' she thought in her head. She kneeled down knowing that the changeling wouldn't gather up enough energy to walk were she is now. Her heart pounded loudly, she could've sworn anybody could hear it. Even all the way to Azarath, although it is quite hard to get anywhere near Azarath if you do not know where the location is.
Her shoulder shook violently as she tried to calm the goosebumps that rose on her skin. She forced herself to calm down as she felt her power slowly slip from her grasp. Immediately, she urged herself to put her power back together. 'Like fitting pieces onto a puzzle,' she thought.
Still, her heart pounded…can this really be?
Beast Boy heard someone outside the living room. 'Raven,' he thought. Did she hear him when he spoke her name out loud? He prayed that she didn't and finally turned on his back and fell asleep.
The light spilled into the curtain-less room where Beast Boy slept. He opened his eyes slowly remembering how Raven ran out on him. He couldn't blame her, he did move on a little too fast. 'Great I screwed up and it's only been three days,' he sighed. How is he ever going to tell her? Still, fear and worry ached wonderfully in his heart. If Raven going to reject him? He doesn't want to know; perhaps he's never going to tell her just to keep that fear far away from him.
"Remember, Beast Boy, you promised." Robin's voice rang loudly in his head.
"Since when have I promised you anything?" he muttered angrily under his breath. To avoid talking to himself and his vivid imagination, he got up. Then it dawned on him; he was no longer ill. He smiled. "I guess that means I can eat now."
Something reached Raven's nose. Something that smelled like something is on fire. Immediately, her eyes flashed open. The Tower is on fire! Quickly, she pulled on her cloak and practically flew out the door. The living room door opened and grey-black smoke exits the place.
"Beast Boy," she grumbled. "I'm going to dismember you."
Beast Boy stood there apparently freaked out by the burning frying pan. Getting the fire extinguisher, Raven aimed it at both the frying pan and Beast Boy. Her eyes narrowed angrily at the changeling. "Uh…surprise?" he managed a smile. Raven frowned. Whatever he was cooking made a displeasing sound. After a long pause from the sound it made, it exploded on both Raven and Beast Boy and half the room.
"Yea, some surprise." Raven retorted bitterly as she scanned the now burnt-food-covered room. "Just great." Away from Raven's view, Beast Boy sighed and slapped himself for his own stupidity.
Silence groped the area whiled the clean. Beast Boy focused on his part and often glanced back at Raven who worked silently and angrily at her work. Beast Boy sighed again. 'Great, I just screwed up…AGAIN!' he hung his head down. 'She'll never like me now.' Out of frustration, he threw down clanging it against the pail of water he had next to him. The pail rattled dangerously as it curved to the side and seemed to have stopped. Beast Boy held his breath. 'Don't fall, don't fall!' he begged mentally. As if it was working to his will, it stopped. He let out a breath of relief. Then to his horror, it slid to the side and spilled.
"DAMMIT!" he cried out. Instantly, he covered his mouth and looked over to Raven who seemed undisturbed about his outburst. Raven then stood up and turned around.
"Are you done?" she asked. Beast Boy looked around his foot where soapy water collected. His blurry reflection made him sigh. "You need help?"
"You're done with your part, and this was my fault anyway." Beast Boy murmured. "I'll clean it up." He bent down and picked up the cloth he used. She felt her hand on his forehead.
"You're not sick anymore," she said flatly. "That's good. If you still were, this would've been harder." It was almost unnoticeable in her voice, but she was being kind during her moment of anger. "I guess, we're done." Raven sat down on the couch. "So, what do we do now?"
Beast Boy played with his thumb while he thought. "I heard there was a fair in town. Since we're off on vacation and the Titans East got it covered, I guess we can go there." He then added, "Well, if you want to go, that is. 'Cause if you don't want to, we can always…"
"Let's go." Raven decided.
"Really?" he smiled in surprise.
"Better than hearing you talk for hours," she said heading for her room.
"Where are you going?" he asked.
"To change." Raven replied. "I'm not going into a fair looking like a Titan. You should do the same." Beast Boy nodded and went into his room.
Raven came out wearing a black sweatshirt, a dark blue shirt underneath, and slick black pants. Beast Boy came out wearing a white T-shirt with a black jacket and baggy jeans. Raven tried her best not to comment on his outfit for trying to look…"in".
"Let's go." Raven said. "And to save you from further embarrassment, your flies' unzipped."
hey, i hope y'all like this! if you have any songs, i'm still open for it! xD. well, r&r and all of you guys ROCK! thank you so much for actually taking time out to read this! i love y'all! see ya!
Rin