So. On the first night,
somewhere a pebble fell to the world.
So. On the second night,
from the pebble depicted a waltz.
Sound life
So. On the third night,
from the waltz, a wave hits the surface of the earth.
So. On the fourth night,
the wave splashes on the riverbank.
Sound life…
Vash quietly stopped, as he sat on top of the roof, quietly contemplating. Looking up at the stars, he sighed miserably.
"You haven't been gone more than a week, and already I miss you so much…"
Why was it her? How did this happen? I really can't remember….
It just happened…
Were did I go wrong?
How can someone affect me this much?
I remember the first time I started feeling something for her but I can't remember exactly when it got so strong, the first time I realized it was when I defeated Knives and came back, when I saw her I felt relieved to see her. Millie was the first to run up to me, embracing me in a quick hug and a warm smile she took my brother into the house. Meryl came up to me, I expected a smile or even a warm embrace like Millie had done, but instead she extended her hand, I looked at it, feeling a bit disappointed, but smiled and shook it. I remember how soft her hand felt in mine, and decided, for some strange reason to hug her, of course she was shocked, but I felt relieved when she relaxed and didn't back up or hurt me, instead she hugged me back. That's when I realized that I felt something for her... and she must of felt something for me, we stayed like that for a long time, not saying a word to each other, I don't know how it really happen, but we started inching together, and I kissed her, her lips felt so soft against mine…
Looking down Vash inched his knees towards his chest, feeling something on his face he touched it, surprised at the tears he had wiped off his cheeks, had he been crying?
He smiled sadly, laughing quietly under his breath, maybe it was better this way… maybe he didn't deserve her, she would find someone else in her life, marry and eventually have children. She would live on with ought him, he would only bury his misery into her soul deeper, she's suffered enough and it was all because of him. Looking up at the blackened sky, he closed his eyes as he faced the sky, tears streaming down his cheeks,
'She's too good for me….she'll always be too good for me…'
Tears fell onto his prosthetic arm as he looked at it, bringing it towards his face, watching as he motioned his prosthetic hand to move in a circular motion,
"And yet…. I can't go on with ought her, she's my lifeline…"
He looked up as he fell backwards, gazing at the stars he started to feel everything around him fade into nothing,
"Rem… am I wrong…. To love her? …am I being selfish?"
He gently closed his eyes as he felt the cool winds caress his cheeks,
"Vash! Your brother!"
"Shhh don't worry Meryl I won't let anything happen to you or
Milly,"
"I know… but… Promise me…"
"…………..I promise"
"………….."
"Do you love me Vash?"
"Of course,"
"No Vash, I mean, do you really love me?"
"Don't ask silly questions that you already now the answer to Meryl."
"…….."
………….
"Vash! Please trust me! Vash!... Ho Vash…how can I help you heal if you wont let me in?"
'Meryl?...'
I woke up groggily, the morning light was sprayed my face lightly, watching as the suns rose, I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes stopping momentarily.
'I keep having these dreams… why? A few promises I made……"
I stopped as I realized what I had said, how could I had been so stupid? Promises I made, but never kept…..
I promised to never lie…
But I failed, when I would leave to the tavern and said I was going to a job I never had.
I promised to always be there for you…
But I failed, because I really was never there for you, I was never really at home,
I promised you we would talk….
But I failed, I never really realized until now how important this was to you.
I promised to protect you…
But failed when I would leave you alone with Knives when he was still acting strange.
I told you I loved you…
But I was never specific enough, I really never thought those words were important, but now I realize…
I was scared… of what would happen if you would of said yes…
But I can say it now, I truly know now we were meant to be together, now that I feel I know what you meant, Meryl, the only words you really wanted to hear, how could I have been so blind? I could try to force myself into denial and say I didn't, but what good would that do? If I don't give it a chance then I will never find out if we were really meant for each other… five simple words…
He smiled, as he ran of the roof,
I love you Meryl Stryfe…
And I'm not about to loose you…